September 30, 1944

(Letters 1 & 2 apparently lost)

Letter no. 3                                                                                                                   “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
30-9-44

My Dear Harold,

Another week has passed since I wrote to you, and it is now the last day of September. How is California looking in the fall?  I hope you will write and tell me what you are doing at home, and how everyone is. You might, sometime, tell me more about your family, as apart from saying it was large you have never really given me a mental picture of them.  I hope to have the pleasure of meeting them some-day, but in the meantime you could go into a little more detail about them.

Of course, I have not had any more letters from you since you left as I expect they will take several weeks to come; as soon as you know where you will go when your leave is finished, please let me know, as otherwise I shall continue to write to this address causing some delay, and also some inconvenience to who-ever has to forward them to you.

I had a very cheerful letter from Tommy this week – to quote his own words – “As for me, I am doing pretty good. I am getting physiotherapy. They give me heat treatments and massage on my arm. I have pretty good use of my remaining fingers, but cannot bend my wrist. This will come about in time. I still am blind in my right eye, but that will clear up sometime soon. Anyway, all I need is one eye to chase the nurses and the girls – wolf, as usual.”  From that, I gather his morale is definitely  good. I have not managed to see him yet, but he is still worrying his doctor about a pass to London, so hope I shall before he goes.

Bishop Stortford is looking pretty deserted right now. The remaining G.I.s are supposed to be clearing out today, and I spent a great deal of my time trying to console the girls they left behind them.

I went to Long’s last Saturday night, and was very pleased to be able to make a proper apology to Cpl. Wojuick – do you remember the Saturday evening then you came in to town with Lt. Thompson, and the rather embarassing moment when Cpl. Wojuick turned up as well?  He was awfully sweet about the whole thing, and assured me that he quite understood and I wasn’t to worry about it. So now I feel my conscience is clear.

It’s been fairly quiet here this week my usual round of NFS duties; on Wednesday Moreen and I  took ourselves to the show to see “Welcome, Mr. Washington”. The story was built round the invasion of a peaceful English village by a mob of G.I.’s, and having ourselves helped a little to promote Anglo-American relationships, we took quite a personal interest in it, and enjoyed it very much. The only point  which worried us  was a Lieut. who wore the Air Corps badge on his sleeve, and also the castle of the engineers – surely that was incorrect, wasn’t it?

My bicycle is U.S. again. I’ve not been doing things with it like you did, but the cable brake has snapped. So I’m rather handicapped this weekend, while it is under repair, and shall have to walk everywhere. As it happens, it is my weekend duty at the Fire Station, and I have to go on at 6.30 this evening, so I could not go gadding off to Long’s tonight in any case. There is to be no relaxation of duty in the National Fire Service – not that I had expected any! We are still being pestered with flying bombs around here; one this week fell in a village three miles from your old camp, doing some damage but causing no casualties.  I bet that had some of the boys out of bed!

By the way, does American grammar vary from English very much? Only one of the things we never do is to split an infinitive, but I notice you do so quite frequently.

The moon is almost full now, and that reminds me of the camp parties.  Even though it may shine bigger and brighter over California, we still share the same old moon, don’t we?

Got to go now, so good bye, darling.

Yours,
Joan.

October 8, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no 4                                                                                                      Sawbridgeworth
Herts    ENGLAND
8th October, 1944

My dear Harold,

According to my calculations this will not reach you before 4th November, so let me begin by wishing you a very happy birthday; I have no idea where you will be, but no doubt your precious leave will be over, and you will be fully occupied serving your country again. I should very much like to be with you, but if that’s impossible you may be sure my thoughts will be with you.

At last I have your picture before me as I write; it’s quite good of both of us, and dad is congratulating himself on the excellent photography. Personally, I consider the subjects contribute largely to the success of the picture, but you shall judge for yourself; as soon as I can get some more prints taken off, I will send them on to you.

I hope my letters are not taking too long to get through: I’m hopeful, because Moreen had one from Roland’s mother (Windsor, N.Y.) which only took 12 days.

I cycled over to Bps. Stortford to see Moreen this morning, and returned laden with American magazines to peruse and study at my leisure. I have to keep in touch some way, now that the 9th Air Force has removed to the continent, and I have to learn American spelling. Very often it is more reasonable than ours, I find. I’ve seen a good deal of Moreen recently, as you can imagine, since Roland departed, fortunately leaving her still single. We went to the cinema once during the week to see Betty Grable in “Pin-up Girl”. This afternoon she is coming over here to tea, and soon I shall have to go and meet her.

I have not heard from Tommy this week; I wonder if perhaps he is on his way home now.

You’ve never seen an English autumn, have you? It’s no more spectacular than the rest of our seasons, but it’s soft and mellow, with occasional bursts of sunshine which light up the yellows and reds in the hedgerows. Sometimes it’s lovely.

You were extremely optimistic about the flying bombs; as we sat listening to the radio yesterday evening they were still rattling over. Occasionally too, there are mysterious explosions for which there has been no official explanation, so it’s not exactly quiet here yet.

I had better go and meet Moreen now, as there is very little news to impart. So for this week I’ll say, goodbye darling. I’m hoping to get a letter from you soon, but I’m being very patient as you can’t rush these mails.

Yours,

Joan

(this letter was tucked inside a birthday card)

November 3, 1944

                                                                                    “Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
LETTER NO 5                                                                                     Sawbridgeworth, Herts
ENGLAND
3rd November, 1944

My dear Harold,

It is several weeks since my last letter, because I have been waiting to hear from you and hoping to have a new address to which I could write. But since I have received no letters from you yet I had to write to say I am missing you as much as ever; perhaps it is fortunate that we did not meet more frequently while you were here, or it would have been worse.

There is an NFS dance at Longs tonight, and it reminds me of the last NFS dance we went to, when we deserted the dance-hall and patronized the Officer’s Club instead; But it is a typically November night – drizzling cold, and with a hint of fog – so I shall not attempt to get to Longs tonight.  Last Friday the whole gang of us stormed Long’s together, but the dance was not a great success. All the familiar faces have gone, and it seems quite strange now.

Moreen and I still attend the local cinema together once a week, and this week we saw a very good English film “THIS HAPPY BREED”.  The previous week we saw “The Song of Bernadette” – a very good film, but spoilt occasionally by the French peasants who would use American expressions. (Even so, it was rather nice to hear American voices again!)

I hope someone will be good enough to forward this letter on to you, as I understand from one of the girls at the Fire Station that Air Mail letters from California may take as long as a month to come; so if you are still using up your 2 1/2 d stamps I guess I’ll have to be very patient. But please, Harold, if for any reason you should decide you do not wish to continue to write to me, do let me know.

I have not heard from Tommy for a long time now, so presume he is back in the States now. I have his home address so that one day after the war, if I get the opportunity, I can go and visit him.

We had an NFS social a fortnight ago and Moreen came over and stayed with me Saturday night. Sunday morning we walked to a little church about 1 1/2 miles away~ incidentally, I much prefer a service in a small church. Then after lunch we caught a ‘bus to Epping (8 miles away), but were unable to get in the cinema so went to church again. But I wished you could have been with me.

With the girls in the office I went to a wedding service in Thursday lunch-hour when one of our typists married a boy from Oakland, Calif.

Tomorrow is your birthday, and I have already sent my best wishes which I hope arrived in time; but I’ll be thinking about you, darling.

Until I hear from you,

Yours,
Joan

November 12, 1944 (2)

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 6.                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts.
England
Sunday, 12th November, 1944

My dear Harold,

I was very pleased to receive your letter of  the 12th October yesterday, and I hope that when you arrived at Arroyo Grande at least one of my letters was waiting to welcome you. The intervening nine weeks between your letter of 10th September and the one I received last night seemed an awful long time, but I realised that I could not expect to hear sooner. Your letter took 30 days, which seems to be quite reasonable now.

The only news since my letter of last weekend is of a wedding. Saturday evening I was informed that I was to be in B/S at 9.30 Sunday morning to witness a marriage between Moreen and Sgt. Ransom of 497th Squadron; as you know the boys are now in France, just outside Paris, and Roland managed to fly over for the weekend and as soon as he had gotten a wife he had to fly back. I understand he was with Lt. Shehan, and a few others.

The wedding was very quiet; only her mother and father and I were present and after the Registry office ceremony we all went to church.  The B26 took off Monday morning, so it was a very short honeymoon, but even that would have been impossible if the weather had been better.

You said in a previous letter that you would answer any queries I might have; so perhaps when you have time you might endeavour to explain the difference between the Democrats and the Republicans, and what difference it might have made to the progress of the war if Governor Dewey had been elected President. I can’t find anyone here who seems to know much about it.

There’s been no news of Tommy for a long time now, so I guess he has gone home too. It is beginning to get cold here now – I’m afraid winter will soon arrive, but we seem to get better weather than they do in France.

Until next time, still thinking of you,

Joan

November 19, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 7                                                                                                    Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
19th Novermber, 1944

My dear Harold,

There’s very little news since last week; N.F.S. has kept me fairly busy in my “spare” time, and my assistant at the office is away sick, so I have been well occupied there too.

There was my usual telephone duty on Monday, and again Saturday; Thursday was drill night, and on Wednesday I went to play ping-pong and darts for the NFS against a local works team.  That left Tuesday night free to go to the Regent cinema with Kathleen to see “The White Cliffs of Dover”, the story of an American girl who married an Englishman, losing her husband in the last war and her son in this one. It’s a very good film, rather pathetic, and unusually for me I felt quite weepy, especially when they played the ‘Star-Spangled Banner’.

Mum and dad have gone off to London today, and left my brother to my tender mercies; anyway it’s two hours since lunch, and he is still surviving! Is that any recomendation?

In one of my earlier letters I mentioned mysterious explosions which occur day and night in this locality, and as you probably have seen by now, the official explanation is “Rockets”. Do you recall how some weeks ago Moreen and I attended our small village church; the following week a rocket fell in a field behind it, damaging the windows of the church, but causing no casualties.

I wonder where you will be by the time this letter reaches you. Until I get another military address I shall have to continue to write to Arroyo Grande, and I expect they will catch up with you eventually.

So for this week it is just, goodnight darling,

Yours,
Joan

PS. What is the origin of the expression “LIMEY”, as applied to an Englishman?

November 25, 1944

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 8.                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts.
ENGLAND
25th November, 1944

My dear Harold,

Yesterday I received your letter of the 20th October, which was exactly five weeks in transit. Owing to my, perhaps unfortunate, habit of numbering my letters you will see that for several weeks I neglected to write; this was entirely due to my mistaken assumption that by the time my letters arrived you would be gone again. However, I am very sorry, and in view of the p.s. to your letter I will continue to write to Arroyo Grande until I have your new military address.

My social activities have been seriously curtailed this last week, on account of a very English winter cold, and each evening I have dragged my-self home from work and almost straight to bed. I even missed going to Fire Service.

But I am beginning to take fresh interest in life again today, and I may even go over to visit Moreen this evening.

I do not know if I told you much about my work although I may have said I was doing invoice – typing whereas I began as a shorthand-typist. As one of our girls is leaving soon (having married a boy from Oakland,) I have been given the opportunity to go back in their office as secretary to the managing director, Major Leech. Unfortunately this is promotion over the heads of some other girls, and it is the Senior typist’s job, so I may have some difficulties at first.

However, in my spare time I am polishing up my shorthand and hoping for the best; everyone says he is a very difficult man to work for, but I imagine his bark is worse than his bite. It is a chance I could not refuse. At the moment I am teaching my job to another girl, but I am longing for the chance to get a notebook in my hands again!

It’s been quite noisy here recently; flying bombs by night and rockets by day, but one seemed to dislodge a brick in our chimney today and we are hoping it will now cease to smoke. It’s an ill wind…..

So til next week, goodbye now,

Yours,
Joan

December 1, 1944

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 9.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England
1st December, 1944

My dear Harold,

Thank you for your letters; I received two this week, one posted at Santa Monica on 3rd November, on Tuesday, and the one from Pasadena postmarked 31st October on Wednesday. They probably both came over together but were delivered at different times.  Letters to England seem to take anything from 3 to 5 weeks; how do mine arrive?

I am sending this letter to Kansas, in the hope that you will be based there long enough to receive mail.

Your description of Santa Monica was very vivid, but I wished I could have been under one of the large blue umbrellas with you.  Do you think that perhaps some day we might visit there together, so that I could see for myself? Aprés la guerre? There’s so much I want to see.

In my letter last weekend I explained that I was being given promotion in the office; this past week I have been occupied teaching my job to another girl, who will take it over next week when I go to learn my new work. Meanwhile I have been polishing up my shorthand in my spare moments.

Since Saturday , when I wrote last most of my time has been spent at the Fire Station; Saturday evening my cold kept me at home, Sunday & Monday I did duties at the station, and Thursday I went “on parade”, when we did squad drill and hydrant drill by the light of a full moon.

Wednesday evening Moreen and I went to the cinema, choosing Bing Crosby in an old film “Pennies from Heaven”, rather than “Cover Girl”, which Moreen had seen.

Tomorrow night Pat is throwing a party, to which I have been invited, but I had already planned to go to the N.F.S. Annual divisional dance at Hertford (12 miles away). Transport is being arranged, so I expect that means an exercise will be fixed to call us out!

I do not know if you had Tommy’s address; I would like to know that he got home, and if the baby arrived safely, but I don’t like to write. Maybe if you got time, you might drop a line to him; the address I have is – 392 Center St., Manchester, Conn. I got his address, so I could visit him when I come to the States.

Do you remember Lt. Douel in 494th? – he was one of Moreen’s friends. He has not completed his missions yet, and was over here before you; I met one of his crew in town on convalescent leave, it seems they were shot up.

Have you any idea how long you will be in Kansas? Do they keep you busy again?

‘Til next time,

With my love
Joan

December 8, 1944

                                                                                    “Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 10                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts
ENGLAND
8th December, 1944

My dear Harold,

This week seems to have passed very quickly, most probably because I have been busy at the office.  On Monday I went into the Typist’s office for a fortnight’s tuition in the work I am going to do, and after three days work with Margery her husband turned up and she has gone off and left me to manage by myself until Monday. Consequently I have had to find my own way around, but it’s not been too bad and I guess I shall prefer this sort of a job when I have “gotten” settled.

There has been no mail from you this week, but posts will probably be more erratic than ever when it gets near Christmas.

Since I wrote last week I’ve been to two dances; one last Saturday at Hertford, which was frightfully “NFS’, and consequently not very exciting.  The second one, on Tuesday, was definitely more thrilling in an unexpected way. You remember where we met? I went over with Pat, Pam Mary and the rest to an enlisted men’s dance, only on the other side, if you get where I mean. I’d never been there before. Then between two dances, the place shook and the glass fell out of the windows near which we were standing.  A flying bomb had been shot down and landed 50 yards (or a couple of blocks) away from the dance hall.  The medics with whom we were dancing were called out but casualties were slight. It was rather fortunate for us that it exploded before it hit the ground. Otherwise the dance was quite a success.

Last night of course was NFS.  In spite of it being a pitch dark night, we went out to do squad drill.  I intended to go to the cinema tonight with one of the girls from the office, but it decided to pour with rain, so we changed our minds. Maybe I’ll go tomorrow. So instead I’m staying at home to write my weekly letter to you, and finish a pair of gloves I am knitting.

I have not seen Moreen since Sunday last, when she came over to tea. Our engagements seem to have clashed this week, and I spent Wednesday evening at home instead of dashing off to the cinema with her.

By the time you receive this most probably we will be into 1945, so with this I send my very best wishes for the coming year; wherever you go my thoughts will be with you and my prayers for you.

Goodnight,

With my love,
Joan

(this letter was enclosed with a Christmas card)

December 12, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 11                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts
ENGLAND

12th December, 1944

 My dear Harold,

I was very pleased yesterday to receive your letter, presumably the first from Kansas; I do hope that by now my letters are reaching you more regularly, they really should not take six weeks by Air mail.

However, I am delighted that you do not forget, even if my letters are slow to reach you.  I sincerely hope that the distance we are apart will not alter our feelings for each other, but of course that will be more difficult for you because there is nothing about Kansas to remind you of me.  Here I can recall the various places in which we have been together, and even my daily cycle ride to Bps. Stortford has memories of you.  Sometimes, I feel you could be still “sweating it out” over at the camp – you seem so near to me at times.

You’ve been gone now about as long as we knew one another while you were stationed here, and I’ve realized since you left how very much I care for you. I wish I could be with you right now. But I’m looking ahead as far as possible, and planning for the trip I am going to take to join you, as soon as it is possible. Please bear that in mind.

It’s impossible to foresee the future I know, and I quite realise that things may not work out right for us. But let’s see how we feel aprés le guerre – I feel pretty confident about it.

Please, darling, be patient if my letters get delayed. I’ll keep writing as we said we would. Soon I hope to send you the pictures that dad took of us in the summer.

Of course, I wasn’t at all bored by your letter. I’m interested in everything that concerns you, and sometime I want you to tell me more about each individual member of your family.  You know all mine – it’s not very large – and you know my environment and background.

As I sit here this evening to write to you we have had two flying bombs go over, spluttering a lot, sounding pretty low. But judging by the explosions they fell quite a few miles away. In my last letter – Friday- I told you about the flying bomb which disturbed our dance last Tuesday. Tuesday seems an unlucky night!

Last night I had to work rather later than usual, so I went straight from the office to see “Fanny by Gaslight” a frightfully English film, in the 1870-80 period. I enjoyed it, with my ‘limey’ sense of humour, but probably you would not have done so.

Last Sunday Moreen came over as usual, and we walked to the farm where Kathleen lives, in time for tea (Again, very English).  But it just poured with rain, and by the time we arrived there after a two-mile walk, we were drenched.  Moreen is very much the married woman now, although she gets along to Longs occasionally.  I don’t often go now; it is too much trouble in the winter when it is either cold or wet, and the roads are sometimes slippery with ice.

Some mornings I have to go to work very cautiously, as it is still dark, and the roads are often iced over.  Recently it has taken to raining during the day and freezing at night, consequently the roads are treacherous by morning.

My work is going fairly well; of course it’s rather confusing at first – I seem to be in charge of so many different things, but I guess I’ll settle down.  The trouble is everyone wants something different done at the same time, and in addition to this, as senior typist, I’ll be expected to keep order in the Typists’ office. Oh, you don’t know the typists! Can you imagine me in the role of disciplinarian, keeping order etc?  It will be good training.  Some days I am in a flat spin; especially the days when several people will give me shorthand notes guaranteed to keep me occupied for hours, and then the Major, who is supposed to be my chief consideration, will turn up and I’ll have to drop everything to be at his beck and call.  Still, it’s all in a day’s work.

I’ve rambled on a lot this evening, mostly about nothing at all, but I chiefly wanted to assure you that I am still thinking of you. I am concerned that my letters take so long, but there are a few previous to this, as you will see by the numbers, which should reach you sooner or later.

I’d be glad of any news of Tommy and his family, if you should hear from him. Remember me to him, and say I am still hoping to visit him one day.  I was hoping you would come with me, but he doesn’t know that.

So now, ’til next time, it’s just goodnight, my darling.

As always,

Yours,
Joan

December 17, 1944

Letter no. 12

17th December, 1944

My dearest,

I am not at all sure that we are allowed to send Air letters to U.S. Forces – I know it is permissable to our own boys – but I am going to risk it and send this one, as I have a feeling they may get priority over ordinary air-mail letters; I do hope by now you have received quite a batch of my letters, as you see this is the 12th.

I sent an ordinary air mail letter off to you during the week; I’ll be interested to know which you receive first.

I have a lot of Christmas correspondence to attend to this afternoon; if the weather does not change during the week it is not going to be at all seasonal.  There’s no reason to look forward to Christmas this year – really wish I could be spending it with you – but we will have several days off from work, and that in itself is plenty to be pleased about.

I’m kept pretty busy at work just now; probably because it is new and strange to me. Margery has left us now, and I have taken over her job, and a lot of things I have to figure out for myself. Still it is interesting, and time goes much quicker than it used to.

Don’t take me too seriously if I tease you about your spelling or grammar etc., because in my job I have to be able to express myself in decent English; especially so when the Major hands me a postcard and merely says “Acknowledge this, and tell him I’ll go.”

I was at Longs last night; the rest of the girls turned up too, so we were quite a jolly crowd, Pat, Pam, Mary, Moreen and the rest. There’s still a few G.I.s around, but it’s not nearly as crowded as it was in the summer.

On Friday we went to the Cinema and saw ‘Phantom of the Opera’.  Thursday I was at Fire Service as usual, and on Wednesday I went in to have tea with Moreen.  We sat around the fire with our needlework and gossiped away for hours, while her father and mother were at the Cinema.  It was so foggy that night that  I did not risk cycling home, but stayed with Moreen.

There’s a stack of letters and Christmas cards I’ll just have to attend to so this will be rather briefer than usual. Very little has happened since I wrote last Tuesday, anyway.

So ’til next time, it’s just goodbye now.

With love,
Yours,  Joan

December 23, 1944

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 13                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts
ENGLAND
23rd December, 1944

My dear Harold,

I have had two letters from you this week to answer: one yesterday dated the 19th Nov, and a later one received last Monday dated 3rd December. Still you do not seem to have received many of my letters, although your letter of December 3rd arrived in 15 days.

I wonder if I received the news of the safe arrival of Ann Elizabeth, a daughter born to Lt. and Mrs. Eccles on 19th November, before you.  The card came from Tommy with your letter yesterday, so apparently he arrived home in time for the happy event.  I’m so glad he got back safely.

24th December, 1944

Unfortunately I did not get very far with your letter yesterday but will finish it this morning.

I’m glad there is some consolation for you in bad weather, though I’m not sure it is altogether pleasant to be associated with dismal things.  English weather is running true to form, and this past week there has been a blanket of thick fog, night and day, so that one evening I was sent home from work before it became dark!  But now it is Christmas Eve, and the weather shows signs of a seasonal change; it is much colder, there is a bitter north wind and a white frost but no snow yet.

Christmas here is a family celebration – most folks stay home Christmas day, I expect it is the same with you.  Moreen and I usually trip backwards and forwards between her home and mine, I think we shall do that this year. We have a four days’ clear break from work, returning on Wednesday morning. We also keep Boxing Day, the day following Christmas day, but I believe you celebrate New Years day instead; it is supposed to be so named because on the day following Christmas the postman, milkman, baker etc., would call for their Christmas boxes or gifts. I wonder how long it will be before we are able to share Christmas.

Referring to the matter you mentioned in your letter, I suppose our two countries do not vary greatly in this respect; everywhere there are certain formalities and conventions which people conform to or ignore, according to their upbringing or preference.  Wartime has done a great deal to break down some of the traditional conventions in this country, even more so than in yours I imagine.

In the matter of dress for instance, before the war no girl would dream of turning up in the office without stockings, and certainly not in slacks.  Now I do both, but I’ll find it rather difficult to return to more formal habits, though I suppose I could if it were necessary.

As for dressing for dinner, at home we have never considered it necessary.  In my home it would not be required, and you would always be welcome to remove your coat; there might be exceptional circumstances when we entertained people who did that sort of thing, but personally I’d prefer to entertain the more informal people.

As for formal weddings, I hope we need not do that; I’m rather afraid it would spoil my enjoyment of the whole occasion.  There again, in wartime England these functions have had to be informal owing to the food and clothes rationings.  Perhaps I’m suffering from more than five years’ experience of war, but I know I’m happier doing things the quiet way.

I agree that for two people to live happily together there should not be great differences in their ideas and ways of living, and also that you cannot expect a person to change greatly once they are matured.  I don’t expect you to change at all, I hope to be able to accept you as you are. That is why it will be a great help for us to exchange ideas now in preparation for the time when we meet again, then we should have foundations on which to build our greater knowledge of one another.

But you must remember I shall be coming to a strange country, and in many ways it will be for me to adapt myself to your ways of living. If you can by your letters tell me what to expect, and how we shall live, I’ll be able to say if the prospect is agreeable.

I believe you know me well enough to understand that I am fairly level headed, and I do realise what a great mistake it is to idealise a man. I watch other girls do that, and fear for their happiness when they settle down to real married life and a home of their own. It’s not the same thing to spend seven glorious days together once in three months, as to live with a man day after day, carrying out the ordinary routine tasks of ever day life. It calls for tact, tolerance and understanding as well as love to be happy under these circumstances, when the glamour has gone, but I believe it is possible, don’t you?

I’m afraid Moreen is a scatty kid.  I would have offered her the same advice as you, if I had thought it was any use.  I know how impetuous she is, and it’s too young to be married at nineteen, with her temperament; but they went through with it, and I hope they will be happy.  Marriage is such a serious step – I don’t think they quite understand.  And it should be irrevocable, don’t you agree?  That’s why I want to be so very sure. I do hope you will always love me – it seems too wonderful to be true sometimes that you should.

I wonder if I have given you a clear idea of my feelings on the subjects you mentioned; if not do ask me any further questions that may occur to you.

Before I close, I would like to suggest you use the work “gotten” just as you wish; I had a business letter from New York to reply to last week, and in this the secretary definitely put “gotten”.  Of course that reminded me so much of you; my work quite frequently reminds me of you now, as the Major has several connections in the States. I’m finding the new job very interesting.  I hope your climate suits me better than this. I have an awful cold again!

‘Til next time darling,

Yours,             Joan

December 29, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 14.                                                              Sawbridgeworth,
Herts
29th December, 1944

My darling,

I’ve been extremely lucky with mail this week, receiving your letter of 7th December today. That means I will probably have to wait a fortnight for the next one, but I’ll just have to be patient I guess.

Your letters come through fairly regularly now, and it is grand to hear from you. I would not get letters much quicker if you had gone to France. I hope my letters are coming through better now.

Thank you  very much for answering my queries so carefully; I’m afraid I still don’t understand American politics awfully well, but when I have plenty of time I will study it very closely and see what I can make of it. Also thank you very much for the note you enclosed with your letter, which I can easily dispose of over here. I thought that you and Lt Thompson were wearing raincoats on the night you mentioned; I remember that evening very well, especially the walk before  we went to Longs.

You mentioned sending a wedding gift to Moreen; I ‘phoned her up today, as I thought it best to consult her. In view of the time it would take to get here and the fact that it would have to be taken back to the States, we agreed that you send it to her mother-in-law. The address is:-

Sgt. & Mrs. R. E. Ransom

c/o Mrs. H. Ransom.

Box 54,

WINDSOR, N.Y.

She was very thrilled, and when I give her your address she will write and tell you so herself. If you want to write and congratulate her direct, the address is:

28, Zambesi Rd.

Bishop’s Stortford.

Your later letter evoked pleasant memories of the summer. I sometimes day-dream too, and recall those  marvellous hours we spent together.  I was always so happy to be with you, and I’ve missed you so much since you went.

It’s not so easy for me to picture the future. You can tell me more of that; and so far we have only suffered four months separation, I wonder how long it will be before we are together again. But I’m learning patience, and I can look forward quite happily, though it may be several years before we experience our re-union. And then I hope it will be a permanent one. Just now there’s little of practical value I can do except save as much as possible for the day when I can book a trip to the U.S.A.  I told you about my promotion in the office, which carries with it a slight increase in salary, which in turn is absorbed by more Income tax, but still it helps.

I’m afraid you will have to teach me to drive a car, as ever since I have been old enough there has been a restriction on petrol (gas) and I’ve never had a chance.  But I will leave flying an airplane to you!  I’ll come with you, and we can go visit all sorts of people.  If we live in California can we fly over and visit Moreen & Roland in New York State, and Sheila and Tommy and family in Connecticut?

Life will be a lot of fun when the war is over, and I have got through all the difficulties involved in getting into the closely-guarded United States.  If I have any difficulty in getting a visa you will have to write and tell the authorities that you want me to come.

I still sometimes wonder why you should choose an English girl, instead of one of your own American girls. I like you in preference to any Englishman I have met, partly because our ideas and outlook seem to coincide in many ways. There are so few people with a real appreciation of beauty. I think we agree too in our religious outlook; in connection with this there is a letter somewhere which I wrote to you before you left England in which I expressed my ideas on religion. It may catch up with you one day.

In money matters too, I think we share almost a horror of getting into debt. I always live within my means, and if I am unable to afford something I go without until I can.

I am enclosing one of the pictures taken of us in the summer. It recalls so vividly the evening when you smashed up my bicycle.

Christmas is over now; and here it was the coldest we have had for over 50 years. There’s been a heavy white frost, almost like snow, for days and nights and when the sun shone it glittered like fairyland. At night, with a full moon up, the frost just sparkled. Last night I went to Fire Service, and well wrapped up in my NFS greatcoat went out on the Fire engine for a ride round. But my mind was not on N.F.S. – rather was it thousands of miles away in Kansas. The full moon always reminds me of you and operations parties. Though, operation’s parties were really not your setting, I know, but it happened that’s where we met. At such a party it’s strange you didn’t form a poor impression of me from the start.

By the way, when did you first discover that you cared at all about me? You always seemed so indifferent.

I’ve promised to go and see Kathleen tonight, so as soon as I’ve finished this I will have to rush. Her boyfriend in the R.A.F. will be on embarkation leave tomorrow, and I can guess how she feels. It’s hard parting with anyone one loves, I’d never known before.

It’s drawing nearer to 1945, and nearer to the time we will meet again. So with pleasant dreams of the future, goodnight, my darling,

Yours,
Joan

(enclosed with this letter was a small photo of Joan and Harold in the garden of her parents’ house)

Photo of Harold and Joan

January 7, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 15                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts
ENGLAND

7th January, 1945

Dearest,

This being my first letter this year I must begin by wishing you a very happy New Year. I did not stay up to see it in this year as I usually do; unfortunately New Year’s Eve  fell on a Sunday, so of course the dance at Longs had to be held on Monday. I hear that the dance was very successful, the Yanks having just been paid, but I missed it as I was on duty at the Fire Station.

There have been no letters from you this week for me to answer, but I had not really expected any as I was lucky enough to receive two the previous week.

I expect you are having orthodox wintry weather now. Ours is most peculiar; there’s been frosts, fogs, snow, rain all mixed up. It alternately thaws and freezes, or which is worse, rains on top of ice giving the roads a dangerous surface. Still I’ve managed to get to work, usually late I’m afraid.

Work is going very well at the moment. This job is certainly very much more interesting than my previous one. I’m hoping my ‘boss’ will be off to Paris at the end of the week, so I am looking forward to that peaceful prospect. Only wish I could go too.

I am enclosing a picture which I had taken a week ago. I don’t really like it, and if you don’t either I should advise you to burn it. Anyway it comes to you on trial, with my love and best wishes.

I spent Wednesday evening with Moreen, and as her people went to the show, we got together round the fire and with the help of my diary reviewed the events of the previous year. It was really very interesting. When I have finished this letter I shall walk up to meet Moreen from the bus, as she is coming over as usual this afternoon.

I had a day due to me from the office, and I decided I should have it before anyone forget so this Friday I went to London. It was the first time I had been for over a year, and I enjoyed wandering around. I can spend hours in London walking, but I found myself very stiff on Saturday.  I did a little shopping, and visited Madame Tussauds waxworks. The very fact that I intend, if possible, to come to America and join you after the war tends to make me appreciate everything more while I am still here. I expect I’ll always be a Limey, and crave for my afternoon tea, etc.

You promised sometime to tell me more about the individual members of your family; are they all married to Americans, and what will they think of an English sister-in-law? I want to know all about them before I come, so that I will know what to expect.

I missed Long’s again last night as it was my turn to do a weekend duty at the Fire Station; in the summer I considered it worth it to dash on to Longs after coming off duty but not so now. I intended to write to you last evening from the Fire Station, but Kathleen wanted to talk, so we talked instead.

Until next time, goodbye my darling,

Yours,
Joan

(this letter contained a professional portrait of Joan)

January 11, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 16                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England.

11th January, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Tonight I feel so horribly lonely; I’d give anything to be with you now, so the next best thing is to sit down and write to you although it is not yet the end of the week. I would have written last night, but I was at Moreen’s and it was not possible.

I have not received any more letters from you, but I expect bad weather will hold them up for a time.

Thursday is the night I almost always spend at drill at the Fire station, but the roads are slippery and bad tonight so I am staying at home, and doing a number of odd jobs. But before I attend to them I must write my letter to you. Sometimes I realize just how far away Kansas is.

There’s been snow in England this past week, and I have temporarily given up cycling to work and have been catching a bus. When I look around, and everywhere is so white and cold, it does not seem possible that just a few months ago it was, well, quite warm, and you were here. I wish the summer would bring you back again.

This week I had a very pleasant surprise; I received a card from Reader’s Digest in London, who were happy to inform me that I had been presented with a subscription for this. Thank you, darling. This will be a constant reminder of you for the next two years, and I am given to understand that it is becoming increasingly more difficult to obtain here.

Moreen and I spent last evening chatting round the fire, and as the roads were bad and it was still snowing I stayed the night with her. Her husband is alright, and she is hoping he will get leave to England, though she does not know when it will be.

On Monday and Tuesday I worked rather late at the office, as we have been rather busy. Particularly, I had to get out the Works monthly newsheet, which is typed, photographed and exhibited in various parts of the Works; it’s finally been finished and we are all ready to go to press.

Monday after leaving the office late I just went home and spent the evening quietly knitting; but Tuesday I went straight from the office to the show, and saw Spencer Tracy in “The Seventh Cross”.

I hope the picture that I sent on Sunday arrives safely; I am afraid, being Sunday, I did not weigh it before posting and if it should be more than half ounce, it will probably be sent by Sea-mail. I am still waiting to get the other pictures I promised you, but I will send them as soon as I get them.

One never hears very much about American music, and consequently I suppose we get the impression that the only stuff they turn out is very “low-brow”. Do you ever get any nice, light music? I don’t mean Beethoven or Brahms – I do not know enough about music to appreciate them, but I like nice music, as well as dance music, or jazz. In this connection at home my tastes are considered very low as the rest of the family understand music better than I do.

Do you remember in the summer my hair was long and you wanted me to wear it down? Tonight I asked dad to trim the ends as it was getting too long, but I think he lost his sense of proportion and removed too much; now I am at a loss to know what to do with it. I only hope it will grow again quickly! I could have wept when I saw what he had done to my ” crowning glory”.

Sometime, you might give me some information about American cookery and food; you once asked me if I could cook. but I think that English cookery would be a little out of place in the States, wouldn’t it? You promised to teach me to cook, and although there’s little you can do by post, you could give me some ideas on American food. I know you eat waffles for breakfast, but apart from that I know very little.

Someone has turned on the radio for a discussion on the equality, or inequality, of the sexes, and it’s rather disconcerting to try to write letters with this competition. So ’til next time, I can only say goodnight, darling.

With love,
Joan

January 15, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 17                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

15th January, 1945

My dear Harold,

I half expected  to receive another of your letters tonight as it is now more than two weeks since I received your letter of the 15th December, but was really not surprised that there should be none, as the weather has been very bad.

Already, however, last week’s fall of snow has disappeared, and the roads are clear again. I have been able to get my bicycle out again; it has had to have a new chain, but is standing up to the rough treatment it receives surprisingly well.

I forgot to mention before that your flashlight is guiding me through the English blackout this winter, as I have been fortunate enough to obtain batteries to fit it. Though this year, the sixth winter of blackout, Bps Stortford has had a restricted form of dim-out, and it’s nice to come out of Long’s and find some street-lighting, dim though it may be. But in these dark country lanes, your flashlight has been a blessing.

Kathleen and I are on duty together tonight at the Fire station, and we have been so busy talking all evening that I did not start this letter as early as I intended. Of course it is hopeless to try writing letters up here, as one gets so many interuptions;  at the moment Kathleen is booking through a pump to the parent station, but we have spent most of our time downstairs preparing supper for the firemen. Quite a domestic picture; we were so busy talking that I’m sure we have peeled more potatoes than the men will eat tonight.

Moreen was over at Sawbridgeworth yesterday, and we braved a cold north wind and took a spot of exercise. But it was not strictly for pleasure, and we were glad to get indoors and round a fire again. After tea we all sat round the fire in the half-light, and then again my thoughts flew Kansas way. So often I wish you were here; there would be so much we could share, but always there is the consolation that these are pleasures yet to come.

Now that 1944 has gone, I have lost my opportunity; we tease Moreen sometimes, and tell her she made the most of Leap Year. It’s too late to ask you, I’m afraid, so I will have to wait another four years. Roll on 1948. But working, and waiting, planning and hoping, time will pass. We are not so very old after all; I’m not yet 22, and you are just 26. Don’t you agree that’s a very suitable difference?

The men have invited us to stay on to supper, after all the trouble we have taken to prepare it, so we think we had better be sociable and stay. There’s a Christmas pudding cooking down there, but we have not yet discovered what the celebration is for.

Since I wrote on Thursday night, I have only done the usual things; Friday I went to the show, some film about the Rebels and the Yanks about 1864. As a true story it was quite interesting. Then Saturday I went to Longs, and the usual gang was there, Pat, Mary and Pam and the rest. It was reasonably cool, but being too crowded, though usually now we go there to get warm. In the summer it was self-imposed discomfort, wasn’t it? But it was fun.

The rockets have been rather disturbing recently, in fact the regularity has been monotenous. We’ve been extremely fortunate, and the only one likely to have hurt us exploded before it hit the ground and scattered pieces for a radius of several miles around. Must go now, sweetheart as we have had the supper call.

Til the next letter,

All my love,
Joan

January 21, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 18                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

21st January, 1945

My dear Harold,

I am enclosing the other two pictures which were taken of us in the summer; where we stood then it is now covered with dazzling white snow. A week ago we endured a messy thaw, and now it’s begun all over again. There’s no accounting for weather here at all, in the course of a week we may have every kind of variation.

Yesterday I received my January copy of Reader’s Digest; so far I’ve only read the first two articles but already I can see how it is going to prove a link between us. I imagine that you are reading it too. I’m going to have to treat the American language as though it were French and learn your spellings without forgetting my own, or in other words translate from the American. It would never do if I slipped some American spelling into my letters at work, my boss would be horrified by defense, center, color, traveled, and yet sometimes I have an awful urge to do so.

I did not go to Longs or a show last night: after an unsuccessful attempt to catch a bus to Bishop’s, I returned home again to a fire and a book. The weather was too bad. As far as enemy action was concerned yesterday was rather noisy. As I cycled to work one rocket fell just out of the town and the smoke appeared to rise from where we used to watch you take off; then about an hour later another one fell just clear of the town on the other side from our Works, but our office, built in Nissen hut style, seemed about to cave it. It kind of gently waved to and fro.

I hope by now you have heard from Tommy, and he has reported progress regarding his daughter Ann Elizabeth. On his card to me he promised to write, but so far I have heard nothing further from him.

It must have seemed very strange to visit your sister after as long as 16 years, you were only ten yourself then! Your young niece sounds extremely capable – I hope one day she will be my niece too. I can’t imagine a girl of nine driving a tractor, it’s incredible. There’s so much I want to learn too. As far as cooking goes, I can only play around with dried eggs and powdered milk at present, and mother’s fussy about experiments of course. I know a little, but not nearly as much as I want to know.

With regard to social activities, Moreen, Kathleen and I went to the Show on Wednesday. The film was “2,000 Women”, and it was really extremely funny. Last night I had hoped to see Abbott & Costello in ‘Lost in a Harem’ but the weather prevented that.

After an interval of three weeks I received your letter on Friday, dated 28th December. I only hope that, when the army finally comes around to considering your transfer, the mails will be losing no time, or there may be some delay in my letters to you.

Until next time,

Love,
Joan

January 27, 1945 (2)

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 19                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

27th January, 1945

Dearest,

There have been no letters this week but I have to report the safe arrival of the locket you sent. It appeared to be post marked the 11th December (though it may have been the first) so it did not really take very long to come, little longer than our “air-mail” letters. I don’t know how to begin to thank you; it really is lovely, we can’t produce any thing like that here now, and you can imagine the envious glances of my fellow typists when I wore it for the first time on Friday.  First of all though, I had to cut up one of our snaps to fit our pictures inside.

I don’t think I have any news of interest this week; I seem to have done all the usual things. Kathleen and I were on duty on Monday, and shall be on again tonight as it is our turn for weekend duty. I don’t mind very much, because the weather is still bad and getting into town quite an effort.

On Wednesday Moreen and I went to a dance at the Red Cross Club; they have a new band over at the base, known as the ‘Downbeats’, and they are quite good. The weather was terrible and awful cold, and I spent the rest of the night with Moreen. There is a prospect, according to the papers, of Americans in France getting leave to England and of course Moreen is hoping.

This is being a very cold winter in England; for days there has been a thick white frost on everything, and with the moon shining it has looked like fairyland, though a very cold fairyland. I’m continuing to cycle to work, but it’s cold.

I’ve been busy at the office this week, as my boss has returned from his business trip to Paris and is attempting to deal with his correspondence which has accumulated in his absence. He returned shivering with cold, and sits over an electric fire trying to thaw, and complaining about the lack of heating in Parisian hotels.

Can you give me your impression of American girls? I know it is impossible to generalise, but on the whole are they very different to us? I know that when I come over I will have to adopt a different way of living and ideas, but will I need to change much in myself? I want to find out what sort of competition I shall have to face.

Have you formed any definite idea yet what you will do when you are demobolised; I gather that the G.I. Bill of Rights guarantees your former job back, but that’s not your idea is it? Postwar aviation sounds promising – have you thought any more about it? Then again, I think I once heard you mention farming, didn’t I?

I hope you have heard from Tommy now; when I wrote to Sheila and him I gave them your address, so you should get a letter, provided you don’t move first.

Have you any idea where you will go when the army gets around to considering your transfer. Is the old notion of playing with P.38’s lying dormant?

Mum and dad send their best wishes to you, rather late for the new year, I’m afraid.

I was hoping to receive another letter from you today, but so far it has not come, so Until next time, darling, I’ll just be,

Lovingly yours,
Joan

February 4, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 20                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

4th February, 1945

My darling Harold,

I have been extremely lucky with mail this week, having received your letters of the 31st December, and 6th and 14th January. Like my letters to you they seem to arrive in batches now, but so long as you continue to write fairly regularly I can have patience. I know that they are on the way.

You don’t probably realise how much your letters mean to me.  To know that you still think of me, although you’re back in more familiar surroundings, is wonderful. At first when I met you, you seemed, well, self-sufficient, and I did not dare to hope that you might even come to care for me a little. As for your wondering why a certain Limey girl bothers to write to you, I believe you are fishing for information. I wonder if she should tell you yet; sometimes I feel it makes a nice secret, then another time I would like everyone to know, I’m so thrilled about it.

When you left it was an exhilerating thing; sometimes now its a yearning, but more often a warm and happy feeling, a kind of glow. I wonder if you can follow what I mean.

I want so much to see you again, but not really until I know we would not have to part again. Saying good-bye is heart-breaking; we survived it once, but it was a real effort. I did not want your last memory of me to be in floods of tears, it’s so unbecoming, but it was so difficult to smile.

Even in the short time we knew each other I came to care; I liked everything I knew about you, and forgave what little faults I could perceive. But I feel its something which will grow, and by our exchanges of ideas in our letters we are already getting to know one another better. Your letters are so sincere.

As you mentioned in your letters as far as conventions are concerned, we have little to worry about. Perhaps I am even a little more unconventional than you; in that respect I am not typically English.

To satisfy a man’s idle curiosity here I might insert that on the 23rd April 1923, England was blessed with arrival of a baby girl, to the disappointment of her father, who had hoped for a son and heir. This baby was later christened Joan Patricia. Is there any further information you desire, Lieutenant? In England it is a date easy to remember, it being St. George’s day, the patron saint of England; also it is the date of Shakespeare’s birth.

Forgive me sometimes if I sound frivolous; Moreen and I have to plan our social activities so that we can pass the time of waiting as pleasantly as possible.  It seems wrong to wish time away, but the sooner this war is over and se can all settle down to normal life again, the better it will be.

I was interested to hear about your present work; naturally I am not over-keen about you returning to combat, but as I know you will be far happier that way I can only wish you the best of luck. If my prayers have any effect you will return safely. I believe you will, but I want you to promise if anything should happen to you, as it did to Tommie, that you will not let it make any difference, but you will continue to write and give me the chance to make the decision for myself. Please don’t think I am morbid, but I’d feel much happier if you would promise not to let anything come between us unless you were quite sure you did not love my any longer.

Just as sharing our pleasures will double them, sharing troubles will halve them and life is full of both; a happy marriage is a wonderful partnership isn’t it? As I read your letters I feel we have so much to look forward to, so much to share. One day we will make up for all this wasted time, and appreciate our happiness so much more.

My activities have been excluded from this letter, but later in the week I will write again and tell you all the trivial things Moreen and I do to pass the time; I’ve been so happy this week, with three letters to digest, and the sun shone for several days in anticipation of spring.  At the commencement of the week it snowed, but by Thursday it had all gone again and Saturday it was warm and sunny, with the exhileration of an English spring in the air. It did not seem possible, but it just shows the contrariness of English weather. I could probably continue to write to you all day but I have promised to meet Moreen when she comes over, and we are going to tea with Kathleen at the farm.

Til next time, dearest.

With love,
Joan

February 5, 1945

Letter no. 21                                                                                               5th February, 1945

My dear Harold,

Please forgive  the formality of this – but as I found my previous air letter reached you safely I decided to try it again; unfortunately ink often runs on this paper, and so I thought you might not mind if I typed it instead.

In Sunday’s letter I gave you no news at all, just rambled on in a very inconsequential manner; the previous Sunday Moreen came over as usual, and in the evening we went to an All-Party Brains Trust.  I only went to please dad really, as he was on the committee organising the affair, but to my surprise I really enjoyed it; on the stage were five representatives of different political parties, and the audience were invited to submit questions, all of which were answered from the political point of view of each member of the Brains Trust. The whole thing was arranged as a means of obtaining funds for the War Memorial Fund of Sawbridgeworth, which they have already begun to consider.  The idea is to have a Town Hall (!)

On the Tuesday Moreen and I spent a pleasant hour and a half wandering round a Health Exhibition which was organised in these Works; I had already spent weeks before-hand helping in the preparation writing letters, obtaining exhibits, etc. etc., and the words ‘Health Exhibition’ had come to cause a groan in the Typist’s Office. We were almost driven to sickness on account of it, but in spite of this Moreen and I decided to go and have a look round.  There were stands on various points of health, but most of all we enjoyed the cookery demonstrations, especially as we were allowed to taste samples.  In addition we collected leaflets and booklets, and weighed ourselves, and altogether acted like a couple of crazy school-girls.

Also during the week we saw the film -‘Marriage is a Private Affair’, the chief merit of which was that it portrayed an American Officers’ Club, which naturally with the wings well to the fore, brought back happy memories of the summer; little things that brought you even nearer to me.

Don’t you feel that if two people think a lot about one another they feel closer together, even if the distance between them may be thousands of miles?

I have just had to leave this letter to inspect an engagement ring – one of the girls in this office became engaged to an American boy this weekend, but he is from Carolina so I do not expect to see her when I come out myself. It must be the personality of these Americans, I can’t see what else could drag a girl all those miles. But they can’t all have found a man like mine.

To continue with our social activities, Moreen and I went on a shopping expedition on Saturday; I met her for lunch in Dunmow, and we then went on to Chelmsford by bus, where we spent the entire afternoon wandering around the shops in the manner peculiar to women.  But after all we did not buy anything, and after having tea in Chelmsford and looking round the Cathedral, we joined another queue and eventually caught a bus back to Bishop’s Stortford.  We were back at Moreen’s by eight o’clock, and then proceeded to make tea, and sat round the fire chatting for the rest of the evening.

Sunday morning I wrote my weekly letter to you, and in the afternoon when I went to post it, met Moreen from the bus and we walked up to the farm where we had tea with Kathleen. I may have told you that she has an English boy in the R.A.F., and he left for Canada recently, and she has just received a cablegram apparently from New York where they must have docked.  Moreen hears regularly from her husband, but still does not know when to expect him home. He continues to worry the OPS Officer, but up to the moment without success.

I think now darling, I should change my ribbon and get on with some work.  The Major has fortunately gone up to town this morning, so I am left to work more or less in peace; I have fussed round him with his morning post, and papers for his appointments, and seen him safely off.  I try to picture you in an office, but it doesn’t seem right. Hope you soon have some news about your requested transfer.

Til next time, darling, with my love,

Joan

February 9, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 22                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND.

9th February, 1945

My dear Harold,

All day I have been trying to remember what today’s date recalled and I have only this evening realised that I have been with my present firm since 9th February 1942. It’s exactly three years, and I feel quite part of the place; I often wonder how much longer I will stay here.

I’ve been extremely lucky not to have been called into the Women’s Services or into a war factory, at a machine; neither of them are very pleasant prospects to me.  The war news just now is quite promising at the moment; I do hope it is not going to be much longer. The sooner it’s over the sooner I shall be able to come out and join you.

Our social activities this week have been reduced to a minimum; on Wednesday Moreen and I sat round the fire and discussed our plans for a weekend at Ely, 16 miles the other side of Cambridge – Moreen wants to see something of England before going out to the States, and so we thought we would spent a few weekends visiting places to which we have never been before. First on our list is Ely, which has an outstanding cathedral which we want to see.

I wonder if you ever received my letter, written before you left England, in which I endeavoured to express my religious views. I consider it an extremely important subject, especially between two people who hope to share their lives together. I won’t repeat my self too much, in case you received the letter I mentioned, but I think we are well in agreement on this subject.

First of all, you know I was brought up in the Church of England faith; at least I was christened and confirmed in it, but I’ve never been forced to go, and as you know I am not in the habit of attending regularly.  Religion should be spontaneous, I feel, and certainly not a habit.

That there exists something greater, call it a Creator, or whatever you wish, is, I think, obvious; but my contention is that one need not attend church to feel close contact or appreciation with this Creator. Religion is not confined to churches, and certainly a lot of people who attend church very conscientiously do not practise the rudiments of a Christian faith.  Personally, I feel closer to this Power in the fields and woods, where there is sunshine, and wind, stars, birds singing – anything like that.  To me, religion and faith and beauty are all tied up in these sort of things.  If I want to pray I can do so just as well in the good, fresh air, but usually if I go to Church I prefer to go when it is empty, especially in our very old churches, there is a mellow atmosphere where one can feel the sincerity of the people  who have worshipped there.  Occasionally, I like to attend a service as on Moreen’s wedding day, when we also took communion.

But I do not necessarily have to attend Church of England.  You told me that you were brought up to be a Methodist, but like me, would attend any church. That suits me fine, because actually I prefer the non-conformist idea.  But I could not be “High” church. You have no idea what a relief it was to me to know you were not Catholic.

I think that in our rather unconventional outlook on religion and other matters, you and I will agree to a great extent.  What is your opinion?

Some people look to material things to bring them happiness; true, they assist, but real happiness is more difficult than that, and can so easily be missed. I’ve never questioned you at all about our financial standing after the war if we should marry, because money doesn’t bother me a great deal. We’ve never had an awful lot, but the main thing is to keep out of debt, and I have always done that. I have enough at the moment to get out to California and that is extremely important.

By the way, does one use fish knives and forks in the States, or don’t you like fish? When I turn out my “Hope Chest” there are some fish knives and forks and I shall not know whether to bring them or not.

I think I have wandered enough for one evening; I had better leave this and carry on with my knitting. My brother raised his eyebrows in surprise when he found me knitting babies’ things, until he discovered they were intended for infants in occupied territories.

So my darling, goodnight again. There have been no letters from you this week, but having had three last week I am still able to sing on my way to work.

Til next time,

Love,
Joan

February 18, 1945

The Bell Hotel,
Ely, Cambs.

Letter no. 23

18th February, 1945

Dearest Harold,

Today I am writing to you, not exactly in the shadow, but in full view of Ely Cathedral – one of the finest in England (bigger, better and more beautiful).  Moreen and I have just returned from morning service there, and are writing our letters in the lounge of the hotel which faces onto the Cathedral.  To both of us,  these letters are a pleasure, hers to her husband and mine to you; I enjoy writing my letters to you each week, and the only greater pleasure is receiving yours in reply.

It is now more than two weeks since I heard from you, but most probably the American mail will arrive in next week.   I only heard from you indirectly last week, in the form of Reader’s Digest; the first article which caught my eye was “How to Choose a mate”, which sounded very sane to me.  After reading it I was still convinced that I love you and we could be very happy together.

I told you last week how Moreen and I planned to spend a little time in Ely this weekend; we left Bishop’s Stortford after lunch on Saturday, after a hectic morning in the office, and stopped in Cambridge on the way to do some shopping.  Being very English I decided to lavish 18 coupons on a spring suit, turquoise blue with a fine bottle-green herringbone pattern, restricted, on account of the Utility mark, in pockets and pleats, but nevertheless it meets with Moreen’s and my approval.

We managed to get a cup of tea in Cambridge, and rushed to the station only to find our train to Ely was running over 30 mins late; we rang the hotel and dinner was kept for us, but we did not arrive here until it was dark.

So it was not until this morning that we saw the “city”in daylight; the birds chattering in the cathedral first woke me, the cathedral seems to dominate this place.  It is the central point and towers above all else.  If one asks the way here one is invariably told to go up by the Cathedral and “you can’t miss it”.

After breakfast we decided to explore; not that there is much to see here, but we walked down to the river and through funny little back streets until finally it was time to return for church.

This morning I particularly enjoyed the service; the atmosphere in the cathedral put me immediately at my ease.  I felt lonely for you too, and you were in my mind the whole time.

Now we re back at the hotel.  We were writing in a lounge full of elegantly hungry people, who have now disappeared rapidly in the direction of the dining room.  Not to be outdone, Moreen and I are now considering following suit.

‘Til next time when I will write a longer letter,

With my love,

Yours   Joan

February 24, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 24                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND.

24th February, 1945

My dear Harold,

This weekend I am writing to you from home again; fortunately I received your letter of the 7th February yesterday, giving me the news of your move to Carolina. I am so pleased, and I am looking forward to hearing more about it. This letter arrived in little more than two weeks, but apart from that I had had no letters for three weeks and there seems to be a gap between the 14th January and the 7th February. Am I missing any? As you do not number your letters it is hard to tell.

No doubt on account of your move there will be some delay over my mail to you, but I hope your letters will be forwarded on to you from Dodge City as quickly as possible.

Columbia sounds to me a more inviting prospect than Kansas; I hear a little about South Carolina from one of the girls in the office who recently became engaged to a boy whose home is there.

Last weekend Moreen and I wrote our letters from Ely in Cambridgeshire, where we spent the weekend, and where we attended morning Service in the Cathedral. We explored the town in the afternoon, when the “spring” sunshine was glorious and caught a train back which arrived in Bps. Stortford about 7 o’clock in the evening. On the journey I amused myself gazing from the carriage window at the ever-changing and fascinating colours of one of those beautiful (but rare) English sunsets. It was glorious.

On the whole the week has been quiet. Two evenings at the Fire station, one at home and one at Moreen’s. Then last night Moreen, with her mother and father, and I with my mother, father and brother, all went together to a Brains Trust in Stortford, organised by the Anglo-Russian Friendship committee. The questions dealt entirely with Russia, and were answered in turn by a Russian housewife, a London priest, a Russian professor and an English girl who had spent five years as a teacher in the Soviet Union. It was a very interesting evening.

This afternoon I am going out shopping with one of the girls in my office, who is hoping to get married when her fiance’ comes on leave from France, possibly in a week or so. I am to be her bridesmaid if I am able to get time off, but it will leave the office in a turmoil I’m afraid if both the senior typists are out together. For weeks now the office has had to cope with wedding veils and orange blossom as in war time it is necessary to borrow these things; my filing cabinet has contained bridesmaids dresses silver shoes and all the accompanying paraphanelia and I have been expecting the Major to go there for his private stationery and bring out a sprig of orange blossom!

It’s all very exciting, – especially in the spring, but I’d prefer a quiet wedding, more like Moreen’s but preferably in a church.

Dad is agitating for the use of the table, and I don’t think I have any further news, so til next time, goodbye darling,

With my love,
Joan

 

P.S.  I heard that Lt. Duerl was at Longs last Saturday, so he must still be in France. He is taking a long time to complete his missions.

(Editor’s note: I can’t make out the actual spelling of this Lt.’s last name. The Du and the l are clear, but the letters in between are indecipherable)

March 2 and March 3, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road
LETTER No. 25                                                                                              Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND.
2nd March, 1945

My darling Harold,

I was so thrilled yesterday to receive two letters from you, one dated the 21st and the other the 28th January; fortunately your letter of the 7th February giving me your new address was received last week, but the previous letters were never-the-less extremely welcome. Your letters are so encouraging and make this business of waiting so much easier, please continue to write whenever you can.

I hope you will not mind the formality of a type-written letter, but I think that the warmth of my feelings for you should penetrate the cold type; at any rate, it should be more legible.

I was so interested to hear something about the individual members of your family, please carry on in later letters. I hope one day to meet them all, and you know I shall not mind a bit when they tease me about my English ways and ideas.  I think I can take it, I’ll probably be able to laugh at myself.  If they are anything like you I know I shall like them all.

It would be grand if it were possible for you to pay another visit to England, but I have a feeling that we shall not require combat personnel in this particular Theater of Operation for very much longer.  By the way, you mentioned my estimate of ‘years’ as being pessimistic; how long do you consider it will be before we are together again?  When you finally get transferred back to a combat station, please find out the best way for me to write to you, as it probably will not be so easy as writing to you at present.  Still, however long my letters take I shall keep on writing.  I look forward to my weekly letters to you, and think of all the things I am going to tell you, which of course I forget before I reach pen and paper.

I had already considered the possibility of your meeting an American girl, on your return to the States, who would usurp my place in your affections.  The same could have applied to me, and that is why I did not feel we could commit ourselves then.  But I feel now that I will never want anyone else, I am completely satisfied.  It would comparitively easy to find someone of one’s own nationality, I suppose, but I would rather it was this way.

Talking of my visit to the States, I wonder what my chances will be of getting reasonably early passage after the wars are concluded.  I have wondered if, when, we are reasonably sure of our feelings for each other it would be advisable to become engaged, as of course while married women will have priority, your fiancée should stand a chance of joining you within reasonable time.  There will be various things to consider, and lots to do, but it will all be worth it, don’t you agree?

Last Wednesday, when I paid my usual visit to Moreen, we were carried back to last summer very vividly by the roar of ships coming over, and it sounded as though they would circle and land on the field.  It reminded us so of the summer evenings last year when we would count the planes in and then decide if it was worth while going to Longs.

It is nice to hear (literally, read) your reminiscences of last summer, and remember all the happy memories we shared together.  I recall quite clearly, how on the night we first met in Bishop’s Stortford you borrowed a Sgts. bicycle from some G.I. at the Red Cross – pulling your rank, I believe.  Again, the parties at the camp, looking for little grey rabbits, wandering up to the runways to watch the ships come in, waffles at the Officers’ club, and weather that was never suitable for swimming.

3rd March, 1945

Yesterday when I arrived home there was a very welcome letter from Tommie, enclosing the snaps he took of us at home last summer.  I had almost forgotten them.  He says he has heard from you, that the baby is doing fine and takes after his father. (Typically American, isn’t he?)

I can’t think of anything else I want to tell you at the moment, there is really too much distraction in this office.  So goodbye darling, until next time, all my love,

 Joan

P.S.  It would be wonderful to see you again.

Roll on post-war.

March 9, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 26                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
9th March, 1945

My dearest Harold,

It’s unusual for me to sit down at 11 pm on a Friday night to write to you, but I guess I had better obey the impulse tonight or maybe the urge to write will keep me awake til the early hours of the morning.

I’ve been lucky with mail again this week – looks like the postal service is looking up!  Two letters dated the 16th and 20th of February were received, and it was grand to hear from you.  By the way, if you should move on to Florida, I have an uncle at Miami.

Last Saturday Moreen and I went to Longs, and just for a moment as we entered I felt sure I would see you there, standing near the entrance talking to some of the boys.  But the dream did not materialize.

On Wednesday I had time off from the office to be bridesmaid to one of the girls in the office whose fiancé was on leave from France. Although it’s rather difficult in wartime we fixed a real white wedding, and though everything had to be borrowed, I am told it did look very pretty.  The two bridesmaids wore pale mauve, with head-dresses of net gathered with a cluster of mauve flowers on top, and carried daffodils and jonquils.

I’ll never forget the scent of those flowers, mingled with the white lily perfume of the bride’s flowers which I held during the ceremony, in the cool church with its huge stained glass window above the altar.  That solemn, but peaceful feeling, when I wished so much you could have been there beside me.

Then we left the church in a rush of photographers and just showered in confetti! and were swept off to the reception which was held at Longs.  I enjoyed the whole affair, but as an anti-climax we had to report back to the office later in the afternoon, but too late to settle to any real hard work.

I almost detected an note of anxiety in your letter when you warned me that airplane trips like visits to Tommie would prove rather expensive even in the postwar era; let me hasten to assure you that I don’t really think I shall make a very extravagant wife.  I’ve quite a lot of “money sense”, really.  Its true that one eventually gets what one saves for; I have already saved enough to get to the U.S.A. so they can call off this war as soon as they like.  Whenever, I really make up my mind to a thing I usually get it; perhaps it’s luck, or just the will to win.

Tell me more about the little white house in Arcata.  Do you think that’s where we shall live?  or have you any other postwar plans?  I still have those pictures of California, remember? It’s nice to look through them and dream, although when you first showed them to me I never considered making my home there.  I wouldn’t have believed it then.

It’s strange how you are always in the back of my mind just waiting to take possession of my thoughts.  Of course I always tell your picture goodnight.  For the past two nights I have slept with wedding cake under my pillow, hoping to dream of you, but so far I’ve been unlucky.  Maybe tonight I’ll be more successful.

I’ve often found one dreams of things desired subconsciously, but in this case my conscious mind knows my desire, and probably the sub-conscious mind can give no satisfaction.

I guess I’m sleepy now, so until next time I’ll have to say goodnight, my darling.  Pleasant dreams.

With my love,

Joan

March 15, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 27                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
15th March, 1945

My dearest,

I was thrilled this week to receive your letter of the 26th February, which only took 14 days to reach me!  I believe they really are beginning to send them air mail at last! I was amazed to learn that you received six of my letters in one week- where-ever had they been?  Whilst still on the subject of mail, last week I received one of my letters to you written before you left England, which had been six months wandering around Indiana in search of you.  It was marked “Fort Benjaman Harrison” “Camp Atterbury” and finally “Return to sender”.  I wonder why they chose Indiana.

Thank you for your long explanation on finance. I believe you understand me well enough to know that I do not consider material possessions and money make for happiness; lack of money does make things rather difficult, but provided there is enough to ensure reasonable security I do not think we shall have to worry very much.  As you have probably gathered I have never had very much, in fact for the first few years of married life I believe my parents had quite a struggle in the years that followed the last war.  I can imagine that rearing twelve children must have presented quite a problem, and I can understand why you once said one should only have as many children as one can afford.

That reminds me – still on the subject of children.  Here again is a matter which from practical experience you apparently know a great deal more about than I do.  Or is this still in the nature of a “build-up”?

Do you think I should be able to distinguish between your brother Earl and you?  I think so, if it were only by that slight mark on your forehead.

I guess it would have been unneccessary for you to send me that article on “American husbands are So Sweet”, but I hope when you read it you made careful notes to put into practice when the time arrives.  The other members of your family seemed to have married early; it seems strange that you should not have done so too, but I expect the war rather upset your plans.  Still I am grateful to this war for one thing.  It brought you over here and gave us the opportunity to meet.  Of course it had to part us too but that need  only be temporary, and then such a lot of happiness lies ahead.

Moreen expects Roland on leave at the beginning of April, and I’ll have to try very hard not to be envious then. So far I have succeeded very well in participating in other people’s happiness, and it does help.

Last weekend I spent at Moreen’s.  Her mother was away, and on Sunday morning her father decided to go to London for the day – rather after the fashion of a schoolboy let loose.  So after breakfast Moreen and I dashed off to Church, where her young cousin was singing solo in the choir.  We returned home to prepare cold lunch, and of course as soon as we revived we had to make a pot of tea.  Then we went  for a long walk to shake off the effects and came back to find Kathleen waiting for us, where upon we made another pot of tea, and told her she would have to wait for dinner.  Then Moreen and I set to in the kitchen, and to amusement and enjoyment prepared another meal, finishing up with coffee round the fire.  It was fun being able to do things how and when we liked.

I was thrilled one day recently to see my first daylight flying bomb.  I was cycling into Bishop’s Stortford when it went overhead, rattling unmistakably, and outlined clearly against a blue sky.

I expect  the weather in Carolina is fine. We have been having days of clear sunshine – it’s marvellous today, so that it really feels like spring.

Unfortunately last week, at the wedding I went to, it was very cold, and I developed an English cold which is keeping me away from the office today.  I advocate a change of climate for me when the war is over.

‘Til next time, sweetheart,

Love,
Joan

P.S.  This seems an unworthy reply to your long and interesting letter.  I’ll try to do better next time.

March 24, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 28.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
24th March, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Spring seems to be hesitating, as if not quite sure that it is time to put in an appearance, but today has been one of bright sunlight, showing up the spring flowers.  I suppose you never associate sunshine with England, she certainly did not show you much while you were here, but perhaps that’s why we appreciate it so.

I see by the newspapers that, owing to the fine weather, the Ninth has had its biggest day since D-day.  The war news at the moment is certainly encouraging.

I have received no letters this week, the last one being 26th February which arrived a fortnight ago.  I notice, however, that you ask me very few questions – are your queries all settled now and your doubts dispersed?

When I receive your letters I often feel that my letters to you must seem very uninteresting, for the ordinary, humdrum existence in war time England seems to provide little scope for interesting writing material.  I hope I do not bore you with trivialities.

Last week we went to see the show ‘Dark Victory’ with Bette Davis.  It was very good, and I was reminded of the last show we went to see “Thank your Lucky Stars” where Bette Davis made a brief appearance.

Moreen seems to have made up her mind to go out to the States at the end of August.  I shall miss her terribly when she goes.  I have other friends of course, but no one to take Moreen’s place.

I paid my usual visit to her on Wednesday.  It was a glorious night, a half moon glowing overhead and a heaven full of stars.  I had such a strong feeling that I had but to turn my head and I would find you cycling beside me as you did last summer; but I daren’t turn or that would have broken the spell.  Either I have a very vivid imagination or we are very close in spirit, because it seemed so real.  I almost said I nearly felt you were there; but it was more than that.  I could hardly believe you were not there.

Has your state a great profusion of wild flowers?  Only, I expect, Bigger, Better and more Beautiful than ours? Well, when we get home to California I’ll get a book on wild flowers to study and while you go fishing I’ll hunt flowers. (note the phrase, when we get home, sounds nice, doesn’t it?)

Talking of fish I had almost forgotten I shall only require forks for you crazy people.  But for a while I shall stick to my primitive “Knife and fork” way of eating, even if it causes a great deal of amusement amongst your friends.  They will think me funny anyway, and it will probably be mutual.

I have gathered that Arcata is a nice friendly community.  Tell me more about the sort of social life we shall require to be involved in, when you return to your old job.

We have one girl in our office, who is engaged to an American stationed over here, and she is beginning to worry over how she can get to her fiancé when the war is over. It’s too early to worry yet, but I suggested that when the time arrives she should consult the American Embassy in London.  I think they will help individual cases.

Til next time, darling,

Love,
Joan

March 30, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 29.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
Good Friday
30th March, 1945

Sweeetheart,

Like you, I have very little to write about this week; your letter of the 4th March was received this week, and I am left with a picture of you getting fatter and fatter, lazier and more despondent because they will keep you hanging around so.  I guess the waiting part does get monotenous, you can gather a little of how a woman feels when all she can do is wait for her man.  It’s such a helpless feeling, and requires a good deal of patience.

The war news from the western front is very encouraging.  As a rule, I am not unduly optimistic but we are really beginning to feel we are getting somewhere now, and it may not be so very long.  Then we can turn all our attention to the Japs, and surely it can’t be so very long then til we can straighten things out again.  We are still getting Jerry’s reminders in the form of rockets and bombs, but as you say we can’t expect them to cease until we can clear Holland.

The British man-in-the-street does not let himself go so readily, perhaps, as our American allies but already our newspapers are planning our V-day celebrations. Personally, I feel that won’t be the time for celebration.  Thanks-giving services, perhaps, but real celebrations not until all hostilities have ceased.

As for the crack in the end of your letter re the ice cream, Moreen and I are going to London tomorrow and are hoping to get some ourselves. But in the meantime, I hope you enjoyed the one you had for me.  Just wait, til I get to the States and I’ll make up for everything I’m missing now; and that mostly means you.  I doubt if that flatters your ego, American men don’t need that, I guess.

Probably the heading above the date of this letter means little to you, but to us its a public holiday.  I believe you Americans consider we here have far too many public holidays.  For me, this one means a long weekend as our factory is closed until Tuesday morning.

Today Moreen and I were given the opportunity to do a spot of sightseeing across English country-side.  A friend of the family had to go within a few miles of Bury St. Edmunds in Suffolk, some 54 miles from Bishop’s Stortford.  Mrs. Hewardine came too, and we took a picnic lunch which we had to eat in the car as it poured with rain at the appropriate time.

To go off at a tangent, the weather has been typically English today, Capricious is the only word to describe it.  In between brilliant bursts of sunshine, it produced thunder, lightening, rain and hail; in addition a strong wind blew all day.

Passing on from this diversion on the weather, Moreen and I spent two hours exploring Bury.  As it was Good Friday all the shops were closed, but we wandered round the Abbey Gardens and inspected the Abbey ruins.  To tell the truth, they looked more like bomb damage ruins only considerably weather beaten through the ages.  We also went round the Cathedral but were rather disappointed with this after our visit to Ely Cathedral a few weeks previously; after this we inspected another very old church, built in 1450 approx. after the Abbey had been destroyed.  An old man must have thought we looked either intelligent or interested for he insisted on accompanying us round the church and pointing out everything of interest.  This included a curved roof unusually decorated with pairs of angels, the tomb of Mary Tudor, Queen of France, special carvings on the pews, and paintings on the ceiling done by the Benedictine monks, also a stained glass window presented by Queen Victoria to commemorate the death of Mary, who was Henry VIII’s sister. (I’ll probably forget all this soon, but it was quite entertaining to hear all about it).

Moreen is sitting at the table beside me now, writing to her husband.  As we are going to London tomorrow she is staying over night with me.  As I see she has finished, I had better say goodnight my darling.

So until next time, I’ll be seeing you, all my love and kisses, darling.

Yours,
Joan

April 7, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter 30.                                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
7th April, 1945

My dear Harold,

To carry on from where I left off last week, as you may note from the postmark of last week’s letter, Moreen and I went to London on Saturday. We were up early and on the train met two of the girls from my office and all had breakfast together in the Strand when we arrived in town.

We proceeded to Oxford Street as the shops were opening when we split again into two’s, and Moreen and I wandered off together to explore the stores.  This was no mere window-shopping expedition, such as we usually indulge in, but I was feeling rash with coupons and bought a raincoat (extremely useful in this climate, especially now in typically April showers) and a cute little black dress.  I’d never attempted to wear black before, but with this rationing business – it’s so suitable for different occasions, and I was quite thrilled with approbation received when I got home.

By this time, having failed to find a yellow blouse for which Moreen was searching, we decided to adjourn for lunch, after which we had arranged to meet Eileen and Dorothy, my two fellow-typists.  Whilst waiting for them Moreen and I slipped into a milk bar to enjoy the long anticipated ice-cream.

Then we all got together again, and caught a train to Kew, in Surrey.  Here we spent the afternoon wandering round the Royal Kew Gardens. It was rather too early to appreciate it, as later in the month there will be masses of wild bluebells, and bushes and bushes of rhodedendrons.  At present the daffodils and narcissi are flowering in wild profusion amongst the trees, and it’s lovely.  We were disappointed by the pagoda which we mistook for a water-tower.  I looked up the “peach tree in blossom” on the plan of the gardens, but was rather disappointed with it.  The blossoms were rather small and white – or maybe I got the wrong tree!

Moreen and I dashed off back to Liverpool Street to catch the 5.22, leaving the other two girls there, and so on to Longs.  Of course, I had to wear my new dress, and let my hair down; if only you could have been there it would have been fun.

I stayed with Moreen over the weekend, and on Sunday evening went down to the dance at the Red Cross club. Then on Monday we spent most of  the day at the Gymkhana or horse-show, with Pat and Moreen.  It was quite fun, but I had to leave early as Kath and I were on duty at the Fire station.

On Tuesday it was back to work again – I was quite glad, because I like work.  But we have been terribly busy this week as we are short staffed.

I was beginning to wonder what had happened to my mail, but yesterday I received your letter of the 17th March.  I am sorry my letters don’t get through very well. It’s nicer to receive them evenly spaced, as it seems a long time between batches.

Do you remember telling me you had read on article called “American husbands are so sweet”?, but that after consideration you decided it was not necessary to send me such a build-up. Evidently Roland has different ideas, for he cut it out and sent it along to Moreen.  Of course, I was allowed to read it, too.

Roland also sends the Coronet along to her, and between that and the Digest, we really do begin to appreciate American humour.  It’s slick and subtle.  Moreen says Roland is the only one in his hut who can laugh at an English programme on the radio, and I suppose our national sense of humour does vary somewhat from yours.

One story in the Coronet  which amused me was about a boy from California (and naturally very proud of the fact) who died and went to Heaven.  At the gates Peter greeted him with “Come in and look around. But you won’t like it.”

I do hope, darling, that you can get Sgt. Harkabus back in your crew.  It would be nice for both of you, and I’ll feel much happier if I know you have a good gunner.  I’ll keep my fingers crossed.

I shiver when I read how you are swimming in Carolina.  It’s gotten real cold here again, almost like mid-winter, not nearly as warm as last spring.

‘Til next time,

With love,
Yours,
Joan

April 17, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no.31.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
17th April, 1945

My dear Harold,

The evening sun still strikes very warm, as I sit in the garden to write to you now.  Beside me, the lilac bushes are almost in full bloom, as they were last May when you first came over from Stansted to see us, and at the end of the garden the birds are singing in the trees with that particular “joie de vivre” which belongs to the spring.

The poet write “Oh, to be in England, now that April’s here”, and he must have had in mind a particular spell of weather such as we are enjoying at the moment. For April is a lovely month, but rarely is it accompanied by such wonderful sunshine as now; the blossoms, especially the cherry and the apple-blossom, show to better advantage against a clear blue sky in the sunlight, than in the misty greyness of an April shower.

I feel quite lyrical about the spring; it give one a glorious sense of freedom to go bare-legged again and to wear one’s summer dresses.

Moreen was expecting Roland home on furlough at the end of this week, but as your old squadron has moved to Belgium, his leave has been postponed.

I am glad I waited to get your letter giving me your new address, so now this can go direct to you at Lake Charles.  Does this mean there is no chance now of getting Sgt. Harkabus back in your crew?       Last week I received your letters of 11th March and 21st March, and now I have yours of 31st March and 1st April.

I read your suggestions on money speculation with interest, though I confess I know very little about it.   As far as I can make out, however, on the small amount of capital I have to play around with there is little to be gained.  The rate of interest at present is 2 1/2%, I believe, and if I converted part of the money to dollars, I should be unable to bank it.  Another thing, is the difficulty in getting a G.I. to do it for me, as I don’t think it would be possible for me. I don’t suppose it would be possible to open an account in an American Bank, and for the small amount involved I doubt if they would bother.

I went to Cambridge last Saturday hoping to buy shoes, but I was unlucky.  While we were there we went to see the show “WILSON”, which I thought extremely interesting, depicting as it did the career of President Woodrow Wilson.  It included one or two amusing shots actually filmed during the last war.  Have you seen it?

Moreen and I were going down to the Red Cross club on Sunday, but Red Cross entertainments have been cancelled on account of the President’s death; that was a great shock, wasn’t it?  Everyone here was extremely sorry, and I believe it was the first time our Cabinet had retired in tribute at the passing of a foreign statesman.

Until next time, darling.

With love,
Joan

April 20, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no.32.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
20th April, 1945

My dear Harold,

The glorious spring weather has lasted all the week, but whereas when I wrote last the lilac was just beginning to flower, as I sit here again to write it is full in bloom and delicately scenting the evening air.  My horse-chestnut tree, which I proudly grew from a “conker”, is also blooming, and in the hedgerows the may is already out, and April not yet gone.  Everyone except me seems to have heard the cuckoo, so I guess spring must be really here.

This lovely weather encourages one to be lazy, especially as swimming and tennis have not yet begun.  My bicycle of course proves very useful just now, and my chief delight is to wander slowly through the English lanes, appreciating the charm and quiet beauty.

On Wednesday I went as usual to see Moreen, and we went for a long walk. Now that we have double summer-time again the evenings are long.

Last night I went to the Fire station.  It was a glorious evening, and we went out on our Fire engine to a Park where there is a lake.  There we were able to do trailer pump drills, and spent quite a pleasant evening watering the lawns.  We returned to the station to clean up, and left the brasswork glittering.  I forgot to mention before, but I have a souvenir of my Fire Service days to bring with me when I immigrate – that is a cup, which was presented to me by our Company Officer for the most regular attendance at drills for the previous year.  At the moment, there seems no chance of being stood down from the N.F.S. until the war in Europe is finished.

One of the girls in my office wrote to the American Embassy and obtained a form for preliminary application to immigrate to the States.  On this form, amongst other questions, it asks to whom the applicant is going, and the relation to said person.  It was in this connection that I mentioned an engagement because it seemed that this would favour consideration of the application.  I quite agree with you that it is wiser to wait and see how events evolve, before taking this step, but as even a preliminary application to immigrate is at present rather previous, the question does not really arise at the moment.

Please darling, forgive a rather brief letter this week, but maybe by next time I will have more of your letters to answer.

Until then, goodnight and pleasant dreams,

With love,
Joan

April 26 and April 27, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter 33.                                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
26th April, 1945

My dearest Harold,

The glorious spring weather, which I described in my letter to you last week, has broken of course.  It gradually got colder, we had several white frosts, to be followed this evening by a dismal, drenching rain.  It’s depressing just to watch it, and it’s of little use to go to the Fire station, so I decided to turn my thoughts to more pleasant things.  And what could be more pleasant than to sit down and write to the one I am always thinking about, so many miles away though he may be.

To be with you again of course, would be best, but I hope perhaps that as I write – bridging the whole Atlantic Ocean which lies between us – you may perhaps turn a thought in my direction, establishing some sort of telepathic communication.

I was so pleased yesterday to receive your letter of the 10th & 11th April, which arrived in quite good time; I hope mine reach you as rapidly.  I was told today at the Post Office that I was unable to send Air-letters to America, but I had previously sent two, which I felt sure you had received.

We are experiencing now a little improvement in the Home front; there has been no enemy activity over this country for some time, and Churchill tells us we may consider the V1 & V2 warfare as over.  On Monday the blackout restrictions were lifted except in certain coastal areas, and now after 5 1/2 years we are permitted to show lights during the hours of darkness.  It’s surprising how few people are taking advantage of this, but perhaps the habits instilled during 5 1/2 years are difficult to drop just like that. I feel myself that the sense of economy which the war has forced upon us, will remain with me for many years after the days of comparitive peace and plenty return.

There’s really very little news this week – on Monday, because it was my birthday, Kathleen and I managed to change our Fire Service duty round, and with Pat and Moreen we went to the show, and saw “Arsenic and Old Lace”.  Moreen’s husband’s leave has been postponed indefinitely and the “Buck” private to whom Pat is engaged has just been transferred to the Infantry and sent to France.  Looks like the girls will keep my company this summer in my “grass-widow” state.

‘Til next time, my darling,

All my love,

Joan

 27th April, 1945

Good morning darling!

At present I can only write this greeting but perhaps one day not too far distant I may actually be able to say it.

I forgot last night to ask about the second member of the “crew”.  Is he an experienced gunner?  I take it that the half-formulated plans regarding Sgt. Harkabus fell through after all, but I hope you have found someone who will take his place.  It’s terribly important he should be a good gunner – I hope he realizes that.  Tell me all about him when you write.

Love,
Joan

P.S. I know the pilot’s good.

April 28, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 34.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
28th April, 1945

My dearest Harold,

I recently heard someone say that the three loveliest words in the English language when spoken in conjunction were “Do you remember?”  There’s something about the softness of the vowels and consenants together, that makes one repeat the phrase.

And when one has repeated it a few times one begins to conjure up all those happy memories one wants to remember.  Do you remember how, almost a year ago, we met at an Officer’s club party?  I had casually dropped in at Moreen’s as I went by, to see if she was going to Longs, and Paul was there, trying to persuade her to go out to the Field that evening. Naturally, her mother was dubious about letting her go, but when Moreen and Paul suggested I should go too, she was quite agreeable.

And thus it was I was talked into going out in a truck with the rest of the girls, to the first party at “Operations” as it came to be known to us.  I was not too keen to go, for as I believe I have said before, I had hardly met any Americans until then, and I wasn’t at all sure of my ability to mix with them.  It was strange, entering that crowded bar – still keeping close to Moreen for moral support – where it was dimly peopled by masses of pinks, and wings, and bars.  Then after several drinks it was rather hazy, and I remember sitting on some-one’s knee, when suddenly a tall lieutenant appeared out of the haze, and stood before us.  It must have been the effect of the gin, for I remember asking if anyone danced around there, to which he replied he had just been about to ask me, finished up Lt. “Chuck’s” whiskey, and propelled me through the crowded bar and out on to the dance-floor.

And that was just the beginning of it.  There are lots of happy memories after that, and now almost a year later, still on a Saturday night, I am writing to the same tall Lieutenant who appeared out of the haze of a crowded bar.  It’s amazing that I managed to create a favourable impression after such a beginning.  But I do hope from that beginning will stem a love that will see us through many years.

There is a passage from an article in my Digest which comes to mind as I write – “and to thank God for the long years we have been permitted to spend together, and love each other. It is  wonderful that our love has grown until our early love seems as nothing compared with the understanding that is ours now.”  It must  be wonderful to be able to look back after many years of married life, and be able to say that.  If we really do take the decisive step one day, I’ll try to keep it so that one day we, too, could say that.

When I asked what my chances were of settling down happily to make my life amongst Americans, you told me that I was sufficiently adaptable to make the necessary adjustments with little difficulty.  When you left eight months ago you thought I was already becoming “Americanised”, and with the prospect before me of possibly becoming an American citizen, I’ve probably become even more so, whilst still living with my English people.  So that when I finally arrive in the States I should soon learn to express myself and behave in the accepted manner.

I am at present reading a book “The Battle is the Pay-off”, written by Ralph Ingersoll, a Captain in the U.S. Army; his descriptions are vividly expressive, and the terms and phrases, typically American, very familiar.  Some American writers have a wonderful command of descriptive  language, which is sometimes rather unexpected.

Reverting to more everyday subjects, I must mention the weather. I believe it’s true that if one can survive the English climate, one can live anywhere. You may recall, in a previous letter, I described the warmth and beauty of an English spring.  I am disillusioned.

The wind is bitterly cold, and each time the clouds gather, heavy and lowering, for an April shower, it has  the impudence to snow !  Worse than this, the ban on central heating is still in force, and I’ve been chilled right through all the week.  And after telling you how grand it was to go bare-legged – I shiver to think of it now!

Well darling, I guess that’s all right now, so ’til we meet again, I’ll be yours with love,

Joan

May 4, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 35.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND

4th May, 1945

Darling Harold,

I was especially thrilled this week to receive your letter dated 22nd April, which only took nine days to reach me.  Such rapid delivery seems to make the distance between us dwindle into nothingness.

Events in Europe are progressing satisfactorily too.  You know how “stolid” English people are, compared with Americans, but even here all this week there has been an under-current of excitement and anticipation.  The Civil Defence  has been stood down now, but unfortunately not the National Fire Service – we are still “standing by” waiting instructions.

This week too we have been drafting and typing notices and instructions to our various offices and depots all over the country in the event of an announcement being made by Churchill that the war in Europe is officially “finis”, and the shorthand outline for the ‘cessation of hostilities’ has become very familiar to me.  The usually undemonstrative Englishman seems to be getting restless, but I still think it is too soon to get excited about it.

So many people seem to over look the fact that there’s another war to deal with yet, and we’ll have to insist ‘no relaxation of efforts’.

You may tell me I am too optimistic about the present situation in Europe; this is general public opinion, not an expression of a personal opinion.

You said in your letter that many people say you are too serious, and take the war too much upon yourself.  That seems to me to be very true of you.

For myself, I endeavour to keep things in their true perspective, but perhaps on the whole I take life very lightly.  I hope that in this respect we will not clash, but rather help to balance each other.

You spoke of the way in which we carry on under the conditions of war, but when war has been one’s everyday background for over five years, one naturally takes it rather for granted.  It will seem rather unreal when it is over.  You know, darling, man is naturally  a sociable animal and we will have to reach a compromise over that – but don’t worry, I’ll not bother you too much.  I’m not always dashing about – I’ve not been dancing since Easter, and not to the cinema for almost a fortnight.

Til next time,
with my love,

Joan

May 8, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no: 36.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND
VE. DAY.

8th May, 1945

My dear Harold,

Today dawned a bright May morning, a day we have waited for for a long time.  Only a few hours after I received your rather pessimistic letter of the 15th April we heard officially that unconditional surrender of the German people had been accepted by the Allies.  Today is to be held as a public holiday, and this afternoon the Prime Minister will make his Statement in the House.

I think now you will agree, in view of present events that your anticipation that there would still be signs of resistance by Germany in November, was unduly pessimistic.

Moreen, Kathleen and I were grouped around the radio when the unofficial reports were confirmed in the 9 o’clock news bulletin.  All three of us wished we had our men with us at that moment, I could tell.

For a week now the usually undemonstrative, unemotional English people have been waiting for this news, and there are varying opinions as to how a declaration of peace should be celebrated.  Last night we could see the glow of London, for the first time since Jerry bombed it into flames, and by this morning’s newspapers they certainly “let their hair down”, and made a night of it. I can imagine that the American people really went wild!   So far yet all I have been conscious of is a profound relief and sense of thanksgiving.  There strikes me too, a sense of pathos. Amidst that “teeming mass of jubilation” in Piccadilly last night many must have been drowning their sorrows.  Also, those boys still fighting out in the Japanese war are not yet able to celebrate with their folks back home.

I sincerely hope that your forecast of a prolonged Japanese war is erroneous, and that before the end of this year we shall really be able to celebrate peace and be able to start putting the world right.  Now I am going over to collect Moreen, and we shall then attend the Thanksgiving service.

God bless and keep you safe,
Love,

Joan

May 15, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no: 37                                                                                     Sawbridgeworth,   Herts.
ENGLAND

15th May, 1945

My dear Harold,

It’s a week now since official V-day in Europe.  I’m afraid I was not among the people who entered into the celebrations with great enthusiasm for I still maintained I would really go to town when the war was over and complete victory ours.  I am still optimistic about the Pacific war, though I guess the Japs will fight to the bitter end, and it may hang on for some time longer.

On VE night people all over England went really wild with delight; I have great sympathy with the Londoners who have borne so much in the last five years – it must be a wonderful relief to them to know that at last they are safe from all attacks by air.  They had a pretty rough time.  But a great many people, I felt, just wanted an excuse for a “binge”.

All the streets of course are still decorated with flags and bunting; on VE night itself there were bonfires, fireworks and floodlights, all peace-time memories revived.  A grand searchlight display went up over London, and after the King’s speech a . . . – signal was given by the saluting guns.  For the first time since the terrible air raid fires of 1940, London glowed red against the sky.

In the evening I went into town with Kath and her boyfriend to have a look round: –  there was a huge bonfire behind the Red Cross club, and fireworks and floodlighting in the Castle Gardens (Park to you). On the concrete carpark in front of the Red Cross, couples danced with the Stars and Stripes and other flags fluttering above.

Watching these English people let themselves go, I wondered how the people back in the States were taking the news.  I suppose to England, this is really her war, and the Japs are merely a sideline with which we are going to help.  This is what really affects us most, but to a great many of us the war is not yet won.  I’ll wait to hang the flag out when you’re on your way home again.

There’s a lot of little things that seem strange now.  I’d forgotten that telephone boxes were illuminated after dark, and that many public houses had an illuminated sign.  There seems such an abundance of light!  I rather liked the blackout though – it was cosy.

They made last Wednesday a public holiday too, and Kath and I went out cycling.  But returning to work on Thursday we seemed busier than ever, making up for lost time.

On Saturday I went out across country with a girl in the office to collect the cutest little puppie you ever saw.  It was quite a journey to get there; we had to bus to Bishop’s Stortford, bus about  50 mins ride to Buntingford and then had to hire a car to get to Burkland Rectory where the vicar’s wife breeds puppies.  This little fellow was so small we had to carry him, and it was so hot.

Talking of weather, this climate is enough to kill anybody.  In the last week or so the temperature has varied so considerably that while at one time there was snow on the may-blossom (a most peculiar, and really laughable sight), a few days later it was so hot everyone was heading for the swimming pool.  I had not quite arrived when the temperature dropped again.  Just now, I’m hoping it will stay fine, for the coming weekend is Whitsun and Moreen and I have arranged to spend the weekend at Windsor, going straight from the office on Saturday.

Last night Moreen and I went to the show.  The film was “Mrs. Parkington” with Greer Garson and Walter Pidgeon, and we enjoyed it.  She does not know now whether her husband will get any leave in England, or ship straight out to the States or the Pacific.

‘Til we meet again,
With my love darling,
Yours,

Joan

May 20, 1945 (2)

.”The Old House Hotel”,
Windsor,
Letter no. 38.                                                              Berks.
ENGLAND

20th May, 1945

My dear Harold,

This morning as I write to you Moreen and I are sitting in the garden of a hotel in Windsor, built by Sir Christopher Wren in 1665; the garden overlooks the river. On one side is a bridge – on the other side one can look right the river until it bends and is lost between the trees.  A pleasure launch has just passed – looking very gay and holidayfied.  All manner of craft pass constantly by, and all the time very royal-looking swans go up and down the river.

This is a lovely place.  If ever we do go sightseeing in England with our grandchildren, as you once suggested we should really bring them here.  Windsor Castle is magnificent and impressive, especially viewed from Long Walk, down which, as yet, Moreen and I have not ventured.  The town itself is quaint – dear little shops, old buildings, some so irregular as to appear intoxicated.  The Parks here, too are lovely.  We arrived down here from London yesterday afternoon, and do not have to return to Bishop’s Stortford until tomorrow afternoon.  Whitsun provides us with a long weekend.

We arrived and settled in last evening, then after dinner went out to walk around.  Now I am passing the interval between breakfast and church to write my usual weekly letter to you.  I had intended to write in pencil, but found pen and ink in the lounge, which I smuggled out into the garden.  If anyone else wants to write letters this morning, it will be just hard luck.

You should be here now.  The garden is scented with wonderful roses; it’s peaceful and quiet. We are planning a trip down the river to Maidenhead but like so many of our plans it may not materialize.

Do you remember Whitsun last year?  It was so hot – you went swimming, and on the Monday we went to see the Punch and Judy show in the Park, and then to the baseball.  It’s not nearly so hot this year; at the present it is cloudy, but I don’t think it will rain.

On Thursday, I received your letter of the 29th April; by now of course the celebrating has sobered down, and general thought is returning to final victory.  Won’t that be wonderful?

I had a letter from one of the girls who married a G.I. from California, and she was discussing her husband’s demobolization, and the number of points he possessed.  How does this point system work?  Being single I guess your points are low, though of course I suppose the missions count in your favour.

I’ve never heard any more from Tommie, – I guess he’s out now.  Does he write to you?

You spoke about Moreen’s trip to the States and the position of transport.   It seems one has to apply three months in advance, and then go when told; but I believe the position just now is difficult.  As a matter of fact, Moreen has made no move yet to apply and I rather think she is putting it off.  She’s so young, and it is rather hard to leave home, I imagine.

We’re off to St. Georges Chapel, Windsor Castle, now, so goodbye, my darling.

Love,

Joan

May 26, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 39.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

26th May, 1945

My darling,

I believe it is somewhat unusual to receive and reply to a proposal of marriage by post, though it does rather give one a chance to collect one’s thoughts and avoids that “Darling, this is so sudden!” attitude.

We have, for some time, been discussing the possibility of our marriage after the war so that your letter was not such a surprise.  Nevertheless, I was very thrilled.

Your letter was rather a formality, for I think you know my feelings on the subject.  I am fully prepared to come out to America with the intention of becoming your wife, and now that I have your permission I shall file my preliminary application as your fiancée.  It may be necessary, as I think it will, for you to furnish an affidavit stating you are engaged to me and that you are in a position to state I should not be an encumberance on the State.  However, in due course, when I have communicated with the American Embassy in London, I will let you know exactly what is required.  First of all, I shall have to obtain a preliminary application form for permission to immigrate to the U.S.A., and give your name.  For this purpose, will your home address be Arcata or Arroyo Grande?

In so far as this, darling, we might consider ourselves engaged, although the final decision cannot really reached until we meet again.  A little courtship might be desirable before we decide to get married.

By the way, have you yet mentioned me to any of your family?  You can’t have a fiancée turn up unexpectedly from England without some warning.

It is extremely unlikely that I shall be able to arrive in America before you return from the Pacific war, I guess.  Things in England will take a long time to return to normal, and there is likely to be control over employment for some time yet.  At the moment I am still under the Essential Works Order and unable to obtain a release; unfortunately we cannot tell how long the Pacific war will last nor how long it will take to make arrangements for my journey to the States.

I understand that the position of engaged couples will be considered individually by the Embassy.  I doubt if it will be encouraged, and they might make things difficult, for no doubt a number of girls would make the trip to the States and back, if it were too easy; and there is a quota system to study.  Also married girls will doubtless have priority as regards transport.

I would prefer to arrive in the States when you return home, because I’ll need you there to help me.  There’ll be lots to learn, and I would rather you showed me round.

What plans have you got?  You ended your letter by saying you would make no further plans until you had my answer.  Where shall we be married, and how?  I would, of course, have liked it to be in England even though the rest of my life was spent away, but it seems that was not to be.  All my own people will be so far away then – and Moreen.

Moreen’s husband came home from Belgium on Wednesday – flew over for seven days.  She has made no move to get to the States yet, I’m afraid the glamor is wearing thin.  She’s so very young and impulsive, I do hope her marriage turns out successfully.  I do sometimes wish I could instil a little of my cautiousness into her.

Last weekend I wrote to you from Windsor, Berkshire.

Moreen and I enjoyed our weekend very much, with the thought behind it all that we shall be leaving England as soon as possible we appreciate her loveliness more than those who have the rest of their lives to spend here.  I don’t doubt that California is bigger, better and more beautiful, consequently, I should be even happier there than here.  But I guess I’ll be happy where-ever we decide to spend our lives.

Do you ever try to picture how it will be to meet again?  It’s nine months since you left me with “I’ll be seeing you”.  To quote Shakespeare- “Parting is such sweet sorrow, ’til we meet on the morrow” – our morrow may be far ahead, but darling, I’m still waiting patiently.

‘Til next time,
With love,

Joan

(This letter contained a small newspaper clipping. It says: TRAVEL  One control which, far from being relaxed, is going to be tightened in America, is travel restriction.  They are going to put teeth into the slogan “Is your journey really necessary?” because nearly 3,000,000 troops must be transported across America in the next  ten months and vast freight loads for the Pacific war must go by rail)

May 31, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 40.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

31st May, 1945

My dearest one,

Right now, words are inadequate to convey how much I’m still missing you and needing you.  I’d give anything to be there beside you, to see you, hear your voice; and I’d be happy just to sit and hold hands.  Words would be unnecessary then, but for the time being there’s still a vast expanse of land and water to be bridged, and I have to try to convey my need for you in a letter.

The happy memories of last summer are so clearly imprinted on my mind so that the nine months between now and then seem comparitively short; somehow the intervening events from day to day do not seem to have registered.  As you remembered in your letter it is now over a year since that fateful party at Operations where we met.  Little did I dream that a year later I would still be writing to the Lieutenant with whom I was rash enough to make a date on his next day off!

Your letter received today – dated the 20th –  brought you very close again to me.  When you wrote that I was writing to you from Windsor, where Moreen and I spent Whitsun.  I guess you don’t realize how often your letters to me are read and re-read, until I almost  know them by heart; but I didn’t think my letters could stand more than one perusal – they always seem so inadequate to me.  There’s so little one has to write about; life goes on from day to day in the usual way.

Thank Lt. Hughes for his regards which are heartily reciprocated; and when the fellows ask again tell them I’m fine and I’d like the pleasure of meeting them.  I knew a number of that crazy squadron – 497th –  and I can hardly picture you without Lt. Hayes, Harrison, Thompson, Captain Mac, and about three Bdr Macs. – and that Lt. who was from the Wabash, and who, I have always been convinced, was responsible for the disappearance of that “little grey rabbit”.

By the way, talking of that rabbit – the hedges are full of pale pink wild dog-roses now, and I’ll always associate them with the party at the field, when we made our unsuccessful search for that elusive rabbit.  Oh, darling, life was fun, wasn’t it?

You know, I’ve often wondered about your sense of humor – you do always take things very seriously, don’t you?

Do you remember -(returning to the subject of our engagement) that you once postponed the subject because you thought I ought to wait and discover my reactions to Englishmen.  So I took the opportunity this week of going to a dance at Longs which was arranged by the local troops welfare movement for the sole benefit of my fellow-countrymen; I wanted to study my reactions to Limey men.

I’m not trying to flatter your ego, my darling, but to be perfectly candid – I’m more than ever in favour of an American husband.  I found it really hard work to carry on a conversation with any of the men I danced with – I am afraid that girls who have fraternized with our Allies, the G.I.s, are going to find it extremely difficult to mix again with Englishmen.  I wouldn’t run them down, but Americans are just easier to know.  The strange thing to me is that American men seem to like English girls – there must be some reason for this.  I seems so general – not just individual cases.  What’s your opinion?  I wouldn’t change my American fiancé for any one other man I’ve seen yet – hope he feels that way about me!  I expect by now you have had plenty of opportunity to study your countrywomen.  This intermarriage might even, in time, lead to international peace.  Anyway I understand there are 20,000 British wives of G.I.s, and I figure there must be as many again who are engaged to be married.  One of the girls in my office – another Joan – is going up to the Embassy with her fiancé on Monday, so I may get some first-hand information on the subject.

I’ve not broken the news of our engagement to anyone yet – thought I’d better wait ’til you gave me permission.

I went to see the show “Wilson” again last night.  You may remember I mentioned seeing it in Cambridge, but Kath wanted to go last night, and I think I enjoyed it even better the second time.  It’s a good film.

Our N.F.S. activities are practically through now.  Last Sunday we attended a very impressive stand-down parade at Hertford, and after the unfurling of the flag we were induced to listen to a farewell – oh, very pathetic – speech by our Divisional officer; after which we were inspected, and then marched round the streets, watched by an admiring crowd. (At least, we take it that was their opinion)  The only thing that spoilt this latter part of the ceremony was an unexpected rain and hail-storm, but undaunted we carried on, so that we arrived back at the rendezvous fire station a sadly bedraggled and dampened contingent of fire-fighters.  However, most of my memories of Fire Service are connected with water so I guess it was a fitting ending.

England will gradually return to a peacetime state again.  This weekend the basic petrol allowance (sorry, gas to you) will return and we expect to see a few pre-1939 models back on the highways again.  But there’s no hope of improvement in other forms of rationing yet.

Moreen brought Roland over to tea last Sunday; he was due to return to Belgium today, but it doesn’t look good flying weather to me.  They have spent a few days  at Windsor, but I expect their honeymoon has gone very quickly.  Have you any plans for a honeymoon yet, darling?

Do you remember the Corporal I had to ditch on that eventful evening last summer?  Roland has seen him in Belgium, and he tells me that Vince has met a Belgian girl, who is also a Catholic, and whom he wants to marry.  These G.I.s marry anywhere, don’t they?  Some of the boys in Roland’s hut have married French girls, too.

By the way, has Tommie written? I’ve not heard from him for some time now.   I wonder how he is.

I think perhaps I’ve rambled enough for one letter, so ’til next time, all my love, dearest,

Joan

June 10, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 41.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

10th June, 1945

My darling,

This distance between us now seems far less than at first, for most of your letters are arriving in nine days; on Thursday  I was thrilled to receive yours dated the 30th May.

Reading your letter, I think I understand how you feel about this love we share – I look at it rather the same way.  The popular conception of love seems to be  “without the loved one, life is dull and grey”, and I feel those people who see it that way are missing so much.  It’s true life would be much better if we were together, but the very knowledge that one loves and is loved, and that the day will inevitably come when we share the fullness of love, tends to brighten an existence that might otherwise be cheerless and dull.   Perhaps that’s why I can’t see eye to eye with the girl with whom I work, because she is only happy when she has her husband home.  As they have only shared one week of married life in March, since before D-day last year, you can imagine she’s rarely happy.  I could ramble on about this particular girl for pages, because she’s one of my most interesting psychological studies.

I have written the first letter to the American Embassy, to get things started.  When they reply I should get my preliminary application form.  On this application I shall have to fill in my total monetary resources.  When I work it out, it doesn’t look so good – at the moment its about  £160, which isn’t a great deal.  Still, this country doesn’t give one a chance.  I’m paid about £3/5/0 a week, out of which they immediately deduct 10/-d income tax.  By the way, does one have to pay one’s own doctor’s bills in the States?  Here we have a system whereby we pay National Health insurance each week, which is compulsory, and the doctor is paid a nominal sum for each of his Panel patients.  Of course, he still has his private patients apart from this.

In a few weeks time we shall be having a General Election in this country. I’m hoping I’m down on the Electoral roll; though I’m rather disappointed that our particular division is doing so little campaigning.  So far I’ve not even found out which parties are putting up members for this division.  Still, it should be quite exciting – I’m looking forward to it.

England had its first “peace-time” Derby since 1939 yesterday; this town is on the main London/Newmarket road and consequently was choc-a-bloc with private cars yesterday, which manage amazingly on their basic ration of gas.

I’ve been having a quiet week, so there is very little to write and tell you today.  We didn’t do a show at all during the week, though the previous Saturday Moreen, Pat and I went to see “An American Romance”, which was quite good.  Too much molten steel in it, though.

I do hope your brothers’ optimism is justified.  One of the family fighting Japs will be quite enough.  If I remember correctly, Marion is the brother who was in the Postal Service at Pasadena and Earl the one I might confuse with you, but only at a distance.

Last evening Moreen and I went with Kath and her boyfriend Jack, for a drive on the basic ration.  It was a good way of appreciating the English countryside, more especially as it was too windy to cycle far.  This English weather is beyond a joke.   I’m usually amused by its whimsies, but here it is, well into June and I’m still waiting for tennis and swimming.

Moreen will be over soon so I’d better say goodbye, dearest, and til next time.

All my love,

Joan

June 17, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 42.                                                              Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

17th June, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Today promises our first glimpse of summer; as I sit in the garden to write the sun is pleasantly warm.  Much more comfortable, I can imagine, than Louisiana when your letter was written.  But up ’til today it has been unpleasantly cold, dull rainy and windy, and I’m hoping that this change for the better today will be more than a tantalising “flash in the pan”.  I’ve been waiting to play tennis and go swimming – just imagine it’s halfway through June, and it has not been warm enough to swim yet!

In a weeks time Moreen and I will be on holiday at Lewes, in Sussex, about eight miles from the Sea; if the weather will behave  we should get some swimming there.  Last year, following D-day, the water in the English Channel was too oily for swimming, but it should be alright this year.

I think the American Embassy in London must be very busy just now, because they have not yet found time to answer my letter.  Fortunately there is plenty of time to make the necessary arrangements and this is only the beginning.

This week has been quiet; at the office we have been terribly busy, now that we are beginning to export again.  Before I went to Millars’ I was with a firm of Exporting Agents and the very word export seems to hold a fascination for me.

On Monday I went to the show with mother; it was quite good, a little too much Gestapo perhaps, but other wise quite human.

Wednesday Moreen and I cycled out to the lake and the forest; I wouldn’t have dared to take you there, especially after describing them in such magnificent terms.  Neither really deserve their descriptions, but nevertheless it’s a pretty place, peaceful and quiet, where one can laze on the grass beside the water and watch the clouds go by.  We just lazed a little ’til it got rather chilly – it was one of those evenings when the sun made a brief appearance, but the wind was still cold.

We had hoped yesterday, if it had been fine to take a picnic tea out to the forest, but unfortunately it was not.  So I went over to Moreen’s to tea, and then Kath came over too and Moreen talked her into going on to Longs.  I walked down with them, and watched the crowd go in; it’s not a bit like last summer though.  There appeared to be a number of untidy-looking E.M., not the type one would choose to dance with; also a couple of wolfish looking Officers, also of a type one would avoid.  Altogether, the prospect was not enticing so I hoped they would have a good time and left them.  I had a book at home which seemed to me more interesting.

This afternoon I am meeting Moreen and Kath, and maybe if it stays fine we shall be able to have tea out.

Remember your ring, darling?  I often take it out, and place it on my finger where it makes my hand look so ridiculously small.  I do so wish I could wear it, because it reminds me so much of you; but I am afraid it is impossible, except by altering the size of the ring and I don’t want to do that.  I hope that it will not be long before you will be able to wear it again.

I hope by now you have discovered who wrote ‘The Flight of the Bumble Bee’ – I believe it was Rimsky-Korsakov, but no-one seems to be sure.  I like most kinds of music except the heavily classical stuff which needs understanding.

‘Til next time, sweetheart,

Love,

Joan.

June 22, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 43.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

22nd June, 1945

My darling Harold,

It was a wonderful letter I received from you on Monday of this week; a little postwar planning though maybe a little previous, still marvellously upholds morale.  To put it mildly, I was cheered and encouraged by your letter.

As a daydream your first plan was perfect. But neither practical nor probable.  When we get an opportunity to put our plans into operation the details of the latter plan will have to be arranged.  Of course, if possible I would prefer to be met in New York, so that we could enjoy the return trip to California together, but that no doubt will depend on circumstances at the time of my arrival.

Moreen and I have vague plans now about travelling across the Atlantic together; if your desire to marry me as soon as possible after arrival in the States (which is, I suppose more practical) could get you as far as New York, then it would be nice if we could arrange for the ceremony to be performed there, so that Moreen could be present.  She did once suggest we should be married from her home in Windsor, but in the present circumstances it seems unlikely that she will arrive much before I do.

If at the same time we could slip across to Connecticut to see Sheila and Tommie, it would be fun, because it would not be often there would be an opportunity to cross the 3,000 miles to visit friends in New England.

I think I would prefer to be married as soon as reasonably possible, because I’d feel much safer in a strange country with a husband to take care of me.  But, darling, give me time to buy a trouseau in New York, because at the rate they issue clothing coupons in this country I’ll be in desperate need!

As to when we get an opportunity to put plans into practice:- just now, as perhaps you will have seen, the transport situation is very bad.  It has been announced in the papers that it will be at least another ten months before the Americans can use any shipping to transport English wives of G.I.s to the States, and there are 25,000 waiting to go.  At the rate they were transporting wives across before VE day – about 500 a month, I believe, according to the Stars and Stripes, it is a process to take years.  No doubt, in another year’s time the transport position will improve.  These figures do not take into account the number of fiancées, either.  There is probably the same number again who are “engaged” though a great many of them will not hear from their “fiancés” once they have left Merrie England behind.

Pat seems to have been unlucky in this respect.  But only time will prove a lot of these cases.  You and I had very little time together, but we do seem to have a surer foundation on which to  build our love.  Two important elements in love are respect and trust, and here I think we have nothing to fear.

I like to think of this period of separation as a burden which we share – strange though it may sound to share something when we are so far apart.  But the sharing of troubles between two people strengthens the love they have for one another – don’t you agree?

I’m glad you favour a church wedding if possible.  Moreen was married in a Registry Office, and it was not like a wedding ceremony, at all.  All the lovely words there are in a church ceremony were missing; it seems a much more sacred affair when the marriage vows are undertaken in the atmosphere of a church.

Since last Sunday when I wrote the weather here has almost condescended to become summery; its much warmer with longish intermittent periods of sun, and storms that only threaten and never materialise.

June is a sweet-smelling month with hay-making and summer flowers, and its lovely to cycle round the lanes in the evening.  Last Sunday after I had written to you Moreen, Kath and I cycled out to Takely, as you may have noticed by the postmark.  Every evening I seemed to be out.  Monday mother and I went for a ride; Tuesday  I went to the farm to see Kath; on Wednesday Moreen and I went to a political meeting- that was fun; Thursday evening I visited one of the girls in the office, who lives in an outlandish village – So it’s time I spent an evening in.  I thought it best to write to you tonight as tomorrow the Fire Service are holding a Garden Party  in aid of a Memorial Fund, and I’ll be expected to help.  after that I’ll have to do a little packing; then on Sunday Moreen and I are off- to spend a week in Southern England.  So next time I write no doubt I’ll be enlarging on the beauties of Sussex.

Incidentally, I think the American Embassy must be frightfully busy, as I have had no reply to my letter yet.  When Moreen and I are in London on Sunday we may have a chance to drop in at Rainbow Corner and collect some information.  We understand there is a club for wives and fiancées.  By the way, it is possible that civilian passages to the States will be opened – no doubt there will be a long waiting list, but I may be able to get that way while wives are still awaiting army transport.  It’s just a possibility, but I don’t know how the quota system would affect it.  Whilst wives get free transport, I fully expect to have to pay my passage.  Only hope the waiting list is not too long!

Here now we are in the throes of a pre-election, and of course in the circumstances it’s rather an important one, and everyone is taking great interest and getting very heated.  Tonight we had a very comprehensive and clear survey from the Labour party, so that we finished up round the supper table with a lengthy discussion amongst ourselves.  Now I return to my letter it is almost dark.

Til next time, darling.
All my love,

Joan.

July 2, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 44.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

2nd July, 1945

My darling,

It was quite a mail-day today –  with your letter came the one I had been expecting from the Embassy, and also Election literature.  Before I deal with the others I want to write to you as I am a little behind schedule.

Yesterday Moreen and I returned from our week’s vacation in Sussex, and today has been spent resettling into the usual routine of the office.  For a week I relaxed and forgot all about work, and it’s marvellous how one returns to it full of fresh energy and enthusiasm.

First, I’d better tell you something about how we spent our holiday.  When I wrote last I told you that I was helping with the N.F.S. Garden Party on the Saturday.  It was a hot day, and the sun blazed down on us.  All the time I stood in charge of my particular sideshow – The Wheel of Fortune collecting warm pennies, I was thinking how wonderful it would be in the swimming-pool.  I made my excuses quite early to avoid the dancing and went home to pack.

On Sunday Moreen and I traveled up to London where we stayed overnight to split our journey and we went on to Lewes, in Sussex, next morning.  It was very hot while we were in London, so that it was as much as we could do to stagger from the Ice-cream parlor to the shade of the trees in Green Park.  When it became cooler in the evening we went along to Hyde Park, where we spent a very amusing and entertaining evening listening to the “soap-box orators”, who vied with each other in collecting congregations of interested spectators.

There were political groups, religious and hymn-singing parties – all of which were being over-ridden by a crowd intent on plain community-singing, for no apparent reason.  Then as it was getting dusk we walked back through London’s streets to our hotel.

We arrived at my aunt’s house next day in time for lunch, and after settling ourselves in went walking over the Downs, and through the quaint old town of Lewes which boasts a castle more or less in ruins and some old cobbled lanes lined with houses dating from the 14th and 15th century.  The South Downs, which run down to the sea in Sussex, are chalky; the contours are wonderful.  There’s not the ruggedness of mountain but a soft rolling outline, and a wonderful light and shadow in the curves.

Having settled in only eight miles from the English Channel, we decided that first of all we must swim.  On Tuesday it became cloudy, but we felt very brave and ventured into the sea at Brighton; on Wednesday it became colder, but we had our swim in the sea, being the only two foolish enough to venture at that particular time; we also took a bus further along the coast to explore another village but found when we arrived that it was early closing day, and that the beach was still closed owing to unexploded mines.  So we stayed long enough to have our ice-cream, and returned to Brighton.

On Thursday we decided to visit Eastbourne, the coastal town in the other direction.  I had not realised the bomb damage that these Southern coastal towns had suffered, but here the evidence was over-whelming.  Moreen and I battled our way along the Front, but for once decided against swimming.  Then it began to rain, and we sought refuge (as women do) in a large store, where we could window-shop to our heart’s content.  I really wanted shoes, but somehow it seemed all quotas were sold.  The ride back in the bus to Lewes was lovely; on the way we passed the “Long Man of Wilmington”- a huge figure carved out on the hillside in the chalk.  He did rather look as though he needed weeding, but he was still plainly visible for miles.

On Friday we did a roundabout trip which was really the lovliest.  We started by catching  a bus to Seaford – a coastal village, where the ice cream is pretty good!  From there, when we had looked around we walked out of the village up to what the local people call Hindover but which on the old map is described as “High and Over”.

Gradually we climbed up away from the sea until, with a suddenness which took our breath away, we were looking down into a lovely wooded valley, in the centre of which stood the old smuggling village of Alfriston, the quaint old houses clustered round the church spire.  Across the  valley rose the softly modulated heights of the downs, and through the valley curved the River Cuckmere, and there by the chalky white cliffs the river widened slightly and flowed into the English Channel.  It was a wonderful picture – a word description cannot do justice to the wonderfully soft coloring, the mingling of light and shade, and the splash of vivid red of a poppy field.  I just wished you could have been there too – I wanted you so much.  We sat in silence for an hour or so, all the time wishing the ones we loved could have been with us to share the beauty of it.

At last we had to tear ourselves away, and we wandered slowly down into the valley, through the picturesque village of Alfriston with its cobbled streets, and famous Star Inn, and on until we came to a well known place called Drusilla’s Tea Barn, where we stayed for tea.  It was grand; lots of old fashioned brass, and willow-plate, and an ingle-nook fire-place.  After tea, with homemade scones and cakes, we walked on, to the main road where we caught a bus back to Lewes.

On Saturday, being almost at the end of our holiday we were persuaded to visit another sea-side village.  It was quaint. We wanted to swim again before we came home, but the sea was too rough.  So we compromised by changing into our swim suits and playing about on the rocks; of course Moreen had to slip on the seaweed and fall in, thereby getting wet all over.  The wind was blowing the sea up in unfriendly waves so we sat at the edge waiting for the tide to come in, only retreating for very violent waves.  But the tide came in so rapidly we had to make a quick withdrawal and dress before we were cut off from the promenade.  Even walking up there we were almost drenched with the salt spray and buffeted by the wind.

How far, incidentally, is Arcata from the sea?  For swimming I prefer fresh water, but the sea is fun and very invigorating.

Unfortunately, on Sunday when we had to return it rained, but we managed to take a walk and tell the Downs goodbye.

Today, I received the form from the Embassy, and when I have completed it I shall feel that I have really begun to get things started – no doubt it will take some time, but even a start means progress.

I don’t know how closely you are following our political situation, nor quite what your country’s attitude is, but it’s drawing rapidly nearer to the Election date.  This will be the first time I have had an opportunity to record a vote.  The trouble with our politics is that we have to choose the party, not the man, and the politicians are deliberately trying to confuse the issue.  This is a bad time to hold an Election in some ways; in other ways it might be a good opportunity. It seems it might be rather a close thing.

Your systems of “Health insurance” are interesting, and I should imagine quite effective.

After reading your letter about the employment of stenographers, etc, it would rather seem I am wasting my time here, wouldn’t it?  But, darling, an efficient secretary doesn’t have to “save the boss’s neck when he forgets an appointment” – she’s there to see he doesn’t forget.  A busy man can’t worry with little things like that – don’t I know?

Normally, in peacetime the majority of English women devote their time to the house and family.  Of course, wartime had upset that a lot, but what is the American angle on the “Career-after-marriage” girl?  I realise that in general you have more labour-saving devices in the home than we have, the lack of which does restrict an English wife’s activities, so that few of them have time to work after marriage.

Also in a small place like Arcata, are there any special activities in which a school teacher’s wife is expected to interest herself?  Could you, some time, sort of roughly outline the life you expect we shall lead, so that I can formulate an idea of what to expect.

Whilst we were in London, I called in at Rainbow Corner to enquire about the Club for wives and fiancées of American service men and was told that we were welcome on the 2nd Tuesday of each month, in the evening.  Unfortunately this is rather impossible.

Must go now darling; I do seem to have rambled an awful lot tonight.

Until next time, all my love.

Joan.

July 9, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 45.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

9th July, 1945

My darling,

Another week has passed, and at last we are really beginning to enjoy an English summer.  We are dubious about how long it will last, but, however brief, it is nevertheless greatly appreciated while it is here.

Yesterday was a really glorious day.  Moreen and I packed up a picnic lunch and tea and cycled over to the Pool at Latton – do you remember where we swam last year?   After our swim we had lunch and sunbathed, but when the pool began to get rather crowded about the middle of the afternoon we moved further down the river to a quieter spot to have tea.

Apart from swimming I also managed to get a little tennis in at the Club last week, and we shall probably go down there again tomorrow.  The firm runs a Tennis Club, and I managed to get Moreen enroled as a member too.

Last Wednesday being Independence Day we decided we should at least celebrate by going in to Longs, so I went along there with Pat and Moreen and a crowd of girls from the office.  It was quite fun, but almost entirely devoid of men – guess they must have shipped out.  I’ve been to Longs so infrequently recently that I did not notice them go.

Your old squadron is being split up now in France, but Moreen’s husband still does not know where he will be going.

Polling day in our General Election was last Thursday, and of course there were last minute political discussions in the office, and attempts to convert others with the opposite views.  It was quite amusing, because everyone had apparently made up their minds on the subject and had very definite opinions.  The “true-blues” flaunted blue cornflowers, but of course in a Conservative stronghold like our firm I noticed no-one wearing the emblem of the Labour party.

However, by Friday the excitement seemed to have died down, as the results will not be known for several weeks.

I noticed from my diary that this time last year you had just returned from your rest-trip to Scotland, just in time for the usual party in the Officers’ Club at the Field.  Doesn’t really seem a year ago, does it?  But as the months pass it is that much nearer to the time when we can be together again.  My preliminary application to the American Embassy has been made, but I expect it will be a long time before I hear again, as they are very busy.  Still, having made my application I have my name on the files, and when I have been informed of the necessary documents to be obtained, my name will eventually come round for consideration; applications will be dealt with in turn.

Til next time, darling, all my love,

Joan.

July 14, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 46.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

14th July, 1945.

Dearest,

I had hoped for a letter this week, but for the first time for a considerable time I have been disappointed.  Mails have been coming through fairly regularly recently.

However, I did hear from the American Embassy again.  I received detailed instructions regarding all the necessary pro-cedure to obtain a visa to enter the United States, and also instructions to my “sponsor” regarding the Affidavit, and form of Affidavit in duplicate to be completed by you.

Briefly, the procedure is as follows.  A form of affidavit has to  be completed by you, and returned to me, and I turn submit it to the American Embassy.  If it is approved I should obtain a letter on Form 4 (whatever that is!), upon receipt of which I can go to a Shipping Company and arrange transport.  This, for fiancées, is not arranged by the military or naval authorities, as in the case of wives, so I should imagine the transportation situation would be easier.

Then having obtained a letter from shipping company, and a rail ticket from port of arrival to final destination, I can apply at the British Embassy for Exit Permit and passport. (Here it is noted that it is the general policy of the British Embassy only to issue Exit permits when the fiancé of the proposed immigrant is actually in the States)  So that it would be almost impossible for me to enter the U.S. while you were waging war in the Pacific; consequently, I suppose I had better retain the affidavit forms for a while.

To return to this complicated procedure, when an Exit permit and passport has been obtained from the British Embassy one may make an appointment to attend at the American Embassy with an assortment of  documents, which includes letter of appointment, letter from Shipping Company, 2 certified copies of Birth certificate, three photographs, Exit permit and passport.  Then the applicant is medically examined and if everything is in order a visa will be issued.  The visa is then valid for 4 months.

Perhaps you will let me know what you think about this; and whether you consider I should keep the affidavit forms until you return to the U.S.  Also, in addition to a lot of other information, you are required to solemnly declare that you will marry the girl immediately on her arrival.

To get back to the topic of the weather, it’s been most erratic.  Sometimes very hot, but wet and thundery too.

I was rather upset this week when a great friend of mine lost her baby soon after it was born.  I know how much she looked forward to it’s arrival, and I can feel how terribly disappointed she must be.  It’s strange, but so often the nicest people have the most suffering and disappointment to bear – it’s not a fair world.

Moreen and I have been quite domesticated this week.  Her mother has a split cartilage in her knee, and her doctor insists on absolute rest so she has had to go to bed.  Consequently we have had a free hand in the kitchen, which was fun.  Tonight I am going to a Musical Concert with the girls at work – I’m not terribly musical, but it should be enjoyable.

Til next time, my darling,

love

Joan.

July 20, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 47.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

20th July, 1945.

Darling,

I expected your letter this week to arrive from California, as it did, and of course I missed last week’s letter.   But the memory of you was very close to me, and I knew you had not forgotten.  I had only to close my eyes and I could see you so clearly that it might have been only last week we said ‘so long,’ and not almost a year ago.

From your letter I gathered you would not be returning to Lake Charles before setting off for the next theater of operations, so I hope my letters there will be forwarded on to you with the least delay.  Until, I get a new address, however, I’ll continue to write to Louisiana.

I am glad so many of the family managed to be at Arroyo Grande – wish I could have been there too, guess you had a wonderful time.  Did the family pass any comments on our plans?  You did not say how long a furlough you had.

Things are very quiet here.  After being “in the war” for 5 1/2 years, this period is more irksome, because we have all the restrictions of war without the dangers of it.  I understand a little how the people in the U.S. must have been feeling; there’s so little one can do.

It surely can’t take more than a year to defeat the Japs, and by next summer you should be back in the States again.  Then we shall be able to make progress with our plans, for as I mentioned in my letter last week I now have the affidavit forms for completion.

The clocks have been put back an hour again, to normal British summer time, so that we are now once again 5 hours ahead of New York.  Last week it was light ’til 11 pm, but now it’s 10 o’clock – the evenings are getting short for playing tennis, even if the weather were suitable, which it is not.

Last Saturday after I had written to you, I went with the girls to a Musical Concert given by the local Musical Association, which was really quite good.  I stayed  with Moreen overnight, when we had the most marvelous “pre-war” thunderstorm.  It was a most impressive sight, and those who could remember said we hadn’t had a similar storm for a great many years. I was amused by Kath’s story (from the farm) where she said her father had kept a bottle of whiskey for use during air raids, but it took a thunderstorm to bring it out!

Since then the weather has been unsettled – cooler, cloudy and windy.  What a climate!

On Wednesday Moreen and I went to see Charles Laughton in “The Barretts of Wimple Street” at the Regent.  It is of course an old film, but we had not seen it before, and we enjoyed it very much.  Also in the program was a technicolor effort “Memphis Belle”, the story of a Fort on a bombing mission over Germany.  Rather too realistic for pleasure, certainly  wasn’t a “milk run”, but the familiar flying terms reminded me of you and that was pleasant.

Darling, I wish I could convey to you how much I still think of you and miss you – though the time we spent together was so brief in comparison with the long months that follow.  You seem so much a part of my life now, and all my future hopes and plans are based around you, I can’t imagine it any other way.

Until next time, with my love,

Yours always,

Joan.

July 27, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 48.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

27th July, 1945.

My darling,

This week as I write we are still breathless at the amazing results of our General Election announced yesterday; it was far greater than we had anticipated, and the great majority with which the Labour Party was returned shows it was no half-hearted Election but a very definite change over to Left Wing Politics.  It’s amazing how the people have come to think for themselves, and were able to see further than the Tory propaganda cry “Support Churchill – vote for his Party”.  Pre-election forecasts gave no indication of public opinion, and the results have created great surprise everywhere.  Never before has the Labour Party been returned with a working majority, and at last they will have a chance to tackle things without Tory interference.  I wonder what America’s reaction to our change in Politics will be?

Forgive me if I appear to be too heated on this subject – but it’s more thrilling than VE day.  I’m not usually “excitable” but I am really thrilled that after all the mud-slinging the Conservative candidates indulged in, we were yet able to produce a Labour Government.  Your politics are so different to ours, that maybe you won’t understand my ravings – please forgive me.

To turn to lighter things, dearest.  Since I wrote last Friday I have had two letters from Lake Charles.  The postal service is certainly looking up, for today I received your letter postmarked 23rd – which was Monday.  The mail service between our two countries is as good as that between England and Scotland last July.  Do you remember writing to me from Scotland, and your letter  not arriving until after you returned in time for the Camp party?

In your letter last week you mentioned visiting Los Angeles in search of a ring; it’s a very sweet idea, and rather unexpected, but as soon as it arrives I will let you know.  I appreciated the “bigger, better and more beautiful” cutting; can’t really see darling , why you should import a wife to a place like that, but still she’ll be very thrilled to come.

A friend of mine in the Fire Service here married a G.I. who was stationed at Dunmow, and he has now returned to the U.S. for demob.  I called on her last night and she is going ahead with plans for her trip to Minnesota to join him.

I probably mentioned that Moreen’s husband was going out to the Far East too; he volunteered for Burma as he was tired of doing nothing in France, and Moreen’s mad at him for volunteering.  Still, men are mostly crazy and it’s not much use getting mad at them, is it?

I’ll be staying at Moreen’s most of next week, as the family will be away.  My father and brother are setting off on a cycling tour tomorrow – weather permitting, and mother will go down to Sussex on Monday.

Our erratic weather has broken again, and its real cold for July.  Is it still as hot at Lake Charles? – but I guess it will still be hot in the Pacific, so you’ll have to get used to it.

I’m so glad you appreciate my poor literary efforts – I often wonder if they are worth posting, for to me they make very poor reading.  But somehow our letters do keep us closer together – yours mean a great deal to me.  Maybe we should continue to write each week when we are eventually living together – would be a novelty!

Until next time, my darling,

Love,
Joan.

August 3, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 49.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

3rd August, 1945.

Sweetheart,

When I arrived home this morning, amongst a litter of daily newspapers and postcards lying on the mat there was a very welcome letter from Lake Charles.  No-one has been home since Monday so I can’t tell which day it arrived.

Since last weekend all the folks have been away and I have been staying in Bishop’s Stortford with Moreen; as I didn’t expect any mail until  the end of the week this is my first visit home.  My second week’s vacation starts today so I came home to do the shopping and give the house a “lived-in” atmosphere before the others arrive back.  Mother will be away most of next week, so I’m going to be able to get in a little practice on my unfortunate father and brother.

I’ve been messing around in the kitchen most of the morning, but I guess cooking for two would be more fun.  I can amuse myself for hours so long as no-one bothers me.

First of all to answer your letter; although I would very much like to go further with my visa application, the way things are right now it would probably be wiser to wait.  When you return to the States I will send you all the necessary papers for completion, and by then perhaps the transport situation will have eased.

Your rather hesitant suggestion about the cost of my journey to join you is fully understood and appreciated; when I come out to the States I shall only be allowed to bring £10 in English currency, which means that somehow or other I shall have to have the remainder of my money transferred to an American Bank.

I’m not quite sure how it is done, as at present most of my money is in the Post Office Bank, who do not carry out transactions of this sort, and I shall have to open an account with one of the Banks that do.  But in any case I have sufficient here  to buy my ticket through to California – would you prefer to retain the money in the U.S. on my behalf?  I leave it to you, darling.

I was pleased to note that our new Labor government is viewed with favour in the States; you will already have received my letter following the results of the Election and you know my opinion.  As far as I can see, it will make for better co-operation between the Three powers; this country has been ruled by the aristocracy far too long, and this sweeping  change is in the nature of a revolution.

I have been staying with Moreen since Monday, when we went down to the Tennis Club for a game of tennis.  It begins to get dark rather early now, so we weren’t able to play very long.  Then on Tuesday, as the weather was cold and dreary we went to the show; the film was Noel Coward’s “Blithe Spirit”, and though rather exaggerated, was very amusing.  Last evening was fine so we cycled out to Takely Forest – it’s a ride that brings you very close, for to get there we have to pass the spot where we said goodbye.

I do wish you were here now.  It seems as though I only had to think hard enough about you to make you materialize here beside me; whereas all it does is to conjure up a picture of you, which is very delightful, but not really satisfactory.  But if anything, I think maybe I feel nearer to you in spirit than I did a year ago, because we’ve got to know one another better.  A year ago we were really only just beginning to get acquainted.  This year I am happily settled in the knowledge that it is only a question of time before we are together again, and embarking on a life partnership which should bring us so much happiness.

I have been rather disturbed at Moreen’s indifference to her husband.  It was unfortunate that they married in such haste; but now he is bound for Burma I think she is beginning to realise that she may not see him for quite some time and that she is fonder of him than she thought.  Being an only child, it’s going to take her some little time to appreciate that she has to adjust herself to a husband.

As I write to you this afternoon, I am lying out on our “pocket-handkerchief” of a lawn, in the sunshine of one of England’s rare and unexpected summer days.  It’s pleasantly hot and I have a fancy to go swimming.  Alternatively I have an urge to be lazy, and I guess the latter urge will win.   I had thought it extravagant to make tea when I’m all alone, but the English in me won, and by my side is a tea-tray.  I’m afraid it’s an English trait I’ll never lose.  But the best cup of tea is the very first one before breakfast!

Talking of personal habits and idiosyncrasies, I wonder if you read in bed?  I’ve discovered, to my surprise, that quite a number of people do.  Moreen will lay for an hour or more with a book, even reading out loud, if I’ll let her!

Did you ever hear any more from Tommie?  I wrote to them last week, so I hope I get a reply telling me what they are doing.  He promised me a picture of the baby, but I’ve never heard any more.

By a recent mail I also had a letter from an American girl with whom I correspond.  She is the sister of one of the boys I met out here, and lives in South Carolina.  She seems an awfully nice girl, writes me nice letters – is married and has two children.  I’d surely like to pay her a visit when I arrive “home”, but I’ve got so many people to see.  If I ever got down to Miami to see my Uncle, maybe I could call in and see Beulah.  I already feel I’ve got a number of friends in the States, scattered all over though they may be.

This week Beulah tells me the American girls will not be wearing hose until the fall – that’s fine, fits in with my ideas perfectly.

I suppose darling that’s enough drivel for one week, if you’ve managed to read this far.  So ’til next time, don’t ever change-

All my love,

Joan.

Also, tucked inside this envelope is a small scrap of paper on which is typed:
The word “gotten” is as English as Edward IV, who used it.  Absolutely English and “pinched” by the Yanks.
We speak of be-gotten or ill-gotten gains.  The word was English in the year 1340.

August 11, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 50.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

11th August, 1945

My own darling,

Events this week have brought us much nearer to our re-union; although the war still seems to be continuing, in view of the use of the atomic bomb and the advent of Russia into the war one cannot help but be optimistic about the speedy conclusion of hostilities.  I was in London yesterday when the news of Tokyo’s offer of surrender came through, and I believe the West End crowds did a little premature celebrating.  At any rate crowds of G.I.s, with their girls, swarmed into the tube train at Hyde Park, all looking a little inebriated, at the early hour of seven in the evening.

I went down to spend the day with my grandmother and to travel back through London with my mother.  Now we are all back at home once more; my father and brother look extremely brown and well after their cycling tour of the East coast.  Rather an energetic way to spend a holiday but they seemed to enjoy it.

Last weekend when I wrote it promised to be a week of glorious sunshine but it only lasted three days, during which time I managed several swims.  We went over to the pool at Latton where we swam last year.

This brief spell of sunshine was followed by a cold, dismal week of cloud and rain.  I’ve seen a couple of shows but apart from that haven’t done anything much.

Last week I had your letter giving your impression of me, and I’ll confess it didn’t seem particularly familiar; I began to wonder if you had formed a very accurate picture of me, and whether you would be rather disillusioned when we meet.  I hadn’t realised I was so – well, almost curt in my responses at your attempt at conversation!  I cannot remember now the details of our conversation that first night you cycled to Sawbridgeworth with me – I believe some of it was over your interest in our education, and quite probably my “brief summary” was to cover up my ignorance on the details of the subject.  But it’s probably my habit to waste as few words as possible, partly the result of précis work, and a training in commercial correspondence.

I’m not quite sure, talking of education, how I shall compare with your American standards; did I ever tell you much about it?  I had a reasonably good education according to English standards, but there is still a good deal of progress to be made in this direction after the war.

At five I went to the local Elementary School (the village school), and being one of the brighter pupils at eleven I took and passed a scholarship to the High School in Bishop’s Stortford.  Here we took a more extended curriculum, which led eventually to the School Certificate, or school-leaving exam.  The subjects for this included Maths (Arithmetic, Algebra, Geometry, Trigonometry) English, French, Geography, History, Biology.  I had to give up Latin – it was the one subject I ever failed on!

Improvements could have been made at our school to extend the curriculum further, and include domestic science and business training as further subjects.  Some of these types of schools do, but ours unfortunately specialised in a “classical” education, and entries to the Universities.

Apart from the School Cert. subjects I took Art and Needlework, and part of our time was taken up by games and gym.  When I got to sixteen I took my School Cert. exam, which I passed quite easily with Credits in all six subjects I took, which entitled me to a Matriculation exemption.  I don’t quite know what your equivalent of Matric. is, but I suppose you have some idea.

After that I had six months at Pitman’s Business training college where I took Shorthand, typing and commerce, including commercial correspondence.  I believe you once told me you learnt Gregg shorthand?

Apart from High schools and Grammar schools which are in the same category, there are of course the Public schools, which are far from “Public”, being terribly exclusive.  For places like Eton and Harrow one’s name has to be down almost from birth, I believe.  The Universities of course provide the highest standard of education..

Some time you must tell me all about your school and the kids you teach.  I think you said there were two grades you taught, 8-9, and something a bit older. 12-13, or something like that.  By the way darling, what do you teach them?

There’s one thing I would like you to do sometime.  As the time draws nearer when we may begin to put our plans into operation I would like you to write briefly to my mother and father, outlining our intentions and hoping we have their blessing.  I’m over age so of course their permission is not necessary, but I know they would appreciate a letter from you, as their future son-in-law.  If we had a daughter going 6,000 miles to marry a man we knew but vaguely, I guess we’d know how they would feel; my happiness is their main concern I know, but if you could assure them that you’ll take good care of me I think they would appreciate that.  They like you very much, fortunately.

I’ve missed my letter from you this week, my dearest, but maybe the posts are delayed.  If however you have commenced your journey, I hope your stay in the Pacific will be brief; my prayers are with you continually, so ’til next time,

All my love,

Joan.

August 19, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 51.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

19th August, 1945.

My darling,

After several days of wondering and waiting it was a great relief to hear our Prime Minister’s announcement, broadcast by the B.B.C.  at twelve midnight last Wednesday and to know that so many lives would be saved by the Japanese agreement to our surrender terms; my thoughts were more than ever with you at that time, for all this brings the ultimate realisation of our dreams so much nearer than we had ever thought possible.  Sooner now than we had hoped we will be able to go ahead with our plans for me to join you.  Cést “après la guerre” now, darling.

It does seem as though our countries were unprepared for such a speedy victory in the Far East, and consequently their plans for the switch over from war to peace production will have to be speeded up accordingly.  We understand that various controls have already been lifted in the U.S.; I’m glad they are not doing that here yet, for I imagine it would be rather chaotic.  For us, the end of the war will only mean very gradual changes.

But I do hope the transport situation improves now.  When you can give me some idea of your future plans I can let you have the forms of affidavit, as my first step is to have your affidavit approved.

I had intended going to Church this morning but as it rained I decided to write to you instead, and maybe go to the Evening service later.  Today is a national day of prayer.

Last week I was alternatively busy and slack.  The first two days at the office were hectic, for after the Works closing for their annual holiday, piles of work had accumulated in our absence.  Then of course, Wednesday and Thursday were declared public holidays, and we returned to the office to work furiously for another day and a half!

I considered going to London on VJ day, but afterwards when I heard reports from some of those who went, I was rather glad I stayed down here.  Kathleen and I went over to Bishop’s , and after going to the show (Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall in “To Have and Have Not”,) we went down to the Park where as before, there was dancing, with a bonfire and fireworks, and behind the park was a fair with swings and roundabouts, and everything, so we stayed down there for a while.  I am afraid I couldn’t quite appreciate the “hooliganism” – perhaps I needed you to share it with; my feeling was one of great relief, and my first reaction after several days of tension was a sudden flood of thankful tears.

Yesterday mother and I took a train ride to Broxbourne (about 20 mins ride towards London) and after wandering around the shops had tea in a “Tudor Café” and afterwards went to the show there.  The film was Hollywood Canteen – have you seen it?  Dad and Tony were playing in the Sawbridgeworth Silver Band at a fête in Sawbridgeworth, where they tell us they gave a very good performance, though to a very small audience.

Last Sunday I went over to Moreen’s and who do you think came in?  It was the little Corporal Wojuick, a friend of Roland’s, with whom I had to break that date, exactly a year ago today.  He’s gone back to Minden, Germany, as he is lucky enough to be in the European Occupation army.  Well, of course, we had to go down to the Red Cross Club, as it was their very last dance; the Club closed on Tuesday.  Moreen says Roland expects to get some more leave to England before shipping out;  I guess he’ll go back to the States now, and she’ll be making plans to join him.

There’s really nothing more to tell you at the moment; I’m waiting on a letter from you, but the holidays last week rather upset the mails, and they seem to be delayed. So ’til next time, all my love, darling,

Yours,

Joan.

August 21, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 52.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

21st August, 1945.

My dearest Harold,

I don’t need telling twice, so after receiving your letter last evening I decided to send off the affidavit forms straight away.  So here they are, and the instructions I had from the Embassy are –

‘If your fiancé is a member of the American Armed Services, an affidavit from him may be prepared in accordance with the attached blank form of affidavit and corroborated by his commanding officer or by an officer who is custodian of his service record.  If your fiancé is not a member of the Armed Services, an affidavit from him may be prepared in accordance with the enclosed Leaflet B and corroborated by letters from employers, bankers, or other responsible third parties.’

So I hope it is quite clear what you have to do.  Not knowing when you are likely to be demobbed I suppose you will have to complete the enclosed blank forms.  Otherwise an affidavit should be prepared as described in Leaflet B.

You will now have a better idea what your plans will be, in view of developments last week.  It did not seem possible the war could end so soon, did it?  Of course, things will take time to get straight again.

I am terribly busy at the moment so can hardly call this a letter, but I wanted to get the forms off to you as soon as possible.

I’ll be seeing you,

All my love,

Joan.

 

(enclosed in this letter was Leaflet B)

August 27, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 53
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

27th August, 1945.

Dearest Harold,

I postponed writing to you this week until the sun shone as it’s been a most depressing week all round, and I felt I shouldn’t  write you long, miserable letters, although possibly I should have felt better if I had.

In one recent letter you said you sometimes thought the world was in a sad state, and last week I really felt you were right about that.  To begin with, the weather was cold and dismal – dark, drizzly evenings when the only sensible thing to do seemed to be to settle round a fire with some knitting and the radio, or a book, but that wasn’t practicable because we have to conserve fuel for winter needs and it’s impossible to buy wool even if one could spare the coupons.

In addition the prospect of the coming winter is none too bright.  I could cover pages on food and clothes rationing, but the cuttings shows more or less what I mean.   When milk allowance is 1/3pint per head per day, and butter 2ozs per week, margarine 4ozs and lard 1oz, one can’t be expected to put on a lot of weight!  We have cheerfully borne these shortages for six years, but it’s getting dreadfully monotenous now.  And clothes rationing is a subject to be avoided.

The sudden cessation of Lease-lend will of course, add to our troubles this coming winter although of course people over here do realise it could not continue indefinitely; still, I think the American people can’t understand what it means to us, especially when we hear how America is rapidly reverting to peacetime standards.  The housing problem is acute; and stocks of food and clothes lower than they have been before.  Our new Government certainly has difficult tasks ahead.

Too much about our troubles; did you manage to survive August in Louisiana?  or am I addressing letters to a grease-spot on a steaming sidewalk, somewhere in the Southern States?

I despatched the affidavit forms last week, and hope they reached you safely.  So far there’s no sign of the ring; when did you eventually get it posted?

We are having a few more days of late summer here now; yesterday Kathleen persuaded me to go and watch the N.F.S. play the Sawbridgeworth Cricket XI.  I think cricket is a dull game and awfully boring to watch, but I went along to support the Fire Service; of course, we lost.

On Saturday I was roped in to help with a contest the local silver band organized, and since my brother plays the cornet and dad is Hon. Sec., I went along and cut sandwiches and poured cups of tea.  It was quite fun, and Tony got 2nd prize playing “I’ll walk beside you”.

I’m going to post this on my way to tennis; I’ve agreed to play in a match on Saturday and must have some practice; trouble is to get any decent weather.  Please forgive my moans and groans, darling, but I feel better now.

‘Til next time,

Yours,

Joan.

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September 1, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter 54                                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

1st September, 1945.

My dearest Harold,

It is in a much happier mood that I sit down to write to you this afternoon; on my “third finger, left hand” glitters the ring that is the symbol of the tie that binds us, and I have just received your very welcome letter from Florence.

The ring is lovely, darling – an excellent sample of what California can produce; and you’ll never believe it, but it fits my finger without the slightest alteration.  So of course I wore it straight away much to the delight and envy of my workmates.  In a way, it marks an anniversary for us, because it was a year ago on the 3rd September that we had to make our temporary goodbyes.

I am pleased you are going to write to Mum and dad; don’t let it get you down, there isn’t really much you need to tell them but they will be very pleased to hear from you.  They are very pleased, because I think they consider we are a well-matched couple, and both send their best wishes to you.  I have no doubt they will both write to you when they get your letter.

I hope the affidavit forms I sent will have followed you on to Florence.  What do you consider is the best thing for us to do in our plans for getting me to join you?

If I find that I can book a passage reasonably soon, provided you stay in the U.S., would it be advisable to go ahead with my arrangements, even though you may not be demobbed.   A wife would give you more points, and enable you to get out quicker.

You don’t seem too clear about your own plans yet, but I am wondering if a wife would be an asset or a hindrance.  I would like to come out as soon as ever it was possible to book a passage; I don’t know too much about civilian transportation but I fancy it is better than the military, and it would be reasonable to suppose one might manage a trip next spring or early summer.  If I came over while you were still in the Army I could possibly get a job to occupy my time.

Supposing I arrived before you were demobbed, do you stand a chance of compassionate leave to marry the girl?

If you think all this is too optimistic, don’t hesitate to tell me so.  Perhaps it’s due to a growing impatience to be with you again; I know I’m capable of waiting, but I don’t want to wait any longer than is strictly necessary.

As far as your job goes after the war, it doesn’t really matter what you do so long as you are happy doing it and can spare a little time for your wife at weekends. Lumbering sounds rather fun, but isn’t it a full time job?

Moreen is going ahead now with her arrangements to get to the States, as Roland is on his way home and expects to be out of the Army by the New Year.

Sometimes the past year has seemed to drag, but looking back now it doesn’t seem as long as that since we were last together.  But then, it did not seem possible that in less than a year both wars would be over, and the world would be trying to settle itself down again.

What is it like at Florence, and what are you doing now?  Is it anywhere near Rockhill?

It seemed silly to start a fresh sheet just to ask you that, because I cannot for the moment think of anything I specially want to tell you; except of course, I still love you and seem to miss you more as time goes by.  I’ve heard other girls say that when their men are away the image gets blurred and vague, but to me still the memory of you is so vivid sometimes I could almost picture you were here.

Until next time, darling,

with love,

Joan

P.S.I shouldn’t be surprised if in a year or so you have me saying “Now, in California………”
What do you think?

September 8, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

Letter no. 55                                                                                           8th September, 1945.

Dearest Harold,

Another week has passed since I wrote to you; there’s been little to report; just the usual complaints about the weather.

However last Sunday was a remarkably lovely day, and I joined Moreen and her family (including her Aunt, Uncle and Cousin Yvonne) who were blackberrying in Takely Forest and we had a picnic tea under the trees, where they built  a fire and boiled water and made tea in the traditional English fashion.  We had to hang cans of water on the branches of the trees so that Nan (she’s the dog) would not drink it first.

The evenings get dark and cold rather early now, so that tennis and swimming are out of the question.  I went up to the farm on Wednesday as Kathleen and I had intended to go to a show; but when I arrived a calf had died, and as Kath was “managing” the farm while her father is in Scotland, she had to get busy and arrange for the vet. to perform a post-mortem.  By the time everything was fixed it was too late for a show, so we went round the farm and shut everything up and fed the animals, then went in round the fire to look at old postcards, some of Pasadena, which an aunt had sent on her travels.

Next evening I went in to tea with Sybil – my friend in Bishop’s Stortford, who lost her baby.  She’s still feeling rather depressed about it, and I have promised to go in again next week.

This evening I think I’ll go over and see Moreen; I’m planning to go to London tomorrow to see my grandmother, and I’m wondering if she will come with me.

My boss has installed a new toy in the office this week – a dictaphone, and I must confess I’m not thrilled with it.  I’d far rather work from shorthand notes, than have his voice in my ear all the time.  I hope it is only on trial, and maybe if it’s not successful he will send it back.

Your letter containing your affidavit has just arrived, so now I’ll be able to go ahead and submit it to the Embassy for their approval; I don’t know how long that will take but I guess then I’ll be able to go ahead and wait my turn for transport.  That way, I’ll be with you as soon as ever it is possible.  You won’t mind if I arrive before your demob. is through, will you?  I suppose the possibility of your going to the Pacific as occupying forces has been ruled out now?  -would be awful if I arrived and found you gone.

Anyway darling, I take it that I have your permission to go on with the involved proceedings so that no time will be wasted.  Passport photographs are notoriously unflattering but I have just had mine done and they are not at all bad; I think I’ll be recognized as I pass through the Customs, etc.  I do hope you’ll be able to meet me, as I’ll feel awfully lost in New York for the first time.

Still thinking about you always and missing you as much as ever, til next time, dearest,

Yours with love,

Joan.

September 16, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 56                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

16th September, 1945.

My darling,

Your letters to me seem to travel more quickly than mine to you; last evening I received your lengthy letter of last Sunday, which was very typically “you” and I enjoyed our chat as much as you, though as usual I didn’t manage to get a word in. For more than a year now we have been writing these weekly letters to each other, and they seemed to have bridged the gap that distance makes very satisfactorily.

For some time I have intended to write to your mother at Arroyo Grande, do you think she would mind? I would like to feel I knew some of your people before I arrive, so they will not be complete strangers to me. I know I’ll soon get to know everyone, but I’d like to write if you think she would not mind. There’s already a large family to keep up correspondence with, I know.

Have you any indication yet as to when you will be de-mobbed? I have submitted your affidavit to the American Embassy, but it will be a matter of several weeks before I get their approval to go ahead and arrange transportation. We are having another day off from work on the 25th (our third V.E. day) and although I do not expect the Embassy to have sent their approval by then, I may go to London and enquire at one of the Shipping company’s offices to find out the position. That will be my only opportunity, as later on I shall have to ask for time off for any business like that.

While we are discussing transport, I think it would be a wonderful idea to be met by a private ‘plane. However, we are told here when booking our sea passage we should also buy a rail ticket from “port of arrival to final destination”. The reason, I suppose, is that we are only allowed £10 sterling, and the fare alone more than exceeds £10. So I ought to have some idea of our plans before booking rail tickets. If you met me it would be alright, but it would be rather unfortunate to be stranded in New York with insufficient money while you were in the process of being demobbed.

When I make enquiries from the Shipping Company, I should have a better idea when I shall be able to come across; at the moment I haven’t an indication. The girls waiting for Army transportation are forming a long queue, but I am hoping to be independent and travel as a “civilian”.

As you should know by now, the ring arrived safely soon after my letter to you; it traveled quite swiftly too – I believe in less than four weeks. I didn’t need to worry about it, but I was afraid it might have been lost.

The arrival of the ring caused quite a stir of excitement, especially in the family circle, as I hadn’t broadcast our plans. It had seemed to be our affair, and so I had only mentioned it to a very few people. including mum and dad, whom I knew were interested, and left the curious people in ignorance. Now, however, it is generally known that I plan to join my fiancé in the United States, and I have had several congratulatory letters from members of the family. None of them of course had met you, but they are interested, of course, as families always are.

Last Sunday Moreen and I went to London to see my old grandmother for the day, and I had to take the enlarged snap of us that dad took last summer as I knew she could not see a small one. That was quite a family party on my mother’s side.

I seem to have spent most of my evenings last week visiting various girl friends. On Tuesday I went up to the farm to see Kathleen; her boyfriend went out to Canada in January this year to train for air crew, and has recently returned, but instead of them planning a wedding (as we had half anticipated) they seem to have drifted apart. She seems to think he has altered in that short space of time; I wonder if we will find many changes in each other by the time we meet again. I don’t think it will have made much alteration to us, but I suppose we must be prepared for slight differences. I’ll be starting a new life, in a strange place with new ways, and you’ll be adjusting yourself from army life at the same time, so we shall both be making that extra effort to make our married life successful that maybe other people wouldn’t bother about. I rather hope you will not be demobbed too soon before I can join you, or you will settle down to a batchelor life again and won’t want to be uprooted.

Returning to my activities last week, I went in to see Moreen on Wednesday and we went to the show. The film was “And Now Tomorrow”, with Loretta Young and Alan Ladd, and it was quite good. Thursday, I had tea and spent the evening with Sybil who also lives in Bishop’s. It was a very quiet, domestic evening with her two cats in front of the fire; Sybil with her needlework and me with my knitting, and her husband with a book. But it gave me a rather sad feeling, and made me wish we had a home of our own. However nice parents are there comes a time when one wants to be independent and have one’s own home.

Yesterday I went with Mother and her aunt, who is staying with us for a week, to Bishop’s Stortford where we did some shopping and had tea at Moreen’s. Roland should be on his way home now.

I am afraid the letter you replied to last Sunday was rather a “griping” one. I should not really complain, because we get by. But I feel sure that Americans as a whole do not realise the present position of Britain, and the devestation that war has brought about in this country; they cannot be expected to. There’s one advantage of shortages, it does make one more appreciative and we certainly appreciate what we do get

I hate to say goodbye, darling, even in a letter but I guess I can’t ramble on indefinitely. So until next time,

All my love,

Joan.

September 23, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 57.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

23rd September, 1945.

My own darling,

I had rather a busy morning yesterday. The approval of your affidavit had come through from the American Embassy, so I caught an early train to London and began a series of visits to commercial shipping companies.

From the beginning the position looked pretty dismal; the United States Line and Pan. American Airways could offer no help, only suggested I should keep in touch in case things improved, but warned me that there were thousands of people trying to get to the States. All their ships were being used by the Army and air passages were only bookable on high priority, for Government officials, etc. The cost by the way for air booking is £142-2-0d – the clerk being unable to explain away the odd two shillings.

Finally I ended up in the offices of the Cunard White Star Line, just off Trafalgar Square, and here the clerks were most friendly and sympathetic. They have thousands of similar cases, and explained very patiently how congested shipping was, and said it was just a matter of waiting one’s turn.

Firstly, they are using their Queen Mary and other big liners to get the G.I.s home – for this purpose they use our ships. Then there are people who have been waiting since the beginning of the war; then there are thousands of English girls married to Americans (I’m not sure of the figure but understand it is in the region of 50,000) – then last but certainly not least, there are fiancées of American servicemen.

They just can’t say when our turn will come, but anyway I’ve filled in a form and booked a place in the queue. It can’t be too soon darling, but it does seem we will have to cultivate patience a little longer.

Now the war is over, that’s more difficult, I know. You said in your letter that there’s no reason now for us to stay apart – but there’s one big obstacle and that’s transport. Although I’ve got my name down with the Cunard people, I will keep in touch with Airways just in case, if you think the gain in time would be worth the additional expense which I can assure you is more than 20%. I suppose it would be possible to cancel my application for the steamship.

In a way, to know you will soon be a civilian again and I am still unable to be with you, is an added aggravation. You know I would come now if I could. The only satisfaction we have is knowing we have wasted as little time as possible in setting the wheels in motion to get me to the States. Your affidavit arrived here in the minimum of time and the Embassy gave their approval within a matter of eight days, while they took three weeks over Moreen’s. I applied for transport immediately, in person, instead of applying by mail as Moreen did, so that now I am slightly ahead of her in the proceedings. Though, I expect wives will get priority.

After I had settled this much, I went on the Somerset House, and turned up the records for my birth certificate, of which I shall need several copies for Passport, Exit permit and visa. I had already written to the British Passport office for application forms, but they have not arrived yet.

Mum and dad thank you very much for your letter, send their best wishes and will both be writing you some time soon.

Darling, you don’t know how I’m longing to be with you again especially when you get back to Arcata. One thing you will, it seems, have plenty of time to get organised before I arrive. Tell me everything you do when you get there, so I know what to expect when I arrive home. I’m just praying for all the GIs to get home quick and all their wives, so I get a chance; I told the Cunard clerk I would care if he found me a corner in a little, old tug.

Mother suggests you charter a ‘plane to come across for me, being very impracticable. I hope you will be able to get to meet me at New York, it would make a great difference. Does it take long in the States to make arrangements for a wedding, a quiet wedding? Once you drop the “Lt” I’m in a hurry to be “Mrs”, to your plain “Mr.” – but it seems we can’t rush these things.

Well, darling , guess I’ve got to leave now. I’m going to cycle with Kathleen to spend the day with some friends of hers at Welwyn, and it’s time to go.

You mentioned the last time you came over here. No, we didn’t say very much but there was no need for words. And when we meet again it will be much the same – words won’t express the unbounded joy there’ll be in my heart.

Til next time dearest,

All my love,
Joan.

September 29, 1945

Letter no. 58                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

29th September, 1945.

Dearest,

The postgirl passed me by tonight, so there’s no letter from you to answer. Needless to say, I was disappointed, because a letter from you cheers my whole weekend.

There was one person I was thrilled to hear from at the beginning of the week, and that was Clare. She wrote a very friendly and encouraging letter, so that I already feel I am admitted to the family circle. I want to know about each one of them. Clare would have sent a picture of her family but didn’t have any prints right there, so she promised that next time.

She did enclose a couple of pictures taken at Arcata before you came over here; one of you, and another of you with “Mom”. I can see the resemblance between you and your mother. I hope she’ll like me; do you really think she will? Clare said they all call her “Mom”.

This week has been rather quiet. I’ve written a few letters. The evenings here are real cold and dark now, and mostly I spend them round the fire, reading, writing letters or knitting. When I saw by the daily papers that airlines were starting from 15th October, I wrote to Pan-American Airways, as they had suggested I keep in touch. So far, I’ve had no reply.

Last Sunday Kathleen and I cycled to Welwyn to spend the day with friends of hers. It is about 18 miles away, and we cycled there against a strong headwind – arrived rather exhausted. It’s rather pretty there, and after lunch we walked across the fields – Kath and I being Aunties to a little three year-old girl, also a huge dog who demanded just as much attention. We cycled back in the dark, but the return journey was much less fatiguing.

On Tuesday evening Tony and I went to the local cinema, but apart from that I haven’t been anywhere. We shall miss the Fire Service this winter – I have had my official discharge through now, though I have not been since VE day.

Dad wrote to you during the week, and mum is enclosing a note with my letter. I think you will find them both sympathetic. They often talk about when I go to America, as if it were the obvious thing to do. Which of course it is, from my point of view. Darling, I’m just living for the time when we can be together again. All the time I’m thinking about you; I couldn’t get you out of my mind even if I wanted to. I wish there was some way we could speed things up, but right now it doesn’t look too hopeful.

Guess there’s nothing more to tell you just now; only that I love you and it seems I always will. For the moment I’ll have to tell your picture goodnight, but wishing it could be you, pleasant dreams, dearest.

Love,
Joan.

(enclosed was a letter from Joan’s mother, Mabel Matthews)

October 1, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 59.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

1st October, 1945.

My darling,

I can’t wait till the end of the week to greet you back in California. Other letters will probably soon follow you on from Florence, including those from Mum and dad who both wrote you last week.

The only thing wrong with your going home is that I’m not coming with you just at present. As you mentioned, I am well occupied completing forms and making numerous small arrangements for my departure as soon as possible; even so, I daren’t think too far ahead on my impending adventure. I’m not scared to come – not now, I’ve got over any slight qualms I might have had (and we all have them, it’s natural) – rather, I’m looking forward to it so much, if I let my imagination wander I get excited and then impatient. One feels so helpless against the polite but firm “no, madam, it’s just not possible just yet”.

Still darling, I suppose we can console ourselves with the memory of a much longer parting we had steeled ourselves to endure. Last September when you went away our re-union seemed years away. Now at the most, it can only be months.

In your letter you mentioned all those things I’d have to do to prepare to join you. Do you need any greater proof that I love you? If you could see the masses of forms I have completed, will complete and the methodical carbon copies of the letters I have written, & filed, together with the collection of photographs, birth certificates, and odds and ends, you might have some little idea. I think it will be worth it though; as we’ve said before, the effort expended to attain an object, bestows a greater appreciation.

I know, darling, that you will do your best to make up for what I have to leave behind. But, remember, that I am voluntarily giving up all these things and embarking on a new life in a new country. I’ll have a lot to learn but I’m eager and willing. Marriage in itself is a gamble, and I’m combining two adventures in one and with your co-operation, sympathy and understanding I am confident both will be successful.

I made my decision to come out to America and make a home with you as my husband; to be a good wife and mother, and a good American citizen. But I made these decisions in the cool light of reason, when you were thousands of miles away; they were not rash promises while I was in your arms but while I was missing you more and more each day. What I’m trying to explain is, it won’t be our fault if we don’t make marriage a success – not unless we both change.

There’s one question this time – and please darling, remember to answer it – I’m starting a Banking account with a British bank, and transferring money from the Post Office savings bank which doesn’t transfer money overseas. When I am ready to leave I can then ask my Bank to transfer to an American Bank. I noticed on your affidavit you gave your account as at Arroyo Grande; would you advise me to transfer there or to Arcata?

Tonight I heard from Pan American Airways also, who still regret passage is only bookable for Government priority, but have noted my request and will communicate with me again. If it’s possible I’ll fly. The minimum of baggage is allowed by air, but anyway it does look as if I’ll only bring what I stand up in and pack a toothbrush, so that won’t worry me much.

“I’ll be seeing you”,

Love,
Joan.

(enclosed is a cartoon cut from a newspaper)

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October 7, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 60                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

7th October, 1945.

Dearest Harold,

It’s a gloriously sunny October morning, with a hint of Autumn mist and decaying leaves; some trees are only just turning yellow, others are already covering the ground. I still love to walk in them, as I did when a kid; it’s like walking in a bowl of cornflakes! I’m not sure whether I prefer your word “fall” (it’s certainly descriptive) or our more poetic “Autumn”, of which I can’t find an origin. But either way, fall or autumn, it’s October and cold nights and early mornings indicate that winter will, all too soon, be with us.

Much as I dislike winter and cold, this year I will welcome each day as being one day nearer, ’til “I’ll be seeing you,” again. Last winter we could see no prospects of being together again – now, it’s a few months to wait, and I guess I’ll be with you before I’m twenty-three. What do you think?

I’ve made a little more progress in my arrangements. I had the day off on Friday, and went to London to visit the Passport Office. For these things it is best to visit personally, I’ve found; one gets far more satisfaction. I’ve made a passport application, and it will come through by post in three to four weeks time, so that’s another job attended to. I also took Moreen’s application with me but had to bring hers back as I did not have her Identity card.

I also heard that travelers leaving the U.K. could obtain additional clothing coupons, but when I called at the American Embassy to make enquiries, they seemed as much in the dark as I; it appeared on further enquiries, that this practice has been discontinued as it is easier to obtain clothes in the countries to which we are going. I wonder if, before I am due to leave, you could obtain some fully fashioned hose, size 9 1/2, for me to travel in. I can buy a “trousseau” in the 4/5 days that will have to elapse between the blood-tests and the issuance of a licence.

After I had made these various enquiries, it was time for lunch and I landed up in Oxford Street (quite accidentally – I’m a bit hazy in London, but I get around) where everyone seemed to have the same idea. At last I found the Salad Bowl, in the Marble Arch Corner House which was the only place there didn’t seem to be a queue. Apparently most people don’t like salad, but I do, so in I went, and got a pretty good lunch, with lashings of ice-cream with the sweet. Feeling fortified, I went on a shoe shop tour, calling at all the big department stores on the way. I toured the length of Oxford Street and Regent Street, but nowhere could they show me a black shoe to fit me. I ended up in Piccadilly, so, now worn out and weary, I decided what I needed most was a cup of tea.

(N.B. Will my neighbors think I’m mad if I invite them in for a cup of tea mid-way through the afternoon? I could last out then ’til you got home for dinner.)

Returning to Piccadilly, I slipped into the Chicken Coop; after that I caught a train from Liverpool Street.

All this may seem to you rambling and unnecessary, but it just goes to explain my jubilation when yesterday I walked into a shoe-shop and repeated the question I’ve been asking for at least twelve months: “Yes, madam”, and there they were, the very shoes I’ve been scouring London for. 7 coupons, and was I thrilled? Something I’d been waiting for, you see.

Now, just imagine how pleased I’ll be to see you; oh darling, I sometimes wonder if it’s really true. Do things like this really happen to people?

I hope we have managed to keep clear pictures of each other in our minds, so that we are neither of us expecting too much. That so often happens.

I have written to Mom this morning, and sent her a picture of us. I have already written one letter to you at Arroyo Grande so it should be waiting for you when you get home to California. If it’s going to make it easier for you to meet me, the sooner the better. Hustle that army up. I see they are sending someone over here to make arrangements to get 40,000 wives home. I hope they will remember fiancées (or at any rate the girls they love). I think we should receive the same privileges as wives; it’s just as important to morale to get us there.

Have you heard from Tommie? He seems to have disappeared as neither of us have heard from him. Maybe when we get to New York, or Boston, we could call him up.

I expect there will be lots more I’ll remember I want to ask you, but just now can’t think of any more, so ’til next week, I’ll just be waiting, hoping, and loving you.

Yours always,

All my love,
Joan.

October 15, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 61                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

15th October, 1945.

My darling Harold,

I delayed writing to you until tonight because I felt that by now you were westward-bound – going home, and I was right in my assumption for tonight I received your letter saying you would be leaving Florence last week. By now you must be home, and I only wish I could be there with you.

When you write to me from California, darling, tell me every little thing you do and all about California, because I want to feel that when I eventually arrive in the States, that California – and Arcata in particular – is expecting me, and I’ll be “coming home” too. From the time I arrive it will be “home” to me, to be with you, where-ever you are. I’m unsettled here – ever since you went away there’s been something missing, but I hope to find it again when we are able to get together.

You may find your mother has a letter from me, dated last weekend. I wrote to you at the same time, but yours went to Florence, so it will be delayed a few days, I’m afraid.

You seem to be having an unnecessarily long journey to get back; hope that’s unusual circumstances, because I don’t specially want to do a tour of the United States immediately on arrival. You said once it was possible we would dock at Boston, Mass. I rather hope we do, for though I wanted to see the Statue of Liberty, Boston sounds more homelike than New York.

Perhaps there has been little publicity about it in the States, but during this past week or so the British wives of repatriated U.S. servicemen have been clamoring for transport to take them to their husbands in the States, and a commission from the U.S. has been sent over to consider the problem of transporting them. In some cases there is real hardship, for on demob. the wives’ allowances from the U.S. Army cease, and in many cases they have babies and are therefore unable to support themselves.

It is understood, however, that all the G.I.s must be returned first or the reception of English brides would most certainly be hostile; and the latest information is that they hope to begin shipping wives in January. But as you will see from the enclosed cuttings, it has become almost a national joke. Since I shall have to follow the brides – just imagine me a little older than the little old lady pictured here! Now’s the time to ask, will you love me when I’m old and grey?

It will be several weeks yet before my British passport is through, but I made one more step last week by opening an account with an English bank. When the time comes, I hope they will arrange the transfer of any funds I may have left. There is nothing more I can do just at present but wait patiently.

Moreen is anxious to leave, as she has received a cable from Roland who has now arrived home.

Last week was quiet and uneventful. Moreen and I went to the show one night – “The Enchanted Cottage” was the film. One evening I also had to attend the Fire Station to hand in my kit. On Saturday I had tea at Moreen’s and on Sunday she had tea with us, and on both occasions we sat round the fire in the evening and knitted. Her people are on holiday and probably going away for a few days, which I may spend in Bishop’s to keep Moreen company. Then we can get together and moan all we like about the shortage of shipping; it’s fortunate I know several girls in the same position, only they are all married.

Sometimes, I find it hard to believe we are not married and then of course, I realise the transportation authorities cannot understand how much I am in love with you and that I should be accorded the same privileges as a wife.

Still, it’s already mid-October, and after Christmas things must surely improve rapidly. With the New Year they will get everything moving, including G.I.s wives. I’m trying to get to you as soon as I can, but perhaps it would be a lot easier for you to get here, than for me to get there.

‘Til next time, dearest, all my love,

Joan.

(there was no cartoon enclosed)

October 21, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd,
Letter no. 62 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

21st October, 1945

Dearest Harold,

I have in my possession now one more thing which makes it seem as though all our dreams will soon be coming true – a British passport on which to travel to the United States. Under “observations” the passport states “Holder is proceeding to the U.S.A. for the purpose of marriage. This passport ceases to be valid after the marriage has taken place and should be surrendered to the Nearest British Consular Officer.”

That is the brief, impersonal remark of the Foreign Office, but to us, darling, it is so much more. It means that soon I’ll be traveling to join the man I love and take my place alongside all the other Walton brides; then a British passport in my maiden name will be of no more use to me, but by then its purpose will have been served.

This week we were only four days apart by airmail. Amazing, isn’t it? Your letter from Arizona arrived here quickly, and so I guess next time I hear from you it will be from home.

By the same mail I had a long letter from Clare, enclosing a few pictures and a list of each member of the family. It was sweet of her to go to all that bother to write it out for me, but she does sound an awfully nice person. Already we have found several things in common, and are feeling we shall be good friends. She sent one picture of herself with Louis Jr, and Otis; one of Pearl, with Cliff and Hazel; another of Mom at Arcata, with Louis, Jr, and one of some nieces and nephews. – Janett (she looks sweet) Louis, and Hazel. Already, with scraps of information I have gathered from you I am beginning to piece the family together. When you returned from England first you went with Mom to visit at the ranch where “it is miles and miles from the cow barn to the pig pasture” – that was Cliff, Pearl and Hazel, wasn’t it?

Clare manages to get a wealth of detail into her letters; she also told me about Aunt Pearl, and how you were named after Aunt Pearl’s husband, Bert!

We have been having wonderful weather here for the last three weeks, our English summer seems to have slid into the fall. But after several weeks of sunshine it has broken, and this morning it was raining again. The damp, fallen leaves look a little sad now.

I’m soon going to pack my bag, when I’ve finished my chat with you, for this afternoon I am settling myself in Bishop’s Stortford for a week to keep Moreen company while her folks are away. Tonight we are being voluntary “usherettes” at the Regent Cinema where a concert is being held in aid of the local Troops Welfare Fund.

Recently the cover of “Yank” depicted the “civvie” clothes of a returning G.I. – it was a nice welcoming picture. Please try and persuade someone to take a picture of you in civvies, dear, because I would like to see how you are going to look when next we meet.

When I read your letter I felt I was sharing your daydreams with you; it was almost as though I could feel the warmth of the fire and the cosiness of your arms about me, and the music. Well, we can both dream! at least a little longer. I can always feel you with me, especially when it’s something lovely I want you to share.

‘Til next time, darling, all my love.

I’ll be seeing you,

Joan

October 29, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd,
Letter no. 63                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

29th October, 1945.

Hallo darling,

Well, here I am – back in Sawbridgeworth after a week spent in Bishop’s Stortford “keeping house” with Moreen while her parents were on holiday. We thoroughly enjoyed the freedom, even though it meant getting up a little earlier and setting to, to prepare a meal when we arrived home at nights. We evolved a routine, and between us we managed very well.

Admittedly we did not have much time to go anywhere but were quite content to sit round the fire with out knitting and the radio; and with our little grey cat purring alongside we were domesticity personified. One evening Kathleen cycled over from Sawbridgeworth to visit us, and on one other occasion Pat and her new fiancé (a “frightfully” English Englishman – but quite a nice boy, and very suitable for Pat) called in on us.

During the week Moreen heard from Mr. Roland E. Ransom, her husband, who was discharged on the 16th, and is starting school again on November 3rd. By the same mail I had a letter from Mom – please thank her very much, and tell her I shall be writing soon. She said she had a couple of my letters waiting for you, and was expecting you home very soon. I’m just waiting now to hear my fiancé is a civilian again.

Last week I was really glad to be staying in Bishop’s. The weather has worsened, and last week it was blowing 80 mph gales and just when it was time to leave for work there would be a rainstorm; consequently everyone would arrive at the office just drenched, which trouble was aggravated by the fact that we had no heating. Apparently the firm is conserving fuel and in spite of complaints and protests from all the staff it was not until today that we had any heat.

Fortunately today the wind has dropped and the showers have been intermittent; in a week most of the leaves seem to have dropped and everything looks damp and dismal. For the first time since before the war we have returned to ordinary British time, which means it is dark early in the evening, or rather late afternoon. It seems strange at first, but it is offset by the street lights and shop lights, and there is something rather cozy about it.

I am afraid this is rather a scrappy letter tonight dearest; apart from the fact that I love you so much, and want to be with you as soon as possible, there isn’t very much to tell you. I think about you all the time, so much so, that at times you are almost with me in person. I just pray it won’t be too long before we can be together.

All my love,

Joan

November 4, 1945

Letter no. 64.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
England

4th November, 1945

Dearest Harold,

This is the second birthday you have celebrated since we were parted; I hope my cable arrived in time to greet you, but the Post office were so vague about how long it would take, that I had to take the chance of it being early.

I’m so pleased to know that you are once more home again, and this time for good. Your letter from Arroyo Grande arrived on Tuesday together with an earlier one of your mother’s. They are all so anxious to welcome me into the family for your sake, but I hope that one day they will judge me on my own merits. I feel sure we shall all get along fine, and everyone seems pleased to help us. Your mother told me of a friend of hers, who came from England, married in the States and was very happy.

There is very little to write about this week; it has been busy in the office and quiet at home. Normally in my office there are five stenographers but this week one left to set up a home for her husband who is due to be demobbed very soon, and another was sent to our London office to temporarily take the place of the girl there who had been ordered to leave by her doctor. Consequently, the three of us left have been kept busy all the time, but that’s how I like it. as the time passes more quickly.

Each evening I have stayed at home; one night I wrote to you, and another evening to Mom. The nights have been foggy and so I went home instead of going in to see Moreen on Wednesday.

After lunch.

Sorry darling, I had to leave you for a while. Kath came down, and as I had not seen her for more than a week she had quite a lot to tell me.

On Saturday afternoon I caught a bus and went over to see Moreen. It threatened to be foggy in the evening, so I preferred not to cycle. She had just had a cable from Roland on their wedding anniversary, and to celebrate it he is starting, or resuming, his studies at Ithica.

I wonder what you will be doing now. Please write real soon and tell me how things are in Arcata; will you be staying with Kenneth and Dorothy for a while, or with Earl? I do wish I could be with you in time for Christmas, but it doesn’t seem they will ship the wives until January, though Moreen is pulling strings and hoping to go before.

Thanks for the information regarding banking; when the time comes I will transfer to the Bank of America, at Arcata. I see by the daily papers that the Bank of America is the largest privately owned bank in the world.

Please forgive this rather brief and scrappy letter, dearest. This week there doesn’t seem much to write about, but I’m with you always, just the same. I think now I’ll walk to Sawbridgworth and post this, and also meet Moreen. For once, the sun is shining and it doesn’t seem at all like November. Tell me how Arcata is looking now.

Til next time darling,

Love,

Joan

November 10, 1945

Letter no. 65.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
10th November, 1945

My darling Harold,

Here it is again – the weeks pass gradually and once more it is Saturday night. I decided not to wait until Sunday to write as I promised Moreen I would go over to Bishop’s in the morning in time for the Armistice (November 11th) service.

Mum and dad have gone to the cinema, and Tony and I are left almost in sole possession. The latest addition to the family is really claiming all attention – he is a white kitten, just the craziest thing you ever saw. They haven’t decided on his name yet so I call him Dizzie.
Probably by now, dearest, you are in Arcata – I wonder what you are doing. It doesn’t seem possible there is still that 6,000 miles between us; now that the realisation of our dreams draws nearer, we too seem to be even closer in spirit than we were before. One of these days we are going to be so happy to be together again, and I’m just living for that day. Things I do here seem of little consequence when my heart is so far away and I want to be helping you to settle in at home.

But I feel sure that our patience will be rewarded, when eventually we are able to get together and build our future as one. When once these few months of waiting are over there will be many years of happiness ahead, as happy and contented as our joint efforts can make them. In some ways, perhaps, we know rather little of one another for our acquaintance in England was of rather short duration, and we still both have quite a lot to learn; but the things we do know have formed a bond between us that separation cannot sever. The sooner we are together again, the happier I’ll be, and it just can’t be too soon.
I was interested to hear of your visits to Pearl and Clare, and rather wonder what sort of impression you gave of me in reply to Clare’s questions. From his picture Louis, Jr. is a darling kid but I’m afraid Otis was only two months old in his picture and much like any other baby, so I couldn’t tell how he would be now. You sound fond of children, darling – I do hope you are.

As I believe I said before, Clare and I are fast cementing a firm friendship and I know I shall like her. It’s sweet of her to write me such long letters because she must be busy with those two boys. By the way, when is Louis due for demob.? Also Earl and Marion – I believe they are still in the service?

Tell me, am I the only English girl expected in the vicinity of Arcata? It seems to be up to me to foster Anglo-American relationships in California as well as England. What is the general opinion of the English, and have I any false impressions to correct? I know your family have already intimated the they will welcome me but what of everyone else?
I guess sometimes it will be rather amusing. I’ll be just as curious about them, as they will be about me, so for a while we will all be busy satisfying our mutual curiosity. I’m not scared of meeting them, but just interested in other folks. When you came to England it was with a crowd of your fellow-country men and you had a certain amount of “moral support”, to help you over your primary difficulties.

There’s things you’ll have to teach me, for instance, how to shop in dollars! You’ll have to be very patient at first with my questions until I get used to everything, but I think I can rely on that.

According to our British newspapers there is a housing shortage in the States; not quite as bad as here, but not too good. 3,000,000 people will have to share homes with relations or friends for at least another eighteen months, so they say. I shall be interested to hear your comments on this problem when you have had a chance to look round Arcata. It is really more satisfactory to begin married life on one’s own, but am afraid it is not always possible.

Moreen’s husband has returned to college already, but she has had no news of transport yet.

Pat is making plans to marry her Englishman in December, so we should see Pat safely settled before we leave England.

I believe this finishes our little chat for this evening, so ’til next time – I’ll just say goodnight and God bless you, darling,

With love,
Joan.

Kisses on paper don’t mean a thing, but just wait ’til we’re together. There’s more than a year to make up for now.

Joan

November 19, 1945 (2)

Letter no. 66.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

19th November, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Your letters from Arcata fill me with a wistful longing to be with you again; it’s the feeling that you are “home” again, and yet for a while longer I am unable to be with you. Though to know you love me, and I love you, gives me a kind of glow, I still feel that I won’t be completely happy and contented until we can be together, sharing our lives and whatever they may bring. And even so, though I bemoan the 6,000 miles of sea and land that separates us I still get a thrill when I realise how lucky I am; it makes me want to keep my fingers crossed to ensure that this happy anticipation shall one day be realised.

I’m still reading in our newspapers of the housing shortage in the U.S. so I was thrilled to hear about your “house”. I wish I were there even if I had to back in and out of the kitchen just to turn around. If the search for an apartment is very difficult you will probably still be living in it when I arrive.

Things will not be back to normal for a while, and we can’t expect everything to be there just when we want it. I believe you know me well enough to know that I won’t be so terribly difficult to please; it’s good to have the desire to improve, but unrestrained ambition can be soul-destroying. Far better to decide the things in life that really matter; remember, it will be “for better, for worse”, and we will make the most of whatever we have.

I want to hear more about this job, darling. Maybe, if I ask a few questions you’ll remember to answer them?

The hours struck me as unusual. Is this “2.30 to 11.00 pm” just one shift or is that regular hours? I’m not sure I’d care to start work in the afternoon; doesn’t seem natural! Then again, tell me exactly what the factory makes and what your particular job is. I’m interested to know what kind of manual labor is regarded as below one’s dignity. I had thought that rather “snobbish” attitude was confined more or less to this country. Personally, I admire your ability to tackle jobs requiring either physical or mental effort, and as I believe I said once before, to me your inclination towards a particular job is sufficient recommendation. So many hours are spent at work, and for many people they are hours of long, dreary monoteny. One of the things that has helped me over these lonesome months of waiting has been my interest in my job. I’m really interested in the export of road-plant, etc, and the hours at the office pass swiftly. Though, I’d give it up tomorrow if there were room for me on one boat.

Usually, now there’s nothing new for me to tell you. All the activity seems to be at your end. My papers are in order so far, and I can’t do very much until I am assured passage. Moreen and I are counting each week to the New Year, as then we shall feel that the year has come for our departure, though what part of the year it is difficult to forecast.

I managed to coincide one of my rather intermittent church visits with one of yours, more regular than mine. The 11th was Remembrance Day and I had intended to go to Church with Moreen, but somehow I missed her and for the first time in my life I went alone. It was very impressive, and I really enjoyed it.

Moreen and I were getting to feel rather blue last week, and we decided a “week end” trip somewhere would do us good. So we set off Saturday at noon to an East coast seaside resort, Southend. Being November everyone thought we would have awful weather at the sea, and everyone hoped, very doubtfully, that it would keep fine. We stayed with some friends of Moreen’s mother. Saturday evening we went to a cinema on the sea front where they were showing “The Way to the Stars”. Maybe you’ve not seen it. Moreen and I were greatly intrigued as the picture started by showing the R.A.F. based on an aerodrome in Eastern England, which was subsequently taken over by the 8th Air Force. Dances in the mess brought back many happy memories, and it was difficult to believe those days were gone. The change-over from R.A.F. slang to typical American expressions caused us a lot of amusement.

After the show we walked along the front in the moonlight, the moon making a rippling silver path across the sea. For an enchanted moment I could almost imagine you were with me. Next morning we walked out along the pier and came back in a funny little train.

Moreen and I enjoy our week ends away, partly because we can talk America without boring anyone. Both our hearts are there, in God’s own country, with our men. We also enjoyed our breath of sea air; I’m glad Arcata is not far off the sea, I’d hate to be right shut in. Sorry about your weather; here we have been having pretty good weather for November. Still, we have our share of rain here too and that won’t be a hardship. According to the latitude it might be a little warmer though; I surely hope so.
It’s goodnight time, darling, so I’ll be with you, some day soon,

Love,

Joan.

November 24, 1945

Letter no. 67.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
ENGLAND

24th November, 1945

Darling Harold,

I sometimes believe that English weather behaves like a spoilt child, and shows its bad side to visitors; today one would hardly have believed it could be November. It was quite warm and the sun shone on green fields, though all the trees were bare and in the blue sky were just a few, lazy white clouds. It was so quiet and peaceful one could almost imagine the long winter was through and spring here once again.

How I wish it was so, for with the spring we must surely be nearer that date we have. Sometimes the longing to be nearer to you becomes almost unbearable, yet I know there is nothing more we can do at present to hurry matters. Last night I had one of these “blue” moods, when it seems an effort to be cheerful, and though I was thinking of you all the time, I could not bring myself to write, in case that note of despondency crept in. (You’d have thought “What a miserable girl my fiancée is!”) but fortunately, with the sunshine today, the mood has passed and I’m resigned again, knowing full well it will all be worth waiting for.

Since I wrote you last Monday, there has been little news to pass on. Apart from spending the evening at Moreen’s on Wednesday I have been home all the week. My bicycle is giving out on me, so part of the week I have had to go by bus.

Thursday, I see, was Thanksgiving Day, which according to our encyclopoedia originated as thanks-giving for the harvest, and since 1864 has been celebrated as a public holiday. Tell me, what did you do?

I am expecting Moreen over this afternoon, as we have promised to help with a local dance tonight. My brother has recently joined a dance band, as second trumpet, attached to the factory and this is their first dance to get themselves known. They are to be called “The Woodchoppers” as they originate from a Joinery works; Tony is so enthusiastic that we want, if possible, to make their first dance a success. Dad will be M.C. and Moreen and I will help with refreshments.

I shall not be able to dance much myself as I have had a bad foot, and the chiropodist who has been treating me since September says I shall be able to dance by Christmas.
You know something, darling; I do love you so, but I wish I were right there to tell you so myself. I was so happy every moment we were together last summer; it was wonderful just being with you.

Til next time, dear.

Love,

Joan.

December 2, 1945

Letter no. 68.                                                                                                                “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd,
Sawbridgeworth.

2nd December, 1945

Dearest Harold,

Your letters make me wish even more that I could be with you, for it was just at this time when you are re-adjusting yourself to civilian life after years in the Army that I wanted to be by your side. On my part too, when I do arrive, there will be a certain amount of adjusting to do. After the gregarious life of an office, it will no doubt seem strange to settle to real domesticity; but the urge to be doing things for you is there, and I hate to think of you living alone, and looking after yourself.

And yet there is a little compensation when I picture you living this batchelor existence, for even an inexperienced wife will be welcomed. I rather see your point about the hours, and I do hope that you will be able to fix some more suitable hours later.

As far as money goes, I’m rather ignorant of the cost of living in the States, but I imagine that we shall get by very well. You will have to supervise my house-keeping budget for a while, ’til I get accustomed to the dollar, but I don’t think you will find me unduly extravagant.

I once surmised that it would be late spring or early summer before I was able to leave for the U.S.A., and by present reports I still think that is a good guess. It seems that wives will be taken by the Queen Mary, and three sister ships, commencing in January. Unless special arrangements are made for fiancées, we shall probably travel as ordinary civilians, and the papers report that the Ministry of War Transport will probably release ships for civilian transport after March. Well darling, that means April at the earliest and I am by no means the first on the list, although my application for transport has been in since 22nd September.

I had another letter from Mom last week, and she hopes I will be able to come soon; she also says Pearl is writing, but I have not heard from her yet.

I had to go to one dance in Sawbridgeworth last week as it was for the Fire Service Benevolent Society, and I had promised to help with the running of it. Kath and I did the refreshments, and between selling lemonade, collecting glasses and washing-up we didn’t do much dancing. It was an unfortunate night, on account of thick, cold fog, and we only just managed to clear expenses.

The next night I was invited to a Welcome Home party for the boy next door who has just come home after 3 1/2 years in a Japanese prisoner of war camp. I had intended to go, but felt so tired after being up late the previous night that I made my excuses and stayed at home. I believe I can understand now why you only once came into Longs on two nights consecutively. Guess I’m getting old, too! Remember the time you did? Only because I wasn’t there on Friday night, did you venture in on Saturday as well.

I went shopping yesterday to try to buy a wedding-present for Pat, but it is difficult. The shops are full – of rubbish. She marries her R.A.F. boy next Saturday, and Moreen and I are going to the wedding. Everyone is very pleased, we think it most suitable.

I had a letter from Marjorie yesterday. She’s the girl whose husband comes from Oakland. He’s due for processing this month, and will then return to the States for demob., leaving his wife to join the queue this side.

By the way, while I remember; Moreen has had some “civvie” snaps of Roland, and he looks much better as a civilian than as a soldier. Have you any snaps in civilian clothes, because I would like to see how you look now?

We had the dryest November for about 100 years, and today it’s making up for lost time. Rain’s depressing, but I’ve gotten used to it over here, so I won’t mind Californian rain too much.

I’m afraid that’s about all for this weekend, so til next time, darling,

All my love,

Joan.

December 10, 1945

Letter no. 69.                                                                                                                “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd,
Sawbridgeworth.
Herts, England

10th December, 1945

Dearest Harold,

I don’t seem to have very much to write about this week; I had hoped to have a letter from you by today’s mail, to which I could have replied, but it did not arrive so guess I had better write just the same.

The only event of any importance last week was Pat’s wedding. She made a very sweet bride; though it was a bitterly cold day she was heroic and wore the traditional white. I’m afraid it is on occasions like that I miss you more than ever. The ceremony was at Gt. Hallingbury Church – about 3 miles from Bishop’s Stortford – and we had to return to Bishop’s for the reception which was held at Longs.

At the reception I met another local girl who married an American, from Los Angeles, and finding ourselves sitting together at the luncheon, we had quite a chat on California. Her father-in-law is connected with a lumber-mill in Washington state, and it’s possible they will live up there.

I scan the newspapers daily for any news of civilian shipping but all in vain. Moreen hopes to be leaving early in the New Year, but has heard nothing official.
It’s really settled to winter now, and this weekend it’s been real cold. I shall be so glad, when the spring comes, and all these frosts and fogs are clear. Roland tells Moreen it’s been snowing around New York; some parts of England have had snow, but not here yet.
Please forgive this poor effort at a letter, maybe I’ll find more to write about next time.
Til then darling,

All my love,

Joan.

December 16, 1945 (2)

Letter no. 70.                                                                                                                “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England

16th December, 1945

My darling,

After all these months of separation you are still as near to me as you always have been; usually with time, memories become blurred and it’s difficult to recollect the way a person smiles or a familiar gesture. But I can see you still as you were that summer we met, and I wonder if when we meet again we will both be the same as we remember. I don’t feel we have grown apart as some couples do when time and distance intervenes.

I have looked forward so often to the time when we will be together again, and really get acquainted, that when the time comes it will hardly seem true. At present there is no way of telling when I shall be able to get passage to the States – everything seems so slow, but that’s probably due to my natural impatience to see you again.

I hope you will never regret having waited all this time for me to come; if you hadn’t decided to marry an English girl who lived 6,000 miles away, you could already be settled with one of your own American girls. However, the time we have to wait now must be comparitively short, and soon I’ll be with you for always.

I see by today’s paper that 14 more G.I. brides arrived in the Queen Mary, with their children, and I think in the New Year they will begin to move faster.

I received a package of stockings from Mom this week, and have already written thanking her. I have not heard from Pearl yet, nor for some time from Clare. When are the rest of the boys due to be demobbed?
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
It seems I’m not to be allowed to write to you in peace, for already this morning I have had two visitors – first Moreen, and later Kathleen, but perhaps now I will be able to continue.

I have little news this week. It has been uneventful. Moreen and I went shopping yesterday afternoon and later when Moreen went to Longs I came home. The folks were listening to a radio play, so I joined them. Tony was out playing with the dance-band, he’s getting quite a night-bird.

I was interested to hear about the box factory – I hope one day I will see for myself. Now, tell me more about school – what hours do you spend there and what do you do? You must have very little leisure time, but it will help to pass the time more quickly.

Also, I am pleased there will be another English girl at Arcata. Is she married, or just hoping like me? If you can find out anything about her I should be thrilled; please dear, try and get her address as I would very much like to write to her if she is still in England.

It is drawing near to Christmas and as mails will be slower, I doubt if this will reach you before then. In any case, darling, you know I shall be thinking of you and missing you even more during the festive season; Moreen and I are devising ways of passing Christmas pleasantly while our hearts are the other side of the Atlantic. Both of us expect this will be our last Christmas in England, at least for many years.

There are few weeks more to go before the New Year, and then we can say 1946 will surely see us together again.

As I write the sun is shining – it could almost be spring now. This past week we have had frosts and rain alternately, never knowing what a new day will bring. Do you have any snow for Christmas?

Until next time, darling,

I’ll be seeing you,

Love.

Joan.

December 20, 1945

Letter no. 71.

Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England

20th December, 1945

Dearest Harold,

Coming home in the fog tonight I found a simile. All around it was dim and gloomy, and I had my eyes fixed on the road to see where I was going; and then I looked up and there far above the fog and depression were the stars twinkling in a clear sky. Just now, I feel like we are in a sort of fog – it’s difficult to look far ahead- but when one looks right away the future is clear and bright. Looking ahead to when we are together again, it seems we can’t fail to be happy, for we shall have everything we have been looking forward to for so long.

On Monday I received your letter of the 9th, and also a letter from Pearl. I have answered it and also written to Clare, from whom I have not heard for some time. Everyone, including you, seems to be perturbed by Import duties in this country, so I will tell you what little I can gather about it.

Actually, I don’t know very much myself but only what I have gleaned from Moreen’s experience. As I told Mom (but maybe I did not mention to you) I had no duty to pay on the stockings she sent me. I have no idea why, as it seems rather unusual.

I can’t find out for the moment exactly on what articles one has to pay or how the amount is assessed, but if I can find out I will let you know. This week Moreen received a parcel from Roland which contained a pair of wedge sandals, 3 prs hose, 1 pr of gloves and a woollen sweater; on this she had £2-2-3d to pay in customs charges. The total value of the package was declared as $21.12. But from her point of view it was well worth it as all the things were of far better quality than it is possible to get here, & they were coupon-free. Most of the items were of a similar price to those in England except the shoes and stockings which were cheaper. If one were to take into account the coupon value – in the Black Market clothings coupons I believe fetch 2/- each – there is a decided saving. The coupon value of Moreen’s package was –

Shoes – 7
3 pr hose @3 – 9
1 pr gloves – 2
1 sweater – 6
24 @ 2/- £2-8.0

She paid £2-2-3d in duty, so she saved on the transaction; also obtaining goods of a far better quality and style.

The last issue of 24 clothing coupons was from September 1st, and may have to last until 1st May. So you see, one can’t do very much with them. Personally, I just wouldn’t buy coupons – I’d rather feel independent and go without. The hose your Mom sent was the equivalent of 6 coupons, and in that instance I was lucky in not having to pay duty. The package was marked “unsolicited gift”, but I don’t know what effect that had.

I don’t know if any of this answers your question. I still have not been able to tell you the articles on which one has to pay or how they decide on the amount of duty; but it does seem to me rather an exaggeration to say one has to pay the equivalent of the original value of the gift. That’s not true; though I guess a lot of people would not mind if they did.

You have seen for yourself the size of this country and the comparitive limit of our resources. Can’t you imagine after six years of shortages, stocks are now pretty low? What this country does produce now is largely taken up to resume and expand our export trade, so that the home market will not benefit for some time. To return to clothing coupons again, apart from being required for every article of clothing (except a hat, which is superfluous anyway) which you could think of, including even slipper soles, (if you have patience enough to make your own slippers), they are also required for nearly all household linen such as towels, tea-cloths, curtain materials, etc. All wool is rationed, even yarn with very little or no wool in it.

Well, we’ve “gotten” used to it now, and I’m not really complaining. I just want to give you a fairly clear picture, so that you will understand when I advise the mother-in-law to the Liverpool girl, if she really wants to send her daughter some gift ‘go ahead and do it’. I’m sure the girl won’t mind if she does have to pay duty. But perhaps this “G.I. bride” is one of the fortunate ones who will be sailing early in the New Year, in which case it’s a little late to worry now.

Personally, though I like nice things I don’t worry about it to the extent of black market dealings; I’m afraid the war has blunted the edge to a lot of people’s consciences; it brings out sometimes the best and sometimes the worst in people. To those who do it it’s not wrong, so one can’t blame them; they take it as a matter of course, but if I did it I would feel I was wrong so I would be open to reprimand. But when I do get home I am going to feel I am entitled to just a little of what I have forgone in the past few years, but shall I appreciate it – I think I shall!

I was interested by your letter, and so glad to know you are enjoying working with the 13-14 grade. Maybe I’ll have a school-teacher husband after all, but I know you will choose whichever job you get most satisfaction from. You certainly are busy darling, but I hope when I arrive you will be able to spare a little time for me.

I decided to write to you early this week as Christmas will hold up the mails, and this is my best opportunity. Tomorrow night I have to go to the Fire Brigade Annual dinner and entertainment, and in fact I have quite a small round of social activities before me during the next few days, which will give me more material for my next letter.

Thank you, darling, for the Reader’s Digest subscription. I rather hope I won’t be here all next year to receive it but if I’m not the “family” will be thrilled to read it, and I’ll read yours when you’re not looking. By the way it’s not how quickly you can make tea that matters, but the result when you have finished.

Do you think I’ve rambled on enough for one evening? Guess I’ve made myself sleepy too so goodnight my darling,

I’ll be seeing you,

Love.

Joan.

P.S. Happy New Year, dearest.

December 28, 1945

Letter no. 72.                                                                                                                ‘Talma’,
Sheering Mill Rd.,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England

28th December, 1945

Dearest Harold,

My Christmas was brightened by the arrival on Christmas Eve of your letter and greetings card; though I wished so much I could be with you at this festive season, we made the most of it as far as conditions would permit as it was probably the last Christmas I will spend in England, at least for a long, long time.
All the same I would rather have been with you.  It won’t matter how soon they tell me I can leave England, I’m just waiting to go.

Christmas of course involved a little more social activity than usual.  On Friday the Firemen gave a dinner to which all past members of the Brigade were invited.  This included an entertainment, and will be one of my most pleasant recollections of the Fire Service.  The office was closed from Saturday mid-day until Thursday morning, giving us a rather unnecessarily long holiday, as both before and after we have been very busy.
On Saturday Tony and I went over to Bishop’s Stortford, and called for Moreen, and we all went to the show at the Regent.  This was Walt Disney’s “Three Cabelleros” , about which there seemed to be a divergence of opinion.  I liked it, but maybe I’m prejudiced in favour of Donald Duck.

It was Kathleen’s birthday on Sunday, and so, pouring with rain though it was, Moreen and I had to pay our visit to the farm and offer our congratulations.  Whilst we were there we got chatting with an aunt of hers who also called, and she was telling me how she spent one Christmas at Pasadena during a three-months winter trip to California; she had a job in Montreal, but married an Englishman and returned to this country.  She compares the States very favorably with this country, and would like to have remained there.
Next day was Christmas Eve, and I did not have to go to work so I cycled over and spent most of the day with Moreen, and as she was preparing for a Christmas party I had to set to and help her.  After we’d gotten everything pretty straight I visited Sybil, the girl who used to work with me – I’d meant to go up and see her for a long time but never seemed to get around to it.

As Christmas Eve is my folks wedding anniversary I planned to take them out to dinner; I don’t think you’d remember the Mill, at Harlow, though Tommie Eccles should, for we went there to dinner one night when you were in Scotland.  It’s nice to go in the summer for there’s the river, and the garden and a swimming pool.  However, Christmas Eve of course, it was decorated and there was a blazing log fire.  The party had grown from what I had originally intended, as Moreen decided to bring along her mother and father, and then some more friends, so that eventually there were ten of us.  Fortunately, everyone mixed very well, and it was quite a successful party.
Christmas Day was quiet for as usual there is never much to do; it just poured with rain nearly all day.  In the evening Tony and I went over to Moreen’s where they held an informal sort of gathering with a running buffet.  We crammed more than a dozen people into that little house; this however was less than we had expected, as several people were unable to get there.

Next day was Boxing Day; that’s an English holiday, isn’t it?  It is supposed to originate from the fact that on the day following Christmas all the tradesmen, milkman, the postman, etc. used to call round and collect their “Christmas Box”.  It’s a public holiday anyway, and Moreen and I had been given tickets for a London theatre.  I really mean “theatre”, and not a cinema, and went to see a “show” and not a film.  It was a Noel Coward revue at the Piccadilly Theatre, called “Sigh No More”.
We had heard conflicting reports, as the “Womens Institute” from a local village had been to see it in full force, and had been disappointed; so that Moreen and I would probably have said we had enjoyed it, even if we hadn’t, to prove we were intellectually superior to the members of the Womens Institute.  But we really did enjoy it – the settings were artistic and lovely, and the music was good.

The journey to town was very bad; we caught a slow train in the afternoon, which arrived late, and we went along to Leicester Square where we had some marvellous concoction of ice cream – waffles, with chocolate sauce and ice cream, and of course tea.  Then we decided to find the theatre, which we thought was simple – being the Piccadilly Theatre it could only be found in Piccadilly.  Having circled Eros a few times without success we were finally driven to enquire, and were directed down some dim thoroughfare where we finally discovered the theatre sandwiched between Rainbow Corner and the Regent Palace Hotel.

I can’t begin to describe the atmosphere in a crowded theatre before the curtain rises, the hushed air of expectancy, the rustle of programmes, the cigar smoke – and then the opening chords from the orchestra as the show begins.  It’s altogether different from a cinema, where the screen is remote and impersonal.
The journey home was grim too.  Trains were running late, and as I arrived at Sawbridgeworth station at 11.30 it was just pouring with rain.  It seemed to rain consistently most of the holiday, but cleared up yesterday for us to go back to work.  It was nice to get back to the office though.

Today we had our first fall of snow, but the roads were so thoroughly wet that it only settled in the by-ways and ditches.  Do we ever have snow at home?  I don’t care much for it when one is trying to go about a normal day’s work; I’d rather have it where I can go to it if I want to.

The old year is drawing to a close now, and though there’s usually something a little pathetic in it, this year I’ll be glad to welcome a New Year.  For 1946 must surely see us together again, and darling, we will have so long to make up for – all the same, I’m not too sure I want to be a hospital case immediately on arrival.  But it surely will be good to see you again, really and truly, and not just in my dreams.

But ’til then, darling, I’ll just be loving you,

Always yours,

Joan

January 7, 1946

Letter no. 73.                                                                                                                ‘Talma’,
Sheering Mill Rd.,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England

7th January, 1946

Dearest Harold,

As this is my first letter to you this year – Happy New Year, darling.   I meant to cable my greetings to you, but at the time I was confined home with a short attack of “‘flu”.  At least I had all the symptoms, including the resultant depression, but they didn’t last so long.  I managed to time my 48 hours in bed with the weekend break, so didn’t have to stop off work though I admit I did not stay up Monday night to see the New Year in.   Maybe we will be seeing the next one on together.

Maybe it’s just the result of ‘flu or perhaps a general postwar depression, but sometimes it seems this period of separation will continue indefinitely; they don’t seem to make much progress.  According to the papers the S.S. Argentina is taking 633 wives to the U.S. at the end of January – out of 50,000 that’s not going to help on awful lot.  Still, I guess I’ll make it sometime, sweetheart, but I just hate to keep you waiting around for me like this.

Don’t you think people generally miss the war?  Perhaps we do here, more than in the States.  I know one shouldn’t, but this interim period is infinitely more aggravating than the war; there was a spice of danger that was sufficiently exhilerating to minimise the discomforts and shortages generally.  It’s good to know people aren’t getting killed, and suffering the results of war, but now we have more time to notice our discomforts and grumble about them.  After a six year war everyone should be full of the joy of living, but they are not, I’m afraid.

Still, I feel infinitely better since I got your letter tonight.  Every letter brings you closer to me – I hope my letters do the same, though I don’t have too much to write about.

I had a letter from “little” Pearl on Saturday, and she said Mom has had ‘flu; she also told me about Louis being demobbed and that Clare, Louis and the two boys paid her a visit before Louis started work.  I expect Clare has been busy welcoming Louis home, and I have not heard from her for some time, but I do hope she will write again when she has more time.  I love to get letters from any of them, as it makes me feel I am already accepted into the Walton family and I am already getting acquainted with them before I arrive.  Mom has written several letters, but I have not heard since the week before Christmas when her package arrived.

I am glad you seemed to understand my rather detailed ramblings on gifts from the U.S.A. and English  Import duties.  If you do see anything you think worth sending over here, you know without my telling you, that it would be appreciated.  I think there darling, I can rely on your discretion.  If I’ve got to wait here patiently much longer it would be a great help in making coupons go further – and maybe I could spare some coupons to Mother for household stuff!  It seems as though many things are still short in the U.S. but I think you will return to normal more quickly than we shall.

I haven’t done very much this past week.  We weren’t even very busy at the office, but we had plenty to do there today and Denise and I did not get away until 6 pm, instead of 5 o’clock.  I may have mentioned Denise before – her mother, Mrs Lewis, used to arrange the trucks for us to come to the “operations parties”.  I did not know Denise in those happy days, but she used to be around with a Lt. Barracula, and we often talk about that summer, since she came to work at Millars’ and we got acquainted.  Now, she goes around with a R.A.F. type “jolly decent fellow” – a Flying Officer and he has just gone abroad.  She and I will probably console one another, especially when Moreen has gone.

Today you should be back at school again, after the Christmas vacation.  Is the life of a school teacher beginning to tempt you again?  I hope you don’t teach them to spell the way you do, or perhaps they have learnt to spell before you are entrusted with their impressionable minds.  I can understand you taking Maths, but English – darling, do you take books home to mark at your leisure?

I guess you don’t have much leisure though.  When one’s lonely the only cure is to find plenty to do.  I suppose I can’t really complain of lonliness – I am at home with the “family”, and all my friends and acquaintances are here – and yet, darling, I do miss you so.  I’d give any thing to be in your arms right now.

I want to go to the show this week to see Bette Davis in “The Great Lie” – she’s a wonderful actress, and I am told it’s a good film.  I’m still not dancing on account of my foot, and I have to go again tomorrow to have another dressing on it; Moreen still likes to go to Longs, but I don’t think they have very good dances there now.  The girls in the office sometimes go, and I hear all about it over the mid-morning cup of tea.

Moreen’s husband has been lucky enough to rent a furnished flat at Ithaca from 20th January, within reasonable distance of the college, and it sounds rather attractive.  I believe Moreen is having her vaccination tonight – I’ll have to hear all about it, as I expect it will apply to me too.  What we women do for love?

Tell me more about Kenneth and Dorothy; and Earl and Kay, as they seem to be the nearest members of the family; also any special friends in Arcata, and don’t forget about the picture.

Until next time, darling,

All my love,

Joan

January 11, 1946

Letter no. 74.                                                                                                                ‘Talma’,
Sheering Mill Rd.,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England

11th January, 1946

Hello darling,

It’s been a specially good week for mail, for both Monday and Friday’s posts brought a letter from you.  Your letters convey so much of your personality to me, that it almost seems you are right here beside me as I read them.

As you mentioned time does dim one’s recollection of even a loved one’s appearance; memory is a strange thing.  I have certain vivid pictures of you in my mind – like snapshots, but general remembrance, of course, is hazy.  I remember more the way you walk – the way you smile, and the way you would push your hat to the back of your head to kiss me goodnight.  And I can almost hear you saying “We haven’t gotten very far”, – a silly thing to remember but I remember at the time how your use of the word “gotten”  amused me, but now I guess I’ve gotten used to it myself.

This remembering game is fun, for as one concentrates on those past happy days, so many memories crowd in, as though the interim period was blank.  Sometimes one can look back to happy days that were not fully appreciated at the time, but not so those cherished moments I spent with you; I realised at the time how precious those hours together were and the knowledge that I enjoyed them to the full has helped to while away these otherwise tedious months of waiting.  More than sixteen months have passed and soon it will be two years since that May night we met at the “Operations” party.

Thanks for sending me Mrs. Young’s address and I will certainly write her; you were not far out in your English geography. Actually we live in the county of Essex – just over the border of Hertfordshire – though our postal address is Sawbridgeworth, which is in Hertfordshire.  Across country it is probably only about 15 miles or so, but it is a round about journey by ‘bus; if I am able to meet her it may have to be in London, but I will contact her and find out a little about her first.  As she is married she may be traveling quite soon.

I met Moreen on Tuesday night at the Regent and we went to see Bette Davis and Mary Astor in “The Great Lie”.  Have you seen it, as I believe it is by no means a new film?  If my memory is correct I believe you are a great  admirer of Bette Davis; she certainly is a great actress.  Moreen was very conscious  of her arm, as she had been vaccinated the previous evening, prior to having her visa issued.  She says now she knows why the soldiers used to complain, and it’s worse than being in the Army!  These G.I. brides are going to be herded around like G.I.s, as they are collecting them all together at Transit camps before shipping them.

By the time it gets around to my turn I’ll be traveling in comparitive civilian comfort.  I wonder how long it will be before civilian travel gets going again; I see Churchill and his wife left for a 3-months holiday at Miami, in the Queen Elizabeth.  One of the men in the office suggested I write the Shipping Company, saying  I’d be willing to travel as a children’s nurse if they knew of a family crossing the Atlantic; I believe he’s got something there.

Another bright suggestion from the office was that we got married by proxy, to entitle me to the priority allocated to brides; it is quite an idea, but as I told them, I doubt if it could be done.  Also it is doubtful whether all the authorities would accept a proxy marriage, especially between an American and a British citizen.

How is Mom?   I haven’t heard from her recently, and Pearl said she had had ‘flu – I do hope she is better now.

This week has passed quickly, because we have been very busy in the office.  I’m mainly interested in our export business, and in this department we have had quite a lot to do.  Whilst I was taking notes today, in particular answering an enquiry for large size concrete mixers, it occured to me to wonder what is the usual size of concrete mixer in the States.  Honey, I know they are bigger and better, obviously; at the moment the largest standard mixer we are producing is the 14/10 cuft. – an unmixed batch capacity of 14 cuft, and a mixed capacity of 10 cuft.  Soon we hope to re-introduce something bigger onto the market, but it did strike me that this machine must look awfully small against some of your American machines.

Whilst thinking along these “bigger, better and more beautiful” lines, it brings to mind a parody on the ‘Ode to a Daisy’.

“Wee crimson tippéd flower,
You’ve reached your greatest hour.
We plan to raise you up on high,
To boost the Yank.
Like him, you’re quiet, retiring, shy,
Devoid of swank.”

You may see nothing funny in that, but you will admit that it is an American characteristic to “boost” himself, and his country.  I think the English might do well to follow your example and discuss their achievements a little more.

I can’t end my letter without a passing mention of our weather; it’s been blowing gales here, and raining real hard, though it’s been pretty mild – not at all what one expects of January.

I’m glad you still enjoy going to Church on Sundays.  I’ll admit I haven’t been very much lately, but I think I’ll possibly come more with you when I get to Arcata.

Somebody just switched on the radio – something rather distracting in the way of a radio play, so I had better bid you goodnight, Harold, my darling.  Won’t it be wonderful when the time comes we don’t have to say goodnight to each other at all?

Until next time,

All my love,

Joan

P.S.  I just came across the enclosed cutting in our daily paper, a propos of what I was talking about in this letter, so decided to send it along.

J.

(a newspaper cutting was enclosed. It says: Phone call WED cost £15  The telephone rang in the hall of Hungerford, semi-detached villa in Llandough, Glamorgan on Wednesday evening.  Lorna Groves, fair-haired typist, just back from work, ran to answer it.  A distant voice –  “Hullo, is that you Lorna?  This is Murray speaking from the Methodist Chapel, Bremerton Naval Base, Washington, U.S.A.  Hold on – we are going to be married.”  Then the chaplain’s voice – “We are gathered here. . .”  In ten minutes Lorna was Mrs. Murray  Peterson, wife of a chief petty officer, U.S. Navy.

THE HONEYMOON?  A n extra three-minutes talk across 3,000 miles of ocean.
THE BRIDE’S DRESS?  A maroon woollen house frock – “I had no idea we’d be married tonight.”

THE COST?  For Lorna, half a crown – solicitor’s fee for witnessing an affidavit.  For Murray, a £15 ‘phone call at £1 a minute.)

January 20, 1946

Letter no. 75.                                                                                                                ‘Talma’,
Sheering Mill Road,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts,
ENGLAND

20th January, 1946

Darling Harold,

Another week has passed, and a great deal of my spare time seems to have been spent writing letters to various people, so perhaps you could bear to hear a little of my correspondence during the past week.

One of the first letters I sent was to Mrs. Young at Brentwood, and I received a reply from her almost immediately and she also sent along a picture of herself.  She seemed very pleased  to know of someone else going to Arcata, but as she expects to be leaving quite soon for the States it doesn’t seem as though we shall have an opportunity to meet over here.  When she arrives in Arcata no doubt you will meet her, as she says you have already met Dave, her husband, and I would like you to give me your really candid opinion of her.  I got the impression she was probably a nice, friendly girl – although possibly not quite my “type” – and that we shall be glad to know one another, though we may not normally have picked one another for bosom friends, under different circumstances.  Maybe her photograph gave me the wrong impression (or I’m prejudiced against too much lipstick and gold-studded dresses) – I hope so.  Anyway I shall be interested to hear your impression of her, and I think I should get on with her quite well, in spite of what I have already said.

I also wrote to another girl whom I met quite casually at the Cunard shipping offices last September, and with whom I have continued to correspond since.

Like me, she is a fiancée –  the only other one I know at about the same stage of procedure.  I am, if anything, a little in advance of her but we are keeping in touch in case we should be traveling over at the same time.  Her fiancé was in the infantry and got shot up in France, and has been in hospital since he returned to the States.  She is not 21 yet, and her people said she could go to join Frank when she came of age – but the transport difficulties will assure she doesn’t go before!  Anyway, I had arranged to meet her in London in a fortnight’s time and have a day together.

At the beginning of the week I was in a mood to stir things up so decided it was time to jolt the shipping line and the Embassy.  I am enclosing a cutting re G.I. brides and it does seem they will all be in the States by the end of March.

I wrote to the shipping company asking what prospects were like now, and they replied that up to the moment they had had no advice from the Government as to when space would be released for civilian needs, but they hoped it would not be long delayed.  They went on to assure me that once it was possible everything would be done to get their waiting list cleared as quickly as they could.  If I possessed a passport and visa, and would inform them the expiry dates, my name could be put on their “Ready to Sail” list.  Well, I have my passport, but the Embassy’s instructions are that application for visa should not be made until evidence can be produced that a passage is available within four months.
I have written to the Embassy this week, enquiring the position of fiancées and also ascertaining that a vaccination is necessary, but have not yet had a reply.  I think I will have to have another “go” at them, telling them what the shipping company has said about the visa.  I get more satisfaction worrying these people than sitting still waiting, even if it doesn’t get me anywhere.

I have also written to Mom this week, in reply to a letter I had from her while she was staying with Margaret.  Last night (when I was expecting to hear from you but didn’t – maybe tomorrow) I received a long newsy letter from Clare; she is so happy to have Louis home again, isn’t she?  I had written to her earlier in the week when I received her package of undies and stockings.  I was so thrilled and excited, that I did not mind the little duty I had to pay.  Yes, I did have to pay 15/6d this time – What’s that? just a little over three dollars? but I didn’t worry.  I am afraid Clare had an awful lot of bother over it, for she said the postal clerk told her I would have to give up clothing coupons for it; well, that would have been impossible for I wouldn’t have had enough coupons to cover it – I don’t know where they start rumors like that!  Anyway, Clare had an inspiration, and took the package home and washed them so that the items could be described as “used”.  Wasn’t that thoughtful of her?

You know, darling, I’m getting to know all these people in the South so well; do you think I should write to Dorothy or Kay sometime, because we shall be living nearer to them, and I might be getting acquainted.

It’s awful cold here now; it  tried to snow but rather unsuccessfully, so that the ground was merely sprinkled with white.  There’s a white frost, and though the sun is out it hasn’t disappeared.  It has been fine sunny weather, even though it’s been so cold.

I went to the show in the middle of the week, and in the newsflash they showed snow round Niagra, and also the Rose carnival at Pasadena, and swimming at Miami.  Last evening I went to visit my friend Ginger, in Bps. Stortford, whose husband is home sick again.  He suffers from asthma and he’s sick with bronchitis every winter.  I spent quite a nice evening with them, chatting round the fire and listening to the radio; they are nice, informal sort of folk, upon whom I can drop in any time and get a welcome.

I just ramble on dear, and don’t ask how school is going, and the factory, and the tourist cabin.  I hope everything is fine but don’t wear yourself out before I get there.  I haven’t even told you I loved you, or anything, but I guess you really know that.  Mother sends her love too, and she has written to Mom this week when I wrote.
I don’t much want to go out, it’s so cold, but must catch the post; take care of yourself, darling,

I’ll be seeing you,

With love,

Joan

Bride_ship

January 26, 1946 (2)

Letter no. 76.

Sawbridgeworth,

26th January, 1946

My dearest,

Your letter received last night was even more welcome than usual as I had missed hearing from you last week; I shouldn’t really tell you that, for it might encourage you to miss writing now & again, which I shouldn’t really want you to do.

I can’t “lecture” you from 6,000 miles away, but I do hope you are looking after yourself properly and eating good food, and not working too hard.  With long hours at the factory and school as well, you must be awfully busy – I only wish I could be there to greet you home after work each day, and hear all the day’s happenings.  But gradually now the time is drawing nearer.  The first batch of G.I. brides leave in the S.S. “Argentina” this weekend.  Moreen is very excited now, as she has had instructions to be ready to leave for a transit camp in 7/10 days from last Tuesday, and this means she will probably sail within a fortnight.  I have written the shipping company and the Embassy again, though I doubt very much if my efforts will speed things up very much.

I had a letter from one other of “my sisters” today – from Zephrya at Holly, Colorado, and I will be writing to her next week.  She says the last time she saw you was Christmas 1944 – apart from that she had not seen you since you left for California when you were nearly ten.  I guess you don’t know her awfully well like that, either.  Mom sent her my address.
I hope you are feeling better again now; there is quite a lot of ‘flu around at the moment.  My chief at the office is away with it, and consequently I have been having rather a slack time, as his deputy only does what is extremely urgent – so I am looking forward to a hectic few days when he returns.

This afternoon Moreen and Kathleen and I are meeting in Sawbridgeworth, and going by bus to Hertford where we want to see the film “The Valley of Decision” with Greer Garson and Walter Pidgeon, which is supposed to be very good.  I don’t know quite how Moreen plans to spend the rest of her time in England, but I expect apart from packing and everything, she will find quite a lot to do.  She called me up at the office yesterday and she sounded very excited.  Of course, I am glad she is going but in a way it makes me feel worse, being left behind.

I don’t seem to have a lot to tell you this week, as nothing of importance seems to have happened; life just goes on, and I’m still waiting, but it won’t be so long now ’til that long-anticipated reunion and we will be so happy just to be together again.

So goodbye darling,

I’ll be seeing you,

Love,       Joan

February 4, 1946 (2)

Letter no. 77.                                                                                       ‘Talma’,
Sheering Mill Rd,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England
4th February, 1946

Dearest Harold,

            There’s an old English saying “February fills the dyke, either with black or white”; it’s a very poor rhyme, but the idea is that in February the ditches will be full, either with snow or rain, and this year it seems it will be a “black” February, for its rained almost continuously.

            Yesterday I had made arrangements to go to London to meet Josie, the girl I met in the Cunard Line offices when she was applying for transport to join her fiancé, Frank Webb, in Texas.  It was just pouring with rain, but I had to go, and after a tedious journey I eventually arrived in Trafalgar Square to meet her at mid-day.

            It was still pouring with rain so we dove into Charing Cross Hotel where we lunched, and afterwards settled ourselves comfortably in the lounge where we chatted and compared pictures over our coffee.  We really settled ourselves in, so I guess everyone thought we were residents, and we talked all the afternoon until it was teatime, so then we had tea and lingered over that.

            I heard all about Goose Creek in Texas where she is going and it really looks bleak; also about Frank, who is hospitalised.  She had to get back to Boxmoor in Herts, so we parted soon after six and I was able to catch a reasonably comfortable train at 6.40, and arrived home soon after eight o’clock to find Moreen at home.  She had forgotten (in her excitement) that I was meeting Josie in town; so far she doesn’t know the date she has to leave, but her packing is more or less done, and the last minute details attended to.   I am lunching with her tomorrow when she may have some further news.

            I have not received a letter from you this weekend so have nothing to answer, and having done very little out of the ordinary myself, little to write about either.  Last week I worked on a sweater I was reknitting with quite satisfactory results, and one evening took mother to the cinema.  Another evening I visited Kathleen, and then another night I wrote letters, so that the week slipped by quite uneventfully, but swiftly, so that the weekend was here and gone before I realised it. 

            I have had request from some of the stamp-collectors in our office for American stamps, and some in particular.  I don’t know if you could arrange any “stamp combinations” on your letters to provide these keen philatelists with specimens for their collections.  If you can understand it, some of these are – used – 1938, 9c, 11c, 13c, 16c, 17c, 19c, 22c, 24c,.  The Flag issue in 1943 for Norway, Denmark and Luxemburg – President Roosevelt commemorative stamps – all new issues after the Flag set.  I don’t know much about stamps – you probably know a lot more than I do.

            By the way, have you thought of any occasion which might call for a picture of you, darling? Please try.

            There’s very little more to say this week dear, but take care of yourself – you do know I love you, don’t you?  I am just waiting for the day we’ll meet again which is drawing nearer day by day; til then, all my love, darling,

                                                            Yours always,

                                                                                    Joan

February 11, 1946 (2)

Letter no. 78.                                                                                       ‘Talma’,
Sheering Mill Rd,
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts,
England.

11th February, 1946

Dearest Harold,

      I should imagine that the most widely discussed subject in this small island of ours during  the past week has been food.  This particular problem, since the war ended, instead of improving seems to have worsened – in fact all the housewives are protesting against the recent ration cuts.  This food distribution really is quite a headache, and it has provided the newspapers with headlines and material for quite a number of controversial articles.

      The evening I received your last letter – Tuesday last week – Mother and I went over to Bishop’s Stortford to try and see a Bette Davis film – in fact “All This, and Heaven Too”, but it proved such a popular film that we were unable to get in to see it; so that’s one Bette Davis film that I missed, to my disappointment.

      Moreen has not left yet, and I have been in to lunch with her twice last week; inspected her new hat and coat for traveling to the States, and all her neat piles of clothes to be packed.  Every time I see her, she is in a whirl of washing, dyeing and pressing – it’s all very exciting!

      I have had quite a full day today because Mother has been in bed with one of those ‘flu attacks, and there was a lot of hustling to do to get everyone off to work on a Monday morning in good time, and a bit of clearing up to do before going to work; a note to write to the milkman to see if he could spare a little extra milk (they are awfully strict with milk but personality must count, for he doubled our ration today); a hasty visit to a neighbor to see if she would drop in during the day to see how mother was; then to see Mother was comfortable and had all she wanted before I left.  Strange to say, I was at the office on time – normally I’m a minute or so late, I’ll confess.

      Then a hectic day in the office – short staffed and over worked, of course.  Mother seems to be better tonight so I hope she will soon be up and about again – it’s an awful job to keep her in bed, though I grumble and tell her she’ll catch a chill if she gets up.

            I had a quiet week, apart from one spot of social activity; on Saturday we had a social and dance for the staff at our Works.  Tony came with me as my guest, and honest, it was more trouble to get him ready than me!  It involved a visit to the hairdresser (barber, or what you will), one of his “twice-weekly” shaves, ample supplies of hair-cream, specially starched collar, everything pressed and polished.  He’s growing quite a fine boy now.

      We had quite a good time, as being an office social we all knew one another and it was quite “matey”.  I called for Denise and after a drink at her place her father drove us down to the Works.  The affair was held in the Canteen, which was decorated not to look like a canteen.

      The Works band was in attendance, but apart from dancing we played games.  One of these games nearly wore me out, when I was partnered in musical chairs by the Managing director, my chief.  He has long, spidery legs and did he make me run!  We almost won, but were just beaten on the last chair by a younger couple.  In addition to games and dancing, there was a fairly good entertainment – hardly cabaret, but it broke the evening up, and then of course refreshments.  I laughed at all jokes except the one about “You will take me to America after the war, won’t you darling?” which I don’t consider very funny.

      The bus service has improved and whereas when you were here that last bus was just after 9. pm, I was able to catch one at 11.14, and there is now a later one at 12.14.  I guess the war must be over.

      Darling, I don’t seem to have much to tell you, but the real reason I write each week is so that you shall know I still think and care about you so.  You’re a sort of focal point of my existence already, and one day we shall be even more to each other.  I hope you received my Valentine greeting on the appropriate date – I posted it near enough to arrive on the 14th.

      That just about takes care of everything for this week, so ’til next time, all my love, sweetheart,

                                    Goodnight again,
Joan

February 19, 1946

Letter no. 79.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth,
England.

19th February, 1946

Dearest Harold,

            I’m a little behind schedule myself this week, but it has given me the opportunity to receive two of your letters, written at an interval of a week but received within a day of each other.

            The last few days have passed so quickly; first of all, Moreen had sailing instructions for the ‘Queen Mary’ and was told to report at Tidworth transit camp last Friday.  Then owing to the fact that the tugboat strike at New York put this vessel a few days behind her schedule, Moreen was instructed to postpone her departure until today.  However, she has gone now and we have said all our goodbyes and sent her off very excited and thrilled with the prospect of the trip before her.  This will be the second trip of the Queen Mary and everything seems to be going satisfactorily.  On Sunday Moreen came over here with her mother and father, and last evening Kathleen and I went over to see her again.

            As it was her last weekend here she wanted to pay a farewell visit to Longs so the “gang” went along with her. (Kathleen, Pam, Mary, Pat and myself) – I knew I should be unable to dance much, if at all, as my foot is not cured yet but I wanted to see Mary and chat with her as she is also going to America to be married.

            Of course, darling, I think it is a good idea that you should carry on and make plans for your education; I hope it won’t be too long before I can join you, but I really have no indication yet as to when it will be, so it is better for you to make your plans.  I don’t imagine I shall arrive before 15th May, and it will be a pleasant surprise if I do.  If it should be impossible for you to meet me, maybe I could make the journey alone, or pay a brief visit to Moreen. Naturally I’ll want to see you as soon as possible and I hope you can make the trip to the East coast to meet me.

            As soon as I have some real news of transport from the shipping company I will cable you, and I shall also need to know whether to book my rail ticket from New York to Arcata.  I can do it here when I book my sea passage, or leave it to you if you travel to meet me; but I shall be unable to carry sufficient money on me to enable me to purchase rail reservation from coast to coast when I arrive.  I shall transfer what is left of my account to the Bank of America in Arcata so I should have no funds available until I arrive in Arcata.  It might be a good idea, honey, if you plan to be married before we return to California to bring some money so I can buy a trousseau.

            Talking of trousseax, one of the girls in the office (Denise) wanted to give me a “going-away” present so provided I produced the coupons, she bought me a charming nylon nightdress.  A few nylon things are available now in small quantities if one has coupons, but the clothes rationing news announced yesterday is as gloomy as the food situation.  Maybe things will improve one day, but it certainly takes time.

            You are a bit ahead of us with the spring, but even so here there already signs that it may be imminent.  A few early flowers are in bloom – crocus, snowdrop and polyanthus – and it is quite mild.

            I hope your glands are better now.  After you told me about it, I had swollen glands in my neck and , dismissing the “sympathy” aspect, discovered it was due to cutting a tooth.  By the way, did you have to have it lanced?

            Well darling, I have promised to go to the cinema with Denise tonight, but felt I couldn’t defer my epistle to you ’til tomorrow night.  I heard from Mom, and she said you were busy; please take care dear, and don’t wear yourself out before I arrive.

                                    I’ll be seeing you,
Fondest love,
Joan

February 26, 1946

Letter no. 80                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth,

26th February, 1946

Dearest darling,

            As I left our warm office tonight I emerged into a white fairyland –  very lovely to behold, but not nearly so interesting when one has to cycle five miles in blinding snow, and by the time I reached home and warmth again I was myself smothered in cold white snow flakes.  My prophesy that February would “fill the dyke” with rain was somewhat inaccurate, as during the course of the month we have experienced both rain and snow.

            The weather forecast is colder and more snow, so prospects are none too bright for this sun-worshipping soul.  I’ll just keep my fingers crossed and hope it won’t freeze – that would be the last straw!

            To cheer me when I arrived home tonight was a very welcome letter from the man I love.  I can imagine how busy you are dear, but I hope you know how I appreciate your weekly letters, however brief they may have to be, though usually you manage to find something to write about.  When people haven’t met for a considerable length of time that’s not always easy, and I think we manage to bridge the gap of time and distance very well indeed.  We can’t have the same ties to bind us as couples who have lived together and become really acquainted – those links we have must be very strong.

            You mentioned that Moreen has probably sailed by now, and your assumption is correct.  The Queen Mary left Southampton on Sunday afternoon, and Moreen said goodbye to her mother over the telephone from the reception camp on Saturday night.  It seems strange without her but I guess we will get used to it.  I hope Elsie will be arriving in Arcata soon; I had a letter from her on 12th February when she said her notice to travel had been a false alarm, but I hope she has had further news.

            It is impossible to tell when I shall  be able to come.  I see by this evening’s paper that the “Queen Elizabeth” is to be “demobbed” and returned to the Cunard Line for reconversion to a passenger ship.  She is due to be handed over when she returns to Southampton on March 6th, but I don’t know how long it will take to convert her.  Anyway, it is a sign that civilian transport will be available sooner or later.

            However, if I still find it impossible to obtain transport to the U.S. your idea might be worth considering; I have been thinking it over, and it has its points.  I wonder what is the minimum length of time you would be able to sign on for, and whether you could join the Air corps again as a pilot?  Of course, I couldn’t drag you away from California unless it was imperative, but if the transport situation does not improve the idea has advantages.  The wives of occupation forces will probably be allowed to live in Germany with their husbands, and that would be much better than being separated by these 6,000 miles as at present.  Besides, I’m getting older all the time – I shall soon be 23, and I think it is about time I got married, don’t you?

            This is a funny way to be engaged, isn’t it?  I mean, this is usually the time two people discuss the more intimate side of marriage, which isn’t really possible in letters.  I want our marriage to be successful in all its aspects, and to attain harmony in all of them.

            Although everyone has gone out tonight I don’t seem to be alone while I have the companionship of our letters – yours I have just received, and my reply.  I do enjoy writing to you, though it may seem I don’t have an awful lot to say.  There is not much news because I haven’t been doing anything much except work and that doesn’t keep me occupied as long as yours.  We keep quite busy in the office thanks to the export drive.

            In the evenings maybe we sit around the fire and talk and listen to the radio.  Perhaps I’ll do some mending or knitting, or write a letter.  Tonight mum and dad have gone to the cinema and Tony to band practice.  I could have gone to the show but I had seen it previously, and also my foot is too bad.  It hurts worse now, so I can hardly walk sometimes, but apparently is in the last stages so that in a few weeks it should be cured.  You can imagine after six months treatment what a relief that will be.

            I seem to have come to the end of my paper, and also there is nothing more to tell you, so that’s two excuses for leaving you now.  Did you get my valentine card, or did you know so many girls in England you were scared to mention it?

            Take care of yourself my dear, and don’t work too hard, good-night,

                                                All my love,
Joan

P.S.  Some mail was lost last weekend – hope my letter got through.

March 5, 1946 (2)

Letter no. 81                                                                                            Sawbridgeworth,

Herts,   ENGLAND

                                                                                                                5th March, 1946

Dearest,

            Another week towards that happy day has passed and we are even nearer to being together again.  I received your letter last evening and was sorry to learn you have had ‘flu but hope you are better now and taking care of yourself.  You are quite right – I should scold you if I heard of it from another source, though at this distance that should not worry you overmuch.

            It has been so miserably cold here this past week.  The snow and ice was so bad it was all I could do to get to and from the office, and so I missed the film I wanted to see.  But now it is back to more or less normal; it is raining again and washing away the snow and ice.

            I kept house over the weekend as Mum and dad went away from Friday to Monday, and we quite enjoyed being on our own, even though it was so cold.  We did not go far on account of the weather, but entertained a girl friend and her small brother to tea on Sunday afternoon.

            We have not heard from Moreen yet but expect she is safely settled with Roland in Windsor now.

            Talking about food, and world food shortages, I received a package from Clare last week.  She really is a very thoughtful person, and we will have to make it up to her some day.  By the way, amongst the various things she sent was a tin of Prem (all right, can) and the directions for cooking  suggest basting with sugar and honey.   Gosh, darling, I hope you don’t care for it cooked that way – it sounds awful to me!

            Still, I had a lot of fun with a Butterscotch pudding, pretending I was an American housewife.  Milk is one of our problems though, and fortunately over the weekend Tony and I were allowed rations for four people, so we were not so badly off.  Yes, I have read in the papers of the butter shortage in the U.S. but I hope you can get margarine to make up for it – that has a lot of vitamins.

            Like you dear, I don’t have a lot to write about.  Perhaps next week I shall have more to tell you, though I may be a little late with it as an aunt has invited me to stay with them next weekend in Hampshire.  It is quite a journey so I asked for some time off, and I was offered more than I asked for, so it will make my journey worth while.  They live in a village on the south coast, and if the weather improves it will be very nice.  The real reason for this suggestion is that my cousin is on leave from India and it is expected that I shall leave for America before he returns to England for final demob.  I had planned to visit this family in the spring but as he is home now I am making the visit earlier than I had expected.

            Thank you for remembering about the stamps; everyone wants me to thank you very much, and were particularly delighted with the Texas star/flag one.

            Tomorrow night I have promised Denise that I will go along with her to the Forces hostel canteen, to help, as they are short of helpers on Wednesday evenings.  I shall go down with her from the office at 5 o’clock and work there all the evening.  They are still quite busy as there are a number of servicemen in the district.  That will be a regular evening’s work and will help to pass away these lonesome evenings.

            I guess that’s just about all now, darling, except I still love you and want to be with you.  Dad paid me a pretty compliment recently when he said that lots of people ask after me, saying “Joan must be awfully fed up these days”, but it is his opinion that I am taking it very well, and to use his words, during the past six months I have been at my “serenest”.  I suppose that does rather sum up how I feel about it – happy and contented in the knowledge that one day, not so far distant either, I will have you for my own and we will be so happy.   I don’t envy anyone – for no-one else has just what I do to look forward to, and it will not be so long now.

            Goodnight, darling, I’ll be seeing you.

                                                Lots of Love,

                                                            Joan

March 18, 1946

                                                                                                         “Talma”
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 82.                                                                                    Sawbridgeworth,
Herrts, England

                                                                                                         18th March, 1946

Dearest Harold,

            Spending last weekend away from home seemed to set me all off schedule but here I am, back in routine again, though rather late with my letter to you.   When I wrote last I told you that I had had an invitation to visit an aunt and family in Hampshire.

            It was a fairly long journey to take for a weekend, especially taking Sunday train service into account so I asked for Monday morning off to enable me to travel back in comfort.  To my surprise I was offered a couple of days leave, so I was able to spend a clear couple of days with my aunt.  She is one of dad’s sisters – Auntie Bert, and she has two children – Derek, who is my age and in the Army, and Daphne the daughter who is about thirteen and still in the rather coltish schoolgirl stage.  Also Uncle Harry.  I had not seen any of them since a year or two before the war and I had intended to pay them a visit before I left for you and the U.S.

            However, my cousin’s leave rather precipitated my intentions and consequently last weekend I found myself travelling down to Hampshire.  It was very cold all the time but fortunately it kept fine.  I left the office at 12.30 and managed to get some lunch before catching the 1.33 train from Bishop’s Stortford, which however did not arrive at Liverpool Street until almost 3 o’clock. (The railways here seem to get worse).  Eventually I arrived at Southbourne about 6.30 in the evening, and we all spent a pleasant evening round the fire, discussing family affairs etc.  Of course they all wanted to hear about you, and you can imagine your name came up frequently during the weekend.

            On Sunday we visited various friends of theirs, and again on Monday I went out with Auntie.  However, I left them on Tuesday morning and traveled up to town where I immediately rang up another Auntie – my mother’s sister Nellie.  I made arrangements to meet her for lunch, and we had a pleasant hour or so chatting, and I went back to her office for a few minutes.  Then, after arranging  to meet Auntie when she left the office in the evening, I went down “West” to Oxford Street and spent a very pleasant afternoon window-shopping – not having sufficient coupons that was my limit, but I enjoyed it all the same.  Then I dashed back to Marylebone, and Auntie and I went to the cinema (theater) to see a Bette Davis film – “The Sisters”, which was very good.  After this we had a meal together; then we both had to dash for our respective trains.

            Apart from this break, I have spent a couple of evenings at the canteen, about which I told you in my previous letter.  I go straight down to the canteen when I leave the office at 5 o’clock and stay until it closes at 10 o’clock.  The evening goes quite quickly as there are lots of jobs to help with; taking orders, and serving them, washing-up, serving on the counter.  They seem to be quite a happy crowd of helpers, and I have made a number of new acquaintances down there.

            Friday evening, Tony and I went over to see Mr. & Mrs. Hewardine, to hear the latest news of Moreen, and were shown a newspaper cutting of Roland greeting Moreen when she arrived at Binghampton.  It was quite a good press picture.  She has written several letters home, which are being passed round for general circulation.  They were written from the transit camp, on the ship and also from Roland’s home at Windsor.

            Her letters are very descriptive (fortunately one can read them at any speed one prefers) and she certainly seems favourably impressed with everything she has seen so far, and we are satisfied that she is very happy. Their “veteran’s” flat is not ready yet, and so for the time being she is staying with his people at Windsor.  Mr. Ransom, Sr. is principal of Windsor High School, and one day, when a master was sick, Moreen and Roland went down to the school to take the classes throughout the day on Current Events, and the topic for the day was England.  Moreen found it much easier than she had expected, and a number of the children stayed behind after class to ask her questions.  I believe she quite enjoyed it.

            I believe you once remarked (after I had let my hair down to go swimming) that you thought I might be able to wear it that way, rather than in the rather severe “roll” style which I adopted for the Fire service, and general wartime convenience.  Well, I thought the time had come to relax a little so on Saturday I went along and had a perm.  Do you remember you and Tommie chasing around Longs to dance with a girl for whom you had a message?  Well, her sister did it for me; we made quite a social afternoon of it, and I had all her assistants in my cubicle while we discussed the American invasion of Bishop’s in 1944.  I had my hair set in soft curls, and had quite a favorable reaction  to the new style from everyone in the office today, so guess it must pass.  It just this time of year one needs bucking-up, and a new hat or a perm have a definite psychological effect on a woman – better than a doctor’s tonic!  That’s where your self-confidence (or a mild form of conceit) comes in again.

            After I left the hairdresser I stopped in at the Canteen to see Denise, as she was trying to get a couple of tickets for an amateur play being produced in aid of the Welcome Home Fund for the forces.  We went along to that, and for an amateur production it was really quite well done, and we enjoyed it.

            All this time I had not seen Kath so Sunday morning I slipped up to the farm to see her, and she has persuaded me to go up and see her again tomorrow night.

            On Sunday afternoon I went over to Bishop’s Stortford on a bus to have tea with Denise; then we went over to see her Grannie, after which we went to Harlow Mill to dinner.  At one time it would not have been permissable to dine there without an escort, but these days no one bothers.  We really enjoyed it – food is one of the essential pleasures of life.

            I got your letter tonight, smothered with a marvelous array of stamps, and also heard from Pearl.  Last week, too, I had a letter from Mom, so I manage to keep in touch with the family as well, if not better than you can.  I guess once we are married I will deal with most of the family correspondence – I think I shall have to invest in a typewriter to get all my letters to England done.

            It has been horribly cold here but is gradually getting milder; this is supposed to have been the coldest March since 1916, and certainly I don’t remember it usually so cold at this time of year.

            Tomorrow I go again to have the dressing removed from my foot.  I was told that by tomorrow it might be cured, and I am hoping so, because I have felt no pain in it now for more than a week.  It really is wonderful to be able to walk again – I’m literally walking on air.  Everyone at home here have had awful colds, but I have so far fortunately escaped.  Tony is out tonight playing at a St. Patricks Day dance – that’s the Irish patron saint.

            Guess I’ll have to leave you now, or I’ll develope the rambling habit of the Waltons.  I feel though that when I meet him again I’ll be even more satisfied with my choice, and I am just looking forward to that day.

                        Til then, my darling,

                                    All my love,

                                                Joan

March 25, 1946

                                                                                                           “Talma”
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 83                                                                                       Sawbridgeworth,
Herts. ENGLAND.

                                                                                                            25th March, 1946

My darling Harold,

            Maybe I should have waited til my mood changed to write to you this week, but I guess one day you’ll see me in all my moods, and so it really shouldn’t matter too much.  Perhaps by the time I have finished writing to you I will be feeling more cheerful; I hope so.

            Possibly it is the sudden advent of spring that makes me miss you more acutely than usual.  It’s strange that, though we never really had time to come to rely on each other’s company as people do, I missed you so much when you had gone and still do, even after more than eighteen months have passed.  It would be wonderful just to be with you once again; no need to even say anything very much but just to be together again.

            You’ve been very close to me; a moment’s concentration would bring a vivid, tantalising flash of memory and you would be there.  Admittedly time does dim one’s recollection to a certain extent, but when eventually we do meet again we shall soon forget the  long months of separation and soon it will seem like we have never been apart.  The memory of unpleasant things quickly fades – it is really surprising how quickly the bombings and blackout of the war has slipped from our minds.

            A number of my married friends have left, or are soon leaving for the U.S.A.  One girl I know fairly well when we worked in the same offices leaves for Oakland about tomorrow and she has promised to write me her impressions of California.  Of course, I shall be interested to hear from Moreen when she is settled, but probably even more so from Marjorie as she will be living in California.  There is another Bishop’s Stortford girl – Betty Brightwell – leaving soon for California.  She married a Lt. Wray from Los Angeles, I believe, but last I saw of her, he was still in Germany.

            So it seems they must be getting a good number of brides over now, as the Queen Mary I think is about to make her fourth trip and a lot of other ships have been used as bride transports.  Yet the newspapers never seem to give any indication as to how far they have got with the transportation.  I wonder how long it will be before G.I. fiancées get news of passage – suppose I must have patience a little longer, it can’t be so long.

            It really has been a wonderful day today.  The mist hung around this morning until the warmth of the sun dispersed it, and then we had a day of bright sunshine and an unclouded sky, one of those perfect days, unfortunately, not often associated with this small island.  The blossoms are showing now and the birds beginning to sing.

            Yesterday I spent the day on the farm with Kathleen, feeding the chicks and ducklings and generally “helping”, though not too effectively.  We watched the little ducklings chip the egg, hatch out and emerge all golden , wet and silky, and very soon they would be dry golden balls of fluffy down, squeaking away like it was Easter time.  I was also introduced to the new calves, Gilbert and Sullivan.  It is only a small farm of course; nothing like your “miles and miles from the pig pasture to the cow-barn” affairs as you once described the ranch where Pearl and Cliff live, in one of your earliest letters to me.

            I spent a quieter week last week; and got a few letters written, and spent one evening at the Canteen.  On Saturday evening Tony and I went to visit Sybil and her husband, and spent rather a pleasant evening with them.

            There were some rather nice days last week, and one day after lunch in the canteen Denise (she’s my “assistant” in the office) and I went across the fields for a ramble before resuming work.  We went out through the back of the Works across the railroad tracks, and through the meadow until we reached the river bank where a bargee was manoeuvring his craft round a bend in the river.  Denise called out to him and he invited us to go aboard and ride down to the next lock.  Well, we didn’t have an awful lot of time but we couldn’t resist a ride on a horse drawn barge so we went.  It was grand on the river; moving along with a slow, easy motion it seemed as though time stood still.  Of course, when we “disembarked” at the lock we had to run back to the office but it was worth it.

            Oh, darling, if only I could just slip into your arms and tell you how I love you, you would know how sincerely and deeply I feel about it, but it can’t be done just yet.  Last week in your letter you mentioned that I had characteristics which you would like to see inherited in your children; that’s about the greatest compliment one can receive.  In choosing a mate one naturally considers any children that may result, and one naturally thinks one’s own children will be of the best, and the other parent has to be pretty good too.

            I’m convinced any children we might have would be wonderful kids, provided they are properly brought up; they would have a good start, and a happy homelife.  I still think my choice of a father for them is pretty good.

            I think I’m feeling much better for my chat with you, even across 6,000 miles, so had better say goodnight now darling, and I’ll be seeing you,

                                         With love,

                                                Joan

April 1, 1946

Letter no. 84.                                                                                       Sawbridgeworth,

                                                                                                            1st April, 1946

Darling Harold,

            You make me feel awfully guilty about having missed one letter to you, even though I had warned you it might be later than usual, but I hope my letter last week was compensation for the omission.  I don’t have such a good reason for not having written as you, for I don’t want you to come home and write to me after one o’clock in the morning, when you should be getting some rest.  So long as I know you are alright I won’t mind missing a letter or two, though of course your letters do mean an awful lot to me as at present letters are our only means of contact.

            You have really intrigued me by your letter this week, darling.  Having gone to some lengths to tell me about the shopping you have been doing on my behalf, you didn’t mention what you had actually bought and that of course is what I am curious to know.  It’s sweet of you darling, and I’m very thrilled and also, now you have allowed your secret to leak out, very impatient too.  Of course, you could relieve my impatience a little by describing to me what you are sending as your estimate of four weeks in the post may probably extend to six weeks, and it most likely will be well into May before your package arrives.  Never mind, it will give me time to put by the duty money, though that doesn’t worry me unduly.

            I don’t really know if there is any limit to the amount of money I shall be allowed to transfer to the States when I do eventually arrive.  At the moment I have £200 banked out of which I shall pay my traveling expenses, and I hope there won’t be any difficulty about transferring what is left.

            You spoke again of obtaining time off to meet me at the end of term if I should time my arrival then.  Most likely it will be the end of next term before I arrive; possibly not ’til later.  I don’t want to be over-pessimistic about it but I do feel we should be prepared to accept a little longer waiting period than had once seemed probable, as right now I can’t see any prospect of obtaining a passage.  Perhaps things will happen all of a sudden, and without any warning I shall be plunged into that hectic state of preparing to leave.  As far as I understand they are halfway through with shipping wives, though 7,000 girls have failed to apply for transport.  At the same rate of dealing with these wives it will be the end of May before the transportation is completed.

            Your weather doesn’t seem to be running true to form; I once quoted an English saying applicable to February and for March the saying has it that March will either come in as a lion and go out like a lamb, or vice versa.  Well, this year it departed like a lamb, very quietly – March of course, is reputed to be a windy month, hence the rhyme “March winds and April showers, Bring forth the sweet May flowers”.  However, last week terminated in a glorious weekend, when I was able to get out and bask in the sun until freckles began to show on my nose.  We have been warned that this wonderful break is due to sun spot activity and that it may only last a few more days, to be followed by another cold spell, but just for the moment I am glorifying in the luxury of a spring heat wave.

            In our office we can’t see the sun for the only windows are frosted ones above our heads.  It’s wonderful for light of course, and doesn’t tend to distract one’s attention from the job in hand, but it surely is aggravating to see that glimpse of blue sky, and know outside the sun is shining, the flowers blooming and the birds singing.  So you can guess my boss doesn’t have to ask me twice to go and take dictation for he has a desk facing windows that open wide and let in God’s good sunshine, and if there is anything this girl loves, it’s sunshine.  I don’t care for extremes of temperature, but order me plenty of Californian sunshine – I can use it.  I should imagine the climate of Arcata should suit me very well, especially if the man I chose is there to keep me company.

            You sound as if you contemplate being awfully busy.  I was interested to hear about the building plans, and hope it won’t be too long before I am able to come and see how it is going along.  How are you making out in the cabin?  Will there be room for two of us when I arrive or shall we have to have our meals outside?

            Moreen and Roland at present have a large furnished room in Ithaca, as their apartment will not be ready until the beginning of July.  They seem to be very happy and Moreen is settling in very well.  She has sent home snaps taken at her mother-in-law’s home in Windsor.  Everyone is very nice to her, and she has met lots of people, many of whom she can’t remember but says she smiles at everyone and hopes for the best; she is a friendly soul so I expect she will fit herself in quite easily.

            I was interested to hear about your food problems; it does make us feel we are not alone in our troubles.  Moreen just raves about food in her letters, but that always was one of her strong points.  I am glad you are able to get milk fairly easily though.  The present allowance of milk here is 2 1/2 pints per person per week, and most of the time we have been on this bare ration, that is 10 pints a week for four of us.  Just now however we are able to get a little extra, which does help.  I do love milk.  You may have gathered that I take a keen interest in food, both from a nutrition point of view and also sheer enjoyment.  Moreen and I used to contend that our favorite date was a “dinner-date”, and I think we’ve got something there.

            I am hoping tomorrow night – to revert to an entirely different subject – to see the film you mentioned recently, and which reminded you of England – “Love Letters” with Jennifer Jones, and when I have seen it I will give you my impressions.  Last week I went to see “Brief Encounter” which was admittedly very well acted, but rather restricted in action, most of the story being enacted in the station waiting-room.  Have you seen it?  Last week I also saw Betty Hutton in “The Stork Club” which I also enjoyed.  My taste in films is varied, as you will notice.

            One evening last week Kath and I visited a friend of hers, a middle-aged woman who has spent some years of her life abroad – Canada, South Africa and Australia – and she says I’ll love living in America, and she wanted to know why Kathleen wasn’t going too.  Somehow though, I don’t feel that Kathleen  would ever mix with Americans and fit in with their way of life; did she strike you as being rather stilted and difficult to know?

            Yesterday Denise invited me to join a dinner-party with her mother, father, uncle, aunt and some friends of theirs, and eventually eight of us piled in a couple of cars and we went over to Harlow Mill to dinner.  I am afraid Denise moves in a slightly different social circle to me (her father is a Major, though I know that doesn’t count) but I get along with them alright and enjoy an occasional affair like last night.  I get on very well with Denise in the  office, and also see quite a lot of her out of office hours; as I explained once before she has an understanding with a R.A.F. officer out in Palestine at the moment. 

            One of my favorite daydreams is that something unexpected has happened, and you have turned up here in England.  You sometimes seem that near that you could appear any minute; the feeling is so convincing that you are with me here, that I don’t know whether I should be surprised or not if the dream came true.  Having known you here and associated you with this place it would only be reasonable to expect you to reappear here, though I know it is impossible.  It is possibly because I have not yet seen you in your own setting and it is therefore more difficult to imagine.

            You mentioned recently that some people would be pleased if we were to get married in California after all.  Who has expressed a desire for that, and where do they think the ceremony should take place?

            I had another letter from Zephyra last week, and also one from my niece Christine Borg.  I had a picture from them too – Christine looks a dear little soul, and how like Mom Zephyra is!  I should imagine Christine favors Albert’s side of the family, with her blondeness.

            Are you beginning to wonder when I’m going to ramble to an end?  I suppose I should say goodnight now, though I hate to leave you, but just once again I must emphasise how I love you, perhaps even more than ever.  I’m very close to you in spirit darling, and I hope we will always be that way.

            ‘Til next week, I’ll be seeing you,

                                    All my love,

                                                Joan

April 6, 1948

                                                                                                      “Talma”
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 85.                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts. England.

                                                                                                        6th April, 1946

Dearest Harold,

            It was only a few nights ago I was writing to you, but as this evening everyone has gone out and left me to my own devices I was determined to have my ‘chat’ with you now, and when Monday evening comes will try and get some letters written to a few other people.  Mum and dad have gone to the cinema, and Tony is playing cornet duets at a concert at Sawbridgeworth.  I have been out with Kathleen all the afternoon but have come home to spend a quiet evening with you while she goes out with her boy friend.

            When I wrote Monday I mentioned that Mother and I were going to the show on Tuesday night.  We saw the film you spoke about – Love Letters –  and I watched Jennifer Jones closely to see how she resembled our Moreen, and I must admit there were times when I could see it; though I doubt if Moreen would be flattered, because the resemblance between them – mostly a matter of eye-manipulation – would not show Moreen at her best.  The film itself was quite good but as far as I could see would have been far better set in America if it had to have an American hero, wearing English uniform the American way; the way that man wore his clothes gave him away, even if he hadn’t opened his mouth!  I like to listen to most American voices but not from an English hero.  And Essex! Well, you were stationed in Essex – did it look authentic to you?  And never did I see anything less approaching an Essex country yokel!  I can’t see why the story could not have been set in America, but nevertheless I enjoyed it.

            Having pulled your American film to pieces, maybe I should pass gracefully on.  Let me see; answering your letter on Monday, I completely forgot you asked about my measurements.  I have no idea which particular measurements you are interested in, and I am afraid they aren’t details I exactly brag about, being mostly out of proportion, but I get by.  If I can find a tape measure, I’ll make a note of them.  As far as I can make out I am a little taller and a little slimmer than Clare  and Pearl, being abut 5’4″ and weighing around 120 lbs.  Roughly as far as I can see my measurements are – hips 37″, waist 26″, bust 33″.  Hose 9 1/2 English shoe size (which varies from the American) 5 1/2.  Does that give you any idea what to expect?  You guessed correctly at the size of my ring – you must have been holding my hand for some good purpose.

            I go rambling on, rather disjointedly from one subject to another.  My activities for the rest of the week have been somewhat subdued.  On Wednesday I went into the canteen, Thursday evening I stayed home and did various odd mending jobs; last evening I was going to write some letters and then Kath came down and we all sat around talking and the evening soon passed.

            This afternoon Kath came down and we went to Bishop’s Stortford to do some shopping.  Kath is going to be a bridesmaid at a wedding soon, and wanted some shoes to wear; she had tried everywhere to find someone with some white satin slippers that could be dyed clover-color but it was useless.  She couldn’t spare the coupons.  At last, in despair we tried an old second hand shop, and there amongst the junk we found just the pair she wanted – hardly worn, in very good condition, no coupons and very cheap.  Of course we thought we had found a bargain, so very pleased we went back in the town to celebrate over a pot of tea.

            We had a look round the shops as I would have liked something new for Easter, but there did not seem to be much to buy, so decided to wait a bit.  I have arranged to visit an Aunt and uncle at Leicester over Easter as I shall have a long weekend in which to make the trip, and spend a couple of days complete with them.

            I had a surprise this week.  Our firm is awfully mean, and it is real hard work to obtain a raise, but without any prompting from me they decided I was worth another 4/6d to them this week.  That’s not an awful lot I know, but from next week there will be a reduction in the Income tax, so taking both facts into consideration I should be slightly better off.  If they keep it up I may in time be able to afford an air passage but just yet it still seems awfully expensive, though probably in time there will be a few passages available to people without “Government” priority.

            I told you about our early “summer” spell of fine weather, and that it was expected to break; one day to the next the temperature dropped 28 degrees.  Friday it just poured with rain, and though the sun shone today and it has been fine, it is much cooler.

            Well darling, everyone will be in very soon so I’ll have to say goodnight to you now.  I’ll be seeing you though,

                        I love you,

                                    Joan

(With this letter was a small newspaper clipping describing how the temperature was 28 degrees cooler that day than the previous day when it was 76 degrees at 3 p.m.)

April 14, 1946

Letter no. 86.                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.  England.

                                                                                                             14th April, 1946

Darling,

            As I write now we are enjoying one of those lovely sunny April Sundays that I remember from two years ago, just before we first met; right now I am lying out on the grass in the sunshine to write to you, so you must forgive me if my writing has to suffer from the unaccustomed position, I don’t usually write my letters at this angle.

            I got your letter on Monday, and was sorry to hear that you have suffered another attack of ‘flu, but hope you are really well again now.  I don’t want to “nag” you, darling, but don’t you feel you are overdoing things just a little.   One can, you know; and though I like to think you have sufficient to keep you occupied, alternatively I don’t like to feel you are overdoing it and working too hard, and especially when I am too far away and cannot do anything to look after you. – I want so much to be there when you come home from work, so that we can really have a home, and you need a wife to take care of you now.

            I heard this week of a woman being informed through the travel agents that she could obtain an air passage to the States in November, which is not too encouraging – she is a former internee in China and is going to her daughter in America.  However we also heard in the papers that 6,000 G.I. brides, for whom transport has been allocated, have failed to apply, and unless they do so immediately they will have to arrange their own transport.  Perhaps this will release shipping space earlier for civilians.

            I wonder if Elsie has arrived in Arcata yet?  If so, give her my best wishes and tell her I am looking forward to hearing her impressions of California.  I have not heard from Moreen yet but understand that she is very happy.  Kath and I spent the evening with Mr & Mrs H. on Friday and they seem to be getting used to Moreen’s absence now; it is two months since she left Bishop’s Stortford.  Time passes quite quickly – it does not really seem that time.

            I have not been doing very much this week, but did go to the show with Mum and dad to see Bette Davis in “Mr. Skeffington”, which was very good.  I also spent one evening at the Canteen but we were not very busy.

            After your comments on my spelling capabilities, I suppose I should retire, subdued, but first feel I owe it to myself to point out that my difficulties usually occur in respect of the longer words such as you mention.  But I don’t think I shall dare to criticise yours again.

            That’s just about all my news – rather brief, I am afraid, this week.  I shall try to write you again before the end of the week as I shall be in Leicester over the weekend, visiting my Aunt and Uncle.  So ’til then, I’ll be seeing you darling,

                                                All my love,

                                                            Joan

April 18, 1946

Letter no. 87                                                                                      Sawbridgeworth,
Herts,  England.

                                                                                                           18th April, 1946

Dearest Harold,

            Having just done a hasty spot of packing before the light fails, I will now endeavour to make good my promise to write again before the end of the week.  As I mentioned before I am spending the Easter weekend with my aunt and uncle in Leicester, and travelling up there tomorrow so that I shall arrive about 2.30 in the afternoon.  The trains will be crowded I am afraid but I hope to make my way safely back on Monday, ready for work again on Tuesday, and that will be another of my visits made before leaving for the States.  In this way I should have seen most of the family before I go – admittedly not so large as yours though.

            I am afraid I have little news to report since I wrote last Sunday, but I did receive your letter on Tuesday evening which was very welcome especially after I had just spent an almost interminal half hour in the dentist’s chair.

            So, skipping the news, which is negligible, I will proceed to answer your letter.  You will see by my later letter that I made up for my previous omission and without any further prompting or coaxing gave you the information re measurements for which you had asked.  However, darling, thank you so much for relieving my curiosity as to the contents of the package you sent.  I am more than ever thrilled and waiting impatiently for it to arrive.  If anything, you may have erred a little on the generous side but that should be easier to adjust – anyway I think you must have made quite accurate guesses.  I’ll let you know as soon as it arrives, but in the meantime darling, it is awfully sweet of you and you don’t know how pleased I shall be.  One day I shall really be able to say “Thank you” properly.

            I had a very unexpected package from Clare today containing raisins and dates, can of salmon, can of grapefruit, can of cranberry sauce and a box of candies – you should have seen the excitement and fun we had opening it this evening.

            I hope Elsie arrived safely and that Dave was there to meet her.  I will try and write her soon.

            I was interested to note your reaction to Kathleen.  I have known her for years now, but only superficially I am afraid.  I get along with her quite well, but have never felt that I could penetrate that reserve, and really call it friendship.  There are many things about her that I like of course.

            As to Denise, I did not know you had ever met her; I realised after I read your letter that you were probably referring to Pat – as she answers your description very well.  She was always around at the parties, and she was with Moreen the day we met her at the Punch and Judy show in the Castle Gardens.  If you mean Pat, I agree with you.

            Denise Lewis started to work in our office last summer, and that was when I met her.  She used to go to camp parties, as her mother organised the transport for the girls, but I did not know her then.  Last night I was working at the canteen with her; consequently I have been quite busy preparing to be off fairly early tomorrow. 

            I heard from Mom too this week, and mother and I both wrote to her.  She seemed to be expecting me over in the U.S. but the schedule for the wives is not completed yet.  It is a pity I have been unable to get any definite information as to when it is likely to be; we could make our plans accordingly, if we knew.

            Well dearest, guess that’s all now, but I’ll be talking about you and thinking of you a lot during the weekend.  Take care of yourself, I’ll be seeing you.

                                                    Love,

                                                            Joan

April 26, 1946

Letter no. 88                                                                                       Sawbridgeworth,
Herts,  England.

                                                                                                            26th April, 1946

Darling,

            Tuesday celebrated a double event this week, as your letter arrived on my birthday, a coincidence which I attributed to fate and not the postal authorities aforethought. Anyway it was good to hear from you.

            Perhaps I had better start from where I left off last week.  You may have noticed from the postmark that your letter was posted as I was on my way through London on Good Friday.  The trains were running according to Sunday schedule and so connections were bad and I had some time to waste.  Dad was working on a bomb repair job in Pall Mall, putting new windows in a super club, or something similar, so he suggested I went over to see him.  This I did and we climbed up onto the roof to view London; from this point we had a wonderful view in each direction, looking across London one way to St. Pauls Cathedral and another to the Houses of Parliament and Big Ben.

            The Junior Carlton Club is essentially a man’s club and women are not allowed to set foot in the “Members’” quarters, but dad very much wanted me to see the place so we travelled down in the lift, stopping at each floor to get a good view.  As soon as I heard a member approaching I dove back into the lift so as not to be seen.

            When I left there I went across to St. Pancras station to catch the 12.0 midday train.  I arrived at 11.20 and was just in time to get one of the last seats.  After that the people still continued to pour into the coaches somehow, but at 12 when we drew out a lot of people were still on the platform, being quite unable to wedge themselves in.

            I had not visited my aunt and uncle at Leicester since 1938, when I was still at school.  and it was nice to see them again.  Both my aunt and uncle had recently been ill, so we had a fairly quiet weekend.  Although it is a city, there is pretty country within easy reach of the town, and I did not have to walk far before I was in open fields with the meadowlarks trilling away above my head.

            On Saturday night we went to a show, having the choice of 30 cinemas, and we went to see Judy Garland in “The Harvey Girls” which we all enjoyed.

            The weekend went all too quickly of course; we talked a lot for of course they wanted to hear all about you, and the pictures of California came out again.  Monday afternoon I started off for home again and this time I was not quite so lucky, so I had to stand wedged in a corridor for 2 3/4 hrs all the way from Leicester to London.  The second part of the journey was more comfortable however, and I arrived home here about 9.30.

            Next day of course, I was 23 – just think how I must have aged since you last saw me!  When we met almost two years ago I was only 21.  Denise brought some flowers to the office for me – daffodils and narcissi, – and we had them on our desk all day.  I didn’t do anything exciting though to celebrate; maybe I will next year when we are together.

            Reverting to weddings, as you once did recently, I don’t really mind now where we get married.  At one time I thought I would prefer to do it quietly on our own, preferably in New York, so that the fact of having people  present while my own people were unable to be there, should not make me “homesick”.  Now, I don’t think I would mind very much; perhaps it was rather silly of me.  Some people get a pleasure out of seeing couples married, though personally it usually makes me sad – I could have cried when Moreen was married – it is such a solemn irrevocable affair.

            I have heard from Moreen now and she and Roland seem to be very happy.  She is very enthusiastic about her new life, and everyone is very friendly and, in her words, they all ” manage to rake up an English ancester” for her benefit.

            I don’t suppose you would have time to write to her, but I wonder if you could find a card for her 21st birthday, which is 31st May – over here a 21st or Coming of Age, is a very important event.  Her address is Mrs. Roland Ransom, c/o Mr. Harvey Ransom, Windsor, N.Y.

            I wonder what happened to Tommie Eccles – I did not hear from him any more, and often wonder about him.

            Tomorrow I am going to visit Josie Charman – the girl who is engaged to a boy from Texas.  We are hoping we are able to obtain passages at the same time.  She wants me to spend the weekend at Boxmoor, Herts, and meet her people, so I am going straight from the office at midday tomorrow.

            It’s getting late now darling, so I had better close.  I still have no news as to when I will be seeing you, but we must be nearer now.  One day our patience will be rewarded.

                        Goodnight, my dear,

                                    All my love,

                                                Joan

May 5, 1946

                                                                                                       “Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 89.                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.

                                                                                                       5th May, 1946

Darling,

            I just realised that it was two years ago this weekend since that first “operations” party where we met for the first time – it doesn’t really seem possible it can be that long, although most of the time we have been apart, just waiting for our reunion date.  I wonder if you will find me very much changed – possibly these two years have made more difference to me than you.

            I was interested to hear all about your encounter with Elsie in the Post Office and pleased that you think we will be friends.  I wrote to her last week but sent it surface mail, so she will not receive my letter for a week or so.  I do hope she is settling down happily and will write and give me her impressions of Arcata.  She did not appear to be a very descriptive or communicative letter-writer, but I hope she will be able to tell me how she reacts.  It seems as though everyone likes her, which will help her a lot.  Moreen seems to be very happy in Ithaca with Roland, but she is a very adaptable person and I thought she would soon make herself at home there.

            I am afraid I don’t know the origin of the Easter Egg hunt; it must be French, as I have never heard that it started here.  Prewar, we always as children had chocolate Easter eggs in silver paper, but those of course have not been seen since those far-off days before the war.

            The other day I heard of someone booking a passage from England to America from your side of the Atlantic, but I don’t know how it is done – I rather think it must be largely influence, in the right quarters.  Influence seems to play a great part in these sort of arrangements, for a few people seem to be able to obtain what limited passages there are.  Still we do not seem to obtain any satisfaction from the shipping companies – shipping still being  controlled by the Ministry of War Transport – nor does it seem possible yet to get air passage. 

            Last weekend I spent at the home of a Texan boy’s fiancée, as I believe I told you before, and we discussed this subject then; I have considered approaching a travel agency instead of dealing directly with the Shipping Company, but at present these agencies seem to be in as much of a fog as the others.  I was wondering if it was possible to book a passage in a ship from a continental port, but it doesn’t seem any easier.

            I went down to Boxmoor, Herts, last weekend to stay with Josie Charman, and meet her people, and had a very nice time.  Her father is a butcher, and he insisted I should eat plenty of meat!  They were all very nice, and though my visit was brief, I quite enjoyed it.  They live in rather a pretty part of Hertfordshire – cross-country from here –  and I had to go to London first, as that route was easier than catching several busses and changing several times en route.

            I went to a dance at Longs last week, a thing I have done very rarely on account of my foot.  My foot is completely cured at last though, and I do not have to go to the chiropodist any more.  We treated the dance as a kind of “birthday celebration” as four of us in the office had celebrated birthdays during one particular fortnight, and in the end a party of eighteen of us gathered at Longs, all from the office.  The dances are not really so good there now,  but there were so many of us that we had quite a good time.

            Yesterday was fine, though windy, and Denise and I went down to B/S cricket club to prepare tea for the players at “halftime”.  There was not much to do, apart from serve tea when they came in, so we sat on the grass and watched the game.  I don’t really care much for cricket – it’s so slow to watch – but it was a typically English picture.  It is a pretty cricket field with trees all round the end farthest from the Pavilion, and the sun shone on the whiteness of the players on the field, contrasting with the extreme greenery of their background.

            When we had finished there we went around to the canteen for a bit, and later Major Lewis ran us down in the car to see an exhibition of Cossack riding by Russians from the Steppes.  The horses were lovely, graceful creatures, and we enjoyed it very much, but through the exhibition I kept thinking that it was here you and I watched the baseball almost two years ago – do you remember?  It struck me too how different was the polite applause which greeted the horses’ efforts to the wholehearted yelling with which the baseball players were rewarded.  I must be getting awfully English again, for I admit I only clapped.  I suppose I never was very “Americanised”.

            By the way, I have tempted Providence and bought a new bicycle.  I have really needed one a long time, my old one was quite dangerous, but I put it off in the hopes I would soon be coming out to join you.  Eventually, however, I decided to risk it and yesterday I got my new bike, which mother is to have when I come to the States.  I rather hope I don’t get too much use out of it, but one can’t really tell.  In one of our newspapers recently a report was given of a Transatlantic proposal by an ex. Lt. of the U.S.A.A.F. to a Saffron Walden girl; the ring was stated to be in the post, and she was supposed to have told the press that he hoped to be over here in July to put the ring on her finger himself.  Saffron Walden is not very far from here, in Essex.

            This is a cold, miserable day for May.  The wind is strong and blowing from the north-east.  I went out for a walk this afternoon, and it blew the cherry blossom round me like snowflakes.  I think I have told you all my little bits of news for this week.  Your package has not arrived yet, but I don’t suppose it will be long now.

            ‘Til next time, my darling,

                                    With love,

                                                Joan

May 13, 1946

Letter 90                                                                        Sawbridgeworth,
13th May, 1946

My darling Harold,

            I wonder if I can find words to explain to you the thrill it was to me to receive your package safely at the end of last week.  I was just as excited as a little kid – in fact I didn’t know what to try on first!

            Everything was perfect, dear.  I think I’ll let you choose all my clothes when I get home.  We need not have worried so much over sizes; I adjusted the buttons on the skirt satisfactorily.  The blouse may be a little full but with that type of blouse it will not matter very much and I don’t want to risk spoiling it by altering it.  The dress and sweater might have been made for me, so I think you must have had a pretty good recollection of me.

            When I get to the States I will try to get a pair of white, wedge sandals to go with them; they are still impossible here but Moreen says shoes in the States are a good buy.

            One day I’ll try to thank you properly, but for now I think your attempt to “match a dream with a dress” is highly successful, and to me very flattering.  By the way, the Import duty was less than I had expected – £1-8-1d.  I have no idea where they get the last penny from, but that’s what it was.

            It is very interesting to hear from Moreen, and to have her comparisons on things.  She writes an extremely interesting letter.  So far she is the only G.I. bride from whom I have heard, though several have promised to write to me.

            I wonder if you have heard anything about the Bill they are trying to pass through Congress concerning “G.I. fiancées” .?  There was mention of it in several of our papers last week though I am not sure what it provides for.  According to our press fiancées are to be allowed into the States and given three months in which to be married; if still single after the expiration of the three months they will be deported.  So far I have seen no actual notice of travel arrangements, though the headlines read “G.I. fiancées next”.  Anyway I will make enquiries along the lines you suggest to see whether it is possible to obtain transport via Canada.

            I got your letter tonight, and was interested to hear about school, and do hope you are able to settle on a job you will like.  If dreams are a premonition, maybe I shall join you quite soon for I had a most vivid dream that I was in Arcata with you, and it was lovely.  I remembered remarking on the amount of tea I had had, which everyone insisted I should drink to make me feel at home.  We went swimming too.  Perhaps it was wishful dreaming, but it was really very vivid and the recollection stayed with me all day.

            I am so stiff today! Yesterday I played my first game of tennis for the season.  It was lovely down at the Club.  The courts were sheltered from the breeze and in the sun it was really warm.  I played all the afternoon and then came home early in the evening after getting a cup of tea in the pavilion.  Then later I had to go up to the farm to see Kath.  She has been away on the South coast, and came back full of her holiday, so I had to listen to all that and see the pictures of the wedding at which she was bridesmaid.

            I went to the cinema too last week to see “Saratoga Trunk”, which I enjoyed very much, with Gary Cooper and Ingrid Bergman.

            You said how lovely everywhere looked now that May is with us again.  Here it is beautiful too.  The hedges and trees are showy white with may and horse-chesnut blossom (I wonder, school-teacher, if you can tell me why white may and white horsenut bloom always appears before the pink?)  The fields are just brilliant gold in the sun-shine, smothered in a profusion of buttercups.  The more delicate spring flowers, of course, have gone now.  Everywhere is so green.  On Saturday I walked through Epping Forest which is at its lovliest now, with the sunlight filtering through the leaves.

            Well darling I guess that’s just about all this week.

            I’ll be seeing you,

                                    Love,

                                                Joan

May 21. 1946

                                                                                               “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd,
Letter no. 91.                                                                           Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

                                                                                                21st May, 1946

My darling Harold,

            By your letter I received tonight you certainly seem to have had an eventful week; fixing a teaching engagement, getting notice to quit your cabin and changing your present job certainly seems a lot to happen to one person in a week.

            I was pleased to hear about the school for September – if only I could be with you then.  Do please tell me more about this place when you find out yourself, and what is its relation to Arcata – is it north, south  or east?  By the way, how do you spell it?  Is it Mount Shosta?  I’ll be interested to hear more about it, for I expect you will manage a visit there soon.

            Last week I wrote to a firm of well known London travel agents to see what news they had about travel to the States; they replies very promptly but it certainly was not very encouraging news.  I do wish I could move things somehow- you have no idea how exasperated I feel that I am still unable to be with you.  I do so want to see you again, and prove we would be two of the happiest people in this world.

            Anyway, I have made a copy of the main points which Thos. Cook’s emphasise, with a copy of their covering letter, and am sending it along so you can see exactly what they say.  I am investigating other possibilities too, but as far as I can see unless the U.S. Government make similar provision for the fiancées of U.S. servicemen, as they are doing for brides (after all, we are prospective brides and our chances of happiness possibly greater than some of the more headstrong who rushed into marriage without a second thought) it is still going to be some time before I can obtain passage through ordinary civilian channels.  It is rumoured here that when the brides are all across, they will make similar arrangements for us; can you find out any thing about this at your end, and is it at all possible to do anything from your side about booking a passage?  Oh darling, I’d be so happy if I could get news of a sailing – I get quite morbid and helpless sometimes when prospects seem gloomy, and I do so want to see you again.  It has been a long time since we were together.

            On Monday I was vividly reminded of you by the American accent of a friend of our Managing Director; he was being entertained over here by my boss, and was flying over to the Middle East yesterday afternoon, but before he left he hurriedly dictated a long letter to his office back in New York.  He was amused by my spelling of our word “cheque”, but reminded Major Leech of the difficulty his American stenographers had experienced when the Major visited him in New York.  David Levine, of Levine & Levine, (solicitors or something) New York, is, I should imagine a typical New York business man.  He certainly likes to hustle and get things done, and had me rushing round sending off cables and receiving cables, despatching letters and postcards to all his family, and in fact “on the beam”.

            You will have to blame Kath if your letter is a little brief tonight, for I had hardly begun when she came down to chat, and wasted precious, valuable time that could profitably be spent writing to my future husband.  All the same darling, I think I have covered most of what I wanted to say – please see if anything can be done in the U.S. to give us priority.  I’d write to our local Congressman or anybody if I knew who to  approach.  I’m so tired of waiting around here, trying to be patient, and all the time longing to be back in your arms again.

            Til next time, I’ll be seeing you,

                                                With my love,

                                    Joan

May 27, 1946

Letter 92                                                                                    Sawbridgeworth,
Herts. England.

                                                                                                27th May, 1946

      Darling Harold,

            Once more it is time for my weekly chat with you.   Surprisingly enough, the weeks slip by and already it is almost the end of May.  People here seem hopeful that some arrangements will be made for we lonesome fiancées over here to join our “G.I.s” etc, in the States – I hope they are right but personally daren’t “count my chickens before they are hatched”.  Wouldn’t it be wonderful if when they finished shipping the brides home, they turned  around to see what could be done for us?  Have you heard anything encouraging on your side?  You spoke about troop transports being refitted for civilian use – unfortunately the reconversion period seems to be from 6 months.  The Queen Elizabeth – Cunard liner – should be ready by September.

            I had a wonderful long letter from Clare last week.  She began to write in January, continued in February and March missed April and finally finished and mailed it in May.  She told me quite a bit about Arcata, and gave a vivid impression of it.  I sent my nephew Louie a birthday card, and was thrilled t hear it arrived on the very afternoon of his birthday.

            How is Elsie settling in?  Tell her I asked after her and I hope she will write.

            Darling, I really did appreciate your shopping efforts on my behalf – it was sweet of you to bother.  All the girls at work were thrilled by your choice too – in fact, they were mostly almost as excited as me.  If you still feel you would like to do some more shopping and should by any chance wander into the feminine end of the store, maybe you might see those white wedge sandals I mentioned before.  At least, they don’t have to be white but that seems the most useful to match everything.  In case you should see them I enclose a pattern of my foot to give the size – don’t bother too much about this request though, for I already consider I am one of the luckiest people, or will be when I have you beside me again.

            Another thing which struck me was the “utility” value of your purchases; when one can only buy a limited number of articles they all have to “go” with one another, and interchange.  The skirt you chose incorporated red, blue, green, yellow and white so that one could wear all those colors with it.  Then again a white blouse and grey sweater were good choices, because they go with everything.  The white blouse looks very sweet with my black skirt.

            You must be tired of my ramblings about clothes, so I had better tell you what I did last week.

            It was much the same as usual.  One night helping in the Canteen, and another playing tennis.  One quiet evening at home to do my mending etc, and then Saturday night I went to the cinema to see Bette Davis in “The Corn is Green”.  Have you seen this? it’s good.

            This is a far more authentic production from Hollywood of a Welsh story, and I enjoyed it.  Bette Davis gave a marvelous performance, and the rest of the cast was good too.  I almost believed it was Wales, though I have never been there so I am not really a good judge.

            Sunday it rained again.  However in spite of the weather I went  to the farm for tea, and later Kath and I went over to Bishop’s to see some friends of the Grieves.  Mr. and Mrs. Gregory are a nice couple, and very interesting to talk to and have traveled a good bit, in America, South Africa and Australia.  We spent a very pleasant evening with them.

            We are busier than ever in the office, as the Essential Works Order was lifted on 15th May and several people have taken advantage of the fact that they are able to choose their employment and have left.  So far none have been replaced.  Up ’til now we have been unable to leave our jobs.  It’s a nice feeling to feel a certain amount of independence about it again, and know one doesn’t have to stop there if one finds a better job.

            Well honey I am getting sleepy so guess I had better say goodnight now, but I’ll be seeing you. (By the way, saying goodnight reminds me I have to dreaming about being on boats now)  More wishful dreaming!  Never mind one of these days I’ll be seeing you.

                                                All my love,

                                                            Joan

(this letter was accompanied by a paper cut out of the shape of her foot)

June 1, 1946

                                                                                                                   “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd,
Letter no. 93.                                                                                              Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

                                                                                                                   1st June, 1946

My darling Harold,

            I seem to be a little ahead of schedule this week with my letter, because tomorrow I am going on the first week of my annual vacation.  I thought it would be just as well to have it early in case I had any news of my passage to the States, so tomorrow I am off to the South coast where the Lewis family have taken their caravan.

            They are going to meet me in Brighton and I am going to spend the week with Denise and her mother in the caravan, parked somewhere on the coast.  The official “victory celebrations” take place at the end of the week, which also coincides with the Whitsun holiday, so we do not return to work until the following Wednesday.  Accordingly, I shall be returning home on the Tuesday so am afraid my next letter may be a little late.

            It should be fun staying in the caravan, and we are desperately hoping that the weather will improve.  It is terribly unsettled, with heavy rain showers, and bright intervals.  I am being optimistic and packing my swimsuit and thin dresses along with skirts and woolly sweaters and a raincoat; and just hoping for the best.  The caravan is well equipped and should be very comfortable to live in.

            I have not done very much since I last wrote; in fact it has been rather a quiet week.  One evening it cleared up and we played tennis but mostly it has been too wet.  Last evening I went to Longs, as I promised Tony I would.  His band was making its first appearance at Longs, so I went along to give moral support.  Kath came too, and it was quite nice, though not the fun it used to be.  It is not quite so heartbreaking to go there now as it has been taken over by new management and has altered quite a lot.

            Today I have been busy sorting out what to pack and what not to pack – quite probably now I have forgotten something, but will have a check over everything again when I have finished this letter.

            I had a very nice letter from Mom yesterday; she was hoping you would get a school near her.

            I am afraid this is a very brief apology for a letter but must make up for it next time, as there really seems little to write about.  I am still looking forward to seeing you, and hope it will not be too long.  That will be a wonderful day when I start packing to come to you.

            I’ll be seeing you darling,

                        With love,

                                    Joan

June 9, 1946

Letter 94                                                                        Egremont Ward
Royal Sussex County Hospital
Brighton, 7

Hallo darling,

            I expect you may be surprised by my address, as when I last wrote it was to say I would be on holiday with Denise and her mother in the caravan.

            I came down by train on Sunday, and we had several days in the caravan, then on Thursday I was taken ill.  Fortunately Mrs. Lewis called a doctor and he got an ambulance and sent me  here where they operated immediately for acute appendicitis.  It was soon over, and although it is of course a little painful at present, I shall soon have my stitches out and be up and about again.

            Mrs. Lewis phoned dad and he came down Friday, and is going back today after visiting hours.  I do not know how long I will be here, but they are very full so it will not be longer than necessary.  By the time you get this I may be discharged and on convalescent leave so Mother will arrange for me to get my letters.

            It was a silly thing to do on holiday but fortunately was soon over.  I am in a very good hospital and everyone is so friendly and helpful, patients and staff.  Yesterday was Victory day (officially) and so we celebrated with a special tea arranged by Sister and we were allowed one visitor to stay.

            Denise and her mother will be here all next week so will come in to see me.  At present I am all caught up in hospital routine and time doesn’t drag too slowly.  I hope you will forgive the pencil, but I am propped up in bed and it is easier.

            The weather had not been very good so we couldn’t swim; I am afraid I shall have to take it easy for a bit.  Today is Whit Sunday and two years ago we were viewing the Punch & Judy Show and the baseball.

            Sorry this is brief darling, but next week I hope to report good progress.

                        All my love, I’ll be seeing you

                                                Joan

June 16, 1946

no 95                                                                            Egremont Ward
Royal Sussex County Hospital
Brighton, 7 Sussex

                                                                                                                        16th June 1946

My darling,

            I went to Church in a novel way this morning.  Nurse wheeled me down to the Chapel to attend morning service.  It was a sweet little chapel, and decorated with pale pink and white flowers round the altar.  The service was conducted by the Chaplain of the hospital.

            You will see  that I am still in bed by the fact  that I am having to write in pencil, but the stitches were taken out this morning and I am to be allowed to leave hospital tomorrow.  It is too far for me to travel home yet, but I have an aunt who lives only eight miles away and I am going to stay with her until the doctor says I may travel.

            It was not long ago that Mom wrote saying that Margaret had been operated on for appendicitis, if I remember rightly.

            Mother came down to see me yesterday and will be staying with my aunt until the end of this week.  It will soon be visiting hours and I will get her to post my letter to you.  I received your letter of 3rd June which was forwarded  to me last week.  I hope your examinations went well and the results good – it’s too late now to wish you luck, but my thoughts were with you, darling.

            It has been quite an experience, this ten days in hospital.  Everyone is so sweet and helpful here, it’s a very good hospital.  Now I’ll have to take things steadily for a bit so that I will be really fit when the time comes for me to board that ship.  I’ll try to write a longer letter when I am up again.

                        I’ll be seeing you,

                                    Love,

                                                Joan

July 1, 1946

no. 96.                                                                                          Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

                                                                                                     1st July, 1946

      Dearest Harold,

            As I have so little to write about this week I had been hoping I would receive a letter from you that I could answer; consequently this letter has been rather long postponed, but I hope it will not be too long in reaching you.  I expect by now you have had my letters written in hospital but as you will see I am once more home again.

            It was lovely to get back though I get a little bored with myself at times for I am not very strong yet and cannot walk very far.  My illness was very sudden  but it is just as well over, for it would have been most inconvenient had it happened on board ship – it might have been mistaken for sea sickness, with unfortunate complications.  Fortunately my friends got me into hospital just in time, and I was lucky too, in so much as it was a really good hospital.  Now I have to gather my strength together again in preparation for the journey I propose to undertake.

            Within the last few days I have received several letters from my friends in the States; firstly from Elsie Young, then from our sister Pearl, and Moreen in Ithaca, N.Y. and Marjorie in Oakland, Calif.  The “G.I. brides” all sound happy tho’ at times suffering severe twinges of homesickness, which, of course, I suppose is natural.  Elsie likes Arcata, and wants to buy a house there; she also urged me to come soon, as at present she is the only other English girl, and she looks forward to my arrival.  Moreen is very keen that I should visit her when I arrive in the States, before proceeding westwards, and I should very much like to see her again.

            I see that the House of Representatives has passed a Bill to allow G.I. Fiancées into the States as visitors for three months, but I have seen no mention of transport arrangements and that seems to be the snag.  It was rumoured that men had to apply for their fiancées in similar manner to wives, but I seem to be able to get no official information.

            Your last letter I received was written at Santa Cruz, and I am glad that you enjoyed the Church convention so much.  You seem to be taking a very active part in local church work now, and I am glad that you have this interest, but I hope you will not be very disappointed if I do not seem to share your enthusiasm for this type of work, at any rate at first.  I would like, as far as possible, for our interests to be similar – the more we can share the better – but I have never done any church work, and it is something spontaneous, I feel.  I think I did make it clear that though I am not without religious feeling, I am not what could be termed a “regular” churchgoer.  I attend church as, and when, I feel inclined.

            If my attitude should disappoint you please don’t mind telling me so.  It is just as well to go over points like this before we are married; but I considered I should mention it now because since we last discussed religion you have returned to civilian life and have apparently become very much  absorbed in church affairs.  Of course, I will come to your church with you and I shall probably prefer it to the Church of England,  In fact in time I might join you in your work but I won’t promise.  What is you feeling on the subject?

            Oh darling, it seems an age since I last saw you – it is almost two years.  Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could get together again instead of having to write it all down?  We never did seem to talk very much when we had the chance, and maybe we won’t stop to say an awful lot when we do meet again.  I really should say goodnight now, Harold dear, but with lots of love and – I’ll be seeing you.

                                    Yours,

                                         Joan.

P.S. Mother sends her love.

P.P.S. What happened about the cabin, and did you find any other accomodation?

                                    Love,

                                           Joan

July 4, 1946

                                                                                                “Talma”
Sheering Mill Road,
no. 97.                                                                                     Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

                                                                                                 4th July, 1946

        My darling,

            I received your letter today so decided to answer it now, without waiting for the weekend, while I am still a ‘lady of leisure”.  It gets very boring at times, but everyone insists that I should rest still, and to be perfectly candid I find I have to take things fairly quietly.

            I was amazed by the brief convalescence required after an American appendix removal; I wonder why that should be?  I shall be unable to have another appendix out to compare the methods of treatment, but it would be rather interesting.

            At the risk of boring you I think I should dwell on the subject of my operation for a moment; as you gathered I was in hospital for several days, eleven in fact, and it was a week before I left my bed to be wheeled in an invalid chair.  For three days following the operation I was given M & B. tablets to reduce my temperature, and did it make me feel sick!  After ten days the stitches were removed, leaving a neat 3″ scar, and the next day – I was discharged from the hospital.  I went directly to my Aunt’s house, eight miles away.  The next day a blood clot burst and the doctor had to be called in, and he advised me to go back to bed for the rest of that day.

            A week later when I returned to Sawbridgeworth I still could not walk from the station home, but I have gradually increased my daily walking capacity to about three miles – in easy stages – and at intervals during the day.  It will be more than a week yet before I return to work.  In this country they wouldn’t dream of allowing manual workers to return to work in three weeks ~ it rather mystifies me.

            I will make enquiries about the air transport facilities, but I wonder which airline the professor’s daughter-in-law will travel by?  The fare quoted – £100 – seems very low, when the Pan American and British Airways both quote about £95 from London to New York now, which would be half the distance from London to San Francisco.  Also I believe a permit is necessary to get into Ireland from this country.  There seem to be quite a few advantages in air travel.  Unfortunately one cannot carry much luggage but it can be sent separately I think by boat.

            If I am able, before I return to work, I will get to London and try to find out something definite; it seems useless to write.  They merely send back a polite acknowledgement, and then presumably file it.

            Kathleen was anxious to spend a holiday with me before I left this country, so we arranged to go away together in July.  Well, my illness coming on top of my first week’s holiday, has brought the second week round without my re-appearance in the office.  The doctor calls this convalescence, and so Kath and I are going up to Cromer, a seaside resort on the bracing east coast – and we are just hoping it will be fine.  We leave on Saturday.

            So far this summer the weather has been terrible.  However this week started well, and we had a three-day heat wave, when it was too hot to do anything at all.  At least it would not have been so bad had we had time to get used to it, but in this country the weather changes so quickly one doesn’t have time to get acclimatised.  That probably accounts for the cold I am nursing now!  Last night we had freak storms, and the weather is unsettled again, with prospects of showers.

            I wrote to Mom this afternoon.  I guess everyone is pleased because Marion is home – or I suppose he is by this time.

            You seem to have been very busy, darling.  You really need me there to help you, though I don’t suppose I would be a lot of help – but I could give you encouragement, couldn’t I?  Maths is not really my strong point, so I would not be a great help on algebra and geometry – still if you can get the answers out of a book as our teachers used to, which saves working out a problem, I guess I could help with the checking.

            Do you know the date yet when you start to teach at Mount Shasta?  Everyone has been hoping I would be with you before you commenced school there.  I suppose you will know no-one there either, so we will have to start from the beginning to get ourselves known.  It is marked on my school map, which is not very large scale, so the place can’t be so small.

            Did I tell you that Elsie is very favourably impressed with Arcata, and also thinks I am a very lucky girl.  She and Dave are very happy.  I think we will be friends; her recent letter appeals to me far more than her previous ones.

            You have not mentioned your housing difficulties again, and I have been wondering what you are doing about accomodation since you received notice to quit your cabin.  

            It is time to say goodnight now, so take care of yourself darling and don’t work too hard.

            I’ll be seeing you,

                        Love,

                                    Joan 

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July 15, 1946

                                                                                                             “Talma”
Sheering Mill Road,
no. 98                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

                                                                                                             15th July, 1946

        My darling Harold,

            It was wonderful to find your letter waiting for me when I returned home last night from my convalescence stay in Cromer, Norfolk.  Accustomed to American “hustle” in these things I expect you will be surprised to learn that I am not yet back at work – I have visited the surgery this morning, but unfortunately my own doctor is away, and evidently his locum does not believe in taking risks.  I have to go again on Wednesday, which will be almost six weeks from the date of the operation, but do not yet know when I shall return to the office.

            I think I understand your explanation regarding church activities, and of course I shall be extremely pleased if I find I can help you in any way.

            I was also pleased to know that you found alternative accomodation when you had notice to quit the cabin.  It sounds as though you are quite comfortable, and certainly have more room to move around.

            I was interested by your new job.  Do tell me more about it.  I hope the hours are better than at the factory, for you still seem to find time to do plenty else besides.

            Recently you mentioned a girl who was flying from Ireland to San Francisco, and I made some enquiries about traveling by air throughout.  I was told, however, that it is impossible because the journey would cost more than the maximum of £120 permitted to be spent on travel from this country.  The price quoted to New York by air from London is £93.5.0d, and B.O.A.C. apparently require a deposit of this full amount when booking, in advance.  I shall have to do some manipulating of accounts before I can draw a cheque for that amount as deposit, but in any case I will try to obtain an application form.

            Do you know yet the date when you should be going to Mount Shasta, and when school commences?  Is it the beginning of September?  When I eventually get the remainder of my money transferred it would have been to Arcata – are you leaving your account there?

            I believe I told you that I had arranged to spend a week with Kathleen at Cromer, on the East coast, and we travelled up on the 6th, returning last night.  We were extremely fortunate and had really lovely weather, so that we were able to laze on the sands and walk along the cliffs.

            The country there is very pretty; much lovlier than I had anticipated.  There is more variation in it – lovely woodlands hiding bracken and purple foxgloves, and heaths smothered in purple ling (like heather) gorse, bracken and French willow herb.  A great many fields were under cultivation too, apart from grazing land, but the poppies seemed to be the curse there – some fields of corn presented a flaming mass of red poppies.

            The villages were quaint, with their narrow streets and stone built cottages.  Many of the churches had round towers, which according to the local guide book were built to withstand fierce gales and storms from the sea.

            While we were there we also visited the King’s estate at Sandringham.  A middle-aged couple staying at the same place had their car with them, and they invited us along.  We went all round the grounds, and the Royal kitchen gardens, and into the wee church.  When we left Sandringham we motored to Hunstanton and along the Wash, taking the coast road back to Cromer.

            Kathleen and I both enjoyed our stay in Norfolk very much, and I am glad I had one holiday with her before I leave England.

            While I was making enquiries about air travel, I also contacted the Cunard Line again and they were very pessimistic about prospects.  It seems to be pretty useless to wait for a boat – I think I will have to fly.

            I think I have covered most of  my news this time so will have to say goodbye darling, but I’ll be seeing you.

                        All my love,

                                    Joan 

July 23, 1946

                                                                                                               “Talma”
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no 99                                                                                            Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

                                                                                                                23rd July, 1946

            I had been hoping to have received your letter to answer, but am rather glad that I have postponed my letter until this evening.  By tonight’s mail I received two letters; one from the Cunard Shipping Line with whom I am registered asking me if I still wish to be retained on their list in view of the hopelessness of the position. 

            The other was from Thomas Cook’s (Travel Agents).  I had requested their quotation for the journey  from London to Arcata, to include air transport as far as New York.  They replied that for £134 inclusive they could arrange the trip upon immediate booking, for September/October.  This should be regarded as early October I think, in view of the fact that I should have to make arrangements to have money transferred to my current account before I could draw a cheque for £134.

            The price quoted by air to New York is £93.5.0d, which leaves the balance of £40.15.0d to cover rail and bus expenses.  The sea journey (when obtainable) is at present quoted as varying between £45/50, which would make the entire journey about £90. a saving of perhaps £44.  After consideration, I think the additional expense incurred by the definite promise of, say, October, is justified in view of the uncertainty and utter hopelessness of sea transport.  I hope, darling, that you will agree with me.

            I had considered cabling you details of this quotation to get your confirmation before booking, but all these delays waste precious time.  I shall book to Arcata, and hope for the best – no doubt someone will take care of me if you should be in Mount Shasta at the time.  As I mentioned earlier, it will be a few days before I am able to send the Travel Agents a cheque, and my enquiry is considered as a definite booking.

            Moreen had hoped I would visit her but if I allow Thos. Cooks to arrange everything I expect I shall have to continue my journey without any breaks.  They mention that the amount quoted covers booking of sleeping berths where necessary; one advantage of booking with a Travel Agency is that they take care of all details, which to an unexperienced traveller like myself means a great deal as you may realise.

            This is the journey as Cooks detail it; “air from London to New York, thence rail to San Francisco, then by ‘bus connection to San Rafael (a service running in connection with the train departures from San Rafael) and finally from San Rafael to Eureka (Calif.)  This is the nearest point to Arcata where there is a passenger rail service, and it is some 10 or 12 miles, away, on the opposite side of Humboldt Bay.  You could hire a car there for the last leg of the journey.”

            I am afraid there have been so many interruptions this evening that I have not written all I expected; we seem to have had a series of visitors, but I guess I have told you my most important news.

            I went back to work at Millars’ last Friday, and it is nice to be back amongst the old gang again.  I’m not working too hard, as I get awfully tired quickly; my doctor advises me to do nothing strenuous for three months from the date of my operation, but says it will be alright for me to fly over in September.

            Last Saturday I went to the “closing” party of our Forces Canteen in Bishop’s Stortford where I had been doing voluntary work since the Fire Service ceased to require us.  We had quite a jolly evening, all the canteen helpers attending.  We shall be missing our evenings there.

            I had better say goodnight now, darling, but please write soon and tell me you approve my decision to fly the Atlantic.  Looking forward to seeing you one day soon,

                                    All my love,

Joan

August 6, 1946

                                                                                                          “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no 100.                                                                                     Sawbridgeworth,
Herts, England

                                                                                                            6th August, 1946

My dearest Harold,

            I will admit I had been feeling rather neglected, which was one reason why I cabled you last week – I was very glad I did so, for it seemed to re-establish contact with you just when I needed it most.  Anyway, you are forgiven for your apparent “neglect” for I realise how quickly the days slip by while one is busy, and though the beloved may be often in one’s thoughts it doesn’t always result in something practical in the form of a letter.

            You really have been very busy with all your activities, but I am hoping that when you are established in school at Mount Shasta, you will find more time to devote to me, for I shall most probably be demanding a great deal of your attention.  I cabled you the date my plane leaves London for New York – 21st September which is a Saturday, in little more than six weeks’ time; I am going to be busy too in the next few weeks, for one finds so much to do, when there is a limitation on one’s time.  I have no doubt that, especially in comparison with the past twenty-four months, these next few weeks will pass very swiftly.  I can’t believe that by the end of September I shall be able to see you again ~ after two years’ of anticipation it doesn’t seem true.

            I can sense your excitement over my arrival, and I too am very excited about it; but my thrill over seeing you again is tinged with just a little sorrow, and it is this mingling of emotions I want to try to convey to you, if I can, so that you will understand.  We have spoken before of the wrench it will be for me to part with everyone who forms my background – in fact,  all I have really known in the last twenty or so years – and the knowledge that I will soon be leaving it all, has brought home more definitely the nearness and dearness of it all.  I wonder if you will understand – not questioning my love for you which I believe is something strong and lasting upon which I can build a new life – that sometimes I have had distinct waverings of indesision when I contemplate what I am planning to do.  I am torn both ways at times, and I want you to help me.  None of my friends here want to see me leave England and I’ll have to say goodbye to them, but I can do it ~ and make a success of it too.

            Please do not be disheartened by my confessions – it is only occasionally I feel that way.  Most other times I am terribly anxious to be on my way, especially when I get your letters, as I did tonight.  We have waited so long, but of course the longer I have stayed here the more difficult leaving it has become.  I will be able to save you some jobs though so you will have more spare time to be with me, and help me through the homesick spells which are inevitable once the novelty wears off.

            I had best tell you how far I have got with my preparations.  By the end of last week I had been able to transfer some more money to my current account to enable me to draw a cheque for £134.  Saturday was a holiday (as also Monday, being the first weekend in August, which as far as the English are concerned, constitutes sufficient reason for a public holiday) so Mother and I were going to visit my Grandmother, who lives just out of London; at the same time I visited the travel agents, paid my money, presented my passport for inspection, and obtained a little information – eg. I am able to carry £75 on me in traveller’s cheques, which I can cash in dollars anywhere in the U.S.  Also was presented with another terrific form, to complete when I have my visa – this is the Information Sheet (one relating to each passenger, to be carried by the pilot of the aircraft) which is passed to the Immigration officer, to be checked with the passenger – they ask the darndest questions too!  “Can you read or write?”  Honey, what do you think?

            I guess there will be another form too from the Embassy.  I have written them; I am now waiting for a formal notice of appointment, when I shall present me at the Embassy, together with photographs, passport, birth certificates, notice of appointment and £2/10/0d in cash.  I hope then to be issued with a visa, which I then show at Cooks.

            I shall only be allowed 55 lbs of luggage by air, so expect I will have to ship the rest by a boat – goodness knows when it will arrive.  Should I address it to Arcata or Mount Shasta?

            I have actually booked to Eureka, and expect to get tickets soon.  As I leave London on the 21st, and should arrive in New York on the 22nd, I expect to be in Arcata before the following weekend.  You probably have a better idea how long my journey across country will take, and you will know when to expect me.  To whom shall I “report?”  Let me know what I am to do.

            I am looking forward to the trip itself – it will be a wonderful adventure, and I think I prefer the thought of flying to spending a week on the ocean, tho, too true, I’ll miss the Statue of Liberty.  Maybe we will get to see that some other time.

            I don’t know yet from which air port I shall leave, but expect to have more information when I receive the tickets.

            I heard yesterday from Zephyra and Christine – I should imagine our niece to be a very nice child, but rather lonely.  She writes me nice letters – this one was primarily to thank me for a birthday card I sent.  Zephyra invited me to stop by and have fried chicken with them, but I do not suppose I will be able to mess about with Cooks’ arrangements and break my journey here and there; Moreen will be disappointed too, but I think I had better come straight to you.  Moreen invited you to stay in their new apartment but with school one can’t really do things like that.  You must tell me too the date school starts.

            It’s getting dark now so I had better close, and write you more another time.  Are you crossing off the weeks and days now?  I am.

            My love to you, darling,

                                    Yours,
Joan

P.S. I am pleased you remembered the sandals.  but don’t worry too much as I will soon be there myself now.

                                                Love,

                                                            Joan