July 5, 1944

Hello Joan:
We are now reporting from Scotland. You would never guess what trouble we had getting here. After waiting till Sunday to start, we flew part way then had to turn back because of weather, then traveling by train we missed our connection in London and spent the night in Ned’s apartment.
The train, tram cars, more trains, more trams, and finally a tiny steamer brought us to Inverneid Hotel on the east bank of Loch Lomland, far to the north end.
We will probably get back to camp some time Sunday, after a long trip by train. We have had a good time but wish we were back home with out the travel that is going to be necessary to get there.
You know, of course, that we would like to get back for that party Saturday night but we probably will have our own party on the way (if we can find some good whisky).
The people here will never be the same after we leave here. There are some Fortress boys here that are very different, they seem to be here for a rest, we are here for something we haven’t found out yet what it is geting to be.
Well, untill I see you again & tell you more about it.
Goodby and good luck
love
Harold

(This note was mailed in an envelope address to Joan in her own handwriting)

August 22, 1944

Dear Joan:

Although we may see each other between the writing of this letter and the time you read it, I think it advisable to begin now a process which will give me a great amount of pleasure in the coming months.

In all probability most of the letters I shall write will be a brief chronical of my activities mixed with bits of opinion and conjecture.  Any questions you may ask will be answered as completely as it is possible for me to answer them.  You will find that the things that are written will be more easily understandable and more believable than some of the things I have told you in person. . .

In addition to other things there probably will be occasional mention of the fact that I love you.  Your knowledge of Americans and America greatly exceed my knowledge of England and her background. – – of course my history books record some of the things that have happened in the last thousands of years – but the things that make up the real character of England and Englishmen are not evident to any one who has not lived among them longer than I have.

There are many more things which come to mind that I would like to say to you. . . I could never possibly gather the courage or the words to say them in person and they will serve to pad some of the less interesting letters that I will write.  Do not by any means judge that all of the letters which I write will be as literary or as well written as this poor attempt. . . most will be far more personal and less readable.  Please help me to know what you wish in letters from me.

Goodnight, my sweet,

Harold

August 26, 1944

Dear Joan:-

After deep and profound thought- – (really not very deep nor profound) I have decided that, if we begin writing letters now and see each other when we can- – the final parting when our orders come will be less sudden and we will be able to easier accept the prospect of being unable to be together for awhile.  (What an involved, mixed up sentence).

In many ways it might have been better if I had not mentioned any thing to you about how I feel about you- .  We would have been spared any difficulty that may arize – – however, if we are able to survive the difficulties and surmount the obsticles we will have a greater happiness for having done so.

You gave me a very pleasant surprise when you mentioned religion in your letter. . You do not seem to be deeply religious but the mere fact of your mentioning the subject seems to indicate an interest in the subject.  Perhaps you have heard the statement. .”there are no athiests in the Sky,” . . . You may have wondered why I was so confident that our crew would have no difficulty in flying over France and coming back . . that was a part of my religion . . entirely disconnected from any church . . there is a personal element that does not concern the people who sit in a church. . religion is a thing between a persons soul and his creator.  I will probably be less regular in church attendance when I go home than I was before I left . .  because flying has given me a greater insight into what religion is. It will take years and volumes of words to tell just what the effect of a few seconds of close harmony with our creator can do to a man. . . I hope you do not misunderstand me . . never in all our flights did fear enter any of our minds . . although all or most other fellows spoke of fear on nearly every trip . . . Something about the thing defies words to explain it.

I hope you will be satisfied that you know me from what contact we have through letters.  I have always been able to write my thoughts better than I can speak them.

Goodnight, and happiness be with you till we meet again,

Harold

September 5, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

I will just write a little note this afternoon to assure you that every thing has gone according to plan and with out undue excitement.  The greatest problem was to get from Liverpool St. to Euston Station in London with the pile of luggage that is incidental to the movement of 28 men who are not equipped for mobility.

We were able to make quite good connections on trains all of the way.  We were billeted for the first night in an assembly hall with some 15-20 other men with nothing but canvas cots for beds.- – However, we were all ready for sleep and didn’t mind too much.

Some of our worst fears have been substantiated here since nearly every one here seems to have been here nearly three weeks and there are shipments moving in and out all of the time. Presumably it is a matter of waiting one’s turn and then moving quickly.

Untill we started our trip we had been fortunate enough to be established members of an organization now we are just “Casuals”.  The proper term would be more like Cattle. . . but we are on our way home so we will have to take the bitter with the sweet and let it go.

Now I sound like some one who has been mistreated – – I guess I’m just “bitter”. .

Goodbye for now, darling,
I’ll be seeing you,

Harold.

Sqdn “C” 12th RCD
APO 635

September 10, 1944

Joan my Darling:-

Slanting across the low hills tonight the sun slid down behind a thin band of red clouds.  The clouds changed from yellow, to orange to flame red then as the light began to fail, the red dulled to purple, and finally to a dull grey. . . But still other clouds were yellow, orange and red . . the sky is ready for the stars and finally a thin moon.  Sunsets like this are rare in England, at least I saw few of them.  For some reason I wished that you could be near me to share the beauty of it.  The greater part of beauty is in the sharing of it with someone you love.

You have mentioned the fact that you would have much to learn if and when you come to America.  Words are difficult to find to explain just what I wish to say- – lets put it this way – – You are what you are – – that fact cannot be altered – – to adapt that personality to any situation requires some adjustment – – My observations indicate that you can make those adjustments with little difficulty.  In one way your life in England will make that even more simple.  In America women have retained, or gained, a higher value to their men than the men of England seem to put on the women around them.  The home is in most cases a more nearly equal partnership between the two than appeared to be the case in British homes.

Please forgive me if the things I say sound uncomplimentary . . . they are not  meant in that way – – I simply hope to better explain what I mean when I tell you that you will like America and that particular little corner of it that you choose to favor with your presence, will like you.

We hope that our turn will come soon – – so probably by the time you get this we will be off.

If you decide to write to me in the next month you can write to

Arroyo Grande,
California
U.S.A.

I will either be there or have contact with that point so that I can get any letters that may come for me.

International postal service is a complete mistery to me – – I’ll find out some way how it is arranged . . The reason I used the 2½d stamp is that it is the only stamp available at our post office. British postal rates are also an unknown field for me.  Until the present supply is exhausted you will receive letters with the 2½d stamp whether it is sufficient or not.  Perhaps by then my education will have included a brief study of postal systems and postal rates – – untill then . . I’ll just be “dumb, but happy”.

good night,
I’ll be seeing you,

Harold

September 30, 1944

(Letters 1 & 2 apparently lost)

Letter no. 3                                                                                                                   “Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
30-9-44

My Dear Harold,

Another week has passed since I wrote to you, and it is now the last day of September. How is California looking in the fall?  I hope you will write and tell me what you are doing at home, and how everyone is. You might, sometime, tell me more about your family, as apart from saying it was large you have never really given me a mental picture of them.  I hope to have the pleasure of meeting them some-day, but in the meantime you could go into a little more detail about them.

Of course, I have not had any more letters from you since you left as I expect they will take several weeks to come; as soon as you know where you will go when your leave is finished, please let me know, as otherwise I shall continue to write to this address causing some delay, and also some inconvenience to who-ever has to forward them to you.

I had a very cheerful letter from Tommy this week – to quote his own words – “As for me, I am doing pretty good. I am getting physiotherapy. They give me heat treatments and massage on my arm. I have pretty good use of my remaining fingers, but cannot bend my wrist. This will come about in time. I still am blind in my right eye, but that will clear up sometime soon. Anyway, all I need is one eye to chase the nurses and the girls – wolf, as usual.”  From that, I gather his morale is definitely  good. I have not managed to see him yet, but he is still worrying his doctor about a pass to London, so hope I shall before he goes.

Bishop Stortford is looking pretty deserted right now. The remaining G.I.s are supposed to be clearing out today, and I spent a great deal of my time trying to console the girls they left behind them.

I went to Long’s last Saturday night, and was very pleased to be able to make a proper apology to Cpl. Wojuick – do you remember the Saturday evening then you came in to town with Lt. Thompson, and the rather embarassing moment when Cpl. Wojuick turned up as well?  He was awfully sweet about the whole thing, and assured me that he quite understood and I wasn’t to worry about it. So now I feel my conscience is clear.

It’s been fairly quiet here this week my usual round of NFS duties; on Wednesday Moreen and I  took ourselves to the show to see “Welcome, Mr. Washington”. The story was built round the invasion of a peaceful English village by a mob of G.I.’s, and having ourselves helped a little to promote Anglo-American relationships, we took quite a personal interest in it, and enjoyed it very much. The only point  which worried us  was a Lieut. who wore the Air Corps badge on his sleeve, and also the castle of the engineers – surely that was incorrect, wasn’t it?

My bicycle is U.S. again. I’ve not been doing things with it like you did, but the cable brake has snapped. So I’m rather handicapped this weekend, while it is under repair, and shall have to walk everywhere. As it happens, it is my weekend duty at the Fire Station, and I have to go on at 6.30 this evening, so I could not go gadding off to Long’s tonight in any case. There is to be no relaxation of duty in the National Fire Service – not that I had expected any! We are still being pestered with flying bombs around here; one this week fell in a village three miles from your old camp, doing some damage but causing no casualties.  I bet that had some of the boys out of bed!

By the way, does American grammar vary from English very much? Only one of the things we never do is to split an infinitive, but I notice you do so quite frequently.

The moon is almost full now, and that reminds me of the camp parties.  Even though it may shine bigger and brighter over California, we still share the same old moon, don’t we?

Got to go now, so good bye, darling.

Yours,
Joan.

October 8, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no 4                                                                                                      Sawbridgeworth
Herts    ENGLAND
8th October, 1944

My dear Harold,

According to my calculations this will not reach you before 4th November, so let me begin by wishing you a very happy birthday; I have no idea where you will be, but no doubt your precious leave will be over, and you will be fully occupied serving your country again. I should very much like to be with you, but if that’s impossible you may be sure my thoughts will be with you.

At last I have your picture before me as I write; it’s quite good of both of us, and dad is congratulating himself on the excellent photography. Personally, I consider the subjects contribute largely to the success of the picture, but you shall judge for yourself; as soon as I can get some more prints taken off, I will send them on to you.

I hope my letters are not taking too long to get through: I’m hopeful, because Moreen had one from Roland’s mother (Windsor, N.Y.) which only took 12 days.

I cycled over to Bps. Stortford to see Moreen this morning, and returned laden with American magazines to peruse and study at my leisure. I have to keep in touch some way, now that the 9th Air Force has removed to the continent, and I have to learn American spelling. Very often it is more reasonable than ours, I find. I’ve seen a good deal of Moreen recently, as you can imagine, since Roland departed, fortunately leaving her still single. We went to the cinema once during the week to see Betty Grable in “Pin-up Girl”. This afternoon she is coming over here to tea, and soon I shall have to go and meet her.

I have not heard from Tommy this week; I wonder if perhaps he is on his way home now.

You’ve never seen an English autumn, have you? It’s no more spectacular than the rest of our seasons, but it’s soft and mellow, with occasional bursts of sunshine which light up the yellows and reds in the hedgerows. Sometimes it’s lovely.

You were extremely optimistic about the flying bombs; as we sat listening to the radio yesterday evening they were still rattling over. Occasionally too, there are mysterious explosions for which there has been no official explanation, so it’s not exactly quiet here yet.

I had better go and meet Moreen now, as there is very little news to impart. So for this week I’ll say, goodbye darling. I’m hoping to get a letter from you soon, but I’m being very patient as you can’t rush these mails.

Yours,

Joan

(this letter was tucked inside a birthday card)

October 12, 1944

Arcata, Calif.
Oct 12 1944

Dear Joan:-

At last have got myself to a place where I can write again. The day after I wrote from Chorley they told us that we could not write from there. We were in the Replacement Controll Depot for nearly three weeks and then traveled by boat for a long zigzag course across the north Atlantic. Finally we saw New York and we were in America again. Then followed more camps and trains and finally we were released from the “troop movement” and were free to go as we wished.

I came straight to Arcata and will stay here only a few days then go on to Arroyo Grande, where my mother is now. If this letter takes too long to get to you it may be because the army has all mail transport busy.

It is certainly good to get home again even if it is just for a few days. Everything is so much the same as it was when I left. Everyone is working so much of the time and there is never much to do, it is a little cold to swim now and the winter season of snow sports haven’t yet started.

We came through a big snow storm in the Rocky Mountains as we were coming across from New York.

As far as I know now, I will have no millitary address for at least six weeks more so you can reach me at Arroyo Grande, through my mother untill I am settled.

Untill next time

Harold

October 20, 1944

Rancho El Ray
Oct 20, 1944

Dear Joan:-

Perhaps I was a bit neglectful in not explaining Arroyo Grande to you. – Arroyo Grande is a town of about 800 people, where I lived from the time I was 11 to the time I went  to Arcata to attend college, at 17.  It has a nice warm climate . . warmer than any thing in England; so my mother has returned to Arroyo Grande to spend her remaining years, in an atmosphere of a friendly small town and a warm climate.  My youngest sister lives here on this ranch which is about 30 miles from A.G.  Her husband and his father are the ranch manager and farmer – the owner is in the navy now.

It is a different atmosphere here from any I have seen since I was just a small boy.  There are chickens, ducks, pidgeons, pigs, horses, cows; not just one or two but hundreds of them.  It is miles and miles from the pig pasture to the cow barn, and it is an industry in itself.

My mother and I have come here for a few days to rest and visit.  You certainly can’t call this place “urban”.  None of the places that we think of here as “home” are as “urban” as Sawbridgeworth.  In fact, we are a rural family and might even shock you with our rural nature.

You asked about the grammar in America . . as far as I know there is no difference in the set of rules used here and in England.  However, there are so many foreign language groups in America that there has grown up a mixed usage of all grammers here.  The schools may try to teach the right grammer, but the teaching is soon forgotten when mixing with the French, Spanish, Portugese, Swiss, German, Swedish, Mexican, and Russian, just to mention a few of the people that I worked with on one shift of the mill I worked in at Arcata.  There were dozens more in the schools, and in the towns.

I really admire the English for their ability to learn grammar, but it seems to go quickly out of an American mind when we bend our backs along side a big Swede or a fat little Frenchman.  If I split an infinative they never know and I hope you will forgive me.

                                                                                  love,
Harold

over

 P.S.

Arroyo Grande will be my address till I can find out where the army will send me.  My mother will take care of the job of getting the letters to me.

H.

November 3, 1944

                                                                                    “Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
LETTER NO 5                                                                                     Sawbridgeworth, Herts
ENGLAND
3rd November, 1944

My dear Harold,

It is several weeks since my last letter, because I have been waiting to hear from you and hoping to have a new address to which I could write. But since I have received no letters from you yet I had to write to say I am missing you as much as ever; perhaps it is fortunate that we did not meet more frequently while you were here, or it would have been worse.

There is an NFS dance at Longs tonight, and it reminds me of the last NFS dance we went to, when we deserted the dance-hall and patronized the Officer’s Club instead; But it is a typically November night – drizzling cold, and with a hint of fog – so I shall not attempt to get to Longs tonight.  Last Friday the whole gang of us stormed Long’s together, but the dance was not a great success. All the familiar faces have gone, and it seems quite strange now.

Moreen and I still attend the local cinema together once a week, and this week we saw a very good English film “THIS HAPPY BREED”.  The previous week we saw “The Song of Bernadette” – a very good film, but spoilt occasionally by the French peasants who would use American expressions. (Even so, it was rather nice to hear American voices again!)

I hope someone will be good enough to forward this letter on to you, as I understand from one of the girls at the Fire Station that Air Mail letters from California may take as long as a month to come; so if you are still using up your 2 1/2 d stamps I guess I’ll have to be very patient. But please, Harold, if for any reason you should decide you do not wish to continue to write to me, do let me know.

I have not heard from Tommy for a long time now, so presume he is back in the States now. I have his home address so that one day after the war, if I get the opportunity, I can go and visit him.

We had an NFS social a fortnight ago and Moreen came over and stayed with me Saturday night. Sunday morning we walked to a little church about 1 1/2 miles away~ incidentally, I much prefer a service in a small church. Then after lunch we caught a ‘bus to Epping (8 miles away), but were unable to get in the cinema so went to church again. But I wished you could have been with me.

With the girls in the office I went to a wedding service in Thursday lunch-hour when one of our typists married a boy from Oakland, Calif.

Tomorrow is your birthday, and I have already sent my best wishes which I hope arrived in time; but I’ll be thinking about you, darling.

Until I hear from you,

Yours,
Joan

November 12, 1944 (1)

D.C.A.A.F.
Nov. 12, 1944

Dear Joan:-

There has been little of interest to report since the last time I wrote to you.  However, I do have a new part of the United States to discribe to you.  Here at Dodge City we are in the middle of what is known as the great plains.  Sometimes refered to as the middle-western states.  The great plains slope gradually from the Rocky Mountains to the Mississippi River.  Here in Kansas the elevation above Sealevel is about 2000 feet.  The flatest and most barren of all the region is between here and a point some 150 miles west of here.  There is nothing to interupt one’s vision for miles and miles and miles.  It is usually possible to see a person 5 to 10 miles away and on a clear day as much as 20 miles away.  Flying at an altitude of 500 feet it is possible to see as much as 100 miles in every direction.  There are no trees, no hills, no lakes, and very few houses.  It is the misfortune of the world that this great plains is on the eastern side of the mountains.  Situated as it is, it is semi-desert.  However if it were on the western slope so that it would be watered by sufficient rain fall, the great plains could produce enough food to feed the world.  As late as 1900 there were great herds of the American Buffalo (scientificly classified as Bison) roaming these plains.  A “Buffalo” weighs nearly 3000 pounds and is as good as beef.  It is this country (Here and 500 miles in all directions) which was the scene of most of the “Cowboy” stories.

The first railroad that crossed the 3000 miles of the continent ran through Dodge City.  It was to a place about 100 miles west of here that my parents and the older six children of the family mooved in 1911.  After a few months of work and planning they settled on a, “Homestead”, a government grant of land.  The only perogative was that they should live on it for five years and build a house, a barn and fences. They stuck to it for ten years, during which six more children were added to the family, the last and most worthless of which was given the name, “Harold” (probably because there were no other names left). Then during a series of drouth years, with no crops, and little hope the farm was mortgaged and forfeited.

Thus, with nothing left to stay for we mooved to the small town of Holly, Colorado; and finally to California.  I hope you are not too bored with this tale because it is very insignificant, except that it is that background which made me what I am and what I will be always.  It is through this life that I have learned what I know and became aware of the feelings that make me what I think I am.  It was through these years together that our dependance upon one another and upon our own ability to work was founded. — As all people are different so is each of the eight boys of my family different, and so is each of the four girls different.  Even so we are enough alike that what each does is a reflection of the same things.  Whether they be bad or good depends upon how you look at them.

Some day I will tell you more about the individuals of the family but for now I think I have raved on enough.  It was just that Dodge City reminds me so much of that earlier “history” that I thought you could stand to hear some of it.

I haven’t heard a word from Tommie or any of the other fellows since early in September.  I saw one of the gunners from a crew that came home at the same time Lt. Harrison & Lt. Thompson came.  They flew home and arrived in the States the same day I did.  I haven’t seen Lt. Hayes since we arrived at New York.  Our gunners came home before we did so there is little possibility of us seeing them again.

Well, darling, it is almost a month since I got your letters and they were written six weeks ago so the element of distance is already trying to pull us apart.  I still remember you as I saw you the few times we were together.  I can truely say that I love the memory of you, if we never see each other again I will always think that I missed one of the best and finest girls I have ever met.

Once you said don’t say “if”, say “when”, – – – I really feel that it will be “when“, but war is such a strange thing and there seems to be little we can do untill the war is over.  I wish you were here now.  I guess it will be easier once we get letters started regularly arriving, but there is a strange quality about war that makes the men who are in it want to live for the present, and it is hard to look into the future.

Darling, please try to understand . . this is the first time in my life that I have been a problem to myself . . I honestly do not know what to do, or how I will feel when things settle down.  I would have been much better off to stay in the squadron . . . . Maybe I will settle down once I get to work here.

I no longer make sense so, Good bye for now, Darling.

Harold –

November 12, 1944 (2)

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 6.                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts.
England
Sunday, 12th November, 1944

My dear Harold,

I was very pleased to receive your letter of  the 12th October yesterday, and I hope that when you arrived at Arroyo Grande at least one of my letters was waiting to welcome you. The intervening nine weeks between your letter of 10th September and the one I received last night seemed an awful long time, but I realised that I could not expect to hear sooner. Your letter took 30 days, which seems to be quite reasonable now.

The only news since my letter of last weekend is of a wedding. Saturday evening I was informed that I was to be in B/S at 9.30 Sunday morning to witness a marriage between Moreen and Sgt. Ransom of 497th Squadron; as you know the boys are now in France, just outside Paris, and Roland managed to fly over for the weekend and as soon as he had gotten a wife he had to fly back. I understand he was with Lt. Shehan, and a few others.

The wedding was very quiet; only her mother and father and I were present and after the Registry office ceremony we all went to church.  The B26 took off Monday morning, so it was a very short honeymoon, but even that would have been impossible if the weather had been better.

You said in a previous letter that you would answer any queries I might have; so perhaps when you have time you might endeavour to explain the difference between the Democrats and the Republicans, and what difference it might have made to the progress of the war if Governor Dewey had been elected President. I can’t find anyone here who seems to know much about it.

There’s been no news of Tommy for a long time now, so I guess he has gone home too. It is beginning to get cold here now – I’m afraid winter will soon arrive, but we seem to get better weather than they do in France.

Until next time, still thinking of you,

Joan

November 18, 1944

                                                                                                                                    D.C.A.A.F.
Nov. 18, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

Something happened today that brought you and England closer to my mind.  Waking this morning before dawn (as we always do here) we realized that, for the first time in months there were no stars visible.  After breakfast we reported to the “flight line”.  There we arange the schedual for the day and assign the ships to the people who fly them. . . Then as soon as it is light enough we move out and take off.  This morning there were reports of “mist”, before it was light.  However it was cleared away in time for us to take off.  We climbed to the bottom of the clouds and then just continued with our regular flying below them.

By ten o’clock the clouds had chased us down almost to treetop level and we were called in by the controltower.  The rest of the day was like so many of the days in England in the spring.  Much like the night we got wet, after the dance at Long’s, not a rain, but just enough so things were wet and the ground became muddy on top of the dust.  Because such weather reminds me of you I can even say I like it.

Darling, once you asked about some of the uniform combinations you saw in a moovie.  Specificly you asked about an officer with air force shoulder patch and engineer lapell insignia.  All such combinations are possible and probably will become more numerous as time goes along.  The engineers serving with the airforces build the buildings, the hangers, the runways, and the parking areas.  The medics serving with the airforces care for the airforce personnel who require medical care.  The ordnance section provides our bombs, our guns, and our airborn canon.  The Signal Corps personnel provide and maintain the radio equipment in the ships and on the ground.  All of these wear the shoulder patch of the airforces and the lapel insignia of their own service.

I don’t remember whether I told you what we do here.  This is a training base which trains Marauder Pilots.  We get the newly trained pilots from training aircraft and teach them to fly a B-26.  I am learning the technique of instructing as well as the system used here for flying the ship by training command specifications.  The students from this school have a very good record and we hope to maintain a high standard of training here.

Another of the topics which I think we should exchange ideas about is the different customs and conventions of our countries.  We are not very consistant in our conventions; many different nationalities are mixed together to make America.  Many of the old ways of doing things have been handed down from generation to generation with variations entering each time a new home was made from two families being joined by the marriage of their children.

Some people have very formal weddings, and anouncement parties, etc., while others disregard those things altogether; of course there are all of the in between people who do some of the things and not the others.  Some families require the men to wear a full suit for dinner, in others the men come in to dinner in the clothes they work in. . .   Stemming from a family of farmers and working men, I have never considered it necessary to dress for dinner, in fact if I am at the home of friends or relatives I take my coat off for dinner, rather than putting it on.

When I get myself a wife, I expect to conform to most of her ideas on that sort of thing.  Since you are a prospect for the difficult task of making a man of me I would like to know some of your likes and dislikes in the field of custom – and convention.

My training leaves a lot to be desired in manners and polish of a gentleman, perhaps other factors affect that deficiency, however, I have always thought of marriage as a turning point in my life, a time to put aside some things and take up others.  No one can change greatly, regardless of their desire to change– There for it is better to know the person with whom you are going to live and work and know where in you differ and wherein you are alike. . .Only people who are abnormal can long endure a person who is greatly different from themselves.  We are, after all, just a bundle of habits, customs, and conventions.

What I have tried to say is that . .  I am basicly a person who prefers to be informal but still conform nearly enough to the conventional way of doing things to avoid offending most people.  Because I lack the knowledge with which to do the things that may be required of me, please tell me of things that you want me to do or that I should do.  Love can overcome a great many things, but it can’t do every thing.

If this letter seems jumbled and meaningless just remember that I am trying to give you some idea of what I am and why I love you so that you can better understand the situation between us.

Good night, and pleasant dreams,

your
Harold

November 19, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 7                                                                                                    Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
19th Novermber, 1944

My dear Harold,

There’s very little news since last week; N.F.S. has kept me fairly busy in my “spare” time, and my assistant at the office is away sick, so I have been well occupied there too.

There was my usual telephone duty on Monday, and again Saturday; Thursday was drill night, and on Wednesday I went to play ping-pong and darts for the NFS against a local works team.  That left Tuesday night free to go to the Regent cinema with Kathleen to see “The White Cliffs of Dover”, the story of an American girl who married an Englishman, losing her husband in the last war and her son in this one. It’s a very good film, rather pathetic, and unusually for me I felt quite weepy, especially when they played the ‘Star-Spangled Banner’.

Mum and dad have gone off to London today, and left my brother to my tender mercies; anyway it’s two hours since lunch, and he is still surviving! Is that any recomendation?

In one of my earlier letters I mentioned mysterious explosions which occur day and night in this locality, and as you probably have seen by now, the official explanation is “Rockets”. Do you recall how some weeks ago Moreen and I attended our small village church; the following week a rocket fell in a field behind it, damaging the windows of the church, but causing no casualties.

I wonder where you will be by the time this letter reaches you. Until I get another military address I shall have to continue to write to Arroyo Grande, and I expect they will catch up with you eventually.

So for this week it is just, goodnight darling,

Yours,
Joan

PS. What is the origin of the expression “LIMEY”, as applied to an Englishman?

November 25, 1944

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 8.                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts.
ENGLAND
25th November, 1944

My dear Harold,

Yesterday I received your letter of the 20th October, which was exactly five weeks in transit. Owing to my, perhaps unfortunate, habit of numbering my letters you will see that for several weeks I neglected to write; this was entirely due to my mistaken assumption that by the time my letters arrived you would be gone again. However, I am very sorry, and in view of the p.s. to your letter I will continue to write to Arroyo Grande until I have your new military address.

My social activities have been seriously curtailed this last week, on account of a very English winter cold, and each evening I have dragged my-self home from work and almost straight to bed. I even missed going to Fire Service.

But I am beginning to take fresh interest in life again today, and I may even go over to visit Moreen this evening.

I do not know if I told you much about my work although I may have said I was doing invoice – typing whereas I began as a shorthand-typist. As one of our girls is leaving soon (having married a boy from Oakland,) I have been given the opportunity to go back in their office as secretary to the managing director, Major Leech. Unfortunately this is promotion over the heads of some other girls, and it is the Senior typist’s job, so I may have some difficulties at first.

However, in my spare time I am polishing up my shorthand and hoping for the best; everyone says he is a very difficult man to work for, but I imagine his bark is worse than his bite. It is a chance I could not refuse. At the moment I am teaching my job to another girl, but I am longing for the chance to get a notebook in my hands again!

It’s been quite noisy here recently; flying bombs by night and rockets by day, but one seemed to dislodge a brick in our chimney today and we are hoping it will now cease to smoke. It’s an ill wind…..

So til next week, goodbye now,

Yours,
Joan

December 1, 1944

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 9.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England
1st December, 1944

My dear Harold,

Thank you for your letters; I received two this week, one posted at Santa Monica on 3rd November, on Tuesday, and the one from Pasadena postmarked 31st October on Wednesday. They probably both came over together but were delivered at different times.  Letters to England seem to take anything from 3 to 5 weeks; how do mine arrive?

I am sending this letter to Kansas, in the hope that you will be based there long enough to receive mail.

Your description of Santa Monica was very vivid, but I wished I could have been under one of the large blue umbrellas with you.  Do you think that perhaps some day we might visit there together, so that I could see for myself? Aprés la guerre? There’s so much I want to see.

In my letter last weekend I explained that I was being given promotion in the office; this past week I have been occupied teaching my job to another girl, who will take it over next week when I go to learn my new work. Meanwhile I have been polishing up my shorthand in my spare moments.

Since Saturday , when I wrote last most of my time has been spent at the Fire Station; Saturday evening my cold kept me at home, Sunday & Monday I did duties at the station, and Thursday I went “on parade”, when we did squad drill and hydrant drill by the light of a full moon.

Wednesday evening Moreen and I went to the cinema, choosing Bing Crosby in an old film “Pennies from Heaven”, rather than “Cover Girl”, which Moreen had seen.

Tomorrow night Pat is throwing a party, to which I have been invited, but I had already planned to go to the N.F.S. Annual divisional dance at Hertford (12 miles away). Transport is being arranged, so I expect that means an exercise will be fixed to call us out!

I do not know if you had Tommy’s address; I would like to know that he got home, and if the baby arrived safely, but I don’t like to write. Maybe if you got time, you might drop a line to him; the address I have is – 392 Center St., Manchester, Conn. I got his address, so I could visit him when I come to the States.

Do you remember Lt. Douel in 494th? – he was one of Moreen’s friends. He has not completed his missions yet, and was over here before you; I met one of his crew in town on convalescent leave, it seems they were shot up.

Have you any idea how long you will be in Kansas? Do they keep you busy again?

‘Til next time,

With my love
Joan

December 3, 1944

D.C.A.A.F.
Dec. 3, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

At last winter has come to Kansas.  We have seen only a little snow but it is very cold most of the time.  The wind is rather strong and when it is several degrees below freezing it drives most every one indoors.  So long as there is no snow we fly, regardless of the temperature.  From now till March there will be much bitter cold weather sometimes going as low as -40º for several days.

A few days ago I received your greeting card and letter #4.  I had almost despaired of getting any more letters since the first three were so prompt.  The three letters were at Arroyo Grande when I arrived there Oct. 17.  #3 was dated 30th September – – therefore, it must have come in about ten or eleven days.  It has been almost two months since I wrote to you from Arcata, and other letters have followed from each place I have been.  I have not been deprived of letters nearly as long as you probably have been because the three that I got first came in the middle of the long separation we have been subjected to.  And now #4 has finally followed me here.  I know that the winter weather will delay air mail some times for weeks so it will be easier now to wait for your letters.

The month of September was almost completely cut from my mental calander.  All of September was spent trying to get home.  October was quickly used by my leave and the reassignments phase at Santa Monica.  The major part of November was wasted here at Dodge City.  Now I am left with the feeling of a useless appendage to the airforces.  “The Training Command” has served its purpose and is now of no value.  We will probably find ourselves without even a theoretical job before many months.  For that reason I expect to request transfer to some other command, probably one of the airforces.  The process will take some time, but if perserverance is of any avail, I will succede.

If Moreen really wants to marry her fellow she will enjoy the months of waiting; and it is my guess that she will be more sure of happiness if she waits a few months. . . . anything a person plans for and works for will be more completely enjoyed and appreciated than something that comes so easily or without effort.  Though England is your home and you will never really put it out of your mind and heart it will be possible to accept another home.  You will have to make a new life and a new circle of friends. . . but it will not be so difficult if you keep in mind that the world gives back to each person just as much as that person puts into the business of living.

We mentioned once about time and distance’s effect upon people. . . In that connection I would like to warn you, and Moreen as well; when people are together both the faults and virtues are evident . . .  When distance intervenes – – only the virtues survive the effects of time.  Too frequently when a man is away he is remembered for his good qualities alone . . . . when he returns his faults are so evident that disalusionment is almost unavoidable. Men are only human . . They love the girl they have chosen and they try to be as worthy of her love as they find it possible to be – – but sometimes romantic girls left to their dreams expect their men to be the Prince Charming they have dreamed of. . .

Darling, I know you are sensable and can think clearly – – that quality is one of the reasons I love you.  Life is a serious business and love is such a wonderful thing, when the two are mixed in matrimony they can bring great happiness if they are properly handled. –

Untill next time

Yours
Harold

December 7, 1944

D.C.A.A.F.
Dec. 7, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

This evening we had one of the beautiful sunsets that are very common in Kansas.  The sky was so clear and blue that it looked like a bright blue glass bowl with long streamers of flame clouds across it.  The clouds were like very brilliant flames . . . red, orange, yellow, some so bright that they were almost white.  The snow reflected the light so brightly that for a few minutes it was lighter than the noon sun.  The only thing that could have made it more wonderful would be, to have some one to share the beauty with me.

Once you asked about our presidential election and the policies involved. . . . the minor details that really make up the differences between the parties would take hours and hours to explain, however, the great differences may be summed up in a brief statement:

The “Republicans” are a rather conservative group who propose little or no government controll of business, lower tariff barriers, and a more sound economic operation of the government as a whole.  The “Democrats” favor greater governmental controll in all fields of industry and business.  The Government has never had a balanced budget during a Democratic administration.

The present defecit is in the neighborhood of £50,000,000,000 or more than twenty times the debit which the government was under at the end of the Republican administration in 1932.

As to the effect upon the war. . . . Though many people feared differently, and some really were concerned – – the only difference that would have been evidenced would have been an increase of efficiency and a decrease in cost.  Many items of war material are being sold to the army at two, three and sometimes four times the cost in normal times.  There is a constant cry for more workers, yet the political patronage, (giving jobs to families of office holders) is greater now than at any time in the history of the world.  This has come about because the administration has been in office for such a long time, (12 years) and now the “patronage” is so great that it controlls a large block of votes; possibly enough to change the election results.

I don’t know how much you will understand of our mixed up political system but it is really very simple.  We are all Americans, we think that a certain group of men would do the job better than another . . . We try to get that group into the position . . . if we fail we all keep on working and fighting just the same.  We know that it isn’t the way the president spells his name that makes the world go around so we just forget about the election and go on with our part of the war and the work of making the world go around.

Most of the younger people in the U.S. are inclined to favor the Democratic Party because it is more liberal and progressive, but those who study economics and government soon take a middle attitude and swing their weight toward the group they favor most.  They may vote “Democratic” in a local election, Republican in a State election and, split their vote in a national election . . . voting for the candidate they think better suited for the job.

You probably are bored by this dissertation on politics so perhaps I will change the subject.  Since there is little chance for mail to get through regularly some of the things I expect to send you in the next few weeks may take months to get there so just let the postal system take its time and I hope you get them some time.

Oh! by the way – do you remember the evening that I caused you to break your date with the handsome Corporal. – . .that was the last time I wore my Great coat till last Monday. . . In the pocket I found something which is of no value to me here.  Perhaps you can use it to some advantage.

There is another question I would like to ask you. — Does Moreen plan to stay in Bps. Stortford for some time or does she plan to come to New York?  I would like to send her a wedding gift but I will wait till you tell me how I can reach her. . . I could send it to you and you could give it to her . . or send it directly to her.

Your letters #5 & #6 arrived at the same time here.  #6 was 10 days to Arroyo Grande.  Sometimes the postal service can be very good.

Untill next time, Goodnight my darling

Yours,
Harold

December 8, 1944

                                                                                    “Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 10                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts
ENGLAND
8th December, 1944

My dear Harold,

This week seems to have passed very quickly, most probably because I have been busy at the office.  On Monday I went into the Typist’s office for a fortnight’s tuition in the work I am going to do, and after three days work with Margery her husband turned up and she has gone off and left me to manage by myself until Monday. Consequently I have had to find my own way around, but it’s not been too bad and I guess I shall prefer this sort of a job when I have “gotten” settled.

There has been no mail from you this week, but posts will probably be more erratic than ever when it gets near Christmas.

Since I wrote last week I’ve been to two dances; one last Saturday at Hertford, which was frightfully “NFS’, and consequently not very exciting.  The second one, on Tuesday, was definitely more thrilling in an unexpected way. You remember where we met? I went over with Pat, Pam Mary and the rest to an enlisted men’s dance, only on the other side, if you get where I mean. I’d never been there before. Then between two dances, the place shook and the glass fell out of the windows near which we were standing.  A flying bomb had been shot down and landed 50 yards (or a couple of blocks) away from the dance hall.  The medics with whom we were dancing were called out but casualties were slight. It was rather fortunate for us that it exploded before it hit the ground. Otherwise the dance was quite a success.

Last night of course was NFS.  In spite of it being a pitch dark night, we went out to do squad drill.  I intended to go to the cinema tonight with one of the girls from the office, but it decided to pour with rain, so we changed our minds. Maybe I’ll go tomorrow. So instead I’m staying at home to write my weekly letter to you, and finish a pair of gloves I am knitting.

I have not seen Moreen since Sunday last, when she came over to tea. Our engagements seem to have clashed this week, and I spent Wednesday evening at home instead of dashing off to the cinema with her.

By the time you receive this most probably we will be into 1945, so with this I send my very best wishes for the coming year; wherever you go my thoughts will be with you and my prayers for you.

Goodnight,

With my love,
Joan

(this letter was enclosed with a Christmas card)

December 12, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 11                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts
ENGLAND

12th December, 1944

 My dear Harold,

I was very pleased yesterday to receive your letter, presumably the first from Kansas; I do hope that by now my letters are reaching you more regularly, they really should not take six weeks by Air mail.

However, I am delighted that you do not forget, even if my letters are slow to reach you.  I sincerely hope that the distance we are apart will not alter our feelings for each other, but of course that will be more difficult for you because there is nothing about Kansas to remind you of me.  Here I can recall the various places in which we have been together, and even my daily cycle ride to Bps. Stortford has memories of you.  Sometimes, I feel you could be still “sweating it out” over at the camp – you seem so near to me at times.

You’ve been gone now about as long as we knew one another while you were stationed here, and I’ve realized since you left how very much I care for you. I wish I could be with you right now. But I’m looking ahead as far as possible, and planning for the trip I am going to take to join you, as soon as it is possible. Please bear that in mind.

It’s impossible to foresee the future I know, and I quite realise that things may not work out right for us. But let’s see how we feel aprés le guerre – I feel pretty confident about it.

Please, darling, be patient if my letters get delayed. I’ll keep writing as we said we would. Soon I hope to send you the pictures that dad took of us in the summer.

Of course, I wasn’t at all bored by your letter. I’m interested in everything that concerns you, and sometime I want you to tell me more about each individual member of your family.  You know all mine – it’s not very large – and you know my environment and background.

As I sit here this evening to write to you we have had two flying bombs go over, spluttering a lot, sounding pretty low. But judging by the explosions they fell quite a few miles away. In my last letter – Friday- I told you about the flying bomb which disturbed our dance last Tuesday. Tuesday seems an unlucky night!

Last night I had to work rather later than usual, so I went straight from the office to see “Fanny by Gaslight” a frightfully English film, in the 1870-80 period. I enjoyed it, with my ‘limey’ sense of humour, but probably you would not have done so.

Last Sunday Moreen came over as usual, and we walked to the farm where Kathleen lives, in time for tea (Again, very English).  But it just poured with rain, and by the time we arrived there after a two-mile walk, we were drenched.  Moreen is very much the married woman now, although she gets along to Longs occasionally.  I don’t often go now; it is too much trouble in the winter when it is either cold or wet, and the roads are sometimes slippery with ice.

Some mornings I have to go to work very cautiously, as it is still dark, and the roads are often iced over.  Recently it has taken to raining during the day and freezing at night, consequently the roads are treacherous by morning.

My work is going fairly well; of course it’s rather confusing at first – I seem to be in charge of so many different things, but I guess I’ll settle down.  The trouble is everyone wants something different done at the same time, and in addition to this, as senior typist, I’ll be expected to keep order in the Typists’ office. Oh, you don’t know the typists! Can you imagine me in the role of disciplinarian, keeping order etc?  It will be good training.  Some days I am in a flat spin; especially the days when several people will give me shorthand notes guaranteed to keep me occupied for hours, and then the Major, who is supposed to be my chief consideration, will turn up and I’ll have to drop everything to be at his beck and call.  Still, it’s all in a day’s work.

I’ve rambled on a lot this evening, mostly about nothing at all, but I chiefly wanted to assure you that I am still thinking of you. I am concerned that my letters take so long, but there are a few previous to this, as you will see by the numbers, which should reach you sooner or later.

I’d be glad of any news of Tommy and his family, if you should hear from him. Remember me to him, and say I am still hoping to visit him one day.  I was hoping you would come with me, but he doesn’t know that.

So now, ’til next time, it’s just goodnight, my darling.

As always,

Yours,
Joan

December 15, 1944

D.C.A.A.F.
Dec. 15, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

Tonight you were so strongly in my thoughts that I couldn’t think of any thing else. . . As I had set aside Saturday evening each week to write to you and this is only Friday I tried to think of something else.  As a result some of us went to the cinema (we call it a show). . . . . What should happen but that the film is “None but the Lonely Heart”.  A very authentic story of London about 1939.  It was some what Americanized but it was much more authentic than most Hollywood productions of English scenes.  It was a bit morbid but my main enjoyment was from the sight of a London taxi, of the chimes of Big Ben.  All of the reminders of the pleasant months I spent in England.  Underneath it was always the feeling that I had but to wait for the end of the film to walk out into the street of London and then proceed to the station to catch a train for Bps. Stortford.  Why I should have that feeling I don’t know, except that perhaps I wished to be there again. Really it was the most comfortable, at home feeling, since I was in Arcata on leave.

Darling, I guess I must be wanting to see you.  It would be so wonderful to see you, to hold you in my arms.  I was thinking of the things we did together.  The things that we both like to do, some that we did together and some that we will have to save for when we are together again; Tennis, darts, and some I never asked you about; Riding, golf, fishing.  If you don’t drive a car, I will have to teach you when you get to America.  Another thing, we will have to have an airplane to travel longer distances in.

Right now I think I am dreaming. . . It would be nice if some of the things I have been dreaming could happen right now. . . . However, there is a war and most of the time the army tells me where I will go and what I can do.  Some day though it will all be over and I can get into a neat Oxford grey suit, or a blue sports jacket and I can wear what I like when I like . . . Oh me . . such dreams.

You asked about the origin of “Limey”.  That term was first applied to British sailors in the times of sailing ships . . . Because fresh foods were hard to keep on the long voyages to the orient, the diets of the sailors were very low in vitamins . . the chief vitamin deficiency was in vitamin “C” which is found most abundantly in citrus fruits.  The English sailors found that limes remained fresh for weeks, therefore they always bought a quantity of them to take on their voyages. During the long voyages they remained healthy while most other sailors were suffering from “Scurvey”.  The term “Limey” was attatched to them because they were continually sucking a lime.  They were the first called “Limey”; then all Englishmen were included in the term.  Today it is just a term that might be paralleled with “Yank” when applied to an American.  Unfortunately it lends itself more easily to derision, and you probably will hear it prefaced by various adjectives.  The way you asked about its origin makes me think that you probably heard it as “Damn Limeys”. . . . The term itself was started over a hundred years ago as a form of jealous derision, but has long since lost its original signifigance.

It is really regretable that all Americans could not get along with all Englishmen, but I guess there were as many Englishmen who disliked the Americans as there were Americans who disliked the English.  I get along with most people, but I fail to agree completely with all of them.

Well, Darling, I think I will go to bed and dream . . I still have you on my mind so much that I’m sure I’ll dream of you.

Untill next time,

yours with love
Harold

December 17, 1944

Letter no. 12

17th December, 1944

My dearest,

I am not at all sure that we are allowed to send Air letters to U.S. Forces – I know it is permissable to our own boys – but I am going to risk it and send this one, as I have a feeling they may get priority over ordinary air-mail letters; I do hope by now you have received quite a batch of my letters, as you see this is the 12th.

I sent an ordinary air mail letter off to you during the week; I’ll be interested to know which you receive first.

I have a lot of Christmas correspondence to attend to this afternoon; if the weather does not change during the week it is not going to be at all seasonal.  There’s no reason to look forward to Christmas this year – really wish I could be spending it with you – but we will have several days off from work, and that in itself is plenty to be pleased about.

I’m kept pretty busy at work just now; probably because it is new and strange to me. Margery has left us now, and I have taken over her job, and a lot of things I have to figure out for myself. Still it is interesting, and time goes much quicker than it used to.

Don’t take me too seriously if I tease you about your spelling or grammar etc., because in my job I have to be able to express myself in decent English; especially so when the Major hands me a postcard and merely says “Acknowledge this, and tell him I’ll go.”

I was at Longs last night; the rest of the girls turned up too, so we were quite a jolly crowd, Pat, Pam, Mary, Moreen and the rest. There’s still a few G.I.s around, but it’s not nearly as crowded as it was in the summer.

On Friday we went to the Cinema and saw ‘Phantom of the Opera’.  Thursday I was at Fire Service as usual, and on Wednesday I went in to have tea with Moreen.  We sat around the fire with our needlework and gossiped away for hours, while her father and mother were at the Cinema.  It was so foggy that night that  I did not risk cycling home, but stayed with Moreen.

There’s a stack of letters and Christmas cards I’ll just have to attend to so this will be rather briefer than usual. Very little has happened since I wrote last Tuesday, anyway.

So ’til next time, it’s just goodbye now.

With love,
Yours,  Joan

December 23, 1944

“Talma” Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 13                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth, Herts
ENGLAND
23rd December, 1944

My dear Harold,

I have had two letters from you this week to answer: one yesterday dated the 19th Nov, and a later one received last Monday dated 3rd December. Still you do not seem to have received many of my letters, although your letter of December 3rd arrived in 15 days.

I wonder if I received the news of the safe arrival of Ann Elizabeth, a daughter born to Lt. and Mrs. Eccles on 19th November, before you.  The card came from Tommy with your letter yesterday, so apparently he arrived home in time for the happy event.  I’m so glad he got back safely.

24th December, 1944

Unfortunately I did not get very far with your letter yesterday but will finish it this morning.

I’m glad there is some consolation for you in bad weather, though I’m not sure it is altogether pleasant to be associated with dismal things.  English weather is running true to form, and this past week there has been a blanket of thick fog, night and day, so that one evening I was sent home from work before it became dark!  But now it is Christmas Eve, and the weather shows signs of a seasonal change; it is much colder, there is a bitter north wind and a white frost but no snow yet.

Christmas here is a family celebration – most folks stay home Christmas day, I expect it is the same with you.  Moreen and I usually trip backwards and forwards between her home and mine, I think we shall do that this year. We have a four days’ clear break from work, returning on Wednesday morning. We also keep Boxing Day, the day following Christmas day, but I believe you celebrate New Years day instead; it is supposed to be so named because on the day following Christmas the postman, milkman, baker etc., would call for their Christmas boxes or gifts. I wonder how long it will be before we are able to share Christmas.

Referring to the matter you mentioned in your letter, I suppose our two countries do not vary greatly in this respect; everywhere there are certain formalities and conventions which people conform to or ignore, according to their upbringing or preference.  Wartime has done a great deal to break down some of the traditional conventions in this country, even more so than in yours I imagine.

In the matter of dress for instance, before the war no girl would dream of turning up in the office without stockings, and certainly not in slacks.  Now I do both, but I’ll find it rather difficult to return to more formal habits, though I suppose I could if it were necessary.

As for dressing for dinner, at home we have never considered it necessary.  In my home it would not be required, and you would always be welcome to remove your coat; there might be exceptional circumstances when we entertained people who did that sort of thing, but personally I’d prefer to entertain the more informal people.

As for formal weddings, I hope we need not do that; I’m rather afraid it would spoil my enjoyment of the whole occasion.  There again, in wartime England these functions have had to be informal owing to the food and clothes rationings.  Perhaps I’m suffering from more than five years’ experience of war, but I know I’m happier doing things the quiet way.

I agree that for two people to live happily together there should not be great differences in their ideas and ways of living, and also that you cannot expect a person to change greatly once they are matured.  I don’t expect you to change at all, I hope to be able to accept you as you are. That is why it will be a great help for us to exchange ideas now in preparation for the time when we meet again, then we should have foundations on which to build our greater knowledge of one another.

But you must remember I shall be coming to a strange country, and in many ways it will be for me to adapt myself to your ways of living. If you can by your letters tell me what to expect, and how we shall live, I’ll be able to say if the prospect is agreeable.

I believe you know me well enough to understand that I am fairly level headed, and I do realise what a great mistake it is to idealise a man. I watch other girls do that, and fear for their happiness when they settle down to real married life and a home of their own. It’s not the same thing to spend seven glorious days together once in three months, as to live with a man day after day, carrying out the ordinary routine tasks of ever day life. It calls for tact, tolerance and understanding as well as love to be happy under these circumstances, when the glamour has gone, but I believe it is possible, don’t you?

I’m afraid Moreen is a scatty kid.  I would have offered her the same advice as you, if I had thought it was any use.  I know how impetuous she is, and it’s too young to be married at nineteen, with her temperament; but they went through with it, and I hope they will be happy.  Marriage is such a serious step – I don’t think they quite understand.  And it should be irrevocable, don’t you agree?  That’s why I want to be so very sure. I do hope you will always love me – it seems too wonderful to be true sometimes that you should.

I wonder if I have given you a clear idea of my feelings on the subjects you mentioned; if not do ask me any further questions that may occur to you.

Before I close, I would like to suggest you use the work “gotten” just as you wish; I had a business letter from New York to reply to last week, and in this the secretary definitely put “gotten”.  Of course that reminded me so much of you; my work quite frequently reminds me of you now, as the Major has several connections in the States. I’m finding the new job very interesting.  I hope your climate suits me better than this. I have an awful cold again!

‘Til next time darling,

Yours,             Joan

December 28, 1944

D.C.A.A.F.
Dec. 28, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

Yesterday I returned to base after a three day holiday leave.  The trip was to the farm of my sister Zephyra (the eldest sister) whom I haven’t seen since 1928.  The weather was bitterly cold, so I was unable to do much to help with the harvest which is as yet incomplete.  It is about 100 miles from Dodge City to Holly and about 20 miles farther into the open country to the farm.  In as much as every one changes in 16 years and I have lived a life vastly different from the life on a farm in the “middle west”, It was almost like meeting strangers.  Their 9 year old daughter was quite a surprise to me.  She is so adult in some ways, she sews, cooks, rides horseback, is learning to drive the car and tractor; it is hard to believe she is only 9.  While I was there she baked a cake which was very good. One of the highlights of the weekend was the Christmas eve program at the tiny country school, (13 children with 1 teacher).  the children were very good, especially in their songs.  Untill you have seen such a performance you can’t really appreciate how the children enjoy the work they put into the hour or more of drama, pantomine, and songs.

I have Tommie’s address, which is his parents address.  He said that any letters sent there would be forwarded to him; I had almost forgotten about the baby and as yet I have not received any word from them.  I “phoned” early in October and assured his wife that he was in fine spirits and not too seriously hurt.  I also mailed a greeting card a few days before Christmas.  If no reply is forthcoming . . I shall write a letter and enquire of his wife concerning his whereabouts and health.

Your letters have come regularly in from 10 days to 4 weeks.  Since I have no way of knowing when I will leave Dodge City or where I will be stationed next, we can just hope that the last letter I write from here will be one of the fast ones so that there will be little delay in your learning of my change of address. I have already requested transfer to another station, but the ways of the army here are ponderous and slow.

Yes, Darling, apre’s la guerre, we will see many of the beautiful places in California and I hope we can see some of the beauties of New England.  We will pass lightly over the vastness of Kansas and glance at the mountains of Colorado, and see many of the things which make the world a pleasant place to live.

love,
Harold

December 29, 1944

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 14.                                                              Sawbridgeworth,
Herts
29th December, 1944

My darling,

I’ve been extremely lucky with mail this week, receiving your letter of 7th December today. That means I will probably have to wait a fortnight for the next one, but I’ll just have to be patient I guess.

Your letters come through fairly regularly now, and it is grand to hear from you. I would not get letters much quicker if you had gone to France. I hope my letters are coming through better now.

Thank you  very much for answering my queries so carefully; I’m afraid I still don’t understand American politics awfully well, but when I have plenty of time I will study it very closely and see what I can make of it. Also thank you very much for the note you enclosed with your letter, which I can easily dispose of over here. I thought that you and Lt Thompson were wearing raincoats on the night you mentioned; I remember that evening very well, especially the walk before  we went to Longs.

You mentioned sending a wedding gift to Moreen; I ‘phoned her up today, as I thought it best to consult her. In view of the time it would take to get here and the fact that it would have to be taken back to the States, we agreed that you send it to her mother-in-law. The address is:-

Sgt. & Mrs. R. E. Ransom

c/o Mrs. H. Ransom.

Box 54,

WINDSOR, N.Y.

She was very thrilled, and when I give her your address she will write and tell you so herself. If you want to write and congratulate her direct, the address is:

28, Zambesi Rd.

Bishop’s Stortford.

Your later letter evoked pleasant memories of the summer. I sometimes day-dream too, and recall those  marvellous hours we spent together.  I was always so happy to be with you, and I’ve missed you so much since you went.

It’s not so easy for me to picture the future. You can tell me more of that; and so far we have only suffered four months separation, I wonder how long it will be before we are together again. But I’m learning patience, and I can look forward quite happily, though it may be several years before we experience our re-union. And then I hope it will be a permanent one. Just now there’s little of practical value I can do except save as much as possible for the day when I can book a trip to the U.S.A.  I told you about my promotion in the office, which carries with it a slight increase in salary, which in turn is absorbed by more Income tax, but still it helps.

I’m afraid you will have to teach me to drive a car, as ever since I have been old enough there has been a restriction on petrol (gas) and I’ve never had a chance.  But I will leave flying an airplane to you!  I’ll come with you, and we can go visit all sorts of people.  If we live in California can we fly over and visit Moreen & Roland in New York State, and Sheila and Tommy and family in Connecticut?

Life will be a lot of fun when the war is over, and I have got through all the difficulties involved in getting into the closely-guarded United States.  If I have any difficulty in getting a visa you will have to write and tell the authorities that you want me to come.

I still sometimes wonder why you should choose an English girl, instead of one of your own American girls. I like you in preference to any Englishman I have met, partly because our ideas and outlook seem to coincide in many ways. There are so few people with a real appreciation of beauty. I think we agree too in our religious outlook; in connection with this there is a letter somewhere which I wrote to you before you left England in which I expressed my ideas on religion. It may catch up with you one day.

In money matters too, I think we share almost a horror of getting into debt. I always live within my means, and if I am unable to afford something I go without until I can.

I am enclosing one of the pictures taken of us in the summer. It recalls so vividly the evening when you smashed up my bicycle.

Christmas is over now; and here it was the coldest we have had for over 50 years. There’s been a heavy white frost, almost like snow, for days and nights and when the sun shone it glittered like fairyland. At night, with a full moon up, the frost just sparkled. Last night I went to Fire Service, and well wrapped up in my NFS greatcoat went out on the Fire engine for a ride round. But my mind was not on N.F.S. – rather was it thousands of miles away in Kansas. The full moon always reminds me of you and operations parties. Though, operation’s parties were really not your setting, I know, but it happened that’s where we met. At such a party it’s strange you didn’t form a poor impression of me from the start.

By the way, when did you first discover that you cared at all about me? You always seemed so indifferent.

I’ve promised to go and see Kathleen tonight, so as soon as I’ve finished this I will have to rush. Her boyfriend in the R.A.F. will be on embarkation leave tomorrow, and I can guess how she feels. It’s hard parting with anyone one loves, I’d never known before.

It’s drawing nearer to 1945, and nearer to the time we will meet again. So with pleasant dreams of the future, goodnight, my darling,

Yours,
Joan

(enclosed with this letter was a small photo of Joan and Harold in the garden of her parents’ house)

Photo of Harold and Joan

December 31, 1944

D.C.A.A.F.
Dec. 31, 1944

My Dear Joan:-

You can’t immagine the thrill I felt yesterday when my mail contained three, yes three! letters from a very nice young lady.  They all carried British postage stamps and were posted in Bps. Stortford or Sawbridgeworth.  I sometimes wonder what could make such a person write letters to a fellow so far away and so worthless – – but who am I to quibble?  The more I think about it the more certain I become that my stay in England was one of the happiest times of my life.

The atmosphere and activity here are so discouraging.  Every one and everything seems to be so slow and so concerned with petty trivial things of the social life of the “zone of Interior”.  They are very perturbed by some of the things that some of the “Returnees” say when they have had a few drinks.  It is all so childish.  They make nice little speaches about what a wonderful thing we did in the “theatre of operations”, then they act as though we were all some sort of criminal . . . . It is all so discouraging. . It all makes me wish that I were back in a theatre of operations so that I could get away from all of this “stuff”.

Darling, your letters are such an inspiration, and when I read them it is so much easier to believe that some day it will be possible to make a life with the little things in it again; Tea with Moreen, a cinema on Wednesday, a party, or a dance, or maybe a new frock.  The things that are left out of a life amoung men who are about the business of trying to make war.  The things that have always made life enjoyable in the world will some day be available to those men again.  In the meantime the antisapation of sharing those things with you will make the commonplace life of the army a little more bearable and perhaps the lack of those things will make the appreciation of them even greater when that time comes when we can be together again.

A bit muddled and rambling I know but it is just the way it comes to my mind and just a bit dreamy, thinking of you.

Good night, my darling.

Harold

P.S. Letters 10 11 & 12 were the last three, all previous letters have been recieved.     H

January 6, 1945

D.C.A.A.F.
Jan. 6, 1945

 My Dear Joan:-

Another Saturday night has come, but this one is a bit unique in that it is the first of a new year, also it marks a new era in the operation of this field.  In that the group of students to arrive in the next few days will be rather small. . . Indicating that higher headquarters considers that the need for pilots in Marauders is going to be smaller in the future.

Another unique feature of today is that I recieved a letter from Tommie.  He wrote from his home that he will soon be released from the army.  He returned to the “States” 18, Oct. and spent a few days in a hospital before being granted a “convalesant leave” of 30 days.  The leave was from 1 Nov. to 1 Dec. So on 19 Nov. when his daughter, Ann Elisabeth, was born he was present to fulfill the role of worried father.  He said, “things are pretty good here,” but in a later paragraph about his attempt to get a civilian pilot rating he mentioned having only one eye. If so, after all the efforts of the doctors he must have come home with some impairment of vision.

Several more of the fellows from England and France have come in here in the last week, but as yet none of the fellows whom I know that you knew are here yet.  There are several from Maching Green, and Dunmow as well as Chipping Unger and Chelmsford whom I knew before “going over”, or met in Ireland.

In as much as your letters seem to come in bunches I only recieve them at intervals of two or three weeks. I hope that my letters are a bit more regular even if they do take more time than some of yours.  The army has a way of making time seem unimportant at times so if your letters take a few weeks to come it isn’t so important, just so they keep coming.  Because you have a position where the days and the weeks are marked for you, any delay or longer space between letters would seem of greater importance to you.

For several reasons you seem closer to me tonight.  Tommie’s letter calls up memories, and for some reason it seems that in a few days or a few hours I will be off to Long’s or maybe off to Sawbridgeworth to meet you.  Maybe it is just a dream but it still seems to obcess me and I’ll admit it is a rather pleasant feeling.

If you haven’t guessed before. . the requested change of station which I mentioned once before was a request to be returned to “combat duty”.  As the mill grinds slowly and there is still some grinding to do, it may take a few more weeks to get started.  As I mentioned before, I will write to you the minute I learn where my next stop will be.

There is a party over at the club tonight so perhaps I will join the fellows for a while to see that they have a good time.  Parties will not be the same without you, so I’m not expecting to have the same kind of enjoyment that was possible at Stanstead.

Well, good night my darling,

with my love
Harold

January 7, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 15                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts
ENGLAND

7th January, 1945

Dearest,

This being my first letter this year I must begin by wishing you a very happy New Year. I did not stay up to see it in this year as I usually do; unfortunately New Year’s Eve  fell on a Sunday, so of course the dance at Longs had to be held on Monday. I hear that the dance was very successful, the Yanks having just been paid, but I missed it as I was on duty at the Fire Station.

There have been no letters from you this week for me to answer, but I had not really expected any as I was lucky enough to receive two the previous week.

I expect you are having orthodox wintry weather now. Ours is most peculiar; there’s been frosts, fogs, snow, rain all mixed up. It alternately thaws and freezes, or which is worse, rains on top of ice giving the roads a dangerous surface. Still I’ve managed to get to work, usually late I’m afraid.

Work is going very well at the moment. This job is certainly very much more interesting than my previous one. I’m hoping my ‘boss’ will be off to Paris at the end of the week, so I am looking forward to that peaceful prospect. Only wish I could go too.

I am enclosing a picture which I had taken a week ago. I don’t really like it, and if you don’t either I should advise you to burn it. Anyway it comes to you on trial, with my love and best wishes.

I spent Wednesday evening with Moreen, and as her people went to the show, we got together round the fire and with the help of my diary reviewed the events of the previous year. It was really very interesting. When I have finished this letter I shall walk up to meet Moreen from the bus, as she is coming over as usual this afternoon.

I had a day due to me from the office, and I decided I should have it before anyone forget so this Friday I went to London. It was the first time I had been for over a year, and I enjoyed wandering around. I can spend hours in London walking, but I found myself very stiff on Saturday.  I did a little shopping, and visited Madame Tussauds waxworks. The very fact that I intend, if possible, to come to America and join you after the war tends to make me appreciate everything more while I am still here. I expect I’ll always be a Limey, and crave for my afternoon tea, etc.

You promised sometime to tell me more about the individual members of your family; are they all married to Americans, and what will they think of an English sister-in-law? I want to know all about them before I come, so that I will know what to expect.

I missed Long’s again last night as it was my turn to do a weekend duty at the Fire Station; in the summer I considered it worth it to dash on to Longs after coming off duty but not so now. I intended to write to you last evening from the Fire Station, but Kathleen wanted to talk, so we talked instead.

Until next time, goodbye my darling,

Yours,
Joan

(this letter contained a professional portrait of Joan)

January 11, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 16                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England.

11th January, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Tonight I feel so horribly lonely; I’d give anything to be with you now, so the next best thing is to sit down and write to you although it is not yet the end of the week. I would have written last night, but I was at Moreen’s and it was not possible.

I have not received any more letters from you, but I expect bad weather will hold them up for a time.

Thursday is the night I almost always spend at drill at the Fire station, but the roads are slippery and bad tonight so I am staying at home, and doing a number of odd jobs. But before I attend to them I must write my letter to you. Sometimes I realize just how far away Kansas is.

There’s been snow in England this past week, and I have temporarily given up cycling to work and have been catching a bus. When I look around, and everywhere is so white and cold, it does not seem possible that just a few months ago it was, well, quite warm, and you were here. I wish the summer would bring you back again.

This week I had a very pleasant surprise; I received a card from Reader’s Digest in London, who were happy to inform me that I had been presented with a subscription for this. Thank you, darling. This will be a constant reminder of you for the next two years, and I am given to understand that it is becoming increasingly more difficult to obtain here.

Moreen and I spent last evening chatting round the fire, and as the roads were bad and it was still snowing I stayed the night with her. Her husband is alright, and she is hoping he will get leave to England, though she does not know when it will be.

On Monday and Tuesday I worked rather late at the office, as we have been rather busy. Particularly, I had to get out the Works monthly newsheet, which is typed, photographed and exhibited in various parts of the Works; it’s finally been finished and we are all ready to go to press.

Monday after leaving the office late I just went home and spent the evening quietly knitting; but Tuesday I went straight from the office to the show, and saw Spencer Tracy in “The Seventh Cross”.

I hope the picture that I sent on Sunday arrives safely; I am afraid, being Sunday, I did not weigh it before posting and if it should be more than half ounce, it will probably be sent by Sea-mail. I am still waiting to get the other pictures I promised you, but I will send them as soon as I get them.

One never hears very much about American music, and consequently I suppose we get the impression that the only stuff they turn out is very “low-brow”. Do you ever get any nice, light music? I don’t mean Beethoven or Brahms – I do not know enough about music to appreciate them, but I like nice music, as well as dance music, or jazz. In this connection at home my tastes are considered very low as the rest of the family understand music better than I do.

Do you remember in the summer my hair was long and you wanted me to wear it down? Tonight I asked dad to trim the ends as it was getting too long, but I think he lost his sense of proportion and removed too much; now I am at a loss to know what to do with it. I only hope it will grow again quickly! I could have wept when I saw what he had done to my ” crowning glory”.

Sometime, you might give me some information about American cookery and food; you once asked me if I could cook. but I think that English cookery would be a little out of place in the States, wouldn’t it? You promised to teach me to cook, and although there’s little you can do by post, you could give me some ideas on American food. I know you eat waffles for breakfast, but apart from that I know very little.

Someone has turned on the radio for a discussion on the equality, or inequality, of the sexes, and it’s rather disconcerting to try to write letters with this competition. So ’til next time, I can only say goodnight, darling.

With love,
Joan

January 14, 1945

D.C.A.A.F.
Jan. 14, 1945

My Dear Joan:-

Having just recieved your very nice letter of 23-24 Dec.  I wish even more than before that we could be together now and always.  You were answering one of my serious letters; I think seriousness becomes you.  How any one in his right mind could not love you, after even the slightest chance to know you, is beyond my reasoning.  You spoke of coming to a strange country.  It is not so strange that you could fail to get on in it even without any one to help you.  Thousands of “Yanks” have come to your England and, though they may find it different, they have been able to get on.

To mention again the subject of conventions, etc. I was not sure, though I believed we were very much alike in that respect, but now I know that we are very much alike and there will be no adjustment worth mentioning for either of us to make.  Another subject you mentioned was the permanance of marriage.  I agree with you completely on that subject, both as to the stand point of age and that a marriage should be irrevocable.

You aren’t the only one with a new job.  I now have an office, a staff of 1 private, one corporal, 1 sergeant, and 1 civilian typist.  Though it sounds much more important than it really is, it is a job and that is more than I would have with out it.  The official designation of my job is Orientation Officer with further assignment as Assistant War Information Officer and Assistant School Officer.  The chief duties consist of keeping informed about the latest developments of the war, and imparting a summery of those developments to the rest of the personnel of this field.  We have a very powerful “short wave” wireless set that is the equal of any that I have ever seen.  We recieve London Paris, Berlin, Tokyo, and dozens of American stations on all of the “broadcast bands.”  My staff listens to the broadcasts and reports and my chief duty is to conduct the classes and deliver the lectures.  There are usually 12 one hour lectures each week . . . I have films to take part of the time so that my voice gets a rest . . . but as I said before it isn’t very much of a job.  It is just a temporary assignment while awaiting assignment to further training.  The fact that our training program is drasticly reduced so that each instructor has only half as many students as formerly, leaves me with no chance to instruct in flying.

Ah, mm . . . By the way . . You never did tell me just when your Birthday is . . . I met you in May and you implied that you had just celebrated your birthday, but, you never would tell me just when it came . . . . perhaps I was not clever enough to find out for myself . . . Maybe you you will forgive my stupidity and just tell me.

Untill next time, my Darling

love
Harold

January 15, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 17                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

15th January, 1945

My dear Harold,

I half expected  to receive another of your letters tonight as it is now more than two weeks since I received your letter of the 15th December, but was really not surprised that there should be none, as the weather has been very bad.

Already, however, last week’s fall of snow has disappeared, and the roads are clear again. I have been able to get my bicycle out again; it has had to have a new chain, but is standing up to the rough treatment it receives surprisingly well.

I forgot to mention before that your flashlight is guiding me through the English blackout this winter, as I have been fortunate enough to obtain batteries to fit it. Though this year, the sixth winter of blackout, Bps Stortford has had a restricted form of dim-out, and it’s nice to come out of Long’s and find some street-lighting, dim though it may be. But in these dark country lanes, your flashlight has been a blessing.

Kathleen and I are on duty together tonight at the Fire station, and we have been so busy talking all evening that I did not start this letter as early as I intended. Of course it is hopeless to try writing letters up here, as one gets so many interuptions;  at the moment Kathleen is booking through a pump to the parent station, but we have spent most of our time downstairs preparing supper for the firemen. Quite a domestic picture; we were so busy talking that I’m sure we have peeled more potatoes than the men will eat tonight.

Moreen was over at Sawbridgeworth yesterday, and we braved a cold north wind and took a spot of exercise. But it was not strictly for pleasure, and we were glad to get indoors and round a fire again. After tea we all sat round the fire in the half-light, and then again my thoughts flew Kansas way. So often I wish you were here; there would be so much we could share, but always there is the consolation that these are pleasures yet to come.

Now that 1944 has gone, I have lost my opportunity; we tease Moreen sometimes, and tell her she made the most of Leap Year. It’s too late to ask you, I’m afraid, so I will have to wait another four years. Roll on 1948. But working, and waiting, planning and hoping, time will pass. We are not so very old after all; I’m not yet 22, and you are just 26. Don’t you agree that’s a very suitable difference?

The men have invited us to stay on to supper, after all the trouble we have taken to prepare it, so we think we had better be sociable and stay. There’s a Christmas pudding cooking down there, but we have not yet discovered what the celebration is for.

Since I wrote on Thursday night, I have only done the usual things; Friday I went to the show, some film about the Rebels and the Yanks about 1864. As a true story it was quite interesting. Then Saturday I went to Longs, and the usual gang was there, Pat, Mary and Pam and the rest. It was reasonably cool, but being too crowded, though usually now we go there to get warm. In the summer it was self-imposed discomfort, wasn’t it? But it was fun.

The rockets have been rather disturbing recently, in fact the regularity has been monotenous. We’ve been extremely fortunate, and the only one likely to have hurt us exploded before it hit the ground and scattered pieces for a radius of several miles around. Must go now, sweetheart as we have had the supper call.

Til the next letter,

All my love,
Joan

January 20, 1945

D.C.A.A.F.
Jan. 20, 1945

My Darling Joan:-

The cold winter of Kansas seems to have overtaken us at last.  Yesterday the first snow of the new year fell.  It fell thick and fast, huge fluffy snowflakes that covered the ground to a depth of six inches in three hours.  As darkness fell the snow became a powdery white mist that coated the wet snow with a dry fluffy cover.

Your letter of 29 December arrived this week.  Most of your letters are comming regularly now . . . They are such fine letters I read them several times, sometimes going back to the first ones and reading all of them.  At the beginning I thought I loved you . . each letter has convinced me that I only half knew my feelings for you and the more I read the letters the more deeply do I know that you are the one true love for which I have waited. . . at first I thought that I might meet some American girl who would appeal to me . . . after four months I find them less attractive and even more that at first I compare their reactions unfavorably with your actions and reactions.  It is true that we are much alike.  You asked when I found that I cared at all about you . . . .  If you will recall, the first time I saw you I arranged to see you again . . it would have been so simple to just not ask to see you again.  You said that I always seemed so indifferent . . . . You will also recall that the first time I saw you in Bps. S. that I rode to Sawbridgeworth on a bicycle on dark English roads to find where you lived; you will recall that though it was the second time I had seen you that I kissed you . . . . not because you were so easily carried away, but because I was sufficiently interested to set the stage for that first kiss.  Love does not come so quickly nor so easily . . . but indifference, pray, never accuse me of such a thing.  Rather I was affraid that I showed too much interest.  You will recall that almost every time I arranged to meet you that duties prevented me from keeping that engagement.  Yes . . though I didn’t mention love to you untill that memorable evening, it was just a growing feeling.  You seemed to present the things that I liked most in a girl, though at first I saw you for the companionship and fun we had together it was very easy to learn to love you.

I think your estimate of “years” before we see each other again is rather pesamistic, especially in view of the developments on the Eastern Front in the last few days.  But untill then I’ll be seeing you, in my letters.

love
Harold

January 21, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 18                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

21st January, 1945

My dear Harold,

I am enclosing the other two pictures which were taken of us in the summer; where we stood then it is now covered with dazzling white snow. A week ago we endured a messy thaw, and now it’s begun all over again. There’s no accounting for weather here at all, in the course of a week we may have every kind of variation.

Yesterday I received my January copy of Reader’s Digest; so far I’ve only read the first two articles but already I can see how it is going to prove a link between us. I imagine that you are reading it too. I’m going to have to treat the American language as though it were French and learn your spellings without forgetting my own, or in other words translate from the American. It would never do if I slipped some American spelling into my letters at work, my boss would be horrified by defense, center, color, traveled, and yet sometimes I have an awful urge to do so.

I did not go to Longs or a show last night: after an unsuccessful attempt to catch a bus to Bishop’s, I returned home again to a fire and a book. The weather was too bad. As far as enemy action was concerned yesterday was rather noisy. As I cycled to work one rocket fell just out of the town and the smoke appeared to rise from where we used to watch you take off; then about an hour later another one fell just clear of the town on the other side from our Works, but our office, built in Nissen hut style, seemed about to cave it. It kind of gently waved to and fro.

I hope by now you have heard from Tommy, and he has reported progress regarding his daughter Ann Elizabeth. On his card to me he promised to write, but so far I have heard nothing further from him.

It must have seemed very strange to visit your sister after as long as 16 years, you were only ten yourself then! Your young niece sounds extremely capable – I hope one day she will be my niece too. I can’t imagine a girl of nine driving a tractor, it’s incredible. There’s so much I want to learn too. As far as cooking goes, I can only play around with dried eggs and powdered milk at present, and mother’s fussy about experiments of course. I know a little, but not nearly as much as I want to know.

With regard to social activities, Moreen, Kathleen and I went to the Show on Wednesday. The film was “2,000 Women”, and it was really extremely funny. Last night I had hoped to see Abbott & Costello in ‘Lost in a Harem’ but the weather prevented that.

After an interval of three weeks I received your letter on Friday, dated 28th December. I only hope that, when the army finally comes around to considering your transfer, the mails will be losing no time, or there may be some delay in my letters to you.

Until next time,

Love,
Joan

January 27, 1945 (1)

D.C.A.A.F.
Jan. 27, 1945

 My Darling:-

“Dame Fortune” smiled upon me again today.  Another of those letters with the British “Postage Revenue” was handed to me at the post office.  This particular letter made its way through stormy skies in twenty days.  There were several things today that made me wish that I were back in England; back where I could be with you.  The first thing that brought pleasant memories to my mind was a few bars of music . . . Serching the airwaves for a clear broadcast on our high-powered short-wave radio . . A station came through very clearly and then a very British voice said, “This is BBC”, etc . . . the “six pips” of the time signal, the other routine B.B.C. formalities; then for over an hour we were back in a hut on the hill out from Stanstead . . . . . . . The freak activities of Radio dropped us back in Kansas with a splutter of static and the girl in London faded away.

You asked about my family . . . . . . They are really not very important but I suppose it would be a little easier if you know a little about them.  I won’t bore you with a lengthy discussion of any of them.  The eldest, Robert Allen Walton was twenty years of age when I was born. – he went to California several years before the rest of the family.  He followed the trade which our Grandfather brought from England, (painter).  During the prosperous years before 1929 he extended into construction of homes . . . . He was not satisfied with the scale of construction which he could finance properly and so . . when the depression came, his finances went with the building industry. . . . He is an experienced construction contractor . . . but due to restrictions on building he works for the government as an inspector of lumber and other construction materials.  Because of the difference in our ages he is really quite a stranger to me.  The remote chance that you will ever meet him and his wife, it is sufficient to say you know him as well as I do.

Before I go any farther, I might answer your other question . . . All of my brothers and sisters have stuck together, and they all respect each ones ideas and oppinions . . though we often disagree we never quarrel or fight . . . . you will be accepted as though you were from the next town and you will find them all very straight forward and friendly.  Like all normal people they may be curious and some of the things you regard as everyday occurrances may seem very strange to them.  They will ask questions; after they know you better they will tease you . . . . all in different ways. . You will like them all, some of them you will learn to love as brothers or sisters.  They will all like you.

Next in the list is a sister Zephyra Borg . . . who is eighteen years older than I am, she is a farmers wife and lives on the farm that they went to when they were married twenty-three years ago . . . They are prosperous farmers, hard working and simple folks . . . much like your friend, Kathrine . . . . . I admire them both very much because although they did not have much formal education they are among the most advanced thinkers in all lines and on all subjects. . . I had not seen them for 16½ years untill Christmas but found them still the same most progressive farmers in their section of the country.  They have a very sweet little girl of 9 years, whom I fell in love with when I met her last month.

That should be enough for this time.  Should I say, “continued next week”?

I recieved the picture you sent.  I don’t think it is a bit like you . . . especially with the “snap” which your father took of us to compare . . . . I much prefer the older picture that I brought home with me. . . of course it would be much nicer to see the real thing, and then maybe I could steal a kiss . . think so?

good night, Darling.

Harold

January 27, 1945 (2)

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 19                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
ENGLAND

27th January, 1945

Dearest,

There have been no letters this week but I have to report the safe arrival of the locket you sent. It appeared to be post marked the 11th December (though it may have been the first) so it did not really take very long to come, little longer than our “air-mail” letters. I don’t know how to begin to thank you; it really is lovely, we can’t produce any thing like that here now, and you can imagine the envious glances of my fellow typists when I wore it for the first time on Friday.  First of all though, I had to cut up one of our snaps to fit our pictures inside.

I don’t think I have any news of interest this week; I seem to have done all the usual things. Kathleen and I were on duty on Monday, and shall be on again tonight as it is our turn for weekend duty. I don’t mind very much, because the weather is still bad and getting into town quite an effort.

On Wednesday Moreen and I went to a dance at the Red Cross Club; they have a new band over at the base, known as the ‘Downbeats’, and they are quite good. The weather was terrible and awful cold, and I spent the rest of the night with Moreen. There is a prospect, according to the papers, of Americans in France getting leave to England and of course Moreen is hoping.

This is being a very cold winter in England; for days there has been a thick white frost on everything, and with the moon shining it has looked like fairyland, though a very cold fairyland. I’m continuing to cycle to work, but it’s cold.

I’ve been busy at the office this week, as my boss has returned from his business trip to Paris and is attempting to deal with his correspondence which has accumulated in his absence. He returned shivering with cold, and sits over an electric fire trying to thaw, and complaining about the lack of heating in Parisian hotels.

Can you give me your impression of American girls? I know it is impossible to generalise, but on the whole are they very different to us? I know that when I come over I will have to adopt a different way of living and ideas, but will I need to change much in myself? I want to find out what sort of competition I shall have to face.

Have you formed any definite idea yet what you will do when you are demobolised; I gather that the G.I. Bill of Rights guarantees your former job back, but that’s not your idea is it? Postwar aviation sounds promising – have you thought any more about it? Then again, I think I once heard you mention farming, didn’t I?

I hope you have heard from Tommy now; when I wrote to Sheila and him I gave them your address, so you should get a letter, provided you don’t move first.

Have you any idea where you will go when the army gets around to considering your transfer. Is the old notion of playing with P.38’s lying dormant?

Mum and dad send their best wishes to you, rather late for the new year, I’m afraid.

I was hoping to receive another letter from you today, but so far it has not come, so Until next time, darling, I’ll just be,

Lovingly yours,
Joan

February 4, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 20                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

4th February, 1945

My darling Harold,

I have been extremely lucky with mail this week, having received your letters of the 31st December, and 6th and 14th January. Like my letters to you they seem to arrive in batches now, but so long as you continue to write fairly regularly I can have patience. I know that they are on the way.

You don’t probably realise how much your letters mean to me.  To know that you still think of me, although you’re back in more familiar surroundings, is wonderful. At first when I met you, you seemed, well, self-sufficient, and I did not dare to hope that you might even come to care for me a little. As for your wondering why a certain Limey girl bothers to write to you, I believe you are fishing for information. I wonder if she should tell you yet; sometimes I feel it makes a nice secret, then another time I would like everyone to know, I’m so thrilled about it.

When you left it was an exhilerating thing; sometimes now its a yearning, but more often a warm and happy feeling, a kind of glow. I wonder if you can follow what I mean.

I want so much to see you again, but not really until I know we would not have to part again. Saying good-bye is heart-breaking; we survived it once, but it was a real effort. I did not want your last memory of me to be in floods of tears, it’s so unbecoming, but it was so difficult to smile.

Even in the short time we knew each other I came to care; I liked everything I knew about you, and forgave what little faults I could perceive. But I feel its something which will grow, and by our exchanges of ideas in our letters we are already getting to know one another better. Your letters are so sincere.

As you mentioned in your letters as far as conventions are concerned, we have little to worry about. Perhaps I am even a little more unconventional than you; in that respect I am not typically English.

To satisfy a man’s idle curiosity here I might insert that on the 23rd April 1923, England was blessed with arrival of a baby girl, to the disappointment of her father, who had hoped for a son and heir. This baby was later christened Joan Patricia. Is there any further information you desire, Lieutenant? In England it is a date easy to remember, it being St. George’s day, the patron saint of England; also it is the date of Shakespeare’s birth.

Forgive me sometimes if I sound frivolous; Moreen and I have to plan our social activities so that we can pass the time of waiting as pleasantly as possible.  It seems wrong to wish time away, but the sooner this war is over and se can all settle down to normal life again, the better it will be.

I was interested to hear about your present work; naturally I am not over-keen about you returning to combat, but as I know you will be far happier that way I can only wish you the best of luck. If my prayers have any effect you will return safely. I believe you will, but I want you to promise if anything should happen to you, as it did to Tommie, that you will not let it make any difference, but you will continue to write and give me the chance to make the decision for myself. Please don’t think I am morbid, but I’d feel much happier if you would promise not to let anything come between us unless you were quite sure you did not love my any longer.

Just as sharing our pleasures will double them, sharing troubles will halve them and life is full of both; a happy marriage is a wonderful partnership isn’t it? As I read your letters I feel we have so much to look forward to, so much to share. One day we will make up for all this wasted time, and appreciate our happiness so much more.

My activities have been excluded from this letter, but later in the week I will write again and tell you all the trivial things Moreen and I do to pass the time; I’ve been so happy this week, with three letters to digest, and the sun shone for several days in anticipation of spring.  At the commencement of the week it snowed, but by Thursday it had all gone again and Saturday it was warm and sunny, with the exhileration of an English spring in the air. It did not seem possible, but it just shows the contrariness of English weather. I could probably continue to write to you all day but I have promised to meet Moreen when she comes over, and we are going to tea with Kathleen at the farm.

Til next time, dearest.

With love,
Joan

February 5, 1945

Letter no. 21                                                                                               5th February, 1945

My dear Harold,

Please forgive  the formality of this – but as I found my previous air letter reached you safely I decided to try it again; unfortunately ink often runs on this paper, and so I thought you might not mind if I typed it instead.

In Sunday’s letter I gave you no news at all, just rambled on in a very inconsequential manner; the previous Sunday Moreen came over as usual, and in the evening we went to an All-Party Brains Trust.  I only went to please dad really, as he was on the committee organising the affair, but to my surprise I really enjoyed it; on the stage were five representatives of different political parties, and the audience were invited to submit questions, all of which were answered from the political point of view of each member of the Brains Trust. The whole thing was arranged as a means of obtaining funds for the War Memorial Fund of Sawbridgeworth, which they have already begun to consider.  The idea is to have a Town Hall (!)

On the Tuesday Moreen and I spent a pleasant hour and a half wandering round a Health Exhibition which was organised in these Works; I had already spent weeks before-hand helping in the preparation writing letters, obtaining exhibits, etc. etc., and the words ‘Health Exhibition’ had come to cause a groan in the Typist’s Office. We were almost driven to sickness on account of it, but in spite of this Moreen and I decided to go and have a look round.  There were stands on various points of health, but most of all we enjoyed the cookery demonstrations, especially as we were allowed to taste samples.  In addition we collected leaflets and booklets, and weighed ourselves, and altogether acted like a couple of crazy school-girls.

Also during the week we saw the film -‘Marriage is a Private Affair’, the chief merit of which was that it portrayed an American Officers’ Club, which naturally with the wings well to the fore, brought back happy memories of the summer; little things that brought you even nearer to me.

Don’t you feel that if two people think a lot about one another they feel closer together, even if the distance between them may be thousands of miles?

I have just had to leave this letter to inspect an engagement ring – one of the girls in this office became engaged to an American boy this weekend, but he is from Carolina so I do not expect to see her when I come out myself. It must be the personality of these Americans, I can’t see what else could drag a girl all those miles. But they can’t all have found a man like mine.

To continue with our social activities, Moreen and I went on a shopping expedition on Saturday; I met her for lunch in Dunmow, and we then went on to Chelmsford by bus, where we spent the entire afternoon wandering around the shops in the manner peculiar to women.  But after all we did not buy anything, and after having tea in Chelmsford and looking round the Cathedral, we joined another queue and eventually caught a bus back to Bishop’s Stortford.  We were back at Moreen’s by eight o’clock, and then proceeded to make tea, and sat round the fire chatting for the rest of the evening.

Sunday morning I wrote my weekly letter to you, and in the afternoon when I went to post it, met Moreen from the bus and we walked up to the farm where we had tea with Kathleen. I may have told you that she has an English boy in the R.A.F., and he left for Canada recently, and she has just received a cablegram apparently from New York where they must have docked.  Moreen hears regularly from her husband, but still does not know when to expect him home. He continues to worry the OPS Officer, but up to the moment without success.

I think now darling, I should change my ribbon and get on with some work.  The Major has fortunately gone up to town this morning, so I am left to work more or less in peace; I have fussed round him with his morning post, and papers for his appointments, and seen him safely off.  I try to picture you in an office, but it doesn’t seem right. Hope you soon have some news about your requested transfer.

Til next time, darling, with my love,

Joan

February 6, 1945

DCAAF
6. Feb. 1945

Dearest Joan:-

At last the good news has come.  I didn’t write Saturday because I thought that I would learn very soon where I was to be sent.  I was notified early yesterday that I was to go to Columbia, South Carolina . . . today I was able to see my orders and find the name of the field . . it is just “Columbia Army Air Base” or (C.A.A.B., Columbia, South Carolina U.S.A.)  I have started to pack and get ready for the three day trip . . some 3000 miles by rail.

There will be a more complete military address as soon as I am settled . . however mail addressed to the above address will reach me.  There have been no letters now for nearly a fortnight because the last two arrived together.

Maybe next time I will have some new material to write about.

Untill then,

good night, my Darling
Harold.

February 9, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 22                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND.

9th February, 1945

My dear Harold,

All day I have been trying to remember what today’s date recalled and I have only this evening realised that I have been with my present firm since 9th February 1942. It’s exactly three years, and I feel quite part of the place; I often wonder how much longer I will stay here.

I’ve been extremely lucky not to have been called into the Women’s Services or into a war factory, at a machine; neither of them are very pleasant prospects to me.  The war news just now is quite promising at the moment; I do hope it is not going to be much longer. The sooner it’s over the sooner I shall be able to come out and join you.

Our social activities this week have been reduced to a minimum; on Wednesday Moreen and I sat round the fire and discussed our plans for a weekend at Ely, 16 miles the other side of Cambridge – Moreen wants to see something of England before going out to the States, and so we thought we would spent a few weekends visiting places to which we have never been before. First on our list is Ely, which has an outstanding cathedral which we want to see.

I wonder if you ever received my letter, written before you left England, in which I endeavoured to express my religious views. I consider it an extremely important subject, especially between two people who hope to share their lives together. I won’t repeat my self too much, in case you received the letter I mentioned, but I think we are well in agreement on this subject.

First of all, you know I was brought up in the Church of England faith; at least I was christened and confirmed in it, but I’ve never been forced to go, and as you know I am not in the habit of attending regularly.  Religion should be spontaneous, I feel, and certainly not a habit.

That there exists something greater, call it a Creator, or whatever you wish, is, I think, obvious; but my contention is that one need not attend church to feel close contact or appreciation with this Creator. Religion is not confined to churches, and certainly a lot of people who attend church very conscientiously do not practise the rudiments of a Christian faith.  Personally, I feel closer to this Power in the fields and woods, where there is sunshine, and wind, stars, birds singing – anything like that.  To me, religion and faith and beauty are all tied up in these sort of things.  If I want to pray I can do so just as well in the good, fresh air, but usually if I go to Church I prefer to go when it is empty, especially in our very old churches, there is a mellow atmosphere where one can feel the sincerity of the people  who have worshipped there.  Occasionally, I like to attend a service as on Moreen’s wedding day, when we also took communion.

But I do not necessarily have to attend Church of England.  You told me that you were brought up to be a Methodist, but like me, would attend any church. That suits me fine, because actually I prefer the non-conformist idea.  But I could not be “High” church. You have no idea what a relief it was to me to know you were not Catholic.

I think that in our rather unconventional outlook on religion and other matters, you and I will agree to a great extent.  What is your opinion?

Some people look to material things to bring them happiness; true, they assist, but real happiness is more difficult than that, and can so easily be missed. I’ve never questioned you at all about our financial standing after the war if we should marry, because money doesn’t bother me a great deal. We’ve never had an awful lot, but the main thing is to keep out of debt, and I have always done that. I have enough at the moment to get out to California and that is extremely important.

By the way, does one use fish knives and forks in the States, or don’t you like fish? When I turn out my “Hope Chest” there are some fish knives and forks and I shall not know whether to bring them or not.

I think I have wandered enough for one evening; I had better leave this and carry on with my knitting. My brother raised his eyebrows in surprise when he found me knitting babies’ things, until he discovered they were intended for infants in occupied territories.

So my darling, goodnight again. There have been no letters from you this week, but having had three last week I am still able to sing on my way to work.

Til next time,

Love,
Joan

February 16, 1945

CAAB
Feb. 16, 1945

My Dearest Joan:-

It is now Friday and the promised activity has not materialized . . . Just a more certain indication of more and more inactivity.

I can tell you a little about my trip to this place.

Last week I went in to the town of Dodge City, Kansas and boarded a train.

The first stage of my journey carried me to Chicago.  Chicago is a fairly large city so your map should show it.  In Chicago the weather was very foul, there was snow on the dirty streets, more snow as coming down but it was melting as fast as it fell. . My attempts to find lodging were futil, so, I boarded the first train which I could get on.  The next phase of the trip carried us through the states of Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Kentucky, Tennessee, North Carolina, and thus to Columbia, South Carolina. . . Much of the scenery of the southern half of the trip was very much like California and made me wish even more that I were in the home country.

The camp here is very nice compared to Dodge City; it is in a large pine forest.  The trees are very small when contrasted to the giant Redwoods of Northern California.  The ground is sandy so that mud will not be a problem, the gently rolling hills are much like England.  Even in February it is warm, much like May or June in England, except that the days are shorter.  The seasonal varriation is much less here because it is so far south. . . The rains are infrequent, and very similar to summer rains in England.  The trees are a type of pine that is peculiar to this region . . the needles are very long, exceeding 12 inches in most cases, they grow in clumps at the ends of the branches only, which some times gives them the look of old brooms tied onto the branches of a dead tree.  Every tree bears the scars of cuts made to gather the resin for the production of “naval stores”.  Some of the scars are extended as high as a man can reach . . others are lower, most all of them have been carried almost to the ground.

As usual at such a place the rumors are far more numerous than the true facts about the actual training program; by gathering a huge quantity of rumor and mixing in a little guessing I have decided that we will be here only a short time; perhaps a fortnight, perhaps a month, but no longer than that. . .  That will be a period of inactivity and a very difficult task that will be.

As yet Tommie has not answered my letter of over a month ago, so my knowledge of his activities is rather limited.

Once you asked if it would possible to fly up to see them, (Tommie and Shila) when we have our own plane some day . . .the distance is as great as from London to New York or London to Bombay, India, or from Calif. to the Hawaiian Islands. . . Though travel will be easy and very fast after the war . . . it will continue to cost more than most of us can afford to spend for pleasure travel.  There is a factor that enters into such things, always if any one wants something enough they can save for it and they will get what they want . . . . I think that you can rest assured that you won’t be seeing London for the last time when you embark for America, . . . time is a salable article though, it might take too long to make an ocean voyage, a few hours by air will make the distance that a voyage would take weeks to make. . . .

You also asked about cookery . . . . American cookery is a mixture of the rest of the world and some times a strange combination of some of the elements . . . Families with English ancestry probably are very English in their food . . . The other countries of the world are all represented, and all contribute to the total.  It is a very simple thing to learn to prepare the favorites of each group . .

Untill next time;  love,

Harold

February 18, 1945

The Bell Hotel,
Ely, Cambs.

Letter no. 23

18th February, 1945

Dearest Harold,

Today I am writing to you, not exactly in the shadow, but in full view of Ely Cathedral – one of the finest in England (bigger, better and more beautiful).  Moreen and I have just returned from morning service there, and are writing our letters in the lounge of the hotel which faces onto the Cathedral.  To both of us,  these letters are a pleasure, hers to her husband and mine to you; I enjoy writing my letters to you each week, and the only greater pleasure is receiving yours in reply.

It is now more than two weeks since I heard from you, but most probably the American mail will arrive in next week.   I only heard from you indirectly last week, in the form of Reader’s Digest; the first article which caught my eye was “How to Choose a mate”, which sounded very sane to me.  After reading it I was still convinced that I love you and we could be very happy together.

I told you last week how Moreen and I planned to spend a little time in Ely this weekend; we left Bishop’s Stortford after lunch on Saturday, after a hectic morning in the office, and stopped in Cambridge on the way to do some shopping.  Being very English I decided to lavish 18 coupons on a spring suit, turquoise blue with a fine bottle-green herringbone pattern, restricted, on account of the Utility mark, in pockets and pleats, but nevertheless it meets with Moreen’s and my approval.

We managed to get a cup of tea in Cambridge, and rushed to the station only to find our train to Ely was running over 30 mins late; we rang the hotel and dinner was kept for us, but we did not arrive here until it was dark.

So it was not until this morning that we saw the “city”in daylight; the birds chattering in the cathedral first woke me, the cathedral seems to dominate this place.  It is the central point and towers above all else.  If one asks the way here one is invariably told to go up by the Cathedral and “you can’t miss it”.

After breakfast we decided to explore; not that there is much to see here, but we walked down to the river and through funny little back streets until finally it was time to return for church.

This morning I particularly enjoyed the service; the atmosphere in the cathedral put me immediately at my ease.  I felt lonely for you too, and you were in my mind the whole time.

Now we re back at the hotel.  We were writing in a lounge full of elegantly hungry people, who have now disappeared rapidly in the direction of the dining room.  Not to be outdone, Moreen and I are now considering following suit.

‘Til next time when I will write a longer letter,

With my love,

Yours   Joan

February 20, 1945

20 Feb. 1945

My Darling:-

today we are having a very english spring day . . . . . exactly like many days last spring when we were in Ulster.  This time however I miss my bicycle because we are walking every where we go now.

One of the reasons I am writing today rather than Saturday is that; I recieved four letters from you in the past few days . . . Including your air letter of 5, Feb, which reached Dodge City in ten days.

It seems very significant that you should mention seeming very close regardless of the thousands of miles . . . Sawbridgeworth seems almost as close to me now as it did while I was still at camp only a few minutes away.  It seems almost as though if I started in a plane it would be only a minute or two till I would be sighting the familiar little grassy drome at Sawbridgeworth . . which we always used as a landmark to tell us that we were almost home.  Though I only rode a bus a few times in England . . . In my imagination I would land my little plane on a drome near Bp’s. Stortford and step onto bus and ride to the top of the hill in Sawbridgeworth; then I would walk past the church (remember the way we walked that one day).  On down the hill and across the bridge . . . . Perhaps my dreams are a bit mixed up . . but some place along the way you must appear on the scene because, as I walk down the hill you are beside me . . . . this dream seems to get all mixed up with the gently winding way that leads to my house in Arcata, because, we never seem to reach “Talma” . . . . we walk the last few steps to the door of the little white house and there the picture that I see just goes no farther.  I guess we will have to wait till the time comes when we can really “carry on from there”.

I have already written you all that is known about my new assignment except that it is designed to “probably” take me to the Pacific rather than Europe, and we will be flying A-26 “Invaders” which I mentioned to you before leaving England, as a “Super Marauder” . . . they carry only two men on the crew and also more than half again as many bombs as the Marauder . . they are much faster as well.

The pilots who have flown them speak of them as though they were something in a dream rather than a mass of machinery; to believe all of the things we hear about them would be like saying that they were half “Spitfire” and half “Lancaster” and had all of the best features of both.  For the time being, however, we just sit and dream as some one else goes over head in them.  We are a manpower pool from which pilots are drawn as there are openings in the schools . . . . there is some talk of mooving the “pool” to Florida in the next few days. . . . There may be some delay in the delivery of my mail if and when the move is made.  Therefore . . if any of your questions go unanswered for some time there will be an alabi for me. . Not that I would ever forget . . Oh! no! no! I only forget on Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, alternate Thursdays, Sundays, Fridays and twice on Saturday . . . then some times in between,  just in case I forgot to forget . . . but if you want any remembering done just call on me.

Last night I picked up an old issue of the “American Magazine” in which I stumbled on an article written by a London girl who married an American . . . She called it . . “American Husbands are So Sweet” . . . . Her typical British way of speaking reminded me so much of Moreen and her excited chatter . . . . I thought immediately of sending it to you . . . but decided against it on second thought since it was more of an article for the American public and was deffinitely one continuous shout of praise for American men. . . . they probably are already too concieted with out such a nice compliment from any one.

A few days ago I happened on an article summarizing the difficulties which you must surmount in order to gain entrance to the United States. .  They are formidable only in their complexity and not in the requirements themselves . . . . The chief problem seems to be transport . . . .however wives of Americans will meet less difficulties than other people . . . since permission has been granted for them to enter on resident status without regard to the quota system.

With regard to Kathleen’s R.A.F. fellow . . . there were thousands of such fellows on the transport which returned Lt. Hayes and myself to New York.  There were groups of men from RAF, RCAF, RAAF, R.N.Z.A.F., as well as Royal Navy, Fleet air arm, etc. We had quite a chummy affair with the mixture of languages and dialects . . we even had a few thousand Jerry prisoners aboard.

Well, till next time,

with my love,
Harold

February 24, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 24                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND.

24th February, 1945

My dear Harold,

This weekend I am writing to you from home again; fortunately I received your letter of the 7th February yesterday, giving me the news of your move to Carolina. I am so pleased, and I am looking forward to hearing more about it. This letter arrived in little more than two weeks, but apart from that I had had no letters for three weeks and there seems to be a gap between the 14th January and the 7th February. Am I missing any? As you do not number your letters it is hard to tell.

No doubt on account of your move there will be some delay over my mail to you, but I hope your letters will be forwarded on to you from Dodge City as quickly as possible.

Columbia sounds to me a more inviting prospect than Kansas; I hear a little about South Carolina from one of the girls in the office who recently became engaged to a boy whose home is there.

Last weekend Moreen and I wrote our letters from Ely in Cambridgeshire, where we spent the weekend, and where we attended morning Service in the Cathedral. We explored the town in the afternoon, when the “spring” sunshine was glorious and caught a train back which arrived in Bps. Stortford about 7 o’clock in the evening. On the journey I amused myself gazing from the carriage window at the ever-changing and fascinating colours of one of those beautiful (but rare) English sunsets. It was glorious.

On the whole the week has been quiet. Two evenings at the Fire station, one at home and one at Moreen’s. Then last night Moreen, with her mother and father, and I with my mother, father and brother, all went together to a Brains Trust in Stortford, organised by the Anglo-Russian Friendship committee. The questions dealt entirely with Russia, and were answered in turn by a Russian housewife, a London priest, a Russian professor and an English girl who had spent five years as a teacher in the Soviet Union. It was a very interesting evening.

This afternoon I am going out shopping with one of the girls in my office, who is hoping to get married when her fiance’ comes on leave from France, possibly in a week or so. I am to be her bridesmaid if I am able to get time off, but it will leave the office in a turmoil I’m afraid if both the senior typists are out together. For weeks now the office has had to cope with wedding veils and orange blossom as in war time it is necessary to borrow these things; my filing cabinet has contained bridesmaids dresses silver shoes and all the accompanying paraphanelia and I have been expecting the Major to go there for his private stationery and bring out a sprig of orange blossom!

It’s all very exciting, – especially in the spring, but I’d prefer a quiet wedding, more like Moreen’s but preferably in a church.

Dad is agitating for the use of the table, and I don’t think I have any further news, so til next time, goodbye darling,

With my love,
Joan

 

P.S.  I heard that Lt. Duerl was at Longs last Saturday, so he must still be in France. He is taking a long time to complete his missions.

(Editor’s note: I can’t make out the actual spelling of this Lt.’s last name. The Du and the l are clear, but the letters in between are indecipherable)

February 26, 1945

26, Feb 1945

My Dearest Joan:-

At this moment I feel the greatest thrill that has come my way for some time . . . In two days of this last week I recieved six letters with a familliar handwriting and British Postage Stamps.  The first three were not so unusual because I had recieved that many at once, before.  Now I can say that your letters really are getting to me . . .

Darling, you asked me about the letter which you wrote before I left England . .I recieved it soon after it was written . . .I believe, before I left England . . . I had never made further comment upon religion because I thought we were so completely in accord on the subject that there was no further need for discussion.  Our back grounds are different, to be sure, but our ideas are very similar.

Another item which must envarriabley be discussed is finance.  Perhaps you may have gathered that my family is far from wealthy.  In fact a few years ago we probably would have been refered to as “poor” – -however as more of us grew old enough to work the burden grew less on each, untill now I think there is little danger of any of us starving.

In addition to the ability and knowledge which made it possible for me to earn my living before this war . . I now have an aviation skill which should be of some value . . . making adjustments for post-war slump and keeping in mind that I may not be able to continue in aviation I feel reasonably sure that we can expect finances equivalent to £300 a year after taxes are paid. . that is not much but I think we can avoid starvation untill we become accustomed that sort of life . . . My service pay is being carefully horded to provide a chance at an aviation business if the opertunity remains open.  Another thing that may make it possible for us to be financially secure is the fact that I own one house (in Arroyo Grande where my mother lives) and half of the one in Arcata . . . . I expect to convert the interest in the house in Arcata to cash and build us a new home when prices are lower after the war is over.  I think too that a wife should have some say in the planning and building of her home.

You spoke of my old job . . I rather liked it and it paid me about 5/6d an hour . . not exactly a starving wage . . . I may take it till I can get settled in aviation if that works out alright.  Well so much for money I hope you will not find me a poor provider but you can’t expect to be wealthy if you marry me.

With regard to your “Hope Chest” Whatever you may have, by all means you should bring if for no other reason than the sentiment of knowing that they came with you from England.  Fish-knives and forks are entirely new to me. – but . . I’ll have you know my name is “Walton” maybe not “Isac Walton” but I do a bit of fishing on my own occasionally and we will have all the fish you want – – even if I have to buy it from the fish-market on my way home from a fishing trip.

My brother Earl has always been the family fisherman he catches more fish than any two other men I know.  He is just six years older than I am, and he is the one whom every one confuses with me.  We are the same size and even acquaintances of many years were unable to distinguish which was which of us.

He has a lovely little daughter of nine years who looks more like me than her daddy and has as much affection for her uncle as for her parents.  She has long been my favorite because I was present for most of her first six years care. – I fed her the bottled rations that she lived on, I dressed and bathed her, and walked the floor with her ills untill that sort of thing was no longer necessary.

Now what was I talking about before that interuption on infant care . . . Oh! yes, I was just rambling on about things in general.

Oh! with  regards to the locket – – I wasn’t sure whether it would escape duty charges but if it was recieved in good order it should be safe to send some other things which you find hard to get but which are plentiful here.

I almost forgot, you asked about the American girls . . they are not greatly different from their British cousins – – the Scotish girls are probably more like the Americans than any of the other United Kingdom girls.  You however seemed very Americanized with your slang and your ability to do as those around you did – – frankly the American girls are more self assured and demand more from their men because they have been accustomed to being the equal and treated as superior to the men – – They have never lacked the clothes nor the cosmetics to keep their apearance the chief concern of their lives.  Given six months in America you will be indistinguishable from any of them except to the practiced eye then I fear the American girls will suffer from the contrast.  They lack some of the English poise and good grammar and careful diction.  The American trait of getting what he wants is also a trait of the girls – – they are almost too bold in their independance.  . –

I hope I have made you see some of the things I see in American girls.  They will hold their own any place in the world with any one . . but I think the reason I chose an English girl is because I met the one who suited my tastes in England before I met one in America who could compare . . .

Well, goodnight my darling

love
Harold

March 2 and March 3, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road
LETTER No. 25                                                                                              Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND.
2nd March, 1945

My darling Harold,

I was so thrilled yesterday to receive two letters from you, one dated the 21st and the other the 28th January; fortunately your letter of the 7th February giving me your new address was received last week, but the previous letters were never-the-less extremely welcome. Your letters are so encouraging and make this business of waiting so much easier, please continue to write whenever you can.

I hope you will not mind the formality of a type-written letter, but I think that the warmth of my feelings for you should penetrate the cold type; at any rate, it should be more legible.

I was so interested to hear something about the individual members of your family, please carry on in later letters. I hope one day to meet them all, and you know I shall not mind a bit when they tease me about my English ways and ideas.  I think I can take it, I’ll probably be able to laugh at myself.  If they are anything like you I know I shall like them all.

It would be grand if it were possible for you to pay another visit to England, but I have a feeling that we shall not require combat personnel in this particular Theater of Operation for very much longer.  By the way, you mentioned my estimate of ‘years’ as being pessimistic; how long do you consider it will be before we are together again?  When you finally get transferred back to a combat station, please find out the best way for me to write to you, as it probably will not be so easy as writing to you at present.  Still, however long my letters take I shall keep on writing.  I look forward to my weekly letters to you, and think of all the things I am going to tell you, which of course I forget before I reach pen and paper.

I had already considered the possibility of your meeting an American girl, on your return to the States, who would usurp my place in your affections.  The same could have applied to me, and that is why I did not feel we could commit ourselves then.  But I feel now that I will never want anyone else, I am completely satisfied.  It would comparitively easy to find someone of one’s own nationality, I suppose, but I would rather it was this way.

Talking of my visit to the States, I wonder what my chances will be of getting reasonably early passage after the wars are concluded.  I have wondered if, when, we are reasonably sure of our feelings for each other it would be advisable to become engaged, as of course while married women will have priority, your fiancée should stand a chance of joining you within reasonable time.  There will be various things to consider, and lots to do, but it will all be worth it, don’t you agree?

Last Wednesday, when I paid my usual visit to Moreen, we were carried back to last summer very vividly by the roar of ships coming over, and it sounded as though they would circle and land on the field.  It reminded us so of the summer evenings last year when we would count the planes in and then decide if it was worth while going to Longs.

It is nice to hear (literally, read) your reminiscences of last summer, and remember all the happy memories we shared together.  I recall quite clearly, how on the night we first met in Bishop’s Stortford you borrowed a Sgts. bicycle from some G.I. at the Red Cross – pulling your rank, I believe.  Again, the parties at the camp, looking for little grey rabbits, wandering up to the runways to watch the ships come in, waffles at the Officers’ club, and weather that was never suitable for swimming.

3rd March, 1945

Yesterday when I arrived home there was a very welcome letter from Tommie, enclosing the snaps he took of us at home last summer.  I had almost forgotten them.  He says he has heard from you, that the baby is doing fine and takes after his father. (Typically American, isn’t he?)

I can’t think of anything else I want to tell you at the moment, there is really too much distraction in this office.  So goodbye darling, until next time, all my love,

 Joan

P.S.  It would be wonderful to see you again.

Roll on post-war.

March 4, 1945

4, Feb. 1945
(envelope postmarked Mar 5)

My Dear Joan:-

The spring is really gaining the upper hand here in Columbia.  The new leaves are showing on the trees, the peach trees are in full bloom and very beautiful . . . though England may be close behind us we will have a warmer spring and summer than you will have. . . . one day last week recorded a temperature of 68º and there has been no frost for several days.

We are becoming very bored with our life of inactivity here.  The waiting is the hardest part, because we know that if we were busy we could be doing a little toward shortening the time till this war is at an end.

You mentioned the rockets landing in England. . They will continue to fall till the rest of Holland is cleared of Natzi fories.  That should be accomplished in a few more months, perhaps even in weeks.

After the big batch of letters that came last week I can hardly expect to recieve more for several days. . . so I’ll have to be content with my usual rereading of the ones I have.

Since the extent of our activities have been to eat, sleep and grow fat there isn’t much to write about our activities – – We have gone to the movie each time there was a new film showing.

There is some indication that the high command has planned for the end of the European conflict this year because we have here on this field a whole group that was ordered home from the Meditirranian area to be retrained for the Pacific area.

Well, I’ll be seeing you, the “boys” are calling me to go to the bar for ice cream.  Shall I eat some for you? –  –

untill next time –

love,
Harold

March 9, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 26                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
9th March, 1945

My dearest Harold,

It’s unusual for me to sit down at 11 pm on a Friday night to write to you, but I guess I had better obey the impulse tonight or maybe the urge to write will keep me awake til the early hours of the morning.

I’ve been lucky with mail again this week – looks like the postal service is looking up!  Two letters dated the 16th and 20th of February were received, and it was grand to hear from you.  By the way, if you should move on to Florida, I have an uncle at Miami.

Last Saturday Moreen and I went to Longs, and just for a moment as we entered I felt sure I would see you there, standing near the entrance talking to some of the boys.  But the dream did not materialize.

On Wednesday I had time off from the office to be bridesmaid to one of the girls in the office whose fiancé was on leave from France. Although it’s rather difficult in wartime we fixed a real white wedding, and though everything had to be borrowed, I am told it did look very pretty.  The two bridesmaids wore pale mauve, with head-dresses of net gathered with a cluster of mauve flowers on top, and carried daffodils and jonquils.

I’ll never forget the scent of those flowers, mingled with the white lily perfume of the bride’s flowers which I held during the ceremony, in the cool church with its huge stained glass window above the altar.  That solemn, but peaceful feeling, when I wished so much you could have been there beside me.

Then we left the church in a rush of photographers and just showered in confetti! and were swept off to the reception which was held at Longs.  I enjoyed the whole affair, but as an anti-climax we had to report back to the office later in the afternoon, but too late to settle to any real hard work.

I almost detected an note of anxiety in your letter when you warned me that airplane trips like visits to Tommie would prove rather expensive even in the postwar era; let me hasten to assure you that I don’t really think I shall make a very extravagant wife.  I’ve quite a lot of “money sense”, really.  Its true that one eventually gets what one saves for; I have already saved enough to get to the U.S.A. so they can call off this war as soon as they like.  Whenever, I really make up my mind to a thing I usually get it; perhaps it’s luck, or just the will to win.

Tell me more about the little white house in Arcata.  Do you think that’s where we shall live?  or have you any other postwar plans?  I still have those pictures of California, remember? It’s nice to look through them and dream, although when you first showed them to me I never considered making my home there.  I wouldn’t have believed it then.

It’s strange how you are always in the back of my mind just waiting to take possession of my thoughts.  Of course I always tell your picture goodnight.  For the past two nights I have slept with wedding cake under my pillow, hoping to dream of you, but so far I’ve been unlucky.  Maybe tonight I’ll be more successful.

I’ve often found one dreams of things desired subconsciously, but in this case my conscious mind knows my desire, and probably the sub-conscious mind can give no satisfaction.

I guess I’m sleepy now, so until next time I’ll have to say goodnight, my darling.  Pleasant dreams.

With my love,

Joan

March 11, 1945

11 Feb 1945
(envelope postmarked Mar 12)

Dearest Joan:-

Today is Sunday, a fine sunny day much like the day last August when we were swimming together.  The peach blossoms are beautiful, the daffodills are so bright and yellow.  The Japanese cherry trees are in bloom now.  Every thing indicates that spring is really here!  I just caught a glimpse of a “butterfly”, the first of the year as far as I know.

The only objection I have to South Carolina now is that there is nothing to do but sit and read, or twiddle my thumbs.  I some times wish I had brought my knitting or something else to occupy my time.

Yesterday I saw some work that one fellow is doing to occupy his time . . he is making models of all of his favorite aircraft.

If time continues to hang heavily on my hands I shall try to do the same.

With nothing here to write about it might be well to go back to the family discriptions that I started some time ago . . .

The third member of my family, my sister Glen as near as I can guess is just past 40 she married a “blacksmith” perhaps you would call him a “wheelright” or a “wagoner” he has modernized as machinery improved and is a skilled craftsman.  I have seen little of them but have had occasional contacts with them all through the years.  The oldest son, my first nephew, was last reported in a hospital on the western front (someplace in Germany) he is 24, the rest of the children, 2 girls and 2 boys, are all nearly grown (15-22), the whole family is rather rural and really frank homey folks.

The next of my brothers, John, entered the navy about the time I was old enough to remember, he served a few years then went to work on “shore duty” at the trade he had learned at sea.  He has now taken to a farm to keep his boys busy . . he still works in the “engine room” of a factory . . His oldest son (18) was last reported “at sea, someplace in the Pacific”.  The other three boys are in school and run the farm besides, with their fathers help.

Next comes two brothers whom you probably will meet when you get to California, I won’t protract this letter by telling you about them now.

I think you will have more letters coming along soon because I have written twice each week except the last one, since I left Dodge City.  I wish we could have been together at Ely but we will save that for some day when we are old and grey and are showing our grandchildren the beauties of England, or perhaps for some erlier date, who can say just when we will go sight seeing in England.

untill next time my Darling

love
Harold

March 15, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 27                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
15th March, 1945

My dearest,

I was thrilled this week to receive your letter of the 26th February, which only took 14 days to reach me!  I believe they really are beginning to send them air mail at last! I was amazed to learn that you received six of my letters in one week- where-ever had they been?  Whilst still on the subject of mail, last week I received one of my letters to you written before you left England, which had been six months wandering around Indiana in search of you.  It was marked “Fort Benjaman Harrison” “Camp Atterbury” and finally “Return to sender”.  I wonder why they chose Indiana.

Thank you for your long explanation on finance. I believe you understand me well enough to know that I do not consider material possessions and money make for happiness; lack of money does make things rather difficult, but provided there is enough to ensure reasonable security I do not think we shall have to worry very much.  As you have probably gathered I have never had very much, in fact for the first few years of married life I believe my parents had quite a struggle in the years that followed the last war.  I can imagine that rearing twelve children must have presented quite a problem, and I can understand why you once said one should only have as many children as one can afford.

That reminds me – still on the subject of children.  Here again is a matter which from practical experience you apparently know a great deal more about than I do.  Or is this still in the nature of a “build-up”?

Do you think I should be able to distinguish between your brother Earl and you?  I think so, if it were only by that slight mark on your forehead.

I guess it would have been unneccessary for you to send me that article on “American husbands are So Sweet”, but I hope when you read it you made careful notes to put into practice when the time arrives.  The other members of your family seemed to have married early; it seems strange that you should not have done so too, but I expect the war rather upset your plans.  Still I am grateful to this war for one thing.  It brought you over here and gave us the opportunity to meet.  Of course it had to part us too but that need  only be temporary, and then such a lot of happiness lies ahead.

Moreen expects Roland on leave at the beginning of April, and I’ll have to try very hard not to be envious then. So far I have succeeded very well in participating in other people’s happiness, and it does help.

Last weekend I spent at Moreen’s.  Her mother was away, and on Sunday morning her father decided to go to London for the day – rather after the fashion of a schoolboy let loose.  So after breakfast Moreen and I dashed off to Church, where her young cousin was singing solo in the choir.  We returned home to prepare cold lunch, and of course as soon as we revived we had to make a pot of tea.  Then we went  for a long walk to shake off the effects and came back to find Kathleen waiting for us, where upon we made another pot of tea, and told her she would have to wait for dinner.  Then Moreen and I set to in the kitchen, and to amusement and enjoyment prepared another meal, finishing up with coffee round the fire.  It was fun being able to do things how and when we liked.

I was thrilled one day recently to see my first daylight flying bomb.  I was cycling into Bishop’s Stortford when it went overhead, rattling unmistakably, and outlined clearly against a blue sky.

I expect  the weather in Carolina is fine. We have been having days of clear sunshine – it’s marvellous today, so that it really feels like spring.

Unfortunately last week, at the wedding I went to, it was very cold, and I developed an English cold which is keeping me away from the office today.  I advocate a change of climate for me when the war is over.

‘Til next time, sweetheart,

Love,
Joan

P.S.  This seems an unworthy reply to your long and interesting letter.  I’ll try to do better next time.

March 17, 1945

17. March 1945

 My Dear Joan:-

Something happened here yesterday that has never happened in England: We are now authorized to wear the “Summer Uniform” . . . March is rather winterish to be wearing our coolest uniform in England, but here the fellows have been swimming for most of the month of March and yesterday was so hot that comfort was out of the question – . . we were looking for a place to get out of the sun.  The anouncement that the usual 16 March change of uniform would take place caught me by surprise.  .  . In fact I was contemplating a shopping trip to replace some of my well worn winter clothing . . . All that saved me was the streak of laziness that caused me to put it off.  Now the purchase will be summer cottons because we have never had the opertunity to get a complete summer wardrobe . . . . Looking back it has been almost two years since we wore our “Suntans”.

For some reason the postal service has been very slow the past week . . . No mail from England and only one letter from all of the other people that occasionally write to me.

The fifth week of our stay here has been very much like the others except that we were called to the office of the personnel section to check some of our records, and we started some of the training on the ground. . but still no flying.  Of course each day that passes brings the day when we will fly, that much closer, and then again it is another day that has been wasted   a day that I might have used to bring this war nearer to an end so that the day could come when you and I can begin to plan our lives “Apres le guerre”.

I am deffinitely dissapointed that these five weeks should be wasted, but . . . what can one man do against the system that has been set up and called “the army”.

Another development that was worked on last week but requires some further work.  The “strings” that will bring Sgt. Harkabus back to my crew as gunner are beginning to be pulled.  Whether there will be sufficient time and sufficient string pulling ability available is still a question that has not been answered.  If we can work the arangement it will indeed be a fortunate gain for me. . . experienced gunners are scarse and then too, Harkabus is better than average even without the experience gained in Europe. . . . .

Well, untill next time, goodbye my Darling.

love
Harold

March 21, 1945

21 March 1945

My Dear Joan:-

As each day goes by and there is more and more comment concerning the early end of the European conflict, my displeasure with being kept waiting grows.

I believe that late summer will be the earliest that we can expect to see an end to things over there.  Perhaps my knowledge of the factors involved is not as complete as some, but I think there is danger of over optimism and disappointment if too many people get the idea that it is all over.

Some time ago . . I wrote you a fairly complete account of the financial status which you could expect in America. . . There is one factor which I forgot to mention . . the rate of exchange. If you really expect to come to America I would advise you to buy some American currency now.  At the time I left England the rate of exchange was stabalized at $4.035/£ . . . . the rate in the world market and at New York is about $3.56/  if you have an eye on some speculation the money market is a good place to look now.  The British money system is sound but due to the caprice of world affairs the fluxuations of the rates of exchange do some strange things.  At the time we started across last year we were limited to the purchase of £50 because of the difference in rate of exchange.  Your gain would be only about 2/ now but in a year from now it may be twice that.  I’m not sure that the stabalized rate of exchange will pertain to civilians or not . . . if it doesn’t you might have to forego some of the gain unless you could have some one in service make the purchase for you.

Columbia looks almost like England in late July now . . . Nearly every one has changed to summer uniforms and the trees are leafing rapidly, although there is some chance for frost later this month it is almost summer.

I recieved a letter from Sgt. Harkabus today . . he is in Florida as a gunnery instructor on an A-26 base. . . with in ten minutes I had arranged to be transferred there as soon as there is an opening . . . possibly in 15 days or less . . . Untill it is deffinitely ordered there is no way of being sure.  He is very enthusiastic about the new plane and perhaps we can get to fly together in our next tour of duty as we did in the last.  I’m quite sure I will feel more comfortable with a man that I know back there.

Once you asked me to promise that if any thing happened to me, that I would let it make no difference between us . . . . . I don’t think I would be so rash as to make any promise in this war . . .but I assure you, I will let you make the final decision concerning what ever may be the extent of such injuries and their effect upon our lives . . I’m quite sure that if any thing happens it will be serious enough that you will learn about it from some one else . . . or it will be so slight as to be useless to mention. .

Well, my Darling, this is three weeks since your last letter arrived but more will be comming soon I know.

Untill we meet again in our letters,

With my love,
Harold

March 24, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 28.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
24th March, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Spring seems to be hesitating, as if not quite sure that it is time to put in an appearance, but today has been one of bright sunlight, showing up the spring flowers.  I suppose you never associate sunshine with England, she certainly did not show you much while you were here, but perhaps that’s why we appreciate it so.

I see by the newspapers that, owing to the fine weather, the Ninth has had its biggest day since D-day.  The war news at the moment is certainly encouraging.

I have received no letters this week, the last one being 26th February which arrived a fortnight ago.  I notice, however, that you ask me very few questions – are your queries all settled now and your doubts dispersed?

When I receive your letters I often feel that my letters to you must seem very uninteresting, for the ordinary, humdrum existence in war time England seems to provide little scope for interesting writing material.  I hope I do not bore you with trivialities.

Last week we went to see the show ‘Dark Victory’ with Bette Davis.  It was very good, and I was reminded of the last show we went to see “Thank your Lucky Stars” where Bette Davis made a brief appearance.

Moreen seems to have made up her mind to go out to the States at the end of August.  I shall miss her terribly when she goes.  I have other friends of course, but no one to take Moreen’s place.

I paid my usual visit to her on Wednesday.  It was a glorious night, a half moon glowing overhead and a heaven full of stars.  I had such a strong feeling that I had but to turn my head and I would find you cycling beside me as you did last summer; but I daren’t turn or that would have broken the spell.  Either I have a very vivid imagination or we are very close in spirit, because it seemed so real.  I almost said I nearly felt you were there; but it was more than that.  I could hardly believe you were not there.

Has your state a great profusion of wild flowers?  Only, I expect, Bigger, Better and more Beautiful than ours? Well, when we get home to California I’ll get a book on wild flowers to study and while you go fishing I’ll hunt flowers. (note the phrase, when we get home, sounds nice, doesn’t it?)

Talking of fish I had almost forgotten I shall only require forks for you crazy people.  But for a while I shall stick to my primitive “Knife and fork” way of eating, even if it causes a great deal of amusement amongst your friends.  They will think me funny anyway, and it will probably be mutual.

I have gathered that Arcata is a nice friendly community.  Tell me more about the sort of social life we shall require to be involved in, when you return to your old job.

We have one girl in our office, who is engaged to an American stationed over here, and she is beginning to worry over how she can get to her fiancé when the war is over. It’s too early to worry yet, but I suggested that when the time arrives she should consult the American Embassy in London.  I think they will help individual cases.

Til next time, darling,

Love,
Joan

March 30, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 29.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
England
Good Friday
30th March, 1945

Sweeetheart,

Like you, I have very little to write about this week; your letter of the 4th March was received this week, and I am left with a picture of you getting fatter and fatter, lazier and more despondent because they will keep you hanging around so.  I guess the waiting part does get monotenous, you can gather a little of how a woman feels when all she can do is wait for her man.  It’s such a helpless feeling, and requires a good deal of patience.

The war news from the western front is very encouraging.  As a rule, I am not unduly optimistic but we are really beginning to feel we are getting somewhere now, and it may not be so very long.  Then we can turn all our attention to the Japs, and surely it can’t be so very long then til we can straighten things out again.  We are still getting Jerry’s reminders in the form of rockets and bombs, but as you say we can’t expect them to cease until we can clear Holland.

The British man-in-the-street does not let himself go so readily, perhaps, as our American allies but already our newspapers are planning our V-day celebrations. Personally, I feel that won’t be the time for celebration.  Thanks-giving services, perhaps, but real celebrations not until all hostilities have ceased.

As for the crack in the end of your letter re the ice cream, Moreen and I are going to London tomorrow and are hoping to get some ourselves. But in the meantime, I hope you enjoyed the one you had for me.  Just wait, til I get to the States and I’ll make up for everything I’m missing now; and that mostly means you.  I doubt if that flatters your ego, American men don’t need that, I guess.

Probably the heading above the date of this letter means little to you, but to us its a public holiday.  I believe you Americans consider we here have far too many public holidays.  For me, this one means a long weekend as our factory is closed until Tuesday morning.

Today Moreen and I were given the opportunity to do a spot of sightseeing across English country-side.  A friend of the family had to go within a few miles of Bury St. Edmunds in Suffolk, some 54 miles from Bishop’s Stortford.  Mrs. Hewardine came too, and we took a picnic lunch which we had to eat in the car as it poured with rain at the appropriate time.

To go off at a tangent, the weather has been typically English today, Capricious is the only word to describe it.  In between brilliant bursts of sunshine, it produced thunder, lightening, rain and hail; in addition a strong wind blew all day.

Passing on from this diversion on the weather, Moreen and I spent two hours exploring Bury.  As it was Good Friday all the shops were closed, but we wandered round the Abbey Gardens and inspected the Abbey ruins.  To tell the truth, they looked more like bomb damage ruins only considerably weather beaten through the ages.  We also went round the Cathedral but were rather disappointed with this after our visit to Ely Cathedral a few weeks previously; after this we inspected another very old church, built in 1450 approx. after the Abbey had been destroyed.  An old man must have thought we looked either intelligent or interested for he insisted on accompanying us round the church and pointing out everything of interest.  This included a curved roof unusually decorated with pairs of angels, the tomb of Mary Tudor, Queen of France, special carvings on the pews, and paintings on the ceiling done by the Benedictine monks, also a stained glass window presented by Queen Victoria to commemorate the death of Mary, who was Henry VIII’s sister. (I’ll probably forget all this soon, but it was quite entertaining to hear all about it).

Moreen is sitting at the table beside me now, writing to her husband.  As we are going to London tomorrow she is staying over night with me.  As I see she has finished, I had better say goodnight my darling.

So until next time, I’ll be seeing you, all my love and kisses, darling.

Yours,
Joan

March 31 and April 1, 1945

31 March 1945

 

Dearest Joan:-

That change of station has finally come.  We are now at Lake Charles Louisiana.

Here we will pick up a new crew and train with them for about three months. We can see little chance of being sent to any theatre of operation except the Philipines.  However there is no way for us to be sure yet; in fact we will be in doubt untill we are on our way.

The last two letters from you are sounding very much like a great many people here in America.  They seem to be very optomistic about the end of hostilities in Europe . . . however I will still wager that November will find some activities of the war in Europe.

The Pacific will probably hit a phase of quiet or “no change” for a few weeks in the next month or two, after that will come a long war, because people will forget that the war is still going on.  New automobiles and other things will take the fore front in public attention. . . . . . . . . .

Another item which you mentioned . . . . the subject of an engagement . . . .I can see your viewpoint and I agree – – with one exception – -I think that we should wait untill some of the Englishmen in service return and untill we see whether the Jap is a better marksman than his European counterpart.  There is still a chance that my fortune and my skill will not continue to be so good.

Tomorrow is Easter – -I think I will finish this by the light of an easter sunrise so that we can share our first Easter over a distance of a few miles. .

goodnight, my Darling

 

1 April,

Good morning.

We were wakened this morning by a storm which approached a tropical hurricane in its violence and the rain was coming down in torrents.  The peak of the storm seems to have passed now, but it is still raining and the wind is very strong.

Any new Easter clothes will probably be left at home today.  We will just stroll over to the post chapel instead of going to town for church this morning, and our sunrise worship was an individual affair in which each man was alone in his communion; with a feeling that he was very near those he loved and very near indeed to the supreme power of the universe.

It is afternoon in England now and you have probably finished any formal worship for the day.  We are just starting our day with most of the fellows still in bed.  My day will be very quiet with nothing but a few letters written to varrious members of my family and a few friends.

Perhaps you would like to look on your map to see where we are now stationed.  We are about 40 miles from the coast of the Gulf of Mexico, and two thirds of the way towards Houstin, Texas from New Orleans, La at the mouth of the Mississippi River.  Lake Charles is larger than Bps. Stortford, possibly near the size of Cambridge, but it is 200 miles from any city except Houstin, and 100 miles from Housin.

When you are ready to come to America you may like to see some of these places . . . however they are not really worth the trouble necessary to get to them.

Well, my Darling, untill next time,  . .remember, I love you,

 

Harold

April 7, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter 30.                                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
7th April, 1945

My dear Harold,

To carry on from where I left off last week, as you may note from the postmark of last week’s letter, Moreen and I went to London on Saturday. We were up early and on the train met two of the girls from my office and all had breakfast together in the Strand when we arrived in town.

We proceeded to Oxford Street as the shops were opening when we split again into two’s, and Moreen and I wandered off together to explore the stores.  This was no mere window-shopping expedition, such as we usually indulge in, but I was feeling rash with coupons and bought a raincoat (extremely useful in this climate, especially now in typically April showers) and a cute little black dress.  I’d never attempted to wear black before, but with this rationing business – it’s so suitable for different occasions, and I was quite thrilled with approbation received when I got home.

By this time, having failed to find a yellow blouse for which Moreen was searching, we decided to adjourn for lunch, after which we had arranged to meet Eileen and Dorothy, my two fellow-typists.  Whilst waiting for them Moreen and I slipped into a milk bar to enjoy the long anticipated ice-cream.

Then we all got together again, and caught a train to Kew, in Surrey.  Here we spent the afternoon wandering round the Royal Kew Gardens. It was rather too early to appreciate it, as later in the month there will be masses of wild bluebells, and bushes and bushes of rhodedendrons.  At present the daffodils and narcissi are flowering in wild profusion amongst the trees, and it’s lovely.  We were disappointed by the pagoda which we mistook for a water-tower.  I looked up the “peach tree in blossom” on the plan of the gardens, but was rather disappointed with it.  The blossoms were rather small and white – or maybe I got the wrong tree!

Moreen and I dashed off back to Liverpool Street to catch the 5.22, leaving the other two girls there, and so on to Longs.  Of course, I had to wear my new dress, and let my hair down; if only you could have been there it would have been fun.

I stayed with Moreen over the weekend, and on Sunday evening went down to the dance at the Red Cross club. Then on Monday we spent most of  the day at the Gymkhana or horse-show, with Pat and Moreen.  It was quite fun, but I had to leave early as Kath and I were on duty at the Fire station.

On Tuesday it was back to work again – I was quite glad, because I like work.  But we have been terribly busy this week as we are short staffed.

I was beginning to wonder what had happened to my mail, but yesterday I received your letter of the 17th March.  I am sorry my letters don’t get through very well. It’s nicer to receive them evenly spaced, as it seems a long time between batches.

Do you remember telling me you had read on article called “American husbands are so sweet”?, but that after consideration you decided it was not necessary to send me such a build-up. Evidently Roland has different ideas, for he cut it out and sent it along to Moreen.  Of course, I was allowed to read it, too.

Roland also sends the Coronet along to her, and between that and the Digest, we really do begin to appreciate American humour.  It’s slick and subtle.  Moreen says Roland is the only one in his hut who can laugh at an English programme on the radio, and I suppose our national sense of humour does vary somewhat from yours.

One story in the Coronet  which amused me was about a boy from California (and naturally very proud of the fact) who died and went to Heaven.  At the gates Peter greeted him with “Come in and look around. But you won’t like it.”

I do hope, darling, that you can get Sgt. Harkabus back in your crew.  It would be nice for both of you, and I’ll feel much happier if I know you have a good gunner.  I’ll keep my fingers crossed.

I shiver when I read how you are swimming in Carolina.  It’s gotten real cold here again, almost like mid-winter, not nearly as warm as last spring.

‘Til next time,

With love,
Yours,
Joan

April 10 and April 11, 1945

10 April 1945

My Dearest Joan:-

I will start this letter tonight though it is late and it will not be finished untill a later time.

We started school this week . . . it is all the same as we had before going to England last year.  The greatest difference is that there are just two of us instead of six. . .

Goodnight, see you tomorrow.

 11. April

The past two days have been rather busy and quite cluttered with some of the things that will be our job for the next three months.

Your last two letters were very nice, in fact, they make me feel as though there was very deffinitely a reason for me to do my utmost to end this war and return to a normal life in which we can be together.

You mentioned the small mark on my forehead . . . . . I am a bit superstitious about it, and it was rather flattering to have you notice it.  I’m quite sure that you could tell us apart because there is really little reason to be confused . . dressed in identical clothes, at a distance there is some chance – – but why should we be concerned about that . . . I think you will be able to distinguish which is which at ranges which would be of any consequence.  Probably you will agree with us that any confusion is silly.

I’m not sure how much you know of the way I think of you – or how I feel . . that is about the details . . the little things, like finances, clothes, whether to buy something or to do with out it . . . Many of the things we did together were very indicative of your tastes, and the unconscious analysing of you during them had convinced me that those little things are all just as I like them.  You have a mind of your own . . yet you can agree with me when my vanity demands it . . It is just a principle of psychology; to gain favor with any person it is only necessary to flatter them or compliment them.  The more sincerely that is done the more effective it is – – My vocabulary is too limited to tell you just the way you seem to me . . . . maybe you can get some measure of what I mean when I say . . I love you . . . though it may seem strange . . I feel almost as thought you were my wife already, that we were just waiting for this war to end so that we can be together again.

With that thought I bid you good night.

love,
Harold.

April 15, 1945

15, April 1945

Dearest Joan:-

Tonight as I write to you there is no chance for me to forget the thing that I want most to tell you.

President Roosevelt has been laid to rest . . . Another man has been given the task of leading the American people.  Perhaps you are hearing quite a bit about that fact . . . There might be some doubt abroad about how well the American people will take to the new leader . . . .

The world can rest assured that the American people will be the least affected by this change, of any of the peoples of the world.

Perhaps you can remember when the anouncement came from London, “the King is Dead, Long live the King”.  The spirit that is behind that anouncement is the spirit that was in the American mind . . . our form of government makes it a bit out of place to chant, “The President is Dead,” “Long Live the President”.  However the greatest effect that will be seen on the American people, will be that they will fight harder because, there has been something to wake them out of the complacence that has grown up on them with the continued success of the Allied Armed Forces.

Perhaps you recall that last November my support was with Roosevelt’s opponent – -when the election was over, our support was 100% behind Roosevelt . . . . We all greive for him, but we do not stop our war efforts more than a moment to pay our respects to him.  Today I stood “on parade” with the rest of the men of Lake Charles A.A.F., and our flag flies at half mast for 30 days . . However we will not miss an hour of school or training to honor our former leader.

Now, about other topics.  The rapid advance of British and American aries across Germany has lead too many people to think that the war is ended . . .it is far from the end . . . just you wait and see.  The Pacific is far from pacific now, and will be for some time . . . Untill it is as quiet as its name emplies I have a job to do and there is going to be nothing that can prevent my doing that job.

Till next time

Good night my Darling,

Harold

April 17, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no.31.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
17th April, 1945

My dear Harold,

The evening sun still strikes very warm, as I sit in the garden to write to you now.  Beside me, the lilac bushes are almost in full bloom, as they were last May when you first came over from Stansted to see us, and at the end of the garden the birds are singing in the trees with that particular “joie de vivre” which belongs to the spring.

The poet write “Oh, to be in England, now that April’s here”, and he must have had in mind a particular spell of weather such as we are enjoying at the moment. For April is a lovely month, but rarely is it accompanied by such wonderful sunshine as now; the blossoms, especially the cherry and the apple-blossom, show to better advantage against a clear blue sky in the sunlight, than in the misty greyness of an April shower.

I feel quite lyrical about the spring; it give one a glorious sense of freedom to go bare-legged again and to wear one’s summer dresses.

Moreen was expecting Roland home on furlough at the end of this week, but as your old squadron has moved to Belgium, his leave has been postponed.

I am glad I waited to get your letter giving me your new address, so now this can go direct to you at Lake Charles.  Does this mean there is no chance now of getting Sgt. Harkabus back in your crew?       Last week I received your letters of 11th March and 21st March, and now I have yours of 31st March and 1st April.

I read your suggestions on money speculation with interest, though I confess I know very little about it.   As far as I can make out, however, on the small amount of capital I have to play around with there is little to be gained.  The rate of interest at present is 2 1/2%, I believe, and if I converted part of the money to dollars, I should be unable to bank it.  Another thing, is the difficulty in getting a G.I. to do it for me, as I don’t think it would be possible for me. I don’t suppose it would be possible to open an account in an American Bank, and for the small amount involved I doubt if they would bother.

I went to Cambridge last Saturday hoping to buy shoes, but I was unlucky.  While we were there we went to see the show “WILSON”, which I thought extremely interesting, depicting as it did the career of President Woodrow Wilson.  It included one or two amusing shots actually filmed during the last war.  Have you seen it?

Moreen and I were going down to the Red Cross club on Sunday, but Red Cross entertainments have been cancelled on account of the President’s death; that was a great shock, wasn’t it?  Everyone here was extremely sorry, and I believe it was the first time our Cabinet had retired in tribute at the passing of a foreign statesman.

Until next time, darling.

With love,
Joan

April 20, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no.32.                                                                                                   Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
20th April, 1945

My dear Harold,

The glorious spring weather has lasted all the week, but whereas when I wrote last the lilac was just beginning to flower, as I sit here again to write it is full in bloom and delicately scenting the evening air.  My horse-chestnut tree, which I proudly grew from a “conker”, is also blooming, and in the hedgerows the may is already out, and April not yet gone.  Everyone except me seems to have heard the cuckoo, so I guess spring must be really here.

This lovely weather encourages one to be lazy, especially as swimming and tennis have not yet begun.  My bicycle of course proves very useful just now, and my chief delight is to wander slowly through the English lanes, appreciating the charm and quiet beauty.

On Wednesday I went as usual to see Moreen, and we went for a long walk. Now that we have double summer-time again the evenings are long.

Last night I went to the Fire station.  It was a glorious evening, and we went out on our Fire engine to a Park where there is a lake.  There we were able to do trailer pump drills, and spent quite a pleasant evening watering the lawns.  We returned to the station to clean up, and left the brasswork glittering.  I forgot to mention before, but I have a souvenir of my Fire Service days to bring with me when I immigrate – that is a cup, which was presented to me by our Company Officer for the most regular attendance at drills for the previous year.  At the moment, there seems no chance of being stood down from the N.F.S. until the war in Europe is finished.

One of the girls in my office wrote to the American Embassy and obtained a form for preliminary application to immigrate to the States.  On this form, amongst other questions, it asks to whom the applicant is going, and the relation to said person.  It was in this connection that I mentioned an engagement because it seemed that this would favour consideration of the application.  I quite agree with you that it is wiser to wait and see how events evolve, before taking this step, but as even a preliminary application to immigrate is at present rather previous, the question does not really arise at the moment.

Please darling, forgive a rather brief letter this week, but maybe by next time I will have more of your letters to answer.

Until then, goodnight and pleasant dreams,

With love,
Joan

April 22, 1945

22 April, 1945

My Dear Joan;

Again a week has passed and no great change has come in the situation here at Lake Charles.

We have been antisapating our first flight in our new air-craft.  We have had quite a wait while our turn was coming around.  At the moment the antisapation is at a peak; tomorrow we are scheduled to take our first ride.

At this moment also the world is looking to San Francisco for the Conference that is soon to meet there.  You spoke of your local Brains Trust; This San Francisco Conference will be a really fine example of a Brains Trust.

My interest in the San Francisco Conference has a double foundation.  People from Arcata dash down to San Francisco almost as frequently as you would go to London.  It is only a few hours by car or train . . . . a few minutes by air; in addition to the fact that San Francisco is almost at home I am particularly interested in the outcome of this war.

In one of your letter you said that your activities might seem trivial to me . . . I don’t know how serious and “heavy” you think activities should be. – . I think your ability to carry on a simple quiet life in the midst of the war has always been a puzzle to me and a reason for admiration . . . A great many people say that I am too serious and that I take the war too much upon myself.  Perhaps you can help me to learn the lighter things of life.  Social activities, (which you mentioned) were almost a nonexistant part of my life.  An occasional movie, a dance on alternate Saturdays . . an occasional lunch or Dinner with one of my brothers . . . .

The problem will be less simple when I return, because there will be two people to consider and every one will be interested in meeting my wife.

Good bye, for now.

I’ll be seeing you

love,
Harold

April 26 and April 27, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter 33.                                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
26th April, 1945

My dearest Harold,

The glorious spring weather, which I described in my letter to you last week, has broken of course.  It gradually got colder, we had several white frosts, to be followed this evening by a dismal, drenching rain.  It’s depressing just to watch it, and it’s of little use to go to the Fire station, so I decided to turn my thoughts to more pleasant things.  And what could be more pleasant than to sit down and write to the one I am always thinking about, so many miles away though he may be.

To be with you again of course, would be best, but I hope perhaps that as I write – bridging the whole Atlantic Ocean which lies between us – you may perhaps turn a thought in my direction, establishing some sort of telepathic communication.

I was so pleased yesterday to receive your letter of the 10th & 11th April, which arrived in quite good time; I hope mine reach you as rapidly.  I was told today at the Post Office that I was unable to send Air-letters to America, but I had previously sent two, which I felt sure you had received.

We are experiencing now a little improvement in the Home front; there has been no enemy activity over this country for some time, and Churchill tells us we may consider the V1 & V2 warfare as over.  On Monday the blackout restrictions were lifted except in certain coastal areas, and now after 5 1/2 years we are permitted to show lights during the hours of darkness.  It’s surprising how few people are taking advantage of this, but perhaps the habits instilled during 5 1/2 years are difficult to drop just like that. I feel myself that the sense of economy which the war has forced upon us, will remain with me for many years after the days of comparitive peace and plenty return.

There’s really very little news this week – on Monday, because it was my birthday, Kathleen and I managed to change our Fire Service duty round, and with Pat and Moreen we went to the show, and saw “Arsenic and Old Lace”.  Moreen’s husband’s leave has been postponed indefinitely and the “Buck” private to whom Pat is engaged has just been transferred to the Infantry and sent to France.  Looks like the girls will keep my company this summer in my “grass-widow” state.

‘Til next time, my darling,

All my love,

Joan

 27th April, 1945

Good morning darling!

At present I can only write this greeting but perhaps one day not too far distant I may actually be able to say it.

I forgot last night to ask about the second member of the “crew”.  Is he an experienced gunner?  I take it that the half-formulated plans regarding Sgt. Harkabus fell through after all, but I hope you have found someone who will take his place.  It’s terribly important he should be a good gunner – I hope he realizes that.  Tell me all about him when you write.

Love,
Joan

P.S. I know the pilot’s good.

April 28, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 34.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
28th April, 1945

My dearest Harold,

I recently heard someone say that the three loveliest words in the English language when spoken in conjunction were “Do you remember?”  There’s something about the softness of the vowels and consenants together, that makes one repeat the phrase.

And when one has repeated it a few times one begins to conjure up all those happy memories one wants to remember.  Do you remember how, almost a year ago, we met at an Officer’s club party?  I had casually dropped in at Moreen’s as I went by, to see if she was going to Longs, and Paul was there, trying to persuade her to go out to the Field that evening. Naturally, her mother was dubious about letting her go, but when Moreen and Paul suggested I should go too, she was quite agreeable.

And thus it was I was talked into going out in a truck with the rest of the girls, to the first party at “Operations” as it came to be known to us.  I was not too keen to go, for as I believe I have said before, I had hardly met any Americans until then, and I wasn’t at all sure of my ability to mix with them.  It was strange, entering that crowded bar – still keeping close to Moreen for moral support – where it was dimly peopled by masses of pinks, and wings, and bars.  Then after several drinks it was rather hazy, and I remember sitting on some-one’s knee, when suddenly a tall lieutenant appeared out of the haze, and stood before us.  It must have been the effect of the gin, for I remember asking if anyone danced around there, to which he replied he had just been about to ask me, finished up Lt. “Chuck’s” whiskey, and propelled me through the crowded bar and out on to the dance-floor.

And that was just the beginning of it.  There are lots of happy memories after that, and now almost a year later, still on a Saturday night, I am writing to the same tall Lieutenant who appeared out of the haze of a crowded bar.  It’s amazing that I managed to create a favourable impression after such a beginning.  But I do hope from that beginning will stem a love that will see us through many years.

There is a passage from an article in my Digest which comes to mind as I write – “and to thank God for the long years we have been permitted to spend together, and love each other. It is  wonderful that our love has grown until our early love seems as nothing compared with the understanding that is ours now.”  It must  be wonderful to be able to look back after many years of married life, and be able to say that.  If we really do take the decisive step one day, I’ll try to keep it so that one day we, too, could say that.

When I asked what my chances were of settling down happily to make my life amongst Americans, you told me that I was sufficiently adaptable to make the necessary adjustments with little difficulty.  When you left eight months ago you thought I was already becoming “Americanised”, and with the prospect before me of possibly becoming an American citizen, I’ve probably become even more so, whilst still living with my English people.  So that when I finally arrive in the States I should soon learn to express myself and behave in the accepted manner.

I am at present reading a book “The Battle is the Pay-off”, written by Ralph Ingersoll, a Captain in the U.S. Army; his descriptions are vividly expressive, and the terms and phrases, typically American, very familiar.  Some American writers have a wonderful command of descriptive  language, which is sometimes rather unexpected.

Reverting to more everyday subjects, I must mention the weather. I believe it’s true that if one can survive the English climate, one can live anywhere. You may recall, in a previous letter, I described the warmth and beauty of an English spring.  I am disillusioned.

The wind is bitterly cold, and each time the clouds gather, heavy and lowering, for an April shower, it has  the impudence to snow !  Worse than this, the ban on central heating is still in force, and I’ve been chilled right through all the week.  And after telling you how grand it was to go bare-legged – I shiver to think of it now!

Well darling, I guess that’s all right now, so ’til we meet again, I’ll be yours with love,

Joan

April 29, 1945

29, April, 1945

My Dear Joan:-

By the time you get this letter you will probably be thinking about a world at peace, already the announcement has come that England is free from the V-bombs.  There is sure to be a change for the better in England as well as the rest of the world when the war with Germany is finished.

The waiting is going to be even harder for you now that the close contact with war has relaxed.  The other half of the world will slowly come to the conclusion that there is still some thing to be done to finish the job before us.

You mentioned the fact that Moreen was planning to come out to the States.  I have wondered how or if she was able to arrange transport and if the situation had improved over what it was when we came home last year.  The business at Millar’s should be greater now that construction materials can be obtained in greater quantities – Perhaps you will find yourself rushed to get all of the work done.

I will risk repetition to tell you a little more about our new aircraft.  It is fast . . I have already seen speeds greater than the 1940 fighters were capable of, and as my experience grows my ability to get more from it will increase.  In a great many ways it reminds me of you. . . It is rather trim and neat – – It has a way of its own but if properly handled it can be made to do what I want her to do.  The old Marauder was more sturdilly built but more cumbersome to handle. . .

You mentioned a shopping spree with Moreen; perhaps you will take me with you on a more extended shopping tour someday . . when there is no necessity to count Ration coupons or to worry what to do for more of them for the next time.  This war has been a great waste of good clothes for the men in the Forces.  All of the fine uniforms that we have are ruined by harsh treatment at the cleaners and they are dragged from place to place so frequently that they are worn to tatters in half the time they should last.

Enough of such – – and things.  Your picture stands before me . . your smile seems to say that nothing could ever be better than it was when that photo was taken.  I would like to keep that smile always as bright . . for there is a little flutter in my heart when ever I let myself really immagine what it will be like when we are together, for meager as they were, the hours we spent together were some of the finest of my life, when we can stretch them to years they will be even better.

Good night, my Darling

Untill next time

love,
Harold

May 4, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no. 35.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND

4th May, 1945

Darling Harold,

I was especially thrilled this week to receive your letter dated 22nd April, which only took nine days to reach me.  Such rapid delivery seems to make the distance between us dwindle into nothingness.

Events in Europe are progressing satisfactorily too.  You know how “stolid” English people are, compared with Americans, but even here all this week there has been an under-current of excitement and anticipation.  The Civil Defence  has been stood down now, but unfortunately not the National Fire Service – we are still “standing by” waiting instructions.

This week too we have been drafting and typing notices and instructions to our various offices and depots all over the country in the event of an announcement being made by Churchill that the war in Europe is officially “finis”, and the shorthand outline for the ‘cessation of hostilities’ has become very familiar to me.  The usually undemonstrative Englishman seems to be getting restless, but I still think it is too soon to get excited about it.

So many people seem to over look the fact that there’s another war to deal with yet, and we’ll have to insist ‘no relaxation of efforts’.

You may tell me I am too optimistic about the present situation in Europe; this is general public opinion, not an expression of a personal opinion.

You said in your letter that many people say you are too serious, and take the war too much upon yourself.  That seems to me to be very true of you.

For myself, I endeavour to keep things in their true perspective, but perhaps on the whole I take life very lightly.  I hope that in this respect we will not clash, but rather help to balance each other.

You spoke of the way in which we carry on under the conditions of war, but when war has been one’s everyday background for over five years, one naturally takes it rather for granted.  It will seem rather unreal when it is over.  You know, darling, man is naturally  a sociable animal and we will have to reach a compromise over that – but don’t worry, I’ll not bother you too much.  I’m not always dashing about – I’ve not been dancing since Easter, and not to the cinema for almost a fortnight.

Til next time,
with my love,

Joan

May 6, 1945

6, May 1945

My Dearest Joan:-

Do you remember that afternoon last summer when we went swimming in the river?  Do you remember the picture that you gave me that afternoon? – – I always carry it with me . . at odd time when I can think of nothing better to do, I look at it – – and talk to you.  The past few days have been just such days as that one when we were together for a few happy hours.  Perhaps another summer will see us together again for a swim in either the same river or some other . . .

The fellows were telling me today that the reason the Jerries have been so anxious to get the war over, was, that word had reached them that this particular group of fellows was on their way and they knew that it would be rather rough on them when they met the guns our new and better “Invaders”.

Today one of the comentators who thinks he is so much smarter than the rest, implied rather strongly that the Japanese were about ready to ask for a truce.  Whether they believe him or not is up to them – – but I don’t think they will. . . . They will have to feel the power of the guns of our “Invaders”.

We are very confident of our new planes and we are very very sure that the enemy will know that we have been there when we meet them.  The “Invader” is a wonderful weapon and we think it is the best yet.

Tomorrow we start a new schedual which gets us in the air rather early . . so perhaps it would be a good idea for me to get to bed and awake with sufficient energy to give the old crate a good days work.

Goodnight, my Darling . . untill next time
with my love,

Harold

May 8, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no: 36.                                                                                                  Sawbridgeworth
Herts.
ENGLAND
VE. DAY.

8th May, 1945

My dear Harold,

Today dawned a bright May morning, a day we have waited for for a long time.  Only a few hours after I received your rather pessimistic letter of the 15th April we heard officially that unconditional surrender of the German people had been accepted by the Allies.  Today is to be held as a public holiday, and this afternoon the Prime Minister will make his Statement in the House.

I think now you will agree, in view of present events that your anticipation that there would still be signs of resistance by Germany in November, was unduly pessimistic.

Moreen, Kathleen and I were grouped around the radio when the unofficial reports were confirmed in the 9 o’clock news bulletin.  All three of us wished we had our men with us at that moment, I could tell.

For a week now the usually undemonstrative, unemotional English people have been waiting for this news, and there are varying opinions as to how a declaration of peace should be celebrated.  Last night we could see the glow of London, for the first time since Jerry bombed it into flames, and by this morning’s newspapers they certainly “let their hair down”, and made a night of it. I can imagine that the American people really went wild!   So far yet all I have been conscious of is a profound relief and sense of thanksgiving.  There strikes me too, a sense of pathos. Amidst that “teeming mass of jubilation” in Piccadilly last night many must have been drowning their sorrows.  Also, those boys still fighting out in the Japanese war are not yet able to celebrate with their folks back home.

I sincerely hope that your forecast of a prolonged Japanese war is erroneous, and that before the end of this year we shall really be able to celebrate peace and be able to start putting the world right.  Now I am going over to collect Moreen, and we shall then attend the Thanksgiving service.

God bless and keep you safe,
Love,

Joan

May 13, 1945

13 May 1945

My Dearest:-

The past few days have been more and more a reminder that you are always a part of my life.  Last Tuesday when our own Broadcast system relayed a brief BBC broadcast and the very british voice of the anouncer followed by the usual music of BBC came through our radio my pulse beat stronger . . for a few minutes I was back at Stanstead in the hut with Lt. Hays & the others . . for those few minutes you were just over the hill . . my bicycle was just outside the door.  Now, perhaps sooner than we had thought possible you may be able to secure permission to migrate to the U.S.A.  The war in Europe is technically over and the flow of men from Europe to the Pacific will soon begin.  Many men will have leave and many will come home . . perhaps England will return rapidly to a normal life, as you mentioned a frugal life becomes a habit and the simple pleasures that have been sufficient for so many years are really the best.  I think you will find the same kind of life in Arcata, California when you get there.

Darling, once before we spoke of an engagement . . . I hope you will understand what I am going to say now . . . In my heart, where it really counts, I have been engaged to you ever since the night last summer when I finally gathered sufficient courage to stumble through the few words in which I so inadequately told you, that I loved you . . . The formalities of anouncing to varrious and sundry persons that between us there is a mutual desire to share the remainder of our lives seems to me to be an anti-climax.  The use of my name on any statement for a “preliminary application to immigrate” would not be falcification . . . In fact after a little more thought on the subject I think that from my point of view it would be very good to have a Fiance . . . Though it is almost as clumsy and not at all what it should be . . perhaps you could be influenced to consider this letter as a formal proposal of marriage . . Perhaps you would like me to say it in so many words. . . . . Quote, “Joan, my Darling, will you marry me.”. to wit will you do me the honor to become my wife”

I don’t know how long it will take for all of the arrangements to be taken care of, to enable you to get to the States.  If it is possible it would be better if you could arrive after I return from the Pacific war, however if you find it possible or necessary to come sooner you could with out a doubt find santuary with my mother and/or you could find a job to occupy your time untill such time as I return.  I am possibly getting a bit previous about these suggestions . . I will await your answer before trying to make any further plans.

With love

Harold

May 15, 1945

“Talma”
Sheering Mill Road.
Letter no: 37                                                                                     Sawbridgeworth,   Herts.
ENGLAND

15th May, 1945

My dear Harold,

It’s a week now since official V-day in Europe.  I’m afraid I was not among the people who entered into the celebrations with great enthusiasm for I still maintained I would really go to town when the war was over and complete victory ours.  I am still optimistic about the Pacific war, though I guess the Japs will fight to the bitter end, and it may hang on for some time longer.

On VE night people all over England went really wild with delight; I have great sympathy with the Londoners who have borne so much in the last five years – it must be a wonderful relief to them to know that at last they are safe from all attacks by air.  They had a pretty rough time.  But a great many people, I felt, just wanted an excuse for a “binge”.

All the streets of course are still decorated with flags and bunting; on VE night itself there were bonfires, fireworks and floodlights, all peace-time memories revived.  A grand searchlight display went up over London, and after the King’s speech a . . . – signal was given by the saluting guns.  For the first time since the terrible air raid fires of 1940, London glowed red against the sky.

In the evening I went into town with Kath and her boyfriend to have a look round: –  there was a huge bonfire behind the Red Cross club, and fireworks and floodlighting in the Castle Gardens (Park to you). On the concrete carpark in front of the Red Cross, couples danced with the Stars and Stripes and other flags fluttering above.

Watching these English people let themselves go, I wondered how the people back in the States were taking the news.  I suppose to England, this is really her war, and the Japs are merely a sideline with which we are going to help.  This is what really affects us most, but to a great many of us the war is not yet won.  I’ll wait to hang the flag out when you’re on your way home again.

There’s a lot of little things that seem strange now.  I’d forgotten that telephone boxes were illuminated after dark, and that many public houses had an illuminated sign.  There seems such an abundance of light!  I rather liked the blackout though – it was cosy.

They made last Wednesday a public holiday too, and Kath and I went out cycling.  But returning to work on Thursday we seemed busier than ever, making up for lost time.

On Saturday I went out across country with a girl in the office to collect the cutest little puppie you ever saw.  It was quite a journey to get there; we had to bus to Bishop’s Stortford, bus about  50 mins ride to Buntingford and then had to hire a car to get to Burkland Rectory where the vicar’s wife breeds puppies.  This little fellow was so small we had to carry him, and it was so hot.

Talking of weather, this climate is enough to kill anybody.  In the last week or so the temperature has varied so considerably that while at one time there was snow on the may-blossom (a most peculiar, and really laughable sight), a few days later it was so hot everyone was heading for the swimming pool.  I had not quite arrived when the temperature dropped again.  Just now, I’m hoping it will stay fine, for the coming weekend is Whitsun and Moreen and I have arranged to spend the weekend at Windsor, going straight from the office on Saturday.

Last night Moreen and I went to the show.  The film was “Mrs. Parkington” with Greer Garson and Walter Pidgeon, and we enjoyed it.  She does not know now whether her husband will get any leave in England, or ship straight out to the States or the Pacific.

‘Til we meet again,
With my love darling,
Yours,

Joan

May 20, 1945 (2)

.”The Old House Hotel”,
Windsor,
Letter no. 38.                                                              Berks.
ENGLAND

20th May, 1945

My dear Harold,

This morning as I write to you Moreen and I are sitting in the garden of a hotel in Windsor, built by Sir Christopher Wren in 1665; the garden overlooks the river. On one side is a bridge – on the other side one can look right the river until it bends and is lost between the trees.  A pleasure launch has just passed – looking very gay and holidayfied.  All manner of craft pass constantly by, and all the time very royal-looking swans go up and down the river.

This is a lovely place.  If ever we do go sightseeing in England with our grandchildren, as you once suggested we should really bring them here.  Windsor Castle is magnificent and impressive, especially viewed from Long Walk, down which, as yet, Moreen and I have not ventured.  The town itself is quaint – dear little shops, old buildings, some so irregular as to appear intoxicated.  The Parks here, too are lovely.  We arrived down here from London yesterday afternoon, and do not have to return to Bishop’s Stortford until tomorrow afternoon.  Whitsun provides us with a long weekend.

We arrived and settled in last evening, then after dinner went out to walk around.  Now I am passing the interval between breakfast and church to write my usual weekly letter to you.  I had intended to write in pencil, but found pen and ink in the lounge, which I smuggled out into the garden.  If anyone else wants to write letters this morning, it will be just hard luck.

You should be here now.  The garden is scented with wonderful roses; it’s peaceful and quiet. We are planning a trip down the river to Maidenhead but like so many of our plans it may not materialize.

Do you remember Whitsun last year?  It was so hot – you went swimming, and on the Monday we went to see the Punch and Judy show in the Park, and then to the baseball.  It’s not nearly so hot this year; at the present it is cloudy, but I don’t think it will rain.

On Thursday, I received your letter of the 29th April; by now of course the celebrating has sobered down, and general thought is returning to final victory.  Won’t that be wonderful?

I had a letter from one of the girls who married a G.I. from California, and she was discussing her husband’s demobolization, and the number of points he possessed.  How does this point system work?  Being single I guess your points are low, though of course I suppose the missions count in your favour.

I’ve never heard any more from Tommie, – I guess he’s out now.  Does he write to you?

You spoke about Moreen’s trip to the States and the position of transport.   It seems one has to apply three months in advance, and then go when told; but I believe the position just now is difficult.  As a matter of fact, Moreen has made no move yet to apply and I rather think she is putting it off.  She’s so young, and it is rather hard to leave home, I imagine.

We’re off to St. Georges Chapel, Windsor Castle, now, so goodbye, my darling.

Love,

Joan

May 20, 1945

20, May, 1945

My dearest Joan:-

Although it seems but half that long it has been a week since I last wrote to you . . . There is never any change here never any thing new to write about . . Except an occasional little mixup that I have with some of the regulations here.  Last week “they” threatened me with disciplinary action but changed their mind and take it out by assigning me an aircraft as far from our ops shack as they can so that we walk a mile with our equipment before getting in the plane.

About my gunner:- – He is rather new at the game, one of his first rides in a plane was with me when we were “checked out” in the A-26.  He was placed on “Flying Status” just before he came to this field.  He is one of the better members of the class.  What he lacks in experience he will make up in willingness to work and learn.  We have just started our training together and I think he will be able to do his job well . . not as well as Sgt. Harkabus; – but well enough to bring us home if the pilot is good enough to get us back.

Incidentally, wasn’t it about a year ago that you first appeared on the scene at the Operations Party out at the camp.  That was a fateful evening in the life of one Second Lieutenant of the A.A.F.

Some of the fellows are wanting to go to the show tonight so I’ll write more tonight when we get back from the show.

Hello! We are back.  It was a pretty good Comedy-Romance.  Ida Lupino was the whole show, but pretty good.  The fellows all had a good time.

Some of the fellows are rather curious about “my Limey Girl”.  They all want to see the picture that I have . . . They think it rather a curiosity to see the letters that come with the British postage. – . They first became aware of them the week that six came in one week . . .

Lt Hughes a Philadelphia boy asked me to give you his regards.  Flight Officer Kozomian, and Lt. Binter often ask about you.

There have been no letters for this week but some of the older ones are good enough to reread . . in fact some of them are good enough to read a dozen times or more.

When I started this page I had an idea what I was going to write on it but some of the fellows got to arguing and now the air is full of loud noises and angry voices so I guess I’ll have to let this page go only partly used.

Some of the fellows are just returning from a Sunday afternoon ride over to Alabama . . Its only about 450 miles and they went over this morning went to church, had lunch and came back.  Each week there is to be two of them go some place or other for the day. . my turn will come eventually  However, there is a limit of 500 miles from this field, that means there will be no chance for me to get home.  My gunner is from Washington so we are forgetting the idea of getting home on our cross-country.

Well. . Good night, My Darling.
love

Harold

May 26, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 39.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

26th May, 1945

My darling,

I believe it is somewhat unusual to receive and reply to a proposal of marriage by post, though it does rather give one a chance to collect one’s thoughts and avoids that “Darling, this is so sudden!” attitude.

We have, for some time, been discussing the possibility of our marriage after the war so that your letter was not such a surprise.  Nevertheless, I was very thrilled.

Your letter was rather a formality, for I think you know my feelings on the subject.  I am fully prepared to come out to America with the intention of becoming your wife, and now that I have your permission I shall file my preliminary application as your fiancée.  It may be necessary, as I think it will, for you to furnish an affidavit stating you are engaged to me and that you are in a position to state I should not be an encumberance on the State.  However, in due course, when I have communicated with the American Embassy in London, I will let you know exactly what is required.  First of all, I shall have to obtain a preliminary application form for permission to immigrate to the U.S.A., and give your name.  For this purpose, will your home address be Arcata or Arroyo Grande?

In so far as this, darling, we might consider ourselves engaged, although the final decision cannot really reached until we meet again.  A little courtship might be desirable before we decide to get married.

By the way, have you yet mentioned me to any of your family?  You can’t have a fiancée turn up unexpectedly from England without some warning.

It is extremely unlikely that I shall be able to arrive in America before you return from the Pacific war, I guess.  Things in England will take a long time to return to normal, and there is likely to be control over employment for some time yet.  At the moment I am still under the Essential Works Order and unable to obtain a release; unfortunately we cannot tell how long the Pacific war will last nor how long it will take to make arrangements for my journey to the States.

I understand that the position of engaged couples will be considered individually by the Embassy.  I doubt if it will be encouraged, and they might make things difficult, for no doubt a number of girls would make the trip to the States and back, if it were too easy; and there is a quota system to study.  Also married girls will doubtless have priority as regards transport.

I would prefer to arrive in the States when you return home, because I’ll need you there to help me.  There’ll be lots to learn, and I would rather you showed me round.

What plans have you got?  You ended your letter by saying you would make no further plans until you had my answer.  Where shall we be married, and how?  I would, of course, have liked it to be in England even though the rest of my life was spent away, but it seems that was not to be.  All my own people will be so far away then – and Moreen.

Moreen’s husband came home from Belgium on Wednesday – flew over for seven days.  She has made no move to get to the States yet, I’m afraid the glamor is wearing thin.  She’s so very young and impulsive, I do hope her marriage turns out successfully.  I do sometimes wish I could instil a little of my cautiousness into her.

Last weekend I wrote to you from Windsor, Berkshire.

Moreen and I enjoyed our weekend very much, with the thought behind it all that we shall be leaving England as soon as possible we appreciate her loveliness more than those who have the rest of their lives to spend here.  I don’t doubt that California is bigger, better and more beautiful, consequently, I should be even happier there than here.  But I guess I’ll be happy where-ever we decide to spend our lives.

Do you ever try to picture how it will be to meet again?  It’s nine months since you left me with “I’ll be seeing you”.  To quote Shakespeare- “Parting is such sweet sorrow, ’til we meet on the morrow” – our morrow may be far ahead, but darling, I’m still waiting patiently.

‘Til next time,
With love,

Joan

(This letter contained a small newspaper clipping. It says: TRAVEL  One control which, far from being relaxed, is going to be tightened in America, is travel restriction.  They are going to put teeth into the slogan “Is your journey really necessary?” because nearly 3,000,000 troops must be transported across America in the next  ten months and vast freight loads for the Pacific war must go by rail)

May 29, 1945

29 May 1945

My Darling:

This weeks letter is two full days behind schedule but I will write it while still aglow from reading two of your letters.  Much as I like your letters when they come, these two are extra nice and coming as they do at the end of a long day of work they brighten the whole world for a while.  Last year on Whit Sunday if my memory serves me right there was a holiday atmosphere around Bishop’s Stortford and Castle Gardens was festive. . . we were getting better acquainted and enjoying each others company more each time we met . . . now all I have is the feeling that we have always known, each other that our love has been the nice warm feeling inside me always.  My command of words seems to be so inadequate to discribe the sense of longing to be with you and yet the happiness that never fades just knowing that you are there that some day there will be an end to all this and we can do what we want to do for a few years.  That certainly will enclude an early reunion with my heart that still dashes about an English country side on wheels, and dances at Longs on Saturday night . . . a little more distant in the past and in the future are years in California with similar pleasures – – Dancing, swimming, driving, tennis, but most pleasant of all, just being together in the things we do, and sharing our enjoyment of them.

Sunday was my turn to be “Airdrome Officer,” it is a 24 hour duty that is not too unpleasant except that regular duties are resumed immediately when the tour of duty ends.  That means about 36 hours without seeing your bed or having time to really have a friendly chat with water and soap . . . So when my day of school ended yesterday all thought of any thing except sleep was out of the question.  I had the good fortune to meet a transport plane loaded with wounded that came direct from England.  They were spending the night in our hospital, their second night out of England and they seemed pleased to be back on American soil.

I have forgotten whether I mentioned it or not . . two more of my brothers are in service now . . One in infantry the other in anti-aircraft artillery.  They both hope that their children will be sufficient to keep them on continental duty or secure their release now that -V-E day is passed.  I don’t think they have been in service long enough to be considered but they may be happier, hoping than they would be if they were told that there was no chance.  Marion, who is in infantry has been training about 20 miles from Arroyo Grande and about 200 miles from home . . he has been able to get home some weekends and has spent other Sundays with the folks in Arroyo Grande.  Earl has been sent to Texas and probably will not get home for some time if he gets home at all before going to the Pacific. .

Good night, Darling, I’ll be seeing you,
love

Harold

May 31, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 40.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

31st May, 1945

My dearest one,

Right now, words are inadequate to convey how much I’m still missing you and needing you.  I’d give anything to be there beside you, to see you, hear your voice; and I’d be happy just to sit and hold hands.  Words would be unnecessary then, but for the time being there’s still a vast expanse of land and water to be bridged, and I have to try to convey my need for you in a letter.

The happy memories of last summer are so clearly imprinted on my mind so that the nine months between now and then seem comparitively short; somehow the intervening events from day to day do not seem to have registered.  As you remembered in your letter it is now over a year since that fateful party at Operations where we met.  Little did I dream that a year later I would still be writing to the Lieutenant with whom I was rash enough to make a date on his next day off!

Your letter received today – dated the 20th –  brought you very close again to me.  When you wrote that I was writing to you from Windsor, where Moreen and I spent Whitsun.  I guess you don’t realize how often your letters to me are read and re-read, until I almost  know them by heart; but I didn’t think my letters could stand more than one perusal – they always seem so inadequate to me.  There’s so little one has to write about; life goes on from day to day in the usual way.

Thank Lt. Hughes for his regards which are heartily reciprocated; and when the fellows ask again tell them I’m fine and I’d like the pleasure of meeting them.  I knew a number of that crazy squadron – 497th –  and I can hardly picture you without Lt. Hayes, Harrison, Thompson, Captain Mac, and about three Bdr Macs. – and that Lt. who was from the Wabash, and who, I have always been convinced, was responsible for the disappearance of that “little grey rabbit”.

By the way, talking of that rabbit – the hedges are full of pale pink wild dog-roses now, and I’ll always associate them with the party at the field, when we made our unsuccessful search for that elusive rabbit.  Oh, darling, life was fun, wasn’t it?

You know, I’ve often wondered about your sense of humor – you do always take things very seriously, don’t you?

Do you remember -(returning to the subject of our engagement) that you once postponed the subject because you thought I ought to wait and discover my reactions to Englishmen.  So I took the opportunity this week of going to a dance at Longs which was arranged by the local troops welfare movement for the sole benefit of my fellow-countrymen; I wanted to study my reactions to Limey men.

I’m not trying to flatter your ego, my darling, but to be perfectly candid – I’m more than ever in favour of an American husband.  I found it really hard work to carry on a conversation with any of the men I danced with – I am afraid that girls who have fraternized with our Allies, the G.I.s, are going to find it extremely difficult to mix again with Englishmen.  I wouldn’t run them down, but Americans are just easier to know.  The strange thing to me is that American men seem to like English girls – there must be some reason for this.  I seems so general – not just individual cases.  What’s your opinion?  I wouldn’t change my American fiancé for any one other man I’ve seen yet – hope he feels that way about me!  I expect by now you have had plenty of opportunity to study your countrywomen.  This intermarriage might even, in time, lead to international peace.  Anyway I understand there are 20,000 British wives of G.I.s, and I figure there must be as many again who are engaged to be married.  One of the girls in my office – another Joan – is going up to the Embassy with her fiancé on Monday, so I may get some first-hand information on the subject.

I’ve not broken the news of our engagement to anyone yet – thought I’d better wait ’til you gave me permission.

I went to see the show “Wilson” again last night.  You may remember I mentioned seeing it in Cambridge, but Kath wanted to go last night, and I think I enjoyed it even better the second time.  It’s a good film.

Our N.F.S. activities are practically through now.  Last Sunday we attended a very impressive stand-down parade at Hertford, and after the unfurling of the flag we were induced to listen to a farewell – oh, very pathetic – speech by our Divisional officer; after which we were inspected, and then marched round the streets, watched by an admiring crowd. (At least, we take it that was their opinion)  The only thing that spoilt this latter part of the ceremony was an unexpected rain and hail-storm, but undaunted we carried on, so that we arrived back at the rendezvous fire station a sadly bedraggled and dampened contingent of fire-fighters.  However, most of my memories of Fire Service are connected with water so I guess it was a fitting ending.

England will gradually return to a peacetime state again.  This weekend the basic petrol allowance (sorry, gas to you) will return and we expect to see a few pre-1939 models back on the highways again.  But there’s no hope of improvement in other forms of rationing yet.

Moreen brought Roland over to tea last Sunday; he was due to return to Belgium today, but it doesn’t look good flying weather to me.  They have spent a few days  at Windsor, but I expect their honeymoon has gone very quickly.  Have you any plans for a honeymoon yet, darling?

Do you remember the Corporal I had to ditch on that eventful evening last summer?  Roland has seen him in Belgium, and he tells me that Vince has met a Belgian girl, who is also a Catholic, and whom he wants to marry.  These G.I.s marry anywhere, don’t they?  Some of the boys in Roland’s hut have married French girls, too.

By the way, has Tommie written? I’ve not heard from him for some time now.   I wonder how he is.

I think perhaps I’ve rambled enough for one letter, so ’til next time, all my love, dearest,

Joan

June 3, 1945

3 June 1945

My Dearest Joan:-

June is here with the regular June weather here being, very hot days and nights just enough cooler to permit fitful sleep.  Perhaps I will melt and become a spot of grease on the pavement before the summer is gone.  I mention the weather because it is just one more reason for wishing I were home or in England.  Both are far more comfortable than Louisiana, and when I think of being in either place I think of having you beside me.

Our training here is nearly half finished now; As near as we are able to determine we will get a short leave home at the completion of our training then we will returne here for a short “refresher course” and to await assignment to a shipment.

Once you asked about American music.  Today we had a band concert by our own band.  Some of the music was very old millitary marches, some more modern American music.  Much of the popular music used in England is of American origin.  The old masters; Bach, Wagner, etc are used for the very heavy music, the lighter works of Straus, Tchovsky, are used very much . . . We have a great number of American composers, Steven Foster, Irving Berlin and other more modern.  As for music appreciation is concerned I think Americans and Englishmen are very much alike.  Perhaps I am a little conservative, I don’t like to change as rapidly as the modern dance music changes but I like some of the heavier modern music . . Perhaps some day you will see just how we listen- to our concerts, opera, etc.  Just now I asked one of the fellows who composed, “The Flight of the Bumblebee”, there toutching off a discussion of all of the works of the old and modern composers . . “The Nutcracker Suit”, various piano concertos as well as opera and music in general, but I never got an answer to my question.

Good night, my Darling

love
Harold

June 10, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 41.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

10th June, 1945

My darling,

This distance between us now seems far less than at first, for most of your letters are arriving in nine days; on Thursday  I was thrilled to receive yours dated the 30th May.

Reading your letter, I think I understand how you feel about this love we share – I look at it rather the same way.  The popular conception of love seems to be  “without the loved one, life is dull and grey”, and I feel those people who see it that way are missing so much.  It’s true life would be much better if we were together, but the very knowledge that one loves and is loved, and that the day will inevitably come when we share the fullness of love, tends to brighten an existence that might otherwise be cheerless and dull.   Perhaps that’s why I can’t see eye to eye with the girl with whom I work, because she is only happy when she has her husband home.  As they have only shared one week of married life in March, since before D-day last year, you can imagine she’s rarely happy.  I could ramble on about this particular girl for pages, because she’s one of my most interesting psychological studies.

I have written the first letter to the American Embassy, to get things started.  When they reply I should get my preliminary application form.  On this application I shall have to fill in my total monetary resources.  When I work it out, it doesn’t look so good – at the moment its about  £160, which isn’t a great deal.  Still, this country doesn’t give one a chance.  I’m paid about £3/5/0 a week, out of which they immediately deduct 10/-d income tax.  By the way, does one have to pay one’s own doctor’s bills in the States?  Here we have a system whereby we pay National Health insurance each week, which is compulsory, and the doctor is paid a nominal sum for each of his Panel patients.  Of course, he still has his private patients apart from this.

In a few weeks time we shall be having a General Election in this country. I’m hoping I’m down on the Electoral roll; though I’m rather disappointed that our particular division is doing so little campaigning.  So far I’ve not even found out which parties are putting up members for this division.  Still, it should be quite exciting – I’m looking forward to it.

England had its first “peace-time” Derby since 1939 yesterday; this town is on the main London/Newmarket road and consequently was choc-a-bloc with private cars yesterday, which manage amazingly on their basic ration of gas.

I’ve been having a quiet week, so there is very little to write and tell you today.  We didn’t do a show at all during the week, though the previous Saturday Moreen, Pat and I went to see “An American Romance”, which was quite good.  Too much molten steel in it, though.

I do hope your brothers’ optimism is justified.  One of the family fighting Japs will be quite enough.  If I remember correctly, Marion is the brother who was in the Postal Service at Pasadena and Earl the one I might confuse with you, but only at a distance.

Last evening Moreen and I went with Kath and her boyfriend Jack, for a drive on the basic ration.  It was a good way of appreciating the English countryside, more especially as it was too windy to cycle far.  This English weather is beyond a joke.   I’m usually amused by its whimsies, but here it is, well into June and I’m still waiting for tennis and swimming.

Moreen will be over soon so I’d better say goodbye, dearest, and til next time.

All my love,

Joan

June 12, 1945

12 June 1945

My Dear Joan:-

Another busy week has slipped by with nothing of moment to set it aside from any other such week.  Unless perhaps you would consider the arrival of a letter from England as momentus.

You asked about my plans, there are really two completely different plans running through my mind one is the things that I would like to do altered slightly where it runs counter to your wishes – – the other is the plan that we will be able to make work – – rather I should say the things that can be done with the least effort and expense – –

The final details will be a compromise between the two.  What I would like most is to arive in England with nothing to prevent my staying however long it required for you to be sure that you wanted to marry me, and make the necessary arrangements to get that rite performed . . . Like you I think I would prefer a church wedding . . although no very definite details of such things are a part of my thinking . . . it just seems to be left up to you to arrange. .

Then after that a liesurely voyage to the States via your favorite parts of England, and possibly Paris . . Then New York and on to Arcata . . Taking some of the beauty spots of America in stride as we went . .

However, at the other extreme will come a very different story . . . Which might run something like this: – When you have decided that you are ready to come to America, you would start out alone or with some other girl who has similar plans . . I might be able to meet you in San Francisco, or Chicago, or possibly even in New York . . .

Depending upon the length of time I can take and the financial situation at the time we might make the trip to California a “honeymoon”.  As a part of the “quick plan” you would be alowed very little time to enjoy courtship . . However . . the idea of an extended courtship seems rather impractical from several standpoints.  Furthermore, as I see it, the wedding just marks the official beginning of the courtship.  True enough it is quite a task to convince two people at the same time that they should become man & wife but once a man is convinced, he is usually a willing victim and bends to the task of courting the girl of his choice.

As I said before . . every thing will have to be a compromise between what we would like and what we can get.  When we get a chance to do any thing about our plans at all.  If you can decide how you would like to have things, and we will try to get as near to that as conditions will permit.  In as much as you are at that end of the line you will have to take care of the arrangements there.

Enough of that for now, I might mention my chief objection to waiting too long to get married once the war is over and we can get together – – – it is a peculiar little thing about human nature . . when a fellow loves a girl he wants to be with her as much as possible . . and . . that is more than just an evening now and then.

You asked if I had mentioned you to any of my family.  The arrival of your letters at Arroyo Grande were sufficient to make known the fact that you were in existance . . . I had not kept it a secret that I was a little more than “Interested” in you – – however I haven’t mentioned you as a Fiancé . . just a prospective Fiancé . . Now however I will have to tell them that I think I have you captured and explain the rudaments of our plans.  Never fear . . when you arrive you will be expected and well recieved . . . After all, you will be recieved by experts . . you remember I am the last single member of a family of twelve . . . my mother has been meeting wives, husbands, and “prospectives” for over twenty years . . . .

Well ’till next time . .

Goodnight, my Darling,
love

Harold

June 17, 1945 (1)

This letter is written on stationery from The Officers’ Club – -Tyndall Field, Panama City, Florida

17 June 1945

My Darling:-

As the weeks become months since we were together, I miss you more and more.  Almost every day something that reminds me of the time we spent together brings the desire to have done with wars and the army and all things that keep us apart . . And then I have but to look at myself and realize that there is still a big job to be done and that I must stay with it till it is finished.  Then and only then will I have earned the right to live in the world of Peace that will follow this greatest of wars.

You asked why American men seemed to prefer English girls.  That is fairly easy to see . . All our life we have spent in being nice to our women – – for the same length of time the women have been the willing recipients of our affectionate care – – however they have become so accustomed to it that they appear to demand even more than they get and though I really think they are unaware of the effect upon the men they seem to lack appreciation of the tender care . . thus it is only natural that when a fellow has a chance to meet a girl who acts naturally, and alows him to see that she appreciates his efforts to please her . . he can do nothing but bask in the luxury of her sincere smile . .

Don’t misunderstand me, American girls are quite as fine as the men and really, (I think) as good as any in the world- – but they are victims of the fact that the male of the species is finding out the extent of his powers . .

The American fellows who marry abroad are just taking advantage of the opportunity to “shop for the best” rather than taking just what there is on hand.  I think you will agree that some girls are better suited to be the wife of some fellows than are others . . instead of being forced to choose from five or six girls of his home town the world roaming G.I. has a chance to see more and get a better bargain.  Personally I think that in the 27 town near which I have been stationed there has been a pretty good representation of the girls that I will meet in my life.  I have made my choice . . . I have bored you with this harangue to show you that in my mind there is little room for doubt . . waiting to see my reaction to American girls was a part of the plan – – (the main reason I didn’t propose formally before leaving England) . . and now I rest with an easy and contented spirit . . . No longer do I serch the world for the one girl who will be my wife . . the die is cast . . the one thing that was missing from my life before is supplied.  To be sure in the years to come you may have reason to doubt that last statement . . “men are such fools” and some times they even act that way . . . That will be a part of your job – to keep foolishness to a minimum and yet alow the little boy that is in all men to have his pranks and his fun.

You wondered about my sense of humor – – I think it is as good as the next fellows . . but it can end abruptly on such things as war and waste.  Some day you will see that fun is just as much a part of my life as anything else . .

Before I run out of paper I had better explain this letter head  . . .

This is the field to which Lt. Hayes, Lt. Harrison, and Lt. Bekwith, were sent when I was sent to Kansas . . today I was given an opertunity to come down here with a plane . . Hoping to find one or all of them still here I came, they are all gone, however, and so – – in about an hour I will fly back to Lake Charles.  Untill next time.

With all my love,

Harold

June 17, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 42.                                                              Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

17th June, 1945

My dearest Harold,

Today promises our first glimpse of summer; as I sit in the garden to write the sun is pleasantly warm.  Much more comfortable, I can imagine, than Louisiana when your letter was written.  But up ’til today it has been unpleasantly cold, dull rainy and windy, and I’m hoping that this change for the better today will be more than a tantalising “flash in the pan”.  I’ve been waiting to play tennis and go swimming – just imagine it’s halfway through June, and it has not been warm enough to swim yet!

In a weeks time Moreen and I will be on holiday at Lewes, in Sussex, about eight miles from the Sea; if the weather will behave  we should get some swimming there.  Last year, following D-day, the water in the English Channel was too oily for swimming, but it should be alright this year.

I think the American Embassy in London must be very busy just now, because they have not yet found time to answer my letter.  Fortunately there is plenty of time to make the necessary arrangements and this is only the beginning.

This week has been quiet; at the office we have been terribly busy, now that we are beginning to export again.  Before I went to Millars’ I was with a firm of Exporting Agents and the very word export seems to hold a fascination for me.

On Monday I went to the show with mother; it was quite good, a little too much Gestapo perhaps, but other wise quite human.

Wednesday Moreen and I cycled out to the lake and the forest; I wouldn’t have dared to take you there, especially after describing them in such magnificent terms.  Neither really deserve their descriptions, but nevertheless it’s a pretty place, peaceful and quiet, where one can laze on the grass beside the water and watch the clouds go by.  We just lazed a little ’til it got rather chilly – it was one of those evenings when the sun made a brief appearance, but the wind was still cold.

We had hoped yesterday, if it had been fine to take a picnic tea out to the forest, but unfortunately it was not.  So I went over to Moreen’s to tea, and then Kath came over too and Moreen talked her into going on to Longs.  I walked down with them, and watched the crowd go in; it’s not a bit like last summer though.  There appeared to be a number of untidy-looking E.M., not the type one would choose to dance with; also a couple of wolfish looking Officers, also of a type one would avoid.  Altogether, the prospect was not enticing so I hoped they would have a good time and left them.  I had a book at home which seemed to me more interesting.

This afternoon I am meeting Moreen and Kath, and maybe if it stays fine we shall be able to have tea out.

Remember your ring, darling?  I often take it out, and place it on my finger where it makes my hand look so ridiculously small.  I do so wish I could wear it, because it reminds me so much of you; but I am afraid it is impossible, except by altering the size of the ring and I don’t want to do that.  I hope that it will not be long before you will be able to wear it again.

I hope by now you have discovered who wrote ‘The Flight of the Bumble Bee’ – I believe it was Rimsky-Korsakov, but no-one seems to be sure.  I like most kinds of music except the heavily classical stuff which needs understanding.

‘Til next time, sweetheart,

Love,

Joan.

June 22, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 43.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

22nd June, 1945

My darling Harold,

It was a wonderful letter I received from you on Monday of this week; a little postwar planning though maybe a little previous, still marvellously upholds morale.  To put it mildly, I was cheered and encouraged by your letter.

As a daydream your first plan was perfect. But neither practical nor probable.  When we get an opportunity to put our plans into operation the details of the latter plan will have to be arranged.  Of course, if possible I would prefer to be met in New York, so that we could enjoy the return trip to California together, but that no doubt will depend on circumstances at the time of my arrival.

Moreen and I have vague plans now about travelling across the Atlantic together; if your desire to marry me as soon as possible after arrival in the States (which is, I suppose more practical) could get you as far as New York, then it would be nice if we could arrange for the ceremony to be performed there, so that Moreen could be present.  She did once suggest we should be married from her home in Windsor, but in the present circumstances it seems unlikely that she will arrive much before I do.

If at the same time we could slip across to Connecticut to see Sheila and Tommie, it would be fun, because it would not be often there would be an opportunity to cross the 3,000 miles to visit friends in New England.

I think I would prefer to be married as soon as reasonably possible, because I’d feel much safer in a strange country with a husband to take care of me.  But, darling, give me time to buy a trouseau in New York, because at the rate they issue clothing coupons in this country I’ll be in desperate need!

As to when we get an opportunity to put plans into practice:- just now, as perhaps you will have seen, the transport situation is very bad.  It has been announced in the papers that it will be at least another ten months before the Americans can use any shipping to transport English wives of G.I.s to the States, and there are 25,000 waiting to go.  At the rate they were transporting wives across before VE day – about 500 a month, I believe, according to the Stars and Stripes, it is a process to take years.  No doubt, in another year’s time the transport position will improve.  These figures do not take into account the number of fiancées, either.  There is probably the same number again who are “engaged” though a great many of them will not hear from their “fiancés” once they have left Merrie England behind.

Pat seems to have been unlucky in this respect.  But only time will prove a lot of these cases.  You and I had very little time together, but we do seem to have a surer foundation on which to  build our love.  Two important elements in love are respect and trust, and here I think we have nothing to fear.

I like to think of this period of separation as a burden which we share – strange though it may sound to share something when we are so far apart.  But the sharing of troubles between two people strengthens the love they have for one another – don’t you agree?

I’m glad you favour a church wedding if possible.  Moreen was married in a Registry Office, and it was not like a wedding ceremony, at all.  All the lovely words there are in a church ceremony were missing; it seems a much more sacred affair when the marriage vows are undertaken in the atmosphere of a church.

Since last Sunday when I wrote the weather here has almost condescended to become summery; its much warmer with longish intermittent periods of sun, and storms that only threaten and never materialise.

June is a sweet-smelling month with hay-making and summer flowers, and its lovely to cycle round the lanes in the evening.  Last Sunday after I had written to you Moreen, Kath and I cycled out to Takely, as you may have noticed by the postmark.  Every evening I seemed to be out.  Monday mother and I went for a ride; Tuesday  I went to the farm to see Kath; on Wednesday Moreen and I went to a political meeting- that was fun; Thursday evening I visited one of the girls in the office, who lives in an outlandish village – So it’s time I spent an evening in.  I thought it best to write to you tonight as tomorrow the Fire Service are holding a Garden Party  in aid of a Memorial Fund, and I’ll be expected to help.  after that I’ll have to do a little packing; then on Sunday Moreen and I are off- to spend a week in Southern England.  So next time I write no doubt I’ll be enlarging on the beauties of Sussex.

Incidentally, I think the American Embassy must be frightfully busy, as I have had no reply to my letter yet.  When Moreen and I are in London on Sunday we may have a chance to drop in at Rainbow Corner and collect some information.  We understand there is a club for wives and fiancées.  By the way, it is possible that civilian passages to the States will be opened – no doubt there will be a long waiting list, but I may be able to get that way while wives are still awaiting army transport.  It’s just a possibility, but I don’t know how the quota system would affect it.  Whilst wives get free transport, I fully expect to have to pay my passage.  Only hope the waiting list is not too long!

Here now we are in the throes of a pre-election, and of course in the circumstances it’s rather an important one, and everyone is taking great interest and getting very heated.  Tonight we had a very comprehensive and clear survey from the Labour party, so that we finished up round the supper table with a lengthy discussion amongst ourselves.  Now I return to my letter it is almost dark.

Til next time, darling.
All my love,

Joan.

June 24, 1945

24 June 1945

Dearest Joan

Today is Sunday and again I went for a ride, this time it was to Texas; San Antonio, Texas, the birth place of the A.A.F.  All pilot training was conducted at San Antonio from 1918 to 1940.  Since then it has been spread all over the Unites States, (pilot training, not San Antonio).

About health insurance in the U.S.  Ours is all optional.  There are several systems in operation.  One of the most popular is operated by most hospitals, where in it is possible to buy a “Hospital ticket” usually for $1. per month (5/) which is health insurance for an entire family . . . another is operated by Fraternal Orders or Lodges for their members and members families . . these are free, or might be considered a part of the membership fee.  One of the best organized of these is the vetrans organization “American Legion”.  The American Legion will have a membership of over 15 million men in the years immediately following this war.

In addition to all of these there is a law requiring any corporation, company or firm with more than 3 employees to contribute to a fund which is a State Insurance Company. . its purpose is to pay a man (or woman) a sum equal to 65% of all earnings lost as a result of an accident or illness incurred on the job . .it also pays for hospitalization and all medical care in such cases and pays a lump sum for permanent disability . . such as loss of a finger, a hand, etc.

While I am discussing some of these things I might as well mention some others . . In American business typests, secretaries and file clerks are paid far more than your ₤3/5/ running from about twice that for the incompetents who do little more than file simple forms- to as much as five times that for the secretary to a company manager – – or in cases where the secretary is almost an assistant manager the pay may be ₤60/0/0 per week.  If you can telephone the bosse’s wife and make excuses for his being late to dinner or save his neck when he forgets an apointment the pay may be even better.

Income tax is about the same % as yours now but will decrease sharply after the war.  normally no income tax would be paid by a person with your present income.

Your General Election is getting big headlines in all of the news now . . . It will be a big factor in the world peace . . The peace terms have not been approved by the present parliment and consequently if the color of the government is changed by the general election there may be repercussions in the world situation.  Just as there may be some changes from our side of the ocean due to differences of policy between Roosevelt and Truman.

To get onto less serious subjects, your weather complaints will just balance mine . . it is far too hot for comfort here in Louisiana . . the people that have time for tennis and swimming have been at it for months, in fact tennis never stops here and swimming usually lasts six months.  Of course in California we swim all year and play tennis any time we are so inclined.  To add to that we have six month of snow sports within an hours drive from Arcata.

Yes, my Darling, we shall learn many ways to play together and the years will pass happily and swiftly, even now while we wait and plan.

Untill next time,
love

Harold.

July 2, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 44.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

2nd July, 1945

My darling,

It was quite a mail-day today –  with your letter came the one I had been expecting from the Embassy, and also Election literature.  Before I deal with the others I want to write to you as I am a little behind schedule.

Yesterday Moreen and I returned from our week’s vacation in Sussex, and today has been spent resettling into the usual routine of the office.  For a week I relaxed and forgot all about work, and it’s marvellous how one returns to it full of fresh energy and enthusiasm.

First, I’d better tell you something about how we spent our holiday.  When I wrote last I told you that I was helping with the N.F.S. Garden Party on the Saturday.  It was a hot day, and the sun blazed down on us.  All the time I stood in charge of my particular sideshow – The Wheel of Fortune collecting warm pennies, I was thinking how wonderful it would be in the swimming-pool.  I made my excuses quite early to avoid the dancing and went home to pack.

On Sunday Moreen and I traveled up to London where we stayed overnight to split our journey and we went on to Lewes, in Sussex, next morning.  It was very hot while we were in London, so that it was as much as we could do to stagger from the Ice-cream parlor to the shade of the trees in Green Park.  When it became cooler in the evening we went along to Hyde Park, where we spent a very amusing and entertaining evening listening to the “soap-box orators”, who vied with each other in collecting congregations of interested spectators.

There were political groups, religious and hymn-singing parties – all of which were being over-ridden by a crowd intent on plain community-singing, for no apparent reason.  Then as it was getting dusk we walked back through London’s streets to our hotel.

We arrived at my aunt’s house next day in time for lunch, and after settling ourselves in went walking over the Downs, and through the quaint old town of Lewes which boasts a castle more or less in ruins and some old cobbled lanes lined with houses dating from the 14th and 15th century.  The South Downs, which run down to the sea in Sussex, are chalky; the contours are wonderful.  There’s not the ruggedness of mountain but a soft rolling outline, and a wonderful light and shadow in the curves.

Having settled in only eight miles from the English Channel, we decided that first of all we must swim.  On Tuesday it became cloudy, but we felt very brave and ventured into the sea at Brighton; on Wednesday it became colder, but we had our swim in the sea, being the only two foolish enough to venture at that particular time; we also took a bus further along the coast to explore another village but found when we arrived that it was early closing day, and that the beach was still closed owing to unexploded mines.  So we stayed long enough to have our ice-cream, and returned to Brighton.

On Thursday we decided to visit Eastbourne, the coastal town in the other direction.  I had not realised the bomb damage that these Southern coastal towns had suffered, but here the evidence was over-whelming.  Moreen and I battled our way along the Front, but for once decided against swimming.  Then it began to rain, and we sought refuge (as women do) in a large store, where we could window-shop to our heart’s content.  I really wanted shoes, but somehow it seemed all quotas were sold.  The ride back in the bus to Lewes was lovely; on the way we passed the “Long Man of Wilmington”- a huge figure carved out on the hillside in the chalk.  He did rather look as though he needed weeding, but he was still plainly visible for miles.

On Friday we did a roundabout trip which was really the lovliest.  We started by catching  a bus to Seaford – a coastal village, where the ice cream is pretty good!  From there, when we had looked around we walked out of the village up to what the local people call Hindover but which on the old map is described as “High and Over”.

Gradually we climbed up away from the sea until, with a suddenness which took our breath away, we were looking down into a lovely wooded valley, in the centre of which stood the old smuggling village of Alfriston, the quaint old houses clustered round the church spire.  Across the  valley rose the softly modulated heights of the downs, and through the valley curved the River Cuckmere, and there by the chalky white cliffs the river widened slightly and flowed into the English Channel.  It was a wonderful picture – a word description cannot do justice to the wonderfully soft coloring, the mingling of light and shade, and the splash of vivid red of a poppy field.  I just wished you could have been there too – I wanted you so much.  We sat in silence for an hour or so, all the time wishing the ones we loved could have been with us to share the beauty of it.

At last we had to tear ourselves away, and we wandered slowly down into the valley, through the picturesque village of Alfriston with its cobbled streets, and famous Star Inn, and on until we came to a well known place called Drusilla’s Tea Barn, where we stayed for tea.  It was grand; lots of old fashioned brass, and willow-plate, and an ingle-nook fire-place.  After tea, with homemade scones and cakes, we walked on, to the main road where we caught a bus back to Lewes.

On Saturday, being almost at the end of our holiday we were persuaded to visit another sea-side village.  It was quaint. We wanted to swim again before we came home, but the sea was too rough.  So we compromised by changing into our swim suits and playing about on the rocks; of course Moreen had to slip on the seaweed and fall in, thereby getting wet all over.  The wind was blowing the sea up in unfriendly waves so we sat at the edge waiting for the tide to come in, only retreating for very violent waves.  But the tide came in so rapidly we had to make a quick withdrawal and dress before we were cut off from the promenade.  Even walking up there we were almost drenched with the salt spray and buffeted by the wind.

How far, incidentally, is Arcata from the sea?  For swimming I prefer fresh water, but the sea is fun and very invigorating.

Unfortunately, on Sunday when we had to return it rained, but we managed to take a walk and tell the Downs goodbye.

Today, I received the form from the Embassy, and when I have completed it I shall feel that I have really begun to get things started – no doubt it will take some time, but even a start means progress.

I don’t know how closely you are following our political situation, nor quite what your country’s attitude is, but it’s drawing rapidly nearer to the Election date.  This will be the first time I have had an opportunity to record a vote.  The trouble with our politics is that we have to choose the party, not the man, and the politicians are deliberately trying to confuse the issue.  This is a bad time to hold an Election in some ways; in other ways it might be a good opportunity. It seems it might be rather a close thing.

Your systems of “Health insurance” are interesting, and I should imagine quite effective.

After reading your letter about the employment of stenographers, etc, it would rather seem I am wasting my time here, wouldn’t it?  But, darling, an efficient secretary doesn’t have to “save the boss’s neck when he forgets an appointment” – she’s there to see he doesn’t forget.  A busy man can’t worry with little things like that – don’t I know?

Normally, in peacetime the majority of English women devote their time to the house and family.  Of course, wartime had upset that a lot, but what is the American angle on the “Career-after-marriage” girl?  I realise that in general you have more labour-saving devices in the home than we have, the lack of which does restrict an English wife’s activities, so that few of them have time to work after marriage.

Also in a small place like Arcata, are there any special activities in which a school teacher’s wife is expected to interest herself?  Could you, some time, sort of roughly outline the life you expect we shall lead, so that I can formulate an idea of what to expect.

Whilst we were in London, I called in at Rainbow Corner to enquire about the Club for wives and fiancées of American service men and was told that we were welcome on the 2nd Tuesday of each month, in the evening.  Unfortunately this is rather impossible.

Must go now darling; I do seem to have rambled an awful lot tonight.

Until next time, all my love.

Joan.

July 9, 1945 (1)

9 July 1945

My Dear Joan:-

Last week you probably missed me . . because I wasn’t there . .

Saturday morning I began a very busy day . . . Two training flights that remained were completed . . bags packed, and erly Sunday morning we all started for home – – where ever that might be . . . personally I chose Arroyo Grande as a closer stop than Arcata and started on the journey.  After almost 2,000 miles and three days . . a very weary body was dragged into the house.

Now with Independence Day past and brothers and sisters back to thier jobs and some of the big crowd gone I find time to write a little to you.  Rest assured that you were not forgotten.  Since this is the first time that I have seen any of the family since making known the extent of our plans . . Every one was curious to know more about you.

Of course the absence of a letter will not be off set by the unusual talk about you.  Perhaps it will be an indication of what you can expect when in a few days we begin our trip to the “theatre of operations”.  Although we will travel quickly the distance that the letters will travel will continue to grow longer; so the letters may be slow to arrive.

As the weeks pass and the war in the Pacific draws nearer to an end both England and America will return to normal . . Transport will be less congested and other important developments will come, to make our problems easier.

Many of the fellows think that we will be busy for more than a year in working on the Jap . . I think that every one will be finished with the job before that long.  About all that is in the news today is continued bombing of Japan and the political developments that are the finishing toutches of the European war.  When the big details are finished some of the little people will be able to get their wishes considered.  In the meantime our love will carry us through.

As a part of our holiday the family that was here went to the “Beach”.  The Pacific Ocean is a very popular point for California holiday fun.  The sand is clean and a wide flat beach that is sometimes used for speed trials for cars makes a wonderful place for games, swimming or just plain sun bathing.  We were fortunate to be able to watch a group of fishermen bring in their catch.  An unusually large run of fish was observed just off shore and two groups of fishermen came with their boats and nets to catch what they could.  The sea birds were present in great numbers . . the wise old pelicans with their huge beaks were the only kind that didn’t get tangled in the nets. – – –

This letter was just interupted for supper and a brief chat with two small nieces who are spending a few days here with their grandmother.  They are 8 and 9 years old and demand every ones attention when they come into the house.  Incidentally they are the daughters of Earl and his twin sister Pearl.

Well, darling, untill next time,

all my love

Harold

July 9, 1945 (2)

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 45.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

9th July, 1945

My darling,

Another week has passed, and at last we are really beginning to enjoy an English summer.  We are dubious about how long it will last, but, however brief, it is nevertheless greatly appreciated while it is here.

Yesterday was a really glorious day.  Moreen and I packed up a picnic lunch and tea and cycled over to the Pool at Latton – do you remember where we swam last year?   After our swim we had lunch and sunbathed, but when the pool began to get rather crowded about the middle of the afternoon we moved further down the river to a quieter spot to have tea.

Apart from swimming I also managed to get a little tennis in at the Club last week, and we shall probably go down there again tomorrow.  The firm runs a Tennis Club, and I managed to get Moreen enroled as a member too.

Last Wednesday being Independence Day we decided we should at least celebrate by going in to Longs, so I went along there with Pat and Moreen and a crowd of girls from the office.  It was quite fun, but almost entirely devoid of men – guess they must have shipped out.  I’ve been to Longs so infrequently recently that I did not notice them go.

Your old squadron is being split up now in France, but Moreen’s husband still does not know where he will be going.

Polling day in our General Election was last Thursday, and of course there were last minute political discussions in the office, and attempts to convert others with the opposite views.  It was quite amusing, because everyone had apparently made up their minds on the subject and had very definite opinions.  The “true-blues” flaunted blue cornflowers, but of course in a Conservative stronghold like our firm I noticed no-one wearing the emblem of the Labour party.

However, by Friday the excitement seemed to have died down, as the results will not be known for several weeks.

I noticed from my diary that this time last year you had just returned from your rest-trip to Scotland, just in time for the usual party in the Officers’ Club at the Field.  Doesn’t really seem a year ago, does it?  But as the months pass it is that much nearer to the time when we can be together again.  My preliminary application to the American Embassy has been made, but I expect it will be a long time before I hear again, as they are very busy.  Still, having made my application I have my name on the files, and when I have been informed of the necessary documents to be obtained, my name will eventually come round for consideration; applications will be dealt with in turn.

Til next time, darling, all my love,

Joan.

July 14, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 46.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

14th July, 1945.

Dearest,

I had hoped for a letter this week, but for the first time for a considerable time I have been disappointed.  Mails have been coming through fairly regularly recently.

However, I did hear from the American Embassy again.  I received detailed instructions regarding all the necessary pro-cedure to obtain a visa to enter the United States, and also instructions to my “sponsor” regarding the Affidavit, and form of Affidavit in duplicate to be completed by you.

Briefly, the procedure is as follows.  A form of affidavit has to  be completed by you, and returned to me, and I turn submit it to the American Embassy.  If it is approved I should obtain a letter on Form 4 (whatever that is!), upon receipt of which I can go to a Shipping Company and arrange transport.  This, for fiancées, is not arranged by the military or naval authorities, as in the case of wives, so I should imagine the transportation situation would be easier.

Then having obtained a letter from shipping company, and a rail ticket from port of arrival to final destination, I can apply at the British Embassy for Exit Permit and passport. (Here it is noted that it is the general policy of the British Embassy only to issue Exit permits when the fiancé of the proposed immigrant is actually in the States)  So that it would be almost impossible for me to enter the U.S. while you were waging war in the Pacific; consequently, I suppose I had better retain the affidavit forms for a while.

To return to this complicated procedure, when an Exit permit and passport has been obtained from the British Embassy one may make an appointment to attend at the American Embassy with an assortment of  documents, which includes letter of appointment, letter from Shipping Company, 2 certified copies of Birth certificate, three photographs, Exit permit and passport.  Then the applicant is medically examined and if everything is in order a visa will be issued.  The visa is then valid for 4 months.

Perhaps you will let me know what you think about this; and whether you consider I should keep the affidavit forms until you return to the U.S.  Also, in addition to a lot of other information, you are required to solemnly declare that you will marry the girl immediately on her arrival.

To get back to the topic of the weather, it’s been most erratic.  Sometimes very hot, but wet and thundery too.

I was rather upset this week when a great friend of mine lost her baby soon after it was born.  I know how much she looked forward to it’s arrival, and I can feel how terribly disappointed she must be.  It’s strange, but so often the nicest people have the most suffering and disappointment to bear – it’s not a fair world.

Moreen and I have been quite domesticated this week.  Her mother has a split cartilage in her knee, and her doctor insists on absolute rest so she has had to go to bed.  Consequently we have had a free hand in the kitchen, which was fun.  Tonight I am going to a Musical Concert with the girls at work – I’m not terribly musical, but it should be enjoyable.

Til next time, my darling,

love

Joan.

July 15, 1945

15 July 1945

My Darling.:

After many miles of travel and many hours of riding trains, we are back in Louisiana.  The past two weeks have been rather a trial, but still a lot of fun.  For the next few days we will be hearing all of the tales of all of the fellows from all of the states of the union.

The big news that greeted us here is that we will not be mooving as soon as we expected to.  There is now a chance that we will stay here for six weeks or two months more.  If we stay here through August we will either melt or just waste away from the heat.

At Arroyo Grande the weather was almost perfect . . cool enough but still warm enough.  It was half way across Texas that we became uncomfortable.

Once upon a time you mentioned wearing my ring . . Perhaps something can be done about that . . while I was in Los Angeles I visited one of the many Jewelry houses with the idea of finding some thing that you could wear . . since I was not sure about the size of your finger, the ring may be wrong . . however altering the size will be fairly easy and there should be no reason for not fitting it to the finger that will wear if for some time.  It will take some time for the post to get it through to you.

Perhaps I should have been a little faster in getting it started, but I wanted to go to Los Angeles; all of the other places are not supplied so well as the Los Angeles houses.

Well the fellows are all around and all talking so it is difficult to keep things streight and not write what they are saying.

Untill next time,

love
Harold

July 20, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 47.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

20th July, 1945.

Darling,

I expected your letter this week to arrive from California, as it did, and of course I missed last week’s letter.   But the memory of you was very close to me, and I knew you had not forgotten.  I had only to close my eyes and I could see you so clearly that it might have been only last week we said ‘so long,’ and not almost a year ago.

From your letter I gathered you would not be returning to Lake Charles before setting off for the next theater of operations, so I hope my letters there will be forwarded on to you with the least delay.  Until, I get a new address, however, I’ll continue to write to Louisiana.

I am glad so many of the family managed to be at Arroyo Grande – wish I could have been there too, guess you had a wonderful time.  Did the family pass any comments on our plans?  You did not say how long a furlough you had.

Things are very quiet here.  After being “in the war” for 5 1/2 years, this period is more irksome, because we have all the restrictions of war without the dangers of it.  I understand a little how the people in the U.S. must have been feeling; there’s so little one can do.

It surely can’t take more than a year to defeat the Japs, and by next summer you should be back in the States again.  Then we shall be able to make progress with our plans, for as I mentioned in my letter last week I now have the affidavit forms for completion.

The clocks have been put back an hour again, to normal British summer time, so that we are now once again 5 hours ahead of New York.  Last week it was light ’til 11 pm, but now it’s 10 o’clock – the evenings are getting short for playing tennis, even if the weather were suitable, which it is not.

Last Saturday after I had written to you, I went with the girls to a Musical Concert given by the local Musical Association, which was really quite good.  I stayed  with Moreen overnight, when we had the most marvelous “pre-war” thunderstorm.  It was a most impressive sight, and those who could remember said we hadn’t had a similar storm for a great many years. I was amused by Kath’s story (from the farm) where she said her father had kept a bottle of whiskey for use during air raids, but it took a thunderstorm to bring it out!

Since then the weather has been unsettled – cooler, cloudy and windy.  What a climate!

On Wednesday Moreen and I went to see Charles Laughton in “The Barretts of Wimple Street” at the Regent.  It is of course an old film, but we had not seen it before, and we enjoyed it very much.  Also in the program was a technicolor effort “Memphis Belle”, the story of a Fort on a bombing mission over Germany.  Rather too realistic for pleasure, certainly  wasn’t a “milk run”, but the familiar flying terms reminded me of you and that was pleasant.

Darling, I wish I could convey to you how much I still think of you and miss you – though the time we spent together was so brief in comparison with the long months that follow.  You seem so much a part of my life now, and all my future hopes and plans are based around you, I can’t imagine it any other way.

Until next time, with my love,

Yours always,

Joan.

July 22, 1945

22 July 1945

Dearest Joan:-

Another week has slipped into the past, and we are a week nearer to the day when we will be together again.  The feeling of optomism grows stronger each time the news brings new developments from the Pacific.

You asked me to give you an idea of the life you will lead in California. . . That depends to a large extent upon what you want to do . . by that I mean, it is possible to pick the kind of life you want.  You can be very active in local political, social, or church activity groups or any combination of them, or if you wish you can be a quiet “home body”.  There are several groups that overlap in their activities and interests.  For a few very energetic people there is a different activity each afternoon and at least one or two evening functions each week.  They are all entirely voluntary and equally open to anyone on their own merit or their desire to enter the activity.  There is no demand made upon any one simply because she is the wife of a man in a certain job.  Partisipation is limited only by ones ability to get on with one’s fellow members.

There are a few exceptions, such as the auxillary of the vetrans organization, which requires a husband who is a “Legionair”; or one or two others that are “Auxillaries” or strictly organizations of wives of members of a “Fraternal order”.

A typical schedual might run, with two organizations to sponsor functions, one afternoon each week for two hours or more . . one evening a month three to five hours . . . The afternoon sessions usually an all “female” affair and the monthly social affair in the evening a husband & wife combination.

In addition to the group activities there is always the chance that a husband may drag his wife off to a “movie” or a Saturday night dance or a Sunday afternoon drive into the hills or to the ocean.  With also the possibility of the wife doing the “dragging”.

The over-all picture that I wish to convey is that in America you usually do what ever you want to do, so long as you don’t kill your self trying to do it or go beyond your ability to “get on” with your fellows – – and provided you can afford the time and money necessary.

With regard to Arcata’s location . . it is about 4 miles from the ocean and about 3 miles from the river.  The most popular beaches are with in ten or fifteen miles, with most any thing that you might wish within an hours drive by car.  It will take years to see all of the things that I like well enough to want to show you, then we will be able to start at the beginning and see them all again, just for the fun of seeing them – – like all things in nature the beauties of our hills and streams and trees change from year to year, yet they are always the same in their beauty.

When I read your letters I often wonder what there is about the few scribbled lines that I send to you that makes you write those wonderful, cheery-serious, letters, that are pages and pages of what I love to read – they are just so much a part of you that the only thing that will make up for their failure to come when we are together again – will be the fact that you will be here in person to keep me busy, loving you.

There is still no indication of when we will leave Lake Charles for the journey to the Pacific, but we all hope it will be soon – – we are ready and grow more eager each day to be at the job we have been set to do . . For me it is even more hopeful than before, for this time we will finish it all and have done with it.

Untill next time;

love
Harold

July 26, 1945

26 July 1945

My Darling, Joan:-

A few minutes ago I recieved you letter of 16 July.  It came just when I was thinking of you so strongly that I felt that I should write to you . . then your letter came.

Since you have some questions to be answered and I frequently forget to answer questions if I wait ’till Sunday to write, I’ll do that now and be sure that they are answered.

Since I will be leaving for the Pacific most any time and there is a chance that your application may be refused if I am not in the States when I file the affidavit, perhaps it would be better if you did wait untill we are sure of my position when you get the necessary documents to arrange your journey.  Much as I hate to do any thing to delay your arrival, it probably will be better to do every thing just the way they ask rather than trying to get in a hurry.

I have rather hezitated to mention it before, but, in as much as you will be required to spend a large part of your savings for transport; since I have a certain amount of money put away for the purpose of getting you to Arcata, it might be well if I sent you a part of it so that you will be able to meet the requirements of the Embasy, etc.

Right now I have to dash off to school – – I’ll see you in a couple of hours.

H

Hello, Did you miss me?  I sure did miss you.  We just wasted a couple more hours to keep us out of mischief.  The last hour was just looking at pictures that we had seen before.

Well why should we complain we are getting paid for it.

Today our news service carried the report of your General Election . . I don’t know what your views on the subject are, but I think that in view of the fact that Mr. Truman is far more liberal than Mr. Roosevelt was it will be better for Anglo-American cooperation to have a liberal labor government in England. . The sweeping changes that will make the adjustment of “after the war repairs” so much easier, will come now so much easier than with a Conservative government.  At least that is the general impression that the people in America have gathered from the reports of our comentators.

Well, untill next time,

Goodbye, my Darling

love
Harold

July 27, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 48.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

27th July, 1945.

My darling,

This week as I write we are still breathless at the amazing results of our General Election announced yesterday; it was far greater than we had anticipated, and the great majority with which the Labour Party was returned shows it was no half-hearted Election but a very definite change over to Left Wing Politics.  It’s amazing how the people have come to think for themselves, and were able to see further than the Tory propaganda cry “Support Churchill – vote for his Party”.  Pre-election forecasts gave no indication of public opinion, and the results have created great surprise everywhere.  Never before has the Labour Party been returned with a working majority, and at last they will have a chance to tackle things without Tory interference.  I wonder what America’s reaction to our change in Politics will be?

Forgive me if I appear to be too heated on this subject – but it’s more thrilling than VE day.  I’m not usually “excitable” but I am really thrilled that after all the mud-slinging the Conservative candidates indulged in, we were yet able to produce a Labour Government.  Your politics are so different to ours, that maybe you won’t understand my ravings – please forgive me.

To turn to lighter things, dearest.  Since I wrote last Friday I have had two letters from Lake Charles.  The postal service is certainly looking up, for today I received your letter postmarked 23rd – which was Monday.  The mail service between our two countries is as good as that between England and Scotland last July.  Do you remember writing to me from Scotland, and your letter  not arriving until after you returned in time for the Camp party?

In your letter last week you mentioned visiting Los Angeles in search of a ring; it’s a very sweet idea, and rather unexpected, but as soon as it arrives I will let you know.  I appreciated the “bigger, better and more beautiful” cutting; can’t really see darling , why you should import a wife to a place like that, but still she’ll be very thrilled to come.

A friend of mine in the Fire Service here married a G.I. who was stationed at Dunmow, and he has now returned to the U.S. for demob.  I called on her last night and she is going ahead with plans for her trip to Minnesota to join him.

I probably mentioned that Moreen’s husband was going out to the Far East too; he volunteered for Burma as he was tired of doing nothing in France, and Moreen’s mad at him for volunteering.  Still, men are mostly crazy and it’s not much use getting mad at them, is it?

I’ll be staying at Moreen’s most of next week, as the family will be away.  My father and brother are setting off on a cycling tour tomorrow – weather permitting, and mother will go down to Sussex on Monday.

Our erratic weather has broken again, and its real cold for July.  Is it still as hot at Lake Charles? – but I guess it will still be hot in the Pacific, so you’ll have to get used to it.

I’m so glad you appreciate my poor literary efforts – I often wonder if they are worth posting, for to me they make very poor reading.  But somehow our letters do keep us closer together – yours mean a great deal to me.  Maybe we should continue to write each week when we are eventually living together – would be a novelty!

Until next time, my darling,

Love,
Joan.

July 29, 1945

29 July 1945

Dearest Joan:-

I have been sitting here by the “runway” rereading some of your letters that are still in the box with the materials for letters to you.

They are so much like I remember you from last summer.  The letters say so much more in each sentance than most people say in a dozen pages.  Each one I read reminds me of the night we were cycling toward Sawbridgeworth for the first time.  I had asked you a dozen or more questions and recieved rather brief answers and I probably talked a hundred times as much as you had when suddenly almost as though it were in desperation to stop the continued questions . . you gave, almost in one breath, a summary of all of the things I had been asking about; then just as tersly you asked if there was any thing else I wanted to know.  At the time I didn’t know you well enough to tell whether you were “put out” at me for being so nosey or if that were just your way of speaking.

Perhaps that is one of the things that will always keep me interested in my job as a husband.  There will never be a complete sureness that I know just what to expect from you; there will always be the independance, the assurance that is a part of you.  Most every one that I have known was an easy task to analyze and predict their reactions . – With you I have never been quite sure what was going to come next.  That could have been a factor to cause me to dislike you except that whatever you said or whatever you did in reaction to my attempts at conversation, was so far above expectations that I was continually at my wit’s end to know what to expect next. . It is not the uncertainty of the details that is so important, but the certainty that the pattern will be always good that I have learned and which is the basis for love.  Upon such a firm foundation our love can grow to be something truely wonderful.

You will probably find that letters from me will say things that I am too bashful to say to any one in broad day light, however they are just as sincerely meant as though they were sworn to in affadavit.

Your ring which I thought would be half way to you by now came back to me . . some postal regulation or other . . I will rewrap it and try to meet their requirements this time perhaps you will get some day if I get all of the regulations right this time . . I will try to send it by air so that there will be less delay.

Some of the last of our “Invaders” are coming in now and soon my duty here at the “Runway” will be finished.  Without this letter to write or something to read this would be a very boreing place, indeed.  There is nothing to do but sit here with a “flare pistol beside me to be used if some pilot comes in with his wheels retracted.  There has been very few, if any, such events in the months that I have been on this field but some one thinks there should be some one out here to prevent such a thing from happening.

Well, Dear one untill next time; We can be together in our dreams and our love will keep us close.

love,
Harold

August 3, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 49.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

3rd August, 1945.

Sweetheart,

When I arrived home this morning, amongst a litter of daily newspapers and postcards lying on the mat there was a very welcome letter from Lake Charles.  No-one has been home since Monday so I can’t tell which day it arrived.

Since last weekend all the folks have been away and I have been staying in Bishop’s Stortford with Moreen; as I didn’t expect any mail until  the end of the week this is my first visit home.  My second week’s vacation starts today so I came home to do the shopping and give the house a “lived-in” atmosphere before the others arrive back.  Mother will be away most of next week, so I’m going to be able to get in a little practice on my unfortunate father and brother.

I’ve been messing around in the kitchen most of the morning, but I guess cooking for two would be more fun.  I can amuse myself for hours so long as no-one bothers me.

First of all to answer your letter; although I would very much like to go further with my visa application, the way things are right now it would probably be wiser to wait.  When you return to the States I will send you all the necessary papers for completion, and by then perhaps the transport situation will have eased.

Your rather hesitant suggestion about the cost of my journey to join you is fully understood and appreciated; when I come out to the States I shall only be allowed to bring £10 in English currency, which means that somehow or other I shall have to have the remainder of my money transferred to an American Bank.

I’m not quite sure how it is done, as at present most of my money is in the Post Office Bank, who do not carry out transactions of this sort, and I shall have to open an account with one of the Banks that do.  But in any case I have sufficient here  to buy my ticket through to California – would you prefer to retain the money in the U.S. on my behalf?  I leave it to you, darling.

I was pleased to note that our new Labor government is viewed with favour in the States; you will already have received my letter following the results of the Election and you know my opinion.  As far as I can see, it will make for better co-operation between the Three powers; this country has been ruled by the aristocracy far too long, and this sweeping  change is in the nature of a revolution.

I have been staying with Moreen since Monday, when we went down to the Tennis Club for a game of tennis.  It begins to get dark rather early now, so we weren’t able to play very long.  Then on Tuesday, as the weather was cold and dreary we went to the show; the film was Noel Coward’s “Blithe Spirit”, and though rather exaggerated, was very amusing.  Last evening was fine so we cycled out to Takely Forest – it’s a ride that brings you very close, for to get there we have to pass the spot where we said goodbye.

I do wish you were here now.  It seems as though I only had to think hard enough about you to make you materialize here beside me; whereas all it does is to conjure up a picture of you, which is very delightful, but not really satisfactory.  But if anything, I think maybe I feel nearer to you in spirit than I did a year ago, because we’ve got to know one another better.  A year ago we were really only just beginning to get acquainted.  This year I am happily settled in the knowledge that it is only a question of time before we are together again, and embarking on a life partnership which should bring us so much happiness.

I have been rather disturbed at Moreen’s indifference to her husband.  It was unfortunate that they married in such haste; but now he is bound for Burma I think she is beginning to realise that she may not see him for quite some time and that she is fonder of him than she thought.  Being an only child, it’s going to take her some little time to appreciate that she has to adjust herself to a husband.

As I write to you this afternoon, I am lying out on our “pocket-handkerchief” of a lawn, in the sunshine of one of England’s rare and unexpected summer days.  It’s pleasantly hot and I have a fancy to go swimming.  Alternatively I have an urge to be lazy, and I guess the latter urge will win.   I had thought it extravagant to make tea when I’m all alone, but the English in me won, and by my side is a tea-tray.  I’m afraid it’s an English trait I’ll never lose.  But the best cup of tea is the very first one before breakfast!

Talking of personal habits and idiosyncrasies, I wonder if you read in bed?  I’ve discovered, to my surprise, that quite a number of people do.  Moreen will lay for an hour or more with a book, even reading out loud, if I’ll let her!

Did you ever hear any more from Tommie?  I wrote to them last week, so I hope I get a reply telling me what they are doing.  He promised me a picture of the baby, but I’ve never heard any more.

By a recent mail I also had a letter from an American girl with whom I correspond.  She is the sister of one of the boys I met out here, and lives in South Carolina.  She seems an awfully nice girl, writes me nice letters – is married and has two children.  I’d surely like to pay her a visit when I arrive “home”, but I’ve got so many people to see.  If I ever got down to Miami to see my Uncle, maybe I could call in and see Beulah.  I already feel I’ve got a number of friends in the States, scattered all over though they may be.

This week Beulah tells me the American girls will not be wearing hose until the fall – that’s fine, fits in with my ideas perfectly.

I suppose darling that’s enough drivel for one week, if you’ve managed to read this far.  So ’til next time, don’t ever change-

All my love,

Joan.

Also, tucked inside this envelope is a small scrap of paper on which is typed:
The word “gotten” is as English as Edward IV, who used it.  Absolutely English and “pinched” by the Yanks.
We speak of be-gotten or ill-gotten gains.  The word was English in the year 1340.

August 7, 1945

7 Aug. 1945

Dearest Joan:-

This time I am a little late getting this letter written.  Sunday the rumors were so thick that they filled the entire atmosphere of this place.  They varried only in destination and time – but were all concerned with our departure from Lake Charles . . They were so convincing that I almost believed that we would be able to pack our bags and move out.  Partly to await any chance of our status and partly because I was just lazy I put off writing untill today.  At the present moment we have seen two groups of fellows depart for two different places – – the first to go went to California for shipping to the Pacific – – the others were just starting training and they went to Florida to continue their training.

I have made some comments on your Election before but since you have expressed your views perhaps I can enlarge upon my previous statements.  You said that our politics were so different . . . They are really very similar if you look at them carefully.  The chief difference is that we elect a group to Congress and a president to go with them then we are stuck with them for four years and they are stuck with the job . . I think that the situation between our two governments will not change greatly, because we went into the war with a very liberal government that has just been rejuvinated by a change . . we will be just as pleased with our new government as you are with yours.  I hope you won’t misunderstand my meaning – – but I think that the modernizing effect of this new Labor government will be just the thing to bring England up to date with most of the rest of Europe.

Your mention of Moreen’s husband reminds me that I have been intending to ask you more about the fate of the old group.  You said that the Squadron was being broken up . . at the time thought perhaps it was for redeployment and that all of the fellows would be coming back through the states for more training before going on to the Pacific . . I had even visioned pulling some strings to be permitted to rejoin the group . . but I have heard nothing from them, except through you, since last November.

While we are on the subject of old acquaintance I might mention that Tommie never answered my letters – – I have wondered if he had written to you.  One of the possible destinations for the fellows here is Massachusetts so if we do go up there there may be a possibility of seeing him again.

Here at Lake Charles we will willingly trade you some heat for some of your cold . . it seems to get hotter each day and there is no cooling at night.  The days have been getting a little shorter so perhaps the nights will get cooler in a few more weeks.  By that time I suppose there will be some cold days with nasty disagreeable weather so that we won’t appreciate them so much.

In as much as the fellows are beginning to drift back from their “trainer schedual” and the air is getting thick with conversation.  Some of the fellows or shouting at me to get ready to go to the gymnasium for a game of some sort. – so – – what am I to do – – impose my own desires over the mob – or shall I go with them? – So, before I am torn limb from limb I shall go under my own power.

Untill next time, my Darling

love
Harold

August 11, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Rd.
Letter no. 50.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

11th August, 1945

My own darling,

Events this week have brought us much nearer to our re-union; although the war still seems to be continuing, in view of the use of the atomic bomb and the advent of Russia into the war one cannot help but be optimistic about the speedy conclusion of hostilities.  I was in London yesterday when the news of Tokyo’s offer of surrender came through, and I believe the West End crowds did a little premature celebrating.  At any rate crowds of G.I.s, with their girls, swarmed into the tube train at Hyde Park, all looking a little inebriated, at the early hour of seven in the evening.

I went down to spend the day with my grandmother and to travel back through London with my mother.  Now we are all back at home once more; my father and brother look extremely brown and well after their cycling tour of the East coast.  Rather an energetic way to spend a holiday but they seemed to enjoy it.

Last weekend when I wrote it promised to be a week of glorious sunshine but it only lasted three days, during which time I managed several swims.  We went over to the pool at Latton where we swam last year.

This brief spell of sunshine was followed by a cold, dismal week of cloud and rain.  I’ve seen a couple of shows but apart from that haven’t done anything much.

Last week I had your letter giving your impression of me, and I’ll confess it didn’t seem particularly familiar; I began to wonder if you had formed a very accurate picture of me, and whether you would be rather disillusioned when we meet.  I hadn’t realised I was so – well, almost curt in my responses at your attempt at conversation!  I cannot remember now the details of our conversation that first night you cycled to Sawbridgeworth with me – I believe some of it was over your interest in our education, and quite probably my “brief summary” was to cover up my ignorance on the details of the subject.  But it’s probably my habit to waste as few words as possible, partly the result of précis work, and a training in commercial correspondence.

I’m not quite sure, talking of education, how I shall compare with your American standards; did I ever tell you much about it?  I had a reasonably good education according to English standards, but there is still a good deal of progress to be made in this direction after the war.

At five I went to the local Elementary School (the village school), and being one of the brighter pupils at eleven I took and passed a scholarship to the High School in Bishop’s Stortford.  Here we took a more extended curriculum, which led eventually to the School Certificate, or school-leaving exam.  The subjects for this included Maths (Arithmetic, Algebra, Geometry, Trigonometry) English, French, Geography, History, Biology.  I had to give up Latin – it was the one subject I ever failed on!

Improvements could have been made at our school to extend the curriculum further, and include domestic science and business training as further subjects.  Some of these types of schools do, but ours unfortunately specialised in a “classical” education, and entries to the Universities.

Apart from the School Cert. subjects I took Art and Needlework, and part of our time was taken up by games and gym.  When I got to sixteen I took my School Cert. exam, which I passed quite easily with Credits in all six subjects I took, which entitled me to a Matriculation exemption.  I don’t quite know what your equivalent of Matric. is, but I suppose you have some idea.

After that I had six months at Pitman’s Business training college where I took Shorthand, typing and commerce, including commercial correspondence.  I believe you once told me you learnt Gregg shorthand?

Apart from High schools and Grammar schools which are in the same category, there are of course the Public schools, which are far from “Public”, being terribly exclusive.  For places like Eton and Harrow one’s name has to be down almost from birth, I believe.  The Universities of course provide the highest standard of education..

Some time you must tell me all about your school and the kids you teach.  I think you said there were two grades you taught, 8-9, and something a bit older. 12-13, or something like that.  By the way darling, what do you teach them?

There’s one thing I would like you to do sometime.  As the time draws nearer when we may begin to put our plans into operation I would like you to write briefly to my mother and father, outlining our intentions and hoping we have their blessing.  I’m over age so of course their permission is not necessary, but I know they would appreciate a letter from you, as their future son-in-law.  If we had a daughter going 6,000 miles to marry a man we knew but vaguely, I guess we’d know how they would feel; my happiness is their main concern I know, but if you could assure them that you’ll take good care of me I think they would appreciate that.  They like you very much, fortunately.

I’ve missed my letter from you this week, my dearest, but maybe the posts are delayed.  If however you have commenced your journey, I hope your stay in the Pacific will be brief; my prayers are with you continually, so ’til next time,

All my love,

Joan.

August 12, 1945

12 Aug. 1945

Dearest Joan:-

Some rather significant developments have come in the past week.  Right now we are waiting for further anouncements.  A few days ago it seemed almost impossible that there would be an end to this war for months to come.  Now we expect to hear in hours that the war is ended.

Last time you said that I was pesemistic.  This time I will be more optamistic . . . You were going to save the afadavit untill I returned to the states. . . lets take a chance and start our proceedings as soon as possible, so that if every thing works out well we will gain a few days or weeks.

Perhaps by the time this letter reaches you more complete information will be available.  We can’t get any other news and no one seems interested in any thing else.  Since that is the case here we have no way of knowing whether we will stay here or whether we will go to California.  I hope you will understand how we are feeling here now, because by the time you recieve this letter there may be a very different story to tell.

I would like to know how England is progressing with the job of “re-conversion” and how the new Labor government is getting on with the rest of Parliment.

Some times I think things will be better than ever and other times I think the world is in pretty sad condition.

Well, Good night, my Darling

untill next time

love
Harold

August 19, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 51.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

19th August, 1945.

My darling,

After several days of wondering and waiting it was a great relief to hear our Prime Minister’s announcement, broadcast by the B.B.C.  at twelve midnight last Wednesday and to know that so many lives would be saved by the Japanese agreement to our surrender terms; my thoughts were more than ever with you at that time, for all this brings the ultimate realisation of our dreams so much nearer than we had ever thought possible.  Sooner now than we had hoped we will be able to go ahead with our plans for me to join you.  Cést “après la guerre” now, darling.

It does seem as though our countries were unprepared for such a speedy victory in the Far East, and consequently their plans for the switch over from war to peace production will have to be speeded up accordingly.  We understand that various controls have already been lifted in the U.S.; I’m glad they are not doing that here yet, for I imagine it would be rather chaotic.  For us, the end of the war will only mean very gradual changes.

But I do hope the transport situation improves now.  When you can give me some idea of your future plans I can let you have the forms of affidavit, as my first step is to have your affidavit approved.

I had intended going to Church this morning but as it rained I decided to write to you instead, and maybe go to the Evening service later.  Today is a national day of prayer.

Last week I was alternatively busy and slack.  The first two days at the office were hectic, for after the Works closing for their annual holiday, piles of work had accumulated in our absence.  Then of course, Wednesday and Thursday were declared public holidays, and we returned to the office to work furiously for another day and a half!

I considered going to London on VJ day, but afterwards when I heard reports from some of those who went, I was rather glad I stayed down here.  Kathleen and I went over to Bishop’s , and after going to the show (Humphrey Bogart and Lauren Bacall in “To Have and Have Not”,) we went down to the Park where as before, there was dancing, with a bonfire and fireworks, and behind the park was a fair with swings and roundabouts, and everything, so we stayed down there for a while.  I am afraid I couldn’t quite appreciate the “hooliganism” – perhaps I needed you to share it with; my feeling was one of great relief, and my first reaction after several days of tension was a sudden flood of thankful tears.

Yesterday mother and I took a train ride to Broxbourne (about 20 mins ride towards London) and after wandering around the shops had tea in a “Tudor Café” and afterwards went to the show there.  The film was Hollywood Canteen – have you seen it?  Dad and Tony were playing in the Sawbridgeworth Silver Band at a fête in Sawbridgeworth, where they tell us they gave a very good performance, though to a very small audience.

Last Sunday I went over to Moreen’s and who do you think came in?  It was the little Corporal Wojuick, a friend of Roland’s, with whom I had to break that date, exactly a year ago today.  He’s gone back to Minden, Germany, as he is lucky enough to be in the European Occupation army.  Well, of course, we had to go down to the Red Cross Club, as it was their very last dance; the Club closed on Tuesday.  Moreen says Roland expects to get some more leave to England before shipping out;  I guess he’ll go back to the States now, and she’ll be making plans to join him.

There’s really nothing more to tell you at the moment; I’m waiting on a letter from you, but the holidays last week rather upset the mails, and they seem to be delayed. So ’til next time, all my love, darling,

Yours,

Joan.

August 21, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 52.                                                                                                 Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.
England

21st August, 1945.

My dearest Harold,

I don’t need telling twice, so after receiving your letter last evening I decided to send off the affidavit forms straight away.  So here they are, and the instructions I had from the Embassy are –

‘If your fiancé is a member of the American Armed Services, an affidavit from him may be prepared in accordance with the attached blank form of affidavit and corroborated by his commanding officer or by an officer who is custodian of his service record.  If your fiancé is not a member of the Armed Services, an affidavit from him may be prepared in accordance with the enclosed Leaflet B and corroborated by letters from employers, bankers, or other responsible third parties.’

So I hope it is quite clear what you have to do.  Not knowing when you are likely to be demobbed I suppose you will have to complete the enclosed blank forms.  Otherwise an affidavit should be prepared as described in Leaflet B.

You will now have a better idea what your plans will be, in view of developments last week.  It did not seem possible the war could end so soon, did it?  Of course, things will take time to get straight again.

I am terribly busy at the moment so can hardly call this a letter, but I wanted to get the forms off to you as soon as possible.

I’ll be seeing you,

All my love,

Joan.

 

(enclosed in this letter was Leaflet B)

August 26, 1945

26 Aug 1945

My Darling:-

Today is a glorious sun shiney day that reminds me of the August afternoon a year ago that we swam and had a chance to draw closer together and become better acquainted with each other.

I’m affraid that most our conversations consisted mostly of boasting about California, and a great deal of “blowing my own horn”, however I think I managed to learn a few things about you mixed with my boasting.  You seem to have the idea that I will return to “school teaching” immediately upon my return to civilian life . . after more that three years in Service . . possibly four before my return – – I will not be competent to teach without a year at the university to “brush up”.  At the same time . . I’m not sure that I want to teach . . . especially not the grades that I taught before . . . If after becoming adjusted I am able to prepare myself for the position, I may teach some high school classes in math . . .and aeronautics.  I must confess that at the moment I am not sure what I will want to do or will be able to do . . . I had one year in automotive service and maintainence that was rather successful and my farmer employer wants me to come back to the job . . Also  the lumber industry will be busy for some time after the war – – – Rather vaguely in the back of my mind I thought that one of the jobs would see me through readjustment and possibly the year at the university, if I choose to go, . – You see, Darling, . . I am not at all decided upon what I will do . . Perhaps I will do better to earn my living by hard work and use my ability to teach for a hobby and a civic benefit . . . I am not half as ambitious as I was when I started to college nine years ago . . . a great many of my decisions will be much easier after I have you with me so that I can have your opinion on what you like and what you dislike . . We are entering into a partnership and since you are coming 6000 miles from your home – – you should have some thing to say about some of the other things that go into making up our lives.

I think I was able to get a good idea of your educational back ground in the questioning session that first night.  I was interested in the English School System but I used it as a devise to find out about your own schooling.  I had judged that your education was more or less “classical” and that your “business college” training was quite different from the classical curriculum of the High school . . . Your Education is about equivalent to the average American Education except in the field of domestic science; and possibly chemistry, and physics (the pure sciences) . . . You can rest assured that if you survive a few years in America that you will learn the mechanics of automobiles . . airplanes and some other simple chemistry and physics . . .

Back to my brief teaching experience . . I taught every thing . . arithmetic, history, reading, geography, music . . but none of them well; there in lies one of the chief weaknesses of our school system . . each teacher has to teach so many things that each is left with only partial preparation and inferior presentation.  You can immagine me trying to teach some shy little girl to sing a high note when I could only get to a point two octaves below it.  I tried but was rather unsuccessful in that field and had to trade with a girl who could do it, and I taught her class “reading”.

With regard to writing your parents – – I quite agree with you and so starting now I will work at screwing up my courage to a point where I can sit down and write to them . . that letter will probably follow closely behind the legal documents which will make possible your nagotiations with the embassy . – – It will take that long for me to get up to the task . . . It is a great deal to ask for when I think of it in that sense . . I assure you that no one could try harder to take care of you than I will – – and I think I can summon the simple direct language to assure them of my good intentions.

I doubt if you will have suffered through to this point; but, if you have . . perhaps it will be some small measure of compensation if I remind you . . I love you.

Good night, Darling

love
Harold.

August 27, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter no. 53
Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

27th August, 1945.

Dearest Harold,

I postponed writing to you this week until the sun shone as it’s been a most depressing week all round, and I felt I shouldn’t  write you long, miserable letters, although possibly I should have felt better if I had.

In one recent letter you said you sometimes thought the world was in a sad state, and last week I really felt you were right about that.  To begin with, the weather was cold and dismal – dark, drizzly evenings when the only sensible thing to do seemed to be to settle round a fire with some knitting and the radio, or a book, but that wasn’t practicable because we have to conserve fuel for winter needs and it’s impossible to buy wool even if one could spare the coupons.

In addition the prospect of the coming winter is none too bright.  I could cover pages on food and clothes rationing, but the cuttings shows more or less what I mean.   When milk allowance is 1/3pint per head per day, and butter 2ozs per week, margarine 4ozs and lard 1oz, one can’t be expected to put on a lot of weight!  We have cheerfully borne these shortages for six years, but it’s getting dreadfully monotenous now.  And clothes rationing is a subject to be avoided.

The sudden cessation of Lease-lend will of course, add to our troubles this coming winter although of course people over here do realise it could not continue indefinitely; still, I think the American people can’t understand what it means to us, especially when we hear how America is rapidly reverting to peacetime standards.  The housing problem is acute; and stocks of food and clothes lower than they have been before.  Our new Government certainly has difficult tasks ahead.

Too much about our troubles; did you manage to survive August in Louisiana?  or am I addressing letters to a grease-spot on a steaming sidewalk, somewhere in the Southern States?

I despatched the affidavit forms last week, and hope they reached you safely.  So far there’s no sign of the ring; when did you eventually get it posted?

We are having a few more days of late summer here now; yesterday Kathleen persuaded me to go and watch the N.F.S. play the Sawbridgeworth Cricket XI.  I think cricket is a dull game and awfully boring to watch, but I went along to support the Fire Service; of course, we lost.

On Saturday I was roped in to help with a contest the local silver band organized, and since my brother plays the cornet and dad is Hon. Sec., I went along and cut sandwiches and poured cups of tea.  It was quite fun, and Tony got 2nd prize playing “I’ll walk beside you”.

I’m going to post this on my way to tennis; I’ve agreed to play in a match on Saturday and must have some practice; trouble is to get any decent weather.  Please forgive my moans and groans, darling, but I feel better now.

‘Til next time,

Yours,

Joan.

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September 1, 1945

“Talma”,
Sheering Mill Road,
Letter 54                                                                                                        Sawbridgeworth,
Herts.

1st September, 1945.

My dearest Harold,

It is in a much happier mood that I sit down to write to you this afternoon; on my “third finger, left hand” glitters the ring that is the symbol of the tie that binds us, and I have just received your very welcome letter from Florence.

The ring is lovely, darling – an excellent sample of what California can produce; and you’ll never believe it, but it fits my finger without the slightest alteration.  So of course I wore it straight away much to the delight and envy of my workmates.  In a way, it marks an anniversary for us, because it was a year ago on the 3rd September that we had to make our temporary goodbyes.

I am pleased you are going to write to Mum and dad; don’t let it get you down, there isn’t really much you need to tell them but they will be very pleased to hear from you.  They are very pleased, because I think they consider we are a well-matched couple, and both send their best wishes to you.  I have no doubt they will both write to you when they get your letter.

I hope the affidavit forms I sent will have followed you on to Florence.  What do you consider is the best thing for us to do in our plans for getting me to join you?

If I find that I can book a passage reasonably soon, provided you stay in the U.S., would it be advisable to go ahead with my arrangements, even though you may not be demobbed.   A wife would give you more points, and enable you to get out quicker.

You don’t seem too clear about your own plans yet, but I am wondering if a wife would be an asset or a hindrance.  I would like to come out as soon as ever it was possible to book a passage; I don’t know too much about civilian transportation but I fancy it is better than the military, and it would be reasonable to suppose one might manage a trip next spring or early summer.  If I came over while you were still in the Army I could possibly get a job to occupy my time.

Supposing I arrived before you were demobbed, do you stand a chance of compassionate leave to marry the girl?

If you think all this is too optimistic, don’t hesitate to tell me so.  Perhaps it’s due to a growing impatience to be with you again; I know I’m capable of waiting, but I don’t want to wait any longer than is strictly necessary.

As far as your job goes after the war, it doesn’t really matter what you do so long as you are happy doing it and can spare a little time for your wife at weekends. Lumbering sounds rather fun, but isn’t it a full time job?

Moreen is going ahead now with her arrangements to get to the States, as Roland is on his way home and expects to be out of the Army by the New Year.

Sometimes the past year has seemed to drag, but looking back now it doesn’t seem as long as that since we were last together.  But then, it did not seem possible that in less than a year both wars would be over, and the world would be trying to settle itself down again.

What is it like at Florence, and what are you doing now?  Is it anywhere near Rockhill?

It seemed silly to start a fresh sheet just to ask you that, because I cannot for the moment think of anything I specially want to tell you; except of course, I still love you and seem to miss you more as time goes by.  I’ve heard other girls say that when their men are away the image gets blurred and vague, but to me still the memory of you is so vivid sometimes I could almost picture you were here.

Until next time, darling,

with love,

Joan

P.S.I shouldn’t be surprised if in a year or so you have me saying “Now, in California………”
What do you think?

September 2, 1945

2 Sept. 1945

Dearest Joan:-

After some days of waiting here in South Carolina, your letters were sent on to me from Louisiana.  It is only a thousand miles and required two additional days to get the letters . . The letter with the form for the affadavit arrived very quickly (seven days) even though it did go to Louisiana and return this far. – –

Since we have a holiday this Monday and every thing had to be prepared for the long weekend we have been rushed to get so much of nothing done . . There is quite a hubbub about demobing and every one is hoping that he will be next . . I think that I will probably be in service for several months yet . . But will be able to get leave of absence when you arrive and can meet you at New York – – Boston, or what ever port your ship may enter.  There is only one thing that might stop me from being on hand when you dock . .If I am in the very act of being demobed – – I will have to stay untill they are through with me – – In that case you will have to shift for your self untill such time as I can reach you.  As the time for your arrival draws nearer we will be better able to decide what we can do.  If you arrive some months after I am demobed I hope to be able to hire a private plane and fly to meet you . . . If it is that long before you can arrange transport – – Cable service will be open for civilian messages again and you can notify me of your departure rather quickly.

In the meantime, if there is any thing that I can do to speed you on the voyage . . . tell me and I will do my utmost to accomplish it.

The thought just struck me that this letter will be too heavy to send for the usual fee and the post office may be closed tomorrow . . However, I will get it off as soon as possible and I hope the delay will not be too great.

I hope the instructions for the affadavit have been complied with accurately enough to satisfy the Consul if any further information is needed I will supply it as quickly as possible . . .

untill next time

love
Harold